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    This is an immediate continuation of "Carry that Weight", and pics up on New Years Eve/Day 1966. It begins with someone being accidentally dosed with LSD, and with Paul gleaning an insight that helps him feel stronger and more able to recover some of his sexual energy, which is pretty explicitly covered in the first three chapters. After that, the angst comes, hard and heavy, as events force the investigation into Paul's rape into a new area. John's bad judgement continues as his own PTSD goes unaddressed. The boys must head into the recording studio, and then all the touring troubles begin. 1966 is not a happy year.

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    Credence is just trying to navigate his life with his head down. He doesn't want to call attention to himself. He just wants to find his own quiet type of happiness. One day, as he loses himself in the pretty pastries in a window, a kind lady invites him inside, little did Credence know that his life would forever change that day. He would discover things about himself that he never knew, and he would see a side of life he had only ever dreamed of.

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    Magnus had waited a long time for his soulmate to be born. Fate must have had a sick sense of humour, though, because after all these centuries, it had handed him a shadowhunter. Magnus didn’t know who this shadowhunter was, or how they could possibly be meant for each other, but he did know that this story wouldn't have a happy ending.

    Alec also knew all about fate's sense of humour. He had known this his whole life. But the ground was coming up from under him and everything he knew was being turned on its head, systematically picked up and pulled apart and handed back to him looking nothing like it did before. Valentine was alive. His own parents had been members of the Circle. The Lightwoods’ grip on the Institute was slipping. And, through all this, his siblings had found their soulmates.

    Alec had found Magnus. But that didn’t mean anything, did it?

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    Aziraphale, raised by the Archangel Gabriel in Lower Tadfield's cathedral, meets a beautiful dancer on his first foray out of the church. When Aziraphale's furtive adventure ends in disaster, he gives up on ever venturing out (or seeing the dancer) again. He doesn't expect the dancer to need his help, and he definitely doesn't expect to fall in love—or anything that comes after.

    Based on Disney’s The Hunchback of Notre Dame.

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    Richie Tozier was a regular 12 year old boy. He loved to play video games and tell jokes. I mean you would think he was just the same as any class clown. But alas, he wasn’t. He had secret. Even though he had never told anyone, someone or something knew.

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    So they found me in my bathtub, right? And next thing I know I’m laying in this stiff as shit bed and can’t move. I was strapped down, from my shoulders to my ankles. For days I laid there, being spoonfed by this heavyset nurse, with the excuse that I couldn’t move because I was a “danger to myself”. I’m surprised they had the decency to wash the blood off of me.

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    this really is just a fruit and illumina fanfic that kept clogging my brain so I had to write it. there will be more information at the beginning of chapters : )

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    Fruit always understood himself, understood who he was and was comfortable with where he was in life. However, his life is spun, 180, upsidedown, after he realizes he might look at Illumina for a little too long.

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    This episode has a perfect gap for porn that is almost canon-compatible if you squint your eyes.

    Brokeback Mountain Destiel

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    Rowan and Sunny were always closer than most best friends, but after the death of his sister, Mari, Sunny shuts him out. Four year later, Sunny works up the courage to visit his old best friend. But when Rowan opens the door, he is completely unrecognizable. The once vibrant introverted boy is quick to anger, dealing with internal demons, and despises Sunny for cutting him out of his life. The likelihood of things being like they were before seem slim to none. Can Sunny reconnect with his best friend, and come to terms with the guilt he’s been facing for four years.

     

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    An AU using earlier version of the OMORI Characters, exploring a similar, but slightly different story

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    Coming out is difficult. To yourself, and to everyone else.

    It’s even more difficult when you finally find the word that describes you perfectly, a word that is the key to figuring out who you are, but it’s one that carries a lot of negative implications. A word that means that many people will outright hate you for simply existing and will actively make your life harder. It’s a difficult pill to swallow, knowing that your life will be significantly more challenging despite having done nothing wrong, nothing to deserve this. If only it was something else, anything else…

    It’s a pill that sometimes seems easier to ignore. To repress, to hide away the shame, to pretend to be the perfect son who got good grades, obeyed his parents, and earned the rank of Eagle Scout, someone to be proud of. Because as horrendous as an experience puberty is, destroying her hopes and dreams in a slow-moving train wreck that showed no signs of stopping, the fear of how others would react seemed far worse.

    How long can it last?

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    He shakes the doubt away. The sex was great. He feels like a weight’s been lifted, like he can breathe easier now that he’s gotten this thing out of his system that’s been winding him up inside for so long. He knows what it feels like, finally, to have sex with a man. The answer is: it feels good. Really, really good.

    That, however, poses a new set of problems.

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    Heeseung hates his new neighbors. Sunoo hates Heeseung. Ni-Ki hates that Sunoo is still living with Heeseung. And Jay and Jungwon hate that nobody can find out they're dating or they'll be screwed.
    Secrets, lies, jealousy and fighting. Everything goes when they try to reach their happy ending. Some will get love, some will get hurt, but no one will know for sure who will be who. Nothing if certain in a war of four.

    *¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*¨~¨*

    Weekly chapters of three parts each. No planning done, no finale decided, no schedule other than one post per week.

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    Ignis adjusted his glasses. "I take it you boys are new to the scene?"

    "Yep! Last night was our first time there."

    "Your first time, and you raced?"

    "Mhmm! Had a lot of fun, that's for sure! Right, Noct?"

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    A loose reimagining of Sk8 The Infinity with the cast of FFXV. From emotional constipation to the adrenaline rush of downhill racing, four dudes work through it all to take down a jerk on a skateboard.

    updates on Mondays :)

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    It's the 9th century CE.
    Isak is a Norse warrior, an expert at raiding and making his wealth by taking it from others. But despite his success, he finds himself alone and friendless, until he meets the mysterious Even, a teller of tales. This is the story of how they fell in love, stayed in love and found a home. It has danger, peril and angst aplenty, but it is also full of love and friendship and wonderful stories.

    Updates weekly (Tuesdays)

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    Jack and Amara with Dean's help go after Cas after bringing everyone back.

     

    ❗❗So...I thought I was done, but ideas keep popping up...I'm still getting organized, I changed several things in the first chapter and I'm thinking about doing a second part... First fanfic that I write where there actually is a plot.

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    MC left long before the Literature Club was formed. Without any attachments to some guy, the members of the club are free to fall in love, be themselves, and heal together.

    A mostly lighthearted story where the literature club girls’ relationships build and eventually they all get together.

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    Disappointing Performance by ETHER Activewear's Karahura Kakeru

    ETHER's Prodigious Star, Already Burning Out?

    Comody Iida Races Ahead in New Year Ekiden Qualifier, ETHER Activewear Struggles to Meet Projections

    Kurahara Kakeru's career takes an inexplicable nose dive, risking his sponsorship and place on his company team.

    An unprecedented PR stunt gives Kakeru the chance to reclaim himself and his running career. The objective? Make it to the Olympics and break from the mould of the marathon tradition. Instead, Kakeru is tasked with popularizing the 10km event and become the face for upcoming activewear brand ETHER in the process.

    An exploration into recovery, love, loss, injury, disability, and overall questioning what it means to be an athlete. More specifically, what exists for athletes when there is no overcoming to be had? What is the double-meaning of athletic performance? And eventually, how can embracing brokenness set us free?

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    Cornelius Hickey was inevitably the final nail in the coffin lid that doomed the Franklin Expedition. But what if there was fray in the threads of fate and characters were not bound by their narrative role as villain? A tale of stargazing, false prophets, mad dreams, shedding pretences and just maybe falling in love.

    (This is going to be a bit of a slow burn but they will fuck eventually I promise it’s just very cold and one of them is Extremely repressed. Supposed to be read as a follow up to Men Like Beasts by Adsecula.)

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    Every year 120 students join the School for Good and 120 students join the School for Evil, with the hopes of becoming fairytale legends. They are accepted from all over the fairytale world, and two lucky students are plucked from the land beyond the woods, Gavaldon. But even in the picture perfect School for Good, you are much more likely to die than to live your dreams.

    In the great hall, there is a poem:
    “Try to escape, you’ll always fail
    The only way out is through a fairy tale.”

    Many wonder why the School for Good would need to constantly reiterate that there is no escape.

    The answer to the question is that 20 years before Sophie and Agatha, a group of four students --Alexandra of Jaunt Jolie, Olivia of Bloodbrook, Dominick the Second of Foxwood, and Rafael of Woods Beyond-- created an escape plan so daring that it almost destroyed the school they attended.

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    Тебя зовут Гарри Дюбуа. Тебе двадцать пять. Ты преподаёшь физкультуру в средней школе Гранд-Курон. В течение следующих трёх дней ты найдёшь верных друзей, преисполнишься в своём познании и изучишь пару способов выставить себя полным кретином. Зачем? Кому это нужно? И что с тобой станет, когда всё закончится?
    Кто знает. Некоторые вещи просто случаются. Неизбежно.

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