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To my dearest by mochababy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jun 2026
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“Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”
A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–
“Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”
Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.
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- Part 1 of a letter to my only (safe grounds)
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30 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov Is Not Scared Of Vomit (until he finds his mama) by Zambonis_forever
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Jul 2026
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“Bit of a rough night, hey bud?”
Ilya just nodded, biting his lip.
And just like that, the memories of last night came crashing back to him. The pub, being sick in the bathroom, ending up at Cliff's bedside, desperate for comfort from his memories. A poorly timed joke about choking. A woman’s voice coaching him to breathe over the phone. Cliff helping Ilya into pyjamas.
Fuck. He had some explaining to do.
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Ilya carries trauma from finding his mama long after she’s gone. Ilya’s PTSD explored through his and Cliff’s friendship over his years as a Boston Raider.
Major TW for Emetophobia. I would recommend skipping this one if vomit affects you. I’ll put individual TW in each chapter note.
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29 Jun 2026
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Growing Sideways by BriefExhalation
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jul 2026
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“Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”
“How bad is it?”
“Shane, please.”
“Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”
He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”
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After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?
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26 Jun 2026
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Ruben calls it a patch
Black ink over ugly skin. A joke over a scar. A filthy mouth, a big body, a lifetime spent making himself impossible to use
Then Niall touches his wrist and Ruben learns there are some things even black ink can’t keep buried
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- Part 6 of Two Sides of the Same Coin
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22 Jun 2026
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Shane and Ilya haven’t spoken to each other since they broke up over a misunderstanding at the 2017 All-Stars game. Ilya was traded from Boston to LA and they both tried to move on. But, in December of 2019, when Ilya ends up on injury reserve, he decides to make an unannounced trip to Montreal. He could have never foreseen the global pandemic just around the corner of that decision, and as the world crumbles around them, they find themselves isolated at the cottage for the longest offseason of their lives.
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What happens when the systems you have carefully built to keep yourself hidden and emotionally regulated are no longer available to you? What happens when the identity you built your life around becomes the thing you must let go of? What happens when isolation exposes the truth about yourself and everyone around you and there’s nowhere else to hide? What does Shane do then? What does Ilya do then? What ripples does that create beyond their relationship? What shape does their life become when honesty is no longer optional?
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19 Apr 2026