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Buck’s jaw clenches. “This isn’t you.”
Eddie’s smile turns mean, borderline unrecognizable even to himself. Buck is right, this isn’t him. It doesn’t even sound like his voice. But he’s exhausted. He’s hurt. And he’s done pretending there’s a way out of this that doesn’t involve blood in the water—they’re too far gone for that.
This wasn’t the plan, but he doesn’t pull back from the fight. He doubles down, clinging to the belief that devastation is better than emptiness, that being hated is better than being erased.
“Funny,” Eddie says softly. “Is that what you tell yourself when you fuck anyone who’ll have you? That it doesn’t mean anything? That it’s easier than admitting you’re trying not to think about me?”
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Eddie figures his shit out. Eventually.
An Eddie Diaz character study, if you will.Series
- Part 2 of a coward's first taste of courage
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16 Jan 2026
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“So what’s your real name, then?” Eddie asks, sipping on his own drink—a whiskey he’s swirling around in the glass constantly.
“Evan,” Buck says coyly, quickly adding, “But nobody really calls me that.”
“Evan,” Eddie echoes, the sound dripping off his tongue like thick honey. “I like it.”
It almost makes Buck regret to ever abandon it in the first place, driving a shiver down his spine. Almost.
“And what’s Eddie short for? Eduardo?” he quickly shifts the conversation, stirring his drink and popping another peanut into his mouth. Eddie shakes his head and chuckles.
“Edmundo,” he corrects him, then winks at Buck with a low, “But nobody really calls me that.”or the one where Buck and Eddie have a one-night-stand two days before Eddie starts at the 118.
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09 Jan 2026
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Buck has people who love him, and that’s not going to change, even if Eddie isn’t one of those people anymore.
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01 Oct 2025
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As Eddie pulls into their neighborhood, Christopher breaks the quiet to say, “Hey Dad?”
“Hmm?”
“How come Siena calls Buck your husband?”*~*~*
or, Christopher's instructor from the horse therapy place assumes Buck is Eddie's husband, Eddie doesn't correct her, and when Christopher asks why, it prompts what might be Eddie's most interesting session with Frank yet.
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28 May 2025
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His heart breaking at the thought of Eddie leaving LA Buck turns to Maddie for support. She helps him to see the truth and gives him a little advice along the way but when did Buck ever listen to advice.
So questionable decisions are made that do nobody any good and leave Eddie mad as hell and with no choice but to take matters into his own hands.
Or Eddie leaves then he comes back because when you’re in love with an idiot what choice do you have
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11 May 2025