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Buck’s jaw clenches. “This isn’t you.”
Eddie’s smile turns mean, borderline unrecognizable even to himself. Buck is right, this isn’t him. It doesn’t even sound like his voice. But he’s exhausted. He’s hurt. And he’s done pretending there’s a way out of this that doesn’t involve blood in the water—they’re too far gone for that.
This wasn’t the plan, but he doesn’t pull back from the fight. He doubles down, clinging to the belief that devastation is better than emptiness, that being hated is better than being erased.
“Funny,” Eddie says softly. “Is that what you tell yourself when you fuck anyone who’ll have you? That it doesn’t mean anything? That it’s easier than admitting you’re trying not to think about me?”
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Eddie figures his shit out. Eventually.
An Eddie Diaz character study, if you will.Series
- Part 2 of a coward's first taste of courage
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16 Jan 2026
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“So what’s your real name, then?” Eddie asks, sipping on his own drink—a whiskey he’s swirling around in the glass constantly.
“Evan,” Buck says coyly, quickly adding, “But nobody really calls me that.”
“Evan,” Eddie echoes, the sound dripping off his tongue like thick honey. “I like it.”
It almost makes Buck regret to ever abandon it in the first place, driving a shiver down his spine. Almost.
“And what’s Eddie short for? Eduardo?” he quickly shifts the conversation, stirring his drink and popping another peanut into his mouth. Eddie shakes his head and chuckles.
“Edmundo,” he corrects him, then winks at Buck with a low, “But nobody really calls me that.”or the one where Buck and Eddie have a one-night-stand two days before Eddie starts at the 118.
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09 Jan 2026
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Buck has people who love him, and that’s not going to change, even if Eddie isn’t one of those people anymore.
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01 Oct 2025
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As Eddie pulls into their neighborhood, Christopher breaks the quiet to say, “Hey Dad?”
“Hmm?”
“How come Siena calls Buck your husband?”*~*~*
or, Christopher's instructor from the horse therapy place assumes Buck is Eddie's husband, Eddie doesn't correct her, and when Christopher asks why, it prompts what might be Eddie's most interesting session with Frank yet.
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28 May 2025
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His heart breaking at the thought of Eddie leaving LA Buck turns to Maddie for support. She helps him to see the truth and gives him a little advice along the way but when did Buck ever listen to advice.
So questionable decisions are made that do nobody any good and leave Eddie mad as hell and with no choice but to take matters into his own hands.
Or Eddie leaves then he comes back because when you’re in love with an idiot what choice do you have
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11 May 2025
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“Hey,” Evan said, raising his voice a little to be heard through the open window. “Why don't you send me a letter sometime? A little snail mail. You know my address, yeah?”
Eddie laughed, throwing his head back, and waved him away. Evan would probably never see Eddie again, as much as he wished he would. What were the chances he'd actually write? Evan had been half joking, and no one even sent letters nowadays.
Three weeks later, Evan opened his mailbox. Sitting there, mixed in with the bills and flyers, was a lightly crumpled envelope with an Army Post Office return address.
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- Part 1 of Travelin' solider (come home)
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09 May 2025
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The memories aren’t fully fleshed out, only flashes of places, people, and feelings. Sometimes they’re tangible, so much so he feels like he can reach it within his fingertips and hold them there.
He’d be washing dishes, and he’d feel the phantom arms of Eddie around his waist, the junction of his neck and shoulder feeling warm. For a flash, he’d see a different kitchen than the one he was in. He’d be looking at a menu in a restaurant, and he thinks he’d hear Eddie’s voice asking, ‘You gonna order the usual?’ When he glances down at the table, he’d be surprised he’s not seeing a deep green tablecloth. He’d doze off on the couch and feel his cheek land on Eddie’s chest, arms wrapping around him, and he’d open his eyes to find himself alone.
How do you explain that away? Missing something you can’t fully remember having?
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Or, Evan Buckley wakes up without eight years of his memories with some guy named Eddie Diaz on his bedside. Which could mean nothing.
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04 May 2025
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Eddie Diaz has never really put much stock into the concept of "fate". But after his marriage falls apart, he swears that he's not going to go against the universe again. He's going to find his soulmate. He's going to find Evan.
But then he meets Buck, and all of his careful plans start coming apart at the seams.
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02 May 2025
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Only one person may come.
Only one person will die.
The person who loves her most can choose to give their life for her, or choose to let her die.
If the police are called, she will be killed.
If anyone else finds out, she will be killed.
Only the one who loves her most can take her place.
There were instructions. A place to go, alone.
A very clear stipulation that the location was being watched. That if you were bugged, or tracked, or followed, Maddie would die.
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A serial killer kidnaps Maddie and leaves a note for the person who loves her most to trade places with her. Buck is only too willing to be the one to do it. Split POV Buck and Maddie.
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- Part 1 of The Bravery Game
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21 Apr 2025
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“God, Dad. No.” He huffed in displeasure. “I'm not— It's Buck, Dad.”
Eddie barely ever heard that name anymore, except for an echo in his own head, and he went still, looking down at his phone and then replacing it by his ear.
“What— what about him?” Eddie asked, hoping he sounded less thrown off guard than he felt. Hoping he sounded less breathless through the phone than he did to his own ears.
“I got, um, an invite. To his wedding.”
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A story told across five years. Eddie finds out Buck is marrying someone else and reflects on what brought them to this - and what, if anything, he can do about it.
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21 Apr 2025
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“He baby-trapped you,” the man said with a misplaced confidence that was almost impressive, “that’s fucked up, man.”
Buck blinked. Then blinked again. Then, “Uh... no. No, that’s not—”
“Shut it, Benji, that’s not what happened,” the other robber scowled, no longer trying to pretend he wasn’t eavesdropping. “They’re both dudes. A dude can’t baby-trap another dude.”
“Of course they can. Equal rights and shit! That’s what the parades are for.”
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There's a hostage situation at the bank and Buck is forced to reevaluate his relationship with Eddie (and vice versa).
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29 Mar 2025
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“Yeah,” Eddie says, and the darkness behind his eyelids takes on a white edge. “Be good. Nice to be married,” he yanks on Buck’s t-shirt, “best friend.”
Finally, Buck takes a breath that sounds off somehow, but he laughs too, and that sounds normal, Eddie thinks. A normal laugh.
“Sure, Eds,” he says, and there’s his hand in Eddie’s hair again, a puff of breath on the crown of Eddie’s head like Buck leaned in to press a kiss there and then stopped, but why would he stop—“I’ll marry you if you remind me tomorrow.”
or the one in which joking about being married to your best friend is all fun and games, right up until you realize that you're not laughing.
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24 Mar 2025
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Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.
But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.
Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.
(or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)
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11 Mar 2025
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Eddie falls in love with Evan when he’s nineteen. He falls in love with Buck when he’s twenty-seven.
And he loves him all the years in between.
(or the one where Eddie and Buck meet when they work together on Eddie’s uncle’s ranch, and again when Eddie walks into the 118 eight years later.)
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23 Feb 2025
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Buck can feel the sob Eddie tries to hold back - can hear the whimper that manages to slip past his lips. It tears something open inside of Buck, and it feels like whatever is left of his heart starts leaking into the space between their bodies and staining their chests crimson.
“Tell me you love me,” Eddie begs.
“I love you,” Buck promises.
And he just wishes that it could be enough.
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18 Feb 2025
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They both know this is it. That beyond this barren landscape, whatever they found here will cease to exist.
It was born here and it’ll die here, and Eddie will spend the rest of his life missing it, but he’s not allowed to take it with him. They have to bury it - dig six feet down and submerge it in the sun-scorched earth so she can remember it for them. So she can cradle it and keep it safe, where no one can ever touch it. Where no one can ever taint it.
(Buck and Eddie meet in Afghanistan. It changes everything.)
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17 Feb 2025
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The first time is unexpected but convenient. It's fun. Eddie's still technically married, and they're just learning how to become friends.
The second time is comfortable but exciting. It's warm. They're best friends, and Buck starts to believe they can maybe become something more.
The third time is inevitable but convulsive. It's heartbreaking. They're further apart than they've ever been, but Buck's heart is in it all the way.
(or Buck and Eddie try being friends with benefits three times during the course of their friendship. It works and it doesn't.)
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14 Feb 2025
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“Didn’t know you were seeing someone.”
Buck just laughs. Like, honest to god giggles. Eddie is stuck fighting off doubly massive waves of butterflies and confusion, all while Buck just gazes down at him.
“That’s cute,” he hears Buck mumble, just before climbing into the truck, calling Eddie after him.
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or, everyone knows eddie is dating buck except for eddie, literally.
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22 Jan 2025
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“Well,” Buck says. “I’ve had worst first dates.”
The man looks unimpressed. “We fell fifty feet, got trapped beneath a building, your legs are pinned, and you’re telling me you’ve had worse?”
Buck thinks about this. “Well, Veronica liked the Red Sox.”
or, there’s an earthquake. Buck and Eddie meet trapped together.
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19 Dec 2024
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i love you, ain't that the worst thing you've ever heard? by rarakiplin (gmontys)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
13 Feb 2022
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Buck’s eyes fall shut, something pained and vulnerable sliding into the bend of his eyebrows. “I’m…I’m with Taylor now,” he says, barely a whisper.
And Eddie’s been doing a pretty good job at being brave about all of this, at not flinching away from Buck’s rejection, but that hits and burrows.
“Okay.”
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or, in which eddie's will reveal is a love confession, and buck takes a second to catch up
Series
- Part 2 of we've been lonely too long (prompts)
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30 Nov 2024