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    Summer 2007: Shane Hollander arrives at a remote Wyoming summer camp with one goal: prove himself as Activities Director and secure the job permanently when current director Scott Hunter steps down at the end of the season. He needs this job: structure, stability, a future he can finally hold onto.

    What he doesn’t expect is Ilya Rozanov.

    The camp’s barn manager is sharp, self-contained, and impossible to ignore. It quickly becomes clear he’s not just a coworker, but Shane’s biggest competition for Scott’s position. Their friction is immediate, their clashes constant, and working together is impossible.

    Their chemistry is worse.

    As long days blur into charged nights and forced collaboration pulls them closer, the line between rivalry and something far more dangerous begins to erode, and a reckless decision to cross the line shifts everything, leaving Shane caught between what he wants and what he’s worked so hard to build.

    Wanting Ilya might cost him the job he came here to win. But walking away might cost him something he’s not sure he can live without.

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    There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.

    or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.

    Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.

    It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

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    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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