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  1. Public Bookmark 41

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    "You're not dead," Pomni said with a frown. "Not yet, at least. You're just — indisposed."

    At that, Jax gave her a long look as his mouth narrowed out into a little line. Then he sighed quietly. It wasn't the way he used to sigh, with dramatic posturing that begged the attention from anyone even remotely listening. It was small. Tired. Reflexive. Then he sat down with his knees to his chest, glaring into the dark water. The only light here, a single streetlamp, glowed weakly.

    "Denial is an ugly color on you. Clashes with your stupid hat."

    "Jax — "

    "I'm gone," he snapped. His voice echoed in the abyss. "Don't you get it? No one comes back from Abstraction. You're not saving me, you're not helping me grow. All you're doing is keeping my body from rotting." Jax's hands worked their way up to his head, squeezing as he growled, "You're talking to a ghost."


    or, a post-canon fix-it fic, featuring the De-Abstraction of Jax. It's messy and it takes time, but it's never too late to try.

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    14 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 16

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    Jax shuts himself away from the rest of the circus, drowning in his own anger and self-loathing. Days blur into weeks, and he convinces himself that maybe it’s better this way—that no one wants to see him anyway.

    But Pomni doesn’t leave him alone. She doesn’t knock down the door, doesn’t push, doesn’t demand. Instead, she slips little notes and doodles beneath the crack, quiet reminders that someone is still waiting for him on the other side.

    Sometimes, the smallest gestures are enough to keep someone from falling apart.

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    08 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 77

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    It's been a few months since the group has escaped the circus, and things are going well, for the most part. They've got jobs, hobbies, relationships, and they've all jumped back into life with more vigor than ever before. It's good. Almost. Jax thinks that's a sign, in a weird way, that perhaps all of this isn't as worthy as it seems. That he's not as worthy. Not that it matters.

    And so, on one random Sunday night, Jax decides he's going to take his own life.

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    Author wanted to write a character study about Jax coping in the real world while also learning to see himself as a person.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.

    Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.

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    29 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 45

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    Shane has long noticed the scars and burns on Ilya’s hands, but he’s never confronted him about them, until one quiet morning when he traces the marks while Ilya sleeps. The vulnerability of the moment exposes the depth of Shane’s concern and Ilya’s self destructive tendencies. Their tension escalates as Shane struggles with helplessness, and Ilya vacillates between shutting him out and craving closeness.

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    23 Jan 2026