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    What does it feel like to be locked away behind a thick wall of anxiety, being unable to breathe or press out a single word? How do you bear to constantly think about failure, humiliation and rejection, for so long that you end up numb?

    You think that everybody can see it, the way you feel, and hold onto the counter until your knuckles turn white and finally, you lift your gaze to see the pink hair, a smile so grateful, and curved lips whispering, “You came.”

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    Takes place a few days after the events of Miracle Queen.
    With Kagami's attempt at a relationship with Adrien not working out as expected, she is left wondering as to whether she should really consider changing targets - problem is, it seems as if she doesn't really have a choice so far. Or at least, Kagami thinks she doesn't have a choice - a certain ladybug-themed heroine's night visit ends up making her rethink certain decisions, especially regarding her choice of target...

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    3/?
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    A collection of letters from Martin during No Man's Land and Ed and Oswald during their ten years of imprisonment.

    This fic directly corresponds to "The Diary of Millie Jane Van Dahl"

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    103/?
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    Rumors. They’re extraordinarily dangerous. Especially when they tell of a prince by the name of Castiel Novak holding a special competition to find a queen. This competition is called the Choosing.

    Fifty girls are selected and brought to the Grand Castle to try to win the affections of the prince. So, when Dean Winchester hears of such a competition, he finds it an utter waste of time.

    But, like all things in his life, there’s a catch. This year, they’ll be allowing both female and male competitors. This throws everyone in the kingdom of Caelum into excited chaos. Well, everyone except for Dean. He still doesn’t want to be a part of an old-fashioned tradition like the Choosing but… Well, the world has a way of throwing him for a loop.

    And Castiel himself has a secret. A dark one that the world is not ready to see. These two starstruck fools find a way to fall in love in the midst of a political game where evil lurks in the shadows.

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    13/13
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    27
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    16
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    Mac and Dennis have been a part of each other's lives for so long and they always find each other in the end.

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    1/6
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    Richie saved Eddie from being killed by It after seeing what could have happened in the Deadlights. Eddie's death wasn't the only thing he saw, though. And now it's starting to take it's toll on him.

    UPDATE: My username has changed to align with my other social media accounts, but this is still the same story as previously published under “wombaton.”

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    Chapters:
    10/20
    Comments:
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    81
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    Sometimes, Richie just needs to get out of Derry for a bit. Eddie always tags along.

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    “When was your first day?” He asks, unsure if that is an appropriate question to ask. Several moments slide by before Richie moves to take his glasses off and set them on his nightstand. He closes his eyes once they are off like there's no point in trying to see anything without them.

    “Fourth grade,” Richie answers quietly.

    “Fourth grade?” Eddie repeats incredulously, amazed that anyone could send their kid off to boarding school so young. For a moment, he tries to imagine what little 9-year-old Richie would look like, tiny suitcase in hand as he waved goodbye to his parents. Maybe he even cried after lights out. Eddie frowns against his pillow.

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    8/?
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    "i just wanted to be clear, i'm gay, like.." he paused, "super gay" he said in an over exaggerated voice, and just that simple gesture made tj let go of the breathe he didn't even know he was holding and a smile had spread across his face, he giggled, cyrus goodman made tj kippen giggle, thelonious jagger kippen giggles? since when? "and i just want to know if we're on the same page about our" he paused, not 100% sure if he was going to get the reaction he so desperately wanted, "...relationship" he said it quieter then the rest of that sentence, he didn't know if he wanted tjs answer.

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    Logan is spending lunch in the library. Logan always spends lunch in the library. One good thing about college, Logan thinks, is that no one notices that he always spends lunch in the library and tries to ask him awkward questions.

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    4/?
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    5
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    Yoongi n'a plus d'inspiration pour son pour prochain album. Taehyung peine à gravir les échelons de la célébrités. Leur monde rentre en collision et une seule et même question revient : "Who the hell is Agust D?"

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    2/10
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    The bouncer manhandles Billy out the bar doors and into the slap of cold nighttime. It was a good fight. Always good when he can fight back.

    He’s still high on it when he walks into the convenience store for a pack of smokes, licking the slow ooze of blood off his split lower lip. That’s probably why he doesn’t notice Harrington one aisle over; why he near runs into him as he rounds a corner.

    And honestly, he didn’t expect to be the one to jump when they met up again.

    For a moment, Harrington’s eye that’s not a swollen mess is big and round and white around the brown iris and his pink lips part like he’s about to say something, start something. But he doesn’t. So Billy has to.

    That's how it works.

     

    Or: Forget summer, Season 3 starts when the fight at Byers house ends, fresh bruises and all, no break, and with new monsters, like 110% more Billy falling for Steve and 1645% less throwing away his character arc.

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    24/?
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    "Intimacy cannot be labelled, it's just truth between two people." – James (PJ) Ransone

    After the death of his mother and a failed engagement, Eddie moves to New York to start fresh and break free from the shadow of his past. His friends help him on the road to recovery, but as Eddie’s thirtieth birthday approaches, he starts to worry about all the things he missed out on. That’s when Eddie meets Richie Tozier, a wild card who seems to be everything that Eddie isn’t.

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    Amarse a uno mismo no siempre es fácil. No, cuando todo el mundo te hace creer que no vales nada, ni cuanto te presionan para seguir un camino establecido.
    Hay veces que no puedes hacerlo solo Hay veces que necesitas a alguien que te ayude. Alguien que te recuerde lo mucho que vales, lo precioso que eres, un alma pura que te susurre al oído un «te quiero».
    Amarse a uno mismo no es un camino de rosas, pero puedes conseguirlo con las herramientas adecuadas.
    Lo importante es no rendirse y atesorar los momentos importantes que nos llegan al corazón.

    O cómo NamJoon aprendió a amarse a si mismo en 5 sencillos pasos.
    Y con una pequeña ayudita con nombre propio: la de Park JiMin.

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    He starts saying it to himself in the mirror.

    I’m gay. I think boys are hot. I like men. I’m a homo. I think boys are super cute.

    Only when he’s home alone, and the windows are empty, as if a bird might fly through and hear and cry out to the world, You heard it here first, Richie Tozier is a flaming homosexual, tweet tweet! And the world would fall down around him and they’d find his body in the sewers or some shit.

    Or so much worse.

    He says he’s gay, when he’s alone and in a dark bathroom, and even then his hands shake uncontrollably.

    I would be super into kissing a boy. More than kiss. I’m gay.

    He drags his hands over his face, groaning. Meets his own eyes in the mirror. Opens his mouth. Says what always comes next.

    (Or; In which Richie Tozier loses his damn mind, and that's okay.)

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    Chapters:
    2/7
    Comments:
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    7
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    It is October 4th, 1986, when Ash gets stabbed in front of the library. It is October 6th, 1986, when Eiji is sitting by his hospital bed, fifth espresso for the night in hand, silently praying to whomever's listening that his friend survives.

     

    -----

    Another alternate ending, following Ash and Eiji on the bumpy road called recovery, as they fight each other's demons side by side.

    When you add love into the equation called life after trauma.

    Well.

    Life gets even more complicated.

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    Comments:
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    25
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    The four boys share a flat and one night Freddie went outside to smoke some cigarettes but didn't return, causing Roger to be very worried for him. A very unfortunate thing happened to Freddie and Roger will do everything in his power to take care of him to recover, but fortunately, their friendship will become much more.

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    Chapters:
    3/?
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    4
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    The Ineffable Pining Showmance AU that no one asked for.

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    Chapters:
    10/12
    Collections:
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    David and Matt struggle with their hidden relationship. (Matt Li is the cute Asian tech on Numb3rs.)

    This is a very long and twisty/twisted triple drabble series, where Matt and David debate about how they aren't really able to be certain of each other, and the difficulties that leads them into. Many other characters in the Watson'verse also weigh in and there are shocking revelations and events all around. In particular, there are revelations and developments with Don's boyfriend Will. However, the majority is about David and Matt.

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    English
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    42,309
    Chapters:
    140/200
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    14
    Hits:
    866
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    Don’t touch the other boys, Richie, Pennywise whispered inside his head, time and time again. They were thirteen when they defeated It, Richie didn’t even fully – didn’t want to – understand what that meant at the time. 

    He did now. 

    or, richie discovers that there never was a monster within himself.

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    English
    Words:
    14,691
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    18
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    249

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