HeartzzForMoreid
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Spencer is fucking depressed and kills himself idk
I didn't realize this was shorter than my usual fic but i'm posting it anyways
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"So he continues to isolate himself, continues to cut himself, continues with his wish to leave this earth. "
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"Spencer Reid wakes up in a hospital bed, his head pounding and his arms aching a dull pain. He has no clue how he ended up here, but he can somewhat make out Derek sitting in a chair in the corner of the room. He feels a no-longer familiar itch in the crook of his elbow, going to scratch at it leads him to discovering nothing but an IV. His eyes follow it upwards and he realizes it's administering NSAIDs into his bloodstream. All of a sudden the memories from last night come flooding back."
AKA accidental suicide attempt...because why not?
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Spencer wants to kill himself, the silly people in his computer unknowingly stop him.
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"It didn't really hit him until he was texting the moderator of the Chess Forum that he might be MIA for a little. That didn't stop him from sending the text, becoming aware of the fact he was going to kill himself didn't stop the thoughts."
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- Part 3 of Chess Forum Series
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The suicide notes of a passively suicidal Spencer Reid (with a hint of moreid this time)
This is apart of a series, but you do not necessarily need to read Chess Forum to read this.
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"Up to 42% of suicidal people wrote notes to their loved ones, these were his most recent drafts."
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- Part 2 of Chess Forum Series
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Spencer Reid is passively suicidal, but some unlikely friendships keep him going.
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"He wasn't going to kill himself, but he does have letters written for the day he ultimately died. He had one for each member of his team that stated it wasn't their fault, one for his mother saying how grateful he was to call her his mother, and even some for the online chess forum he was a part of. It was kind of like a group chat, one with people all over the world with the same interest in chess. He’s grown quite close to those people online, some he’d even call his best friends outside of work, they make each day he doesn't get hit by a car or shot dead by an unsub bearable. "
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- Part 1 of Chess Forum Series
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Spencer Reid is passively suicidal (mostly) and this random Chess Forum he came across one day makes every breath more breathable
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Spencer had been ambivalent about February before joining the BAU. Ambivalent for his first two years on the job.
Ambivalent until February 7th 2005.
Now, Spencer's February ambivalence had been snatched away from him by three days in a freezing cabin.
Now, February was about survival.
One year after the events of Revelations. Spencer endures the first anniversary of his addiction as he's done with every other associated milestone, alone. Until a case brings everything bubbling to the surface and forces him to face his demons.
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12 Jun 2026
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Spencer doesn't expect it to work.
His pickpocketing skills are lackluster at best, even with his experience in magic tricks, after however long being tortured and drugged in captivity.
He sits on his bed not even a week later, the vials sitting on his bedside table like a taunt as he stares, feels the itch deep under his skin that he knows is withdrawal but feels is death.
And there's only one way to alleviate it.
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Spencer's addiction, and the ways he falls apart.
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12 Jun 2026
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A few weeks after Emily's "death", Hotch gets a call in the middle of the night from Reid. Reid says he locked himself out of his apartment and Hotch is the only one with a spare key but Hotch can tell that this isn't the only reason Reid called.
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12 Jun 2026
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Yeah, Like a Bomb Going Off Next to Him by IdLike2SayBeautifulThingsButIDontKnowHow
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
08 Apr 2025
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The BAU team is investigating a case of a serial bomber - but when two of their own get caught up in the explosion, closely guarded secrets and hidden desires will all come tumbling out.
A.K.A. Building collapse + Drug withdrawal + Previously unexpressed feelings = This fic.
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12 Jun 2026
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Spencer has been released from prison and he's so done with everything that he makes the rash decision to try and end his life.
However, one member of the team isn't going to let him do that so easily.
I started this a long time ago but hit a wall with it.
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12 Jun 2026