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“What, you don’t have anything to say?” Steve presses and takes another step closer. “If you wanted to ruin your own fucking life, then fine, but you’ve dragged me down with you and there’s no coming back from this now! Not here! All you ever think about is your fucking self, you don’t give a shit about anybody else, and if I end up dead on the side of the goddamn road because of your stupid ass, I swear to god-”
“Shut the fuck up!” Billy yells, cutting the other boy off. He can’t stand this right now, he can’t bear to stand here listening to Steve say these things to him, for something that he doesn’t even remember, for something that was probably a fucking accident, not something he really meant to do. Now Steve hates him too, and he should, he should fucking hate him, but Billy can’t take it, he can’t take seeing such hatred directed at him from the only boy he gives a shit about in this hick town.
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Upfall by bell (belldreams), belldreams, usomitai (belldreams)
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types
19 Oct 2021
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Anakin is doing just about everything he can to hold himself together; it won’t last.
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Don't take things from strangers by MysterySpookyFan
Fandoms: Spooky Month (Short Films - Sr Pelo)
18 Oct 2021
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Skid and Pump don't listen to the old message "don't take things from strangers" and face the consequences.
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It is often the warmest and brightest of candles that leave the coldest and darkest times in their absence.
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- Part 2 of Deltarune Hurt/Comfort
- Language:
- English
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- 1,427
- Chapters:
- 1/?
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From Ash, From Dust, From Soil by Generic_Enby_Shapeshifter
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
18 Oct 2021
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AU where the Sekoto Peak incident happens when Touya is 8, and on the run after faking his death, he encounters an abandoned Tenko Shimura. Together, they embark on journeys to become heroes, love themselves for who they are, and rise from their pasts.
Touya was giving the flame a strange look. It was a mix of emotions, and strong ones. One of them was one that Tenko knew very well.Malice, pure, dark malice. A desire to annihilate something, and the power to do so. This boy, who came over to help him, had it.
“Do you hate someone?” Tenko asked timidly. The boy gasped lightly in surprise, but then he stared into the flame he’d created with an intense look.
“So much.”
Tenko wanted to cry out in relief. This boy, this hero of his, felt hate too. Maybe he could save people too, even though he felt hate and anger and all the things the heroes like All Might didn’t.
He knew right then and there that he had to go with Touya.
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He squashed that thought as soon as it was born. He would still have to pretend. George looked up to Dream. George didn’t know Dream was Clay and Clay was Dream. He didn’t know the man he talked to everyday was also his favorite streamer. Even if he boosted George to the point of having a reasonable excuse to discover him as Dream he would still have to be Clay separate. If he didn’t he would have to reveal he was Dream the entire time.
Shame crept into his mind with that thought. It burned brighter than any emotion his interactions with George had pulled out of him. He really did have a talent for lying and keeping things from his friends didn’t he. Bitter acid burned the back of his throat and he roughly rubbed his eyes. This was a bad idea, trying to build up George this way. It was also the very least he could do.
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empty house full of faces by venus-after-sunset (SidereaMare)
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, The Mandalorian (TV)
18 Oct 2021
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he watches himself become his dead father over and over again
(cross-posted on tumblr, @venus-after-sunset)
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- Part 1 of 2021 october stories
- Language:
- English
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- 831
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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CALAMITY – A Zarry fanfiction by DeLa_Sousa13
Fandoms: One Direction (Band), Adore You - Harry Styles (Song), Strong - One Direction (Song)
18 Oct 2021
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It's in the most uncommon of places that good and beautiful things tend to happen. Sent back home to fight off the battle with his addictions, past and inner struggles, Zayn Malik, an artist based in New York, develops a surprising friendship with Harry Styles, the young man who works at a local bakery that delivers bread at the rehab facility. What starts as a deal between the two blossoms into something more with each secretive meeting, every shared secret and traded a look. While both suffer from heartbreak, loss, and sadness, they find in one another, the ray of light for every dark cloud. That could even mean happiness if only the demons of addiction and past transgressions allowed them.
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a single drop of blood in an ocean that spans miles by witherwriting
Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), Video Blogging RPF
18 Oct 2021
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"If there's one thing that was constant about the commune, it was that it was forever changing. After all, what else would be expected from the members? Nothing short of absolute chaos, that is."
When the Antarctic Empire fell twenty years ago, none of the reports included what had happened to the once-grand leaders of the infamous faction. People suspected that something had been covered up, but no one went poking around. Maybe they should have-- but Technoblade is content with the life he lives now, protecting the commune and ensuring a safe space for those that reside in it. However, when a man he presumed dead reappears in his life, what will he do? The years had not been kind, but is it enough to irreparably damage what they once had?
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- Part 1 of The Commune of the Blood God
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Life of a Hero by Kenmas_Hope
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
18 Oct 2021
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Touya Todoroki is now a pro hero who has to balance not only being a pro hero but dating a pro hero, also be still has to work through all of that family drama he has.
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- Part 2 of Dabi Hero Au
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So That It Wouldn’t Break (So That I Wouldn’t Break) by DragonMaster_Shi
Fandoms: Naruto
18 Oct 2021
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Tagged mature for the amount of unnecessary angst lol. Also the formatting’s weird cuz I’m posting this on my phone right before sports lol
“Sai doesn't feel like a replacement for Sasuke so much as he feels like a shoddy patch placed on an ever-growing fissure. Sasuke may have been a bit harsh, but he was fun and playful and great at banter even while fighting. Sai just isn’t. Isn’t fun, isn’t exciting, doesn't understand a thing about people, just isn’t. And it just feels bitter.”
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- Part 5 of SNStober2021
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"Needles in my Soul" a retelling of Korra's time alone in the Earth Kingdom by Aurelius14141
Fandoms: Avatar: Legend of Korra
18 Oct 2021
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This picks up right around the time Korra is healing herself in the bathroom in the show and is fighting in shady Earthbending Matches, and getting the snot kicked out of her. I wanted to accurately write how someone accidentally becomes a drug addict, and given the link between PTSD (which Korra clearly had) and substance abuse I thought I could use Korra, someone people have a great deal of compassion for, and hopefully inspire empathy for those suffering from the disease of addiction. And it's horribly depressing...It will be very, very dark as I intend to make this as real as possible from a psychological perspective. So this story will be a retelling of how Korra got the poison out, without the help of Toph. Sometimes the things we think will be our salvation will bring hell to our doorstep. Korra is already madly in love with Asami at this point, I assumed she was before she got poisoned in canon anyway. Asami may or may not make an appearance you'll just have to read and see ;) This story will be like the title, Korra, alone, minus the bag of morphine she finds...
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The Village of New Beginnings by SmileDarlin
Fandoms: Biohazard | Resident Evil (Gameverse)
18 Oct 2021
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“I want a divorce”
Ethan thought nothing could tear him and Mia apart but two rounds with mold monsters and a web of lies is more than counseling can fix.
Now Ethan and Rose had a fresh start in Germany but an old face pops up.
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Give (Until There's Nothing Left to Give) by Aspenthekitsune
Fandoms: Sanders Sides (Web Series)
18 Oct 2021
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If he had been alive, Adam Collins would have been sentenced to a minimum of 25 years in prison.
But instead of serving his time, paying for the consequences of his actions, he got to die as numb as he had been the day he first looked at his four year old child as an object for his own sexual pleasure. He was said to be a victim of depression and alcoholism after losing his dear wife Samantha Brown during childbirth.
It was time for that to change.
Patton knows that he will never be able to properly bring his father to justice for all the things he did, all of the things he still does, even in death. But he refuses to leave the words unsaid.
Patton had stayed silent far too many times.
Patton would make sure that every bird in this cemetery would be singing the tale of Adam Collins and his betrayal, every blade of grass would whisper tales of cowardice to their neighbors, and that the wind would carry the air of confession in the gentle autumn breeze.
Even if he would die with these words, Patton refuses to leave his part unspoken.
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Patton has never had a solid definition of Home, but he could only hope that one day it could mean something more than this.
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All the wrong places | Trevor Philips by Sinister_exaggerator
Fandoms: Grand Theft Auto V, Grand Theft Auto Series (Video Games)
18 Oct 2021
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Irene is a socially inept woman who is down on her luck; a vegan, naïve, sex-addicted cokehead with a useless master's degree. She has a penchant for secrets, and a natural inclination to get herself into trouble. Clumsy and rather unfortunate, her major flaw is acting on impulse and not knowing when to keep her mouth shut. When she tries to get a job as a dancer at the Vanilla Unicorn, she meets Trevor and her life changes forever.
**Lots of blood, gore, sex, and violence. Expect a messy, dysfunctional relationship with lots of gratuitous smut and angst. Despite all this, and the tags, the more I write, the more “wholesome” the story is turning out to be. If you're skeptical, this is not another barely legal rape story. Trevor doesn't rape anyone, and he doesn't take advantage past the first chapter or two beyond what I think would be considered canon. This is my first fic, so feedback/comments are appreciated!**
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Our Love is Like an Iceberg by Mostly_Void_Partially_Stars for TheWonderfulShoe
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
18 Oct 2021
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Katsuki knew the relationship he had with Izuku was complicated, and he had always known his past behavior would come back to bite him in the ass. Good thing he can count on his brother to stand by his side, just like always.
Or, Katsuki faces consequences for how he's treated Izuku in the past, and their relationship comes into focus.
Spoiler: It's not what you think.
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- Part 2 of The Long and Short of it
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A chill winter morning, and two healing lost souls realize something.
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Destiny Retreat by MEK2
Fandoms: Kingdom Hearts (Video Games), Final Fantasy, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy VII
18 Oct 2021
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Cloud slumped against the wall, letting the smoke slowly out of his mouth. It was so damn cold.
Come for the steam, stay for the plot. *finger guns*
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Time Comes Round by Miss_Fallen
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types
18 Oct 2021
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Percy doesn't what's following him, but he intends to find out. Let's just hope he can handle it.
The Doctor is In - “Now smile for the camera” | Doctor’s Visit | CPR
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- Part 18 of Whumptober 2021
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Broken, Beat, Scarred by NorthothTheForgotten
Fandoms: Biohazard | Resident Evil (Gameverse), Resident Evil: Village
18 Oct 2021
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Chris Redfield managed to rescue the whole Winters family from the village, but Ethan is rapidly decaying. Mia's research may prove to save him, but at what cost?
Ethan didn't ask to be saved like this, but both his wife and his friend are too desperate to care about the moral dilemma. How will he react, if he ever awakens?