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    George Denbrough had been dead five long years the night he woke his brother Bill up at one in the morning.

    Bill shot up, heart pounding painfully in his chest. Reality took hold and screamed dead dead dead your fault into his ears. The real Georgie was miles below where Bill sat now, probably already rotted down to the bone, surrounded by the other dead children of Derry. Georgie was dead. This could be a dream, a hallucination, the aftereffects of the really shitty weed he’d shared with Beverly the day before, but it could not really be Georgie. And yet, some hopeful part of Bill’s heart begged for it to be real, for one more chance to hold his brother.

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    Bill is haunted, Richie is in love with more than half of his childhood friends, and Stanley can't sleep.

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    2/?
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    34
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    7
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    Richie isn't watching the stars with the others, only the moon and how bright it shines down on them. He thinks about Bev and how she hasn't called them, about how he can't call her because they don't know her phone number.

    He thinks about Eddie and maybe if he believed hard enough, the two of them could be watching the same night sky together, miles apart.

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    Or; Richie and Eddie forget one another when they leave Derry.

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    Chapters:
    6/7
    Comments:
    25
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    31
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    4
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    400
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    ‘Are you… I mean, is everything okay?’

    ‘Seriously?’ The word is spat out like Richie can’t believe he has to say it, and Eddie feels his cheeks burning.

    ‘Okay, dickwad, I mean is everything okay with you. Like, at-at home and stuff.’

    when Richie goes to Eddie, and when Eddie goes to Richie

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    1/1
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    4
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    94
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    10
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    “If Kaoru doesn’t ‘expect’ to see me at the ocean, I’m not sure he ‘knows’ me as well as I thought he did.”

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    During gym class they played basketball, Steve's team (shirts) against Billy's team (skins), and Steve was good but Billy was better. Billy not only seemed to take it serious but also seemed to see it as a chance to tease Steve as much as possible. It was during this game, when Steve and Billy had collided into each other and crashed to the floor that he saw it. Something he'd only ever seen of similar fashion before on Eleven. It was there on the inside of Billy's left wrist like a tattoo.

    005.

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    14/?
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    31
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    Richie was sitting in a chair in front of a dressing table, looking into the lit-up mirror while he sipped a glass of amber bourbon. He looked up when Eddie walked in and then there were no words; neither of them had thought this far ahead. Eddie stood awkwardly in the open door, feeling very much like he was still waiting for the big prank to be revealed, for there to be machinations behind all of this that he couldn’t understand.
    “Hey, Trashmouth,” he said, eventually.
    “Hey, Eds,” Richie said.
    “You know I always hated being called that,” Eddie said.
    “Not when it’s me.”

    An AU in which Richie and Eddie meet before Mike calls them all back to Derry, the affair that follows, and the consequences both of them want to ignore.

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    8/?
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    3
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    15
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    5
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    Richie always hated how Patrick looked at him. He never looked at the other losers the same way. Always with a....predatory smile, Licking his lips. Sometimes it seemed like his eyes drift south. It made him wildly uncomfortable, as it would really anyone. But it didn’t seem like the others knew. They didn’t seem to notice the hunger in the older teen’s eyes when they laid on Richie, But Richie did. How could he not? Those eyes on him stung like a burning flame.

    Richie finds himself walking home alone from the clubhouse and unable to get away when Patrick Hocksetter sets out to claim what he deems as his.

    this story follows Richie's recovery from a brutal assault with the help of his friends. Eddie, in particular, seems to be getting a lot closer to Richie in his time of need.

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    4/?
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    16
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    Clad in Malekith's Dreamstone, Eddie Brock walks the streets of New York, meets a stranger, and learns about memory, reality, and himself.

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    1/?
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    He was wearing a short sleeve again, Richie had told him every time he made a comment that he loved the cold. “Relax Uris, I’d be dying in a sweater.” Stanley knew Richie had problems at home, he knew their family struggled with money but he never knew how bad it was. But today when he showed up in another short sleeve shirt, skin flushed from the cold, Stan was prepared.

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    Summer, it was the time where you discovered yourself and realize who your meant to be. For Richie Tozier it wasn’t like that- that wasn’t the purpose. Summer was for hanging out with his losers. Summer was sleepovers and hanging by the quarry. It was getting ice cream and sneaking into the movie theater to watch an R- rated film. It was all about having fun.

    For most kids, summer bruises came from falling off rusty bikes and climbing trees. Richie’s bruises were part of a different version of summer. The version that he didn’t talk about with anyone- ever. There was one person he confided in- in the middle of the night while they were both hiding in bathrooms to escape parents. He would call Bev, and they would talk for hours on end. Richie would try to console Beverley, he knew what it was like. It was terrifying living in a house where you were unwanted. They talked and cried until it was safe to hang up and go to their rooms.

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    18/?
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    After defeating Pennywise, the Losers- plus a few honorary club members- crash indefinitely in a Derry Air B&B.

    Eddie hovers between life and death, while Richie is lonely and repressed and gay, and all his friends are so blissfully in love that it's driving him nuts.

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    2,368
    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    4
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    19
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    2
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    It all started on valentine's day, 1989, the day that Heather Chandler least expected Veronica Sawyer to make a move. As their relationship evolves so does the danger that they've put themselves in.

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    23/?
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    3
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    They'd been so close to everything they ever wanted when they were young. And then they forgot.

    Now that they're back in Derry, they're remembering.

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    6/11
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    Midoriya Izuku has a mission.
    Shinsou Hitoshi has a dream.
    They both have a problem.
    A new villain organization is arising in Japan, a force so large yet so infuriatingly well-hidden that Izuku wants to rip his hair out. As internships wound themselves to a close, he was propositioned with an interesting offer: pack up his things and work full-time for the Nighteye agency for a few months, no fees or waivers needed. He took the offer with open arms, relishing in doing his homework in a common room and surrounded by sidekicks like him- but he may just have bit off more than he could chew.
    Hitoshi longs for the hero course. It's all he wanted since he was a child, to be someone people could rely on, who people could look up to. To be like Eraserhead, the hero he still shamefully fanboyed about whenever he walked past that classroom door. He wants it more than anything else, and he works for it. But grudges are powerful things, and with one of his closest- and few- friends on what feels like a different planet, he feels himself breaking under the stress of it all.
    Through villain uprisings, hero class wars, and feelings that neither of them fully understand, can they make it through?

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    37/?
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    26
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    When stuck in the pull of It's Deadlights, Richie Tozier saw the future: One that didn't have Eddie Kaspbrak in it. So he acts, and by acting, becomes unraveled in turn. Because even when It's dead, It's never really gone.

    (AKA Yet another Fix-It AU where Richie saves Eddie from being skewered by It, but doesn’t walk out of Derry without a few scars of his own.)

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    Chapters:
    5/?
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    27
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    206
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    47
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    He sighs, feeling very defeated, like it’s his little self versus the entire big, wide world; increasingly frustrated with Derry, with Richie, his mother, and most of all, most suffocatingly, –his own self. He burrows deeper into the stiff sheets, praying sleep comes quick.

    “Don’t call me Eds.”

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    Jaehyun has a crush on one of the school's most popular guys. He doesn't want to admit to himself that his feelings aren't exactly straight. One day, he gets outted, and his crush is suddenly common knowledge around their school.

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    Chapters:
    6/?
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    104
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    13
    Hits:
    1948
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    A place to put any works for my own Smutober challenge in. (link here).
    Will be multi-fandom and -ship and tagged accordingly.

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    16/31
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    18
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    It's the summer before college, and Richie Tozier is prepared for approximately nothing to change. The club works at a Renaissance Faire, and somehow in between the turkey legs, marathons of Super Smash brothers and cheap beer, some of them have time to fall in love.

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    Lila Rossi felt lonely.

    So she began to experiment.

    or the fic where lila actually deals with the consequences of her actions and gains an unlikely ally

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    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    1
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    2
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