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In a prison made for monsters, Osamu Dazai is the one even monsters avoid.
Serving life for a string of brutal murders, he rules his cellblock with a smile and a secret kind of terror.
Then Chuuya Nakahara arrives—newly convicted, violently defiant, and impossible to break.
Dazai becomes obsessed.
In a world of locked doors, gang alliances, and corrupt guards, Chuuya finds himself trapped between survival and surrender as Dazai’s fixation turns deadly. Because Dazai doesn’t just want Chuuya close.
He wants him his.
And prison is the perfect place for a man like Dazai to prove that no one leaves once he decides they belong to him. -
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Dazai Osamu has never been particularly fond of birthdays. To him, they're just another reminder that another year has passed. Unfortunately for him, his boyfriend has other plans.
Determined to make the day special, Chuuya drags Dazai through a surprisingly perfect birthday filled with lazy cuddles, quiet moments, homemade cake, and more affection than Dazai knows how to handle. As the day unfolds, Dazai finds himself confronted with something far more terrifying than birthdays themselves—the realization that he is loved, cherished, and genuinely happy.
Or: Chuuya spends an entire day proving that Dazai deserves to be celebrated, and Dazai is extremely normal about it. (He is not.) 💙🎂
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- Part 2 of Birthday fic
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A mission ends with exactly one explosion, a city-wide storm, and Chuuya Nakahara being trapped beneath a café awning with the last person he wants to spend hours alone with.
Unfortunately, that person is Dazai Osamu.As rain floods the streets of Yokohama, the two fifteen-year-old partners find themselves passing the time through insults, ridiculous arguments, unwanted acts of kindness, and one very judgmental orange cat.
Neither of them would call it friendship.Neither of them would admit they enjoy each other's company.
But as the storm stretches into the evening, both begin to realize that some things have already settled between them—trust, familiarity, and a place beside one another that neither seems willing to leave.
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A rainy day, an orange cat, and two emotionally challenged teenagers accidentally being soft with each other.
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The Shape of Staying, Part II: Fever in Your Name by I_hate_living
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
23 May 2026
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When Chuuya gets sick, Dazai discovers two things very quickly:he is worse at handling it than he thought, and Chuuya is far more stubborn than any fever has a right to deal with.
Or: Chuuya refuses to rest, Dazai refuses to leave, and caretaking turns into something softer, sharper, and impossible to ignore.
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- Part 2 of Skk Sickfic + Fluff
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Dazai Osamu moves to a new city to escape the suffocating future his father has planned for him, only to become obsessed with the fiery red-haired neighbor smoking outside his window at midnight.
Chuuya Nakahara is an art student with expensive tastes, too many secrets, and a job he refuses to explain.
Neither of them expects the other to become impossible to ignore.
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Chuuya is in love with his boyfriend. He really, really is. After all, how can one not love their soulmate?
His boyfriend has one fatal flaw, though. The flaw can walk, talk, retort, offend, and, with a doubt, fly spaceships.
Chuuya doesn't fall in love with flaws. He falls in love with stability, precision, kindness, and wit.He doesn't know that Dazai has all of that, and much more.
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03 May 2026
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Dazai and the Moving Detective Agency by forest_raccoon
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
06 Mar 2024
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Chuuya has the misfortune to run into a very irritating wizard detective, and the next thing he knows, he's trapped in a tangled web of curses, weretigers, and scarecrows. He did not sign up for any of this.
[Or: A rather chaotic mashup of BSD and Howl's Moving Castle (both the book and movie canons)]
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- Part 1 of Tales from the Moving Detective Agency
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04 May 2025
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When Fuku begged Dazai to kill her excuse of a husband, he expected nothing more than fleeting amusement.
Then, the door opened.
And he saw her.
For the first time, the heart he thought long dead began to beat again.
From that moment, he knew—they were meant to be.
— Or: Dazai meets a neglectful mom and gets obsessed with her kid.
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22 Apr 2025
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Sasori doesn’t pay for tenderness. He pays for control. For excess that drowns out everything else. But with Deidara, the lines blur between power and surrender, possession and desire.
It's a game of dominance, obsession and the sweet poison of addiction.
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16 Apr 2025
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Deidara did not like talking about his upbringing. He didn't want the sympathy or the pitying looks. He especially did not want it getting credit for his obsession with destruction, violent outbursts or need for approval. For his art. That was all him, thank you very much.
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Deidara grows up, becomes a missing nin, joins the Akatsuki and somehow manages to find purpose along the way.
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16 Apr 2025