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One night, half-asleep, Shane says to Ilya, “You make everything easier to exist in.”
The words slip out gently, unguarded, like something he’s carried a long time and finally lets fall.
It steals the breath out of Ilya. He goes liquid against Shane and turns his head just enough to brush kisses along the line of his jaw.
Shane drifts under like that, held there by the knowledge that love can be quiet and spacious, that it can move through him in a way that is kind to his nervous system.
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Tenderness looks a thousand different ways. This is theirs.
(or: a Hollanov one shot collection)Bookmarked by Strawbemma
09 Jul 2026
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Many Loved Before Us, I Know That We Are Not New by servetas
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Jan 2026
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“This is hard to talk about,” is all he says, though he knows it will amount to nothing.
Shane’s fingertips are feather-soft on his chest. “You have to.”
He has to, because Shane and Ilya have this thing, now, this agreement. Nothing is too hard to talk about. Nothing is off limits. They have to be bare, have to surrender the deepest crevice of their soul to one another. And Ilya, for whom this is easier said than done, whose chest carries a perpetual weight, an immovable mass, it’s all worth it – worth the relief smoothing over Shane’s features, the reassurance that he’s not worried anymore, that Ilya can give him this peace, albeit only a fragment of what Shane gives him by just being there when he wakes up. He would never say it, but he thinks that what he has to offer to Shane amounts to nothing – nothing compared to what Shane does, what Shane is, by simply nuzzling into his chest and sighing into his sleep, late at night when all Ilya can do is lay awake and just feel.
“I need more,” Ilya says. “And is nothing you can do. I need you inside me, and it feels terrible.” He swallows, with great difficulty. God. “I need to– I need to eat you.”
or, Ilya never knew love can hurt this good
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08 Jul 2026
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Don't it seem like a good time for swimming, before all the water disappears? by Bugslibrary
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF
21 Mar 2026
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Ilya pulls back just enough to press their foreheads together, knocking their noses in a lazy nuzzle. He doesn’t say anything, but his cheeks are burnt red in the middle (last bits) of the night, and Shane wants to taste the colour of his blush. He wants the heat in his mouth of how crazy he makes Ilya, swallow it down to live with his own crazy while he hopes the dock breaks off from the land and they drift off into sea and just get to be this forever and ever.
“No?” Shane whispers, “did I get it wrong? You are not my baby?” He asks then because he can’t help but tease, because he wants to hear Ilya ask for what he wants, he wants to give Ilya anything he can. He wants to give Ilya this. He wants it to be theirs, baby, to say it without it hurting as much as it hums.
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- Part 2 of Ilya Rozanov is Shane Hollander's Baby
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05 Jul 2026
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I would bet the house on you by Bugslibrary
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Mar 2026
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The first time Shane calls Ilya baby, he barely even thinks about it.
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- Part 1 of Ilya Rozanov is Shane Hollander's Baby
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05 Jul 2026
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04 Jul 2026
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Closer to where you are (is where I must be) by sistercacao
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Jun 2026
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“Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.
Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.
“Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.
Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.
They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.
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03 Jul 2026
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Free Treasure by Bugslibrary
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane finds himself nodding, says “I know” before he can think further about it because Shane has never been good at reading people, and he wonders in that moment if Ilya is afflicted the same by this, the way they fuck.
Afflicted by the questions that they never let out-
How the fuck does it feel this fucking good?
How does it feel this fucking good every time?
Why is it you who does this to me?
The worst one of all, Shane thinks, this is why I can’t stop doing it. It’s too fucking good.
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Somewhere in 2014-16, one of the times they fuck that we didn't see in the montage.
(Alternatively titled: Athletes having athletic sex, someones got to get a leg cramp at some point)
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30 Jun 2026
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god is good, or whatever made the mouth to drink the treasure by Bugslibrary
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
05 Apr 2026
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Ilya makes love to Shane, it's the dirtiest thing they have ever done.
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“What? Hmm? I can’t hear you, hiding so far from me” Ilya whispers, kisses the shell of Shane’s ear and Shane’s brow furrows, he fidgets where he’s pinned to the sheets, squirms and thunder rumbles a dark sky wide crash over them again and Shane pulls his face back just a breath.
“You know” Shane complains, and rolls his hips as much as he can a tiny tilt that shifts him just the smallest bit on Ilya’s cock, a tease of the real fucking thing.
It's an imitation of the stretch that knocks his mind clean out, the relentless fucks of his hips that shakes Shane from the inside, that is everythingeverythingeverything the middle of the universe where he and Ilya do this, where they make themselves one pretty brilliant thing.
“I want to hear it” Ilya’s hand slips free of Shane’s hair and finds his hip, pushes down to hold him still and gives a nudge of his cock. Enough to make Shane’s breath stutter.
“Tell me” another waved thrust that makes a sound punch out of Shane’s throat.
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29 Jun 2026
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for you are mine by Bugslibrary
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
25 Jun 2026
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Shane walks back into the living room now, a kitten yawn rounding in the back of his throat as he raises his linked hands above his head and arches his spine in a slow open that stretches the muscles. He drops his arms with a heavy exhale, a comfortable pull through his spine at the stretch and he eyes the empty couch.
His Ilya is missing.
Shane turns his head and muffles a yawn into his elbow, rolls his shoulders and scans the room, the now empty coffee table, and hears the soft thud of dishes in the sink over the music and uses the obvious clues to take himself to the kitchen.
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Or, Ilya and Shane slow dance
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- Part 1 of Bug’s Shane + Ilya Ficlets
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28 Jun 2026
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A series of fics that follow Shane and Ilya over the course of the last year that Ilya is in Boston
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27 Jun 2026
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His next thought was irrational. Stupid, really. But maybe… maybe it was alright if he took just one. A real picture. Besides, no one would ever see it but him, and Shane would never have to know. Not if Ilya never told him about it.
Knowing he can't have Shane the way he wants, Ilya keeps a secret picture of him, soundly asleep in Ilya’s bed after a hookup.
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25 Jun 2026
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a collection of less/not safe for work artworks ive done that would get me nuked in real time if i posted them on certain socials
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24 Jun 2026
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Shane rested his forehead against Ilya’s, closing his eyes. “I’m gonna ride you, is that okay?”
Ilya nipped at his bottom lip. “I don’t know, let me think. This is same as asking me, is Shane Hollander the best hockey player in the world? Obviously yes.”
And oh, the honest praise was all worth it for the private smile that lit up Shane’s face right then. He kissed Ilya once, slow and sweet. “Shut up,” he murmured, smiling into it. “You’re an asshole.”
Ilya was a little achy with how happy he was, such a wild contrast to his overwhelming grief only moments ago. “I finally admit you are better than me, and now I am an asshole? I think not, Hollander.” He gripped Shane’s hips and flipped them over, the sound of Shane’s breathy laughter while Ilya kissed him into the mattress like medicine for his soul.
Episode 5 in depth: the beach, the all-star game, and if Shane and Ilya made love in that hotel room before confessing their love.
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24 Jun 2026
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“Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”
Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.
“…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.
“Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”
Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.
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24 Jun 2026
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an idea from another man's mind by inmoonlightigetseasick
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Apr 2026
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Ilya came home from Russia with his father buried and a terrible truth lodged like a piece of glass in his throat. He loves Shane Hollander. He can never have him. Not without making Shane sacrifice something big— too big to give up for the paltry offering of himself in return.
He plays the game with a lump in his stomach, heavy guilt warring with his heart’s anxious flutter every time Shane looks at him. Something fundamental has shifted between them. He’s not sure if it’s been this way since Shane came out to him in Tampa, and held him tight like he was trying to keep Ilya in one piece as he was shattering apart. Or maybe it was that phone call, Ilya shivering on the cold streets of Moscow, a frayed nerve, spilling his guts out on the sidewalk.
Either way, Ilya is going to end it. He has to end it.
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AU in which Shane doesn't get a concussion and he and Ilya meet as planned. Ilya, deluded by his own self-loathing, attempts to break up with Shane, for the sake of their careers. But he finds that's easier said than done.
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23 Jun 2026
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on the crest of a wave by inmoonlightigetseasick
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jun 2026
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"'Ilya,' Shane says then, having decided right then and there, 'Will you come to my cottage? Maybe just for your recovery, or maybe longer?'
Ilya pulls back and looks up at him with wide, watery eyes, 'You want me there?'
Ilya’s voice is soft with hope, and Shane would do anything to protect each and every tender emotion in Ilya’s heart.
'Yeah, I can’t think of anyone else I’d want to spend my summer with.'
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'Okay, you win,' Ilya says, his good hand coming up to cradle the side of Shane’s face, his thumb stroking along the freckles on the tops of his cheeks, 'I will come to the cottage.'
Shane’s resolve cracks and finally gives way, his elation is a flood washing away the usual scaffolding of his anxiety. Uninhibited, he leans in close to Ilya until their noses brush, with every intention to kiss him, memories be damned, they can make new ones."
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AU in which instead of Marlow hitting Shane, it's Drapeau who hits Ilya, fracturing his collarbone, and giving him a concussion which causes him to forget everything since the draft. Luckily, Shane has the perfect place for him to heal, and hopefully recover his lost memories. Only the most precious ones, of course.
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23 Jun 2026
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Shane takes Ilya on his first date.
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23 Jun 2026
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The first few months of Shane and Ilya's relationship weren't perfect, but at least they were finally together. Even if they were long-distance. And a secret.
Despite the difficulty of missing each other, they found solace through texts.
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Snippets of Honeymoon Phase Hollanov :)
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21 Jun 2026
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build a nest for us to sleep in by newromantics
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Jun 2026
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Shane doesn’t know how to grocery shop for two. He doesn’t know how to do any of this, really. He’s keenly aware that this was the longest stretch of time he’d be spending alone with Ilya, with any one person ever, outside of his parents.
In a way, it feels like playing house, unpacking the groceries and setting out a set of towels and washcloths for him. It is playing house. This is what it might feel like, to be able to have him all the time. The thought feels impossible to contemplate, terrifying to dwell on for longer than a minute or two at a time.
on finally getting to know your situationship of 10 years
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20 Jun 2026
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Shane knows about the sensitive spot behind Ilya’s ear. He knows how long it will take to walk from Montreal to Boston, until his feet are bloody. He knows what Ilya tastes like after he’s had a cup of coffee. He knows about all the women Ilya takes home. But Shane also knows Ilya talks in his sleep. These small intricacies of their love is what keeps Shane’s head above water. There’s only a hint of an ache when he hears Ilya’s name. Ilya kisses him and that ache is now more apparent. Ilya kisses him and he unravels. No one is to blame. It’s just the way these things go. But it wasn’t until that day in the locker room, when he heard the news, that he realized just how much he had to lose.
or, Ilya is lured away by his own sadness. Shane goes after him.
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17 Jun 2026