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    After tuna meltdown, Shane had to go back inside. What he saw changed everything.

    (Or, the lovers to friends to boyfriends fic that has eaten my brain.)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Your space is nice,” Hollander whispers back, leaning in, breath warm against Ilya’s chest. “Smells like mint.”

    Ilya stops breathing.

    Hollander’s eyes are half-lidded, dazed, soft in a way Ilya has never seen. “Ilya,” he murmurs.

    And Ilya nearly chokes. The first name. His actual first name. Whispered like something intimate. Sacred. They’ve never called each other by their first name. Always Hollander. Always Rozanov. Ilya is so stunned he almost doesn’t process the next words, almost can’t translate them despite living in the States for almost four years now.

    or: ilya is spiraling about what his roomate could be doing on a random tuesday night. he's not prepared when the night takes an unexpected turn.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s thumb rubs slow circles into his hip, gaze dark and locked on him. “You’re doing so well, moya lyubov'.”
    Shane whimpers.
    “Such a good boy. Look at you—riding me like a slut.”
    “Just—just for you,” Shane chokes out, blushing hard, hips stuttering. “I—f-fuck—”
    “I know,” Ilya says, sitting up a little now, his mouth curving into a grin, holding steady on Shane’s hips. “You’re so good for me.”

    or: shane is overstimulated. ilya takes care of him afterwards.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Shane gets called ‘boring.’ Ilya makes it worse by playing along. Shane tries to pretend it's fine. Ilya calls his bluff.

    Cue in a fight, a stubborn silence, a slammed door that never closes, and a tiny, broken sound that changes everything.


    “You say you’re boring, fine. You can be boring for the whole damn world. I’ll still kiss you senseless and drag you home after every game. I’ll still make you moan loud enough to shake the walls. None of that changes.”

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    27 Jun 2026

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    While trying something new in the bedroom, Shane uses his safeword and goes into subdrop.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    After a violent incident, Shane Hollander's management team and parents hire him a bodyguard.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has a "tiny car accident" (his words). Shane Hollander has a full-scale, system-shutdown panic attack about it. Meanwhile, a horrified Hayden is praying for someone to throw him in a lake and tell him that this is all just a big joke, or maybe for a meteor strike; he is really not picky. J.J., on the other hand, is trying to bleach the image of his sweet captain making out with Ilya fucking Rozanov from his brain.

    It's a very normal day for the Montreal Voyageurs.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Shane get's drunk on a night out in Boston with the Metro's, and Ilya is the only one who can get him to leave the club.

    "Hollander, no.” Ilya says as he pulls Shane's head to his chest. He begins stroking his cheek, wiping away the tears while he's there. “I don't hate you. I could never hate you. Never. Okay?”

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    27 Jun 2026

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    It was only December, and this was going to be the longest season of his life.

    Ilya is having a terrible night.

    He loses his phone, gets lost in Vancouver, and discovers he only knows one phone number by heart.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s face lit up with recognition at the song. “Oh, wait, I like this one!”
    Ilya watched in amused confusion as Shane stood suddenly and followed a bunch of Metros onto the dance floor. The remaining Metros hooted and hollered after him.
    Hayden grinned at the sight. “Right on the dot, three drink Shane.”
    Ilya looked at Hayden with an inquisitive look. “Three drink Shane?”
    Hayden nodded sagely. “We’ve only seen it twice. Because he hardly ever drinks and rarely more than one drink. But three drink Shane likes to dance.”

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane's search history autofills on Ilya's laptop when he borrows it. The suggestions are devastatingly specific:

    'how to ask for aftercare without sounding needy,'

    'signs your dom is getting bored,'

    'best lube for prolonged anal sex reddit.'

    Ilya stares at the screen, realizing Shane has been conducting independent research on how to be the perfect sub for him.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    At the age of 22, Shane Hollander has never had sex. Not because he doesn't want to, but because he's strict about only sleeping with someone he's truly committed to. Except for the past few months he's regularly making out with Ilya Rozanov, his best friend of three years, and it drives Ilya so crazy that Shane lets him go jerk off in the bathroom after nothing more than just kissing. But as the weeks pass and the want between them grows, Shane starts to realize that the person he's been waiting for might have been there all along.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s hands find his phone, another extension of himself that he doesn’t need to think about. He clicks the lock button, a picture of him and Shane from the wedding flashing across the screen. Shane looks radiant, smiling one of those rare, blinding things that Ilya wants to capture. He wishes he were an artist, he becomes compelled by the need to capture that particular smile. But it’s not got his full attention, not today. Today, he focuses on the date at the top of his screen.

    Twenty years. Twenty years since his mother died. Twenty years without her. Two decades since his heart was cleaved in two. Two decades since he cradled her lifeless hand in his and promised someone, anyone, he’d be a good boy, a better son, he’d give his own heart and soul and life if he could have five more minutes with her. Two decades since Ilya, the sweet, soft boy who loved to ride his bike and draw and sing off key as he helped his mother cook, ceased to exist. Twenty years of not knowing how to breathe around this crushing grief sitting on his chest.

    Or: It's been twenty years since Ilya's mother died. Shane holds him through the storm.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Hayden felt sick as he saw Shane glance between them and his own phone in J.J.’s hand, taking in what was probably his worst nightmare playing out right in front of him. Because Hayden could see it, within seconds, the way his face closed off, went blank, like he knew exactly what was happening because he’d been dreading it for so long.

    But his eyes, fuck, his eyes showed everything even as he went very still. The bone-deep profound terror was all there.

    Hayden wanted everything to stop, he wanted to shove J.J. out of the room, shove himself out of this situation, shove Shane out of harm’s way.

    “Why the fuck is Rozanov sexting you?”

    Hayden wanted to shove the shirt Shane hadn’t had time to put on in J.J.’s fucking mouth.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Episode Four: Shane tries something new to help Ilya come down from the stressful phone call with his dad. 

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    “You want to try something.” Ilya was still reeling from the call with his dad, but managed a nod. “Ok. What is it?”  

    “Well, if you want,“ Shane hesitated, half afraid Ilya would laugh at him for asking, half embarrassed over how bad he wanted to do it. “You can tell me if you don’t like it.” 

    “I like everything you do.” Ilya countered bluntly. “Hollander, everything you do is good. Why are you–” 

    “Can I hold you?” Shane asked, and Ilya didn’t understand, “You want to hold me?”

    “Yeah.” Shane slid off the couch to kneel on the floor.  “Like this.” He pulled Ilya’s pants down slowly, licking his lips and exhaling audibly shaky when he saw Ilya’s cock lying soft but thick against his thigh. “Can I hold you,” he inched closer between Ilya’s spread knees, running his fingers over his bottom lip in a purposeful invitation, “Like this?” 

    “Oh fuck.” Ilya gulped. “Yes.”

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    22 Jun 2026

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    “I fucked up,” Hayden breathed into the speaker, causing Ilya’s brows to furrow. He could hear Hayden pacing. “Like. Fucked, man. Way up.”

    “Is surprise?” Ilya retorted. “Hayden Pike fucking up. I am thinking this could have been text and not call. Not sure if you were aware, but I am about to-”

    “I think Shane is high,” Hayden blurted out, and Ilya’s face dropped.

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    Or the one where Shane is accidentally high at Hayden’s house watching Ilya play hockey, which is nice until it isn’t.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    He’s about to unlock the door when his phone buzzes, no doubt with an apology or an explanation. Someone screams outside of the bathroom. There’s a loud noise. More screams. What the-

    His phone buzzes again.

    Jane: don’t come out

    Jane: hide

    Jane: guns

    Jane: idk what’s happening

    Jane: call the cops

    Or

    Shane, Ilya, Scott Hunter and a bunch of MHL players find themselves in a hostage situation in the middle of the Las Vegas award ceremony. (Mid-situationship, the year pre-tuna melt).

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    Chapters:
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    190,158

    21 Jun 2026

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    “Hi Irina.”

    Ilya feels his blood still in his veins. His vision almost immediately blurs at the sound of his mother’s name falling so gently from Shane’s lips. Shane rambles something, almost to himself, before:

    “I’m Shane. Shane Hollander. And I’m in love with your son, Ilya.”

    Ilya’s breath catches, heart lurching in his chest, fluttering almost painfully as the realization hits him: He’s introducing himself to her.
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    .
    or Shane talks to Ilya’s mom, Ilya overhears.

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    52,285

    20 Jun 2026

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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

    -

    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    3,083
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    770
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    93,733

    20 Jun 2026

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