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    Kpop fans and the world at large are thrown into turmoil when the rising global sensation Bangtan Sonyeondan, better known as BTS, are kidnapped in the dead of night. As the world reels in confusion, the young men of BTS find themselves living a nightmare from which they may never escape. Will they survive? Will they still be the Bangtan Sonyeondan that fans all over the world know and love? Or will they be forever changed?

    A story by Kaelyn Grey (@kaelyn_grey, kaelyngrey@gmail.com) and Lady Midnight122 (aka Sandra) (@ladymidnight122, midnightwing@gmail.com)

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    82/?
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    At the beginning of 2019, Seokjin was kidnapped by unknown people for unknown reasons. After ten weeks, he is finally rescued and after a short stay in a hospital, he finally comes back home to his members. However, the traumatic events take their toll on his mental health and he suffers a severe case of PTSD. In the following weeks, Seokjin is trying to overcome the trauma with the help of the other six members. There is a certain leader, that Seokjin has always had a soft spot for, who is making things worse and better at the same time.

    Read notes at the beginning for trigger warnings.

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    Summary: All he ever wanted was not to be a Merman. To stop being the hatred Red-tail. One day he gets his wish and consequently ends up in the arms of his Mate... only there is a problem: his mate doesn't speak sign language and Red-tail needs to learn Human language to tell his Mate that they have mated.

    Or the story of how Prince Voldemort got stuck with Merman Harry demanding his touch every single moment of the day

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    2/6
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    49
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    In the aftermath of 3x24, Lucifer is having a really hard time. Ella comes to the rescue.

    WARNING: (pretty graphic I think) depictions of self-harm

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    4,259
    Chapters:
    2/?
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    Kudos:
    119
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    14
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    Minato Yukina journeys to the Heavenly Plane to reclaim her father's voice. She must first defeat its gatekeeper, Sayo.

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    1,502
    Chapters:
    1/1
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    "She loves him more
    He loves her more,
    Seems like they won't ever let each other go,
    Laughing and kissing it's a match made in heaven"

    Welcome readers! Please read the tags on this fic, because it can be extremely triggering! Please, Please read the tag.

    I have been writing this fic for a little while so I decided that I was ready to upload it.

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    Roman Torchwick finds himself helping Neopolitan, a mute girl who has threatened his life multiple times. She can't speak, but he had no problem understanding who she is and what she wants. Her past is something she wants to forget but to move on, she plans her revenge with Roman on her side.

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    Chapters:
    4/5
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    3
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    “Are you always this intense?” He asked him, not turning around.

    His voice had a distinct waver to it, it surprised him that he could even get the words out at all.
    “Mostly. But never like this.” Magnus’ voice was the direct opposite of his.

     

    It was low and deep and steady and made Alec want to groan out loud. It was so god damn husky.
    “Turn around.” Magnus said and Alec closed his eyes for a few seconds before attempting to face him without moaning.

     

    He managed to make it, even though his legs felt like jelly and saw him ease off where he had been leaning against the back of the door.

     

     

    ********

     

    A shy Alec Lightwood doesn't know what he's in for when he meets the mysterious and dark club owner, Magnus Bane. Has he bitten off way more than he can chew for his first relationship?

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    20/25
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    Cullen wouldn't say he hates mages, not anymore, but he can't see himself ever trusting one again. Dorian is no exception. The mage is off-color, self-important, and all together too much for Cullen to deal with. So why is it that every time Cullen is at his lowest, Dorian seems to be the only person by his side?

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    5/?
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    Just using a bunch of prompts and exercises I found and those will be in the notes of each chapter so if you need writing prompts

    you got them

    also just gonna warn you these chapters are either depressing or they're smut

    I write a lot of smut

    a lot

    maybe every once a month you might get fluff but

    I write a shitload of smut

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    29/?
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    Hansol's too busy feeling nothing to feel anything at all.

    alternatively - hansol overworks himself and sort of hates himself for it. thankfully, mingyu and the rest of the hip hop unit are there to catch him when he falls.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    Yes, I know, yet another wip. Zero chill. And I wanted to make a Christmas Story, so here we are now.

    In this story of dark and woe Isak is a sex worker who specializes in services of not traditionally sexual nature. Want to watch someone sharpen a pencil really slowly, making a long twirly unbroken strip, for your kicks? Isak's your guy. He is good at his job and he likes it, and it pays the bills while he's studying civil engineering at the Met.

    One day, Isak goes to meet a client, and sees EvenStarr, the video artist whose stuff he loves. And his request is not the most bizarre, but the most disturbing one Isak has ever received.

    Edit on Dec 26: Endgame Evak. I think I've figured out how to make it happen.

    Check the tags and notes for more, thank you!

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    Deceit is not okay. He hasn’t been for quite some time.

    The others try to help and understand, but they may be too late.

    GENERAL WARNINGS -- self harm, suicide, depression, sympathetic deceit

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    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    21
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    31
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    Luc's been trying to get Micah into bed and Micah's been having Lucian-tinged, blood-and-sex-soaked dreams and isn't sure if they're prophecies, fantasies, or planted by Lucifer.

    They need to talk.

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    Dean finally tells Sam about John's final request. Emotional turmoil ensues. Another of the yellow eyed demon's chosen enters the picture along with an unwelcome hunter from the boys past.

    Season 2 Episode 10 as seen through Wincest Colored Glasses.

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    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    14
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    John remembers his rape at Paresis Hall and drowns little by little into depression. He has more and more nightmares about his past traumas and hates himself more than before. Laszlo decides to take care of him. A difficult task for someone who used to daily roast the reporter. He doesn't dislike it but being kind with John feels so wrong. Laszlo's convinced he's the cause of John's misery and will, for the second time of his life, make his best to make his friend happy. But what makes John really happy is a thing neither of them would have believed.

    Laszlo thinks John hates him.
    John thinks Laszlo hates him.
    Both are depressed idiots.

    Language:
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    6,371
    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    27
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    446
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    Sometimes the past wants to eat him alive and sometimes it just sits there across from him and stares at him like it knows what he wants, as if it understands the betrayal of his body and his mind and forbids him normalized action. There's always one surefire thing in his life that chases the past back down his throat, buries it deep in his gut to wait another day, and if it burns him from the inside out, too? Well that's just life, isn’t it?

    Language:
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    3,798
    Chapters:
    3/41
    Comments:
    21
    Kudos:
    38
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    277
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    You're married to Steve Rogers. Are you the right partner for Captain America?

    Language:
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    1/1
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    4
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    20
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    1
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    White Diamond is supposed to be flawless. The perfect Gem. The role model. She is to rid Gemkind of any imperfection.

    But she's not flawless, and she hates it. She hides herself away so no one knows her weaknesses.

    But she can't fight the truth forever. Not even a Diamond can hold out under such pressure.

    *****

    Small retelling of "Change Your Mind". I wasn't happy with White Diamond's arc, sooo. . . this happened!

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    54
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    2
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    It's been a while since they've started dating and Shuichi has a conundrum. Multiple ones if he's being honest. But he's happier, Kokichi seems happier, and for once Shuichi isn't hurting for oxygen. Yet, with that sweetness comes the inevitablity of confrontation.

    Meanwhile, Kokichi has plans of his own and just as many problems.

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    English
    Words:
    13,046
    Chapters:
    2/3
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    51
    Bookmarks:
    2
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