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Good morning, baby (I hope I'm gonna make it through another day) by Madame_Isabel
Fandoms: True Detective (TV 2014)
03 May 2024
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“People respond to trauma in weird ways, Marty. There are psychological displacement effects. And obviously I contributed to all this by- Look, whatever you think you feel right now, it’s highly likely that at some point you’re going to freak out that I tried to turn you gay or something.”
“I am not going to- First of all, I’m not going to fucking ‘freak out’. Second, I am obviously not gay. I don’t know whether I’m bisexual or whether for some bizarre reason my heart and my dick have decided to make an exception specifically for you, of all people-”
Rust nearly dies (again), and Marty comes to a realization.
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“You think with your dick,” Rust says, when Marty’s got him pinned back against the lockers. “You wanna fuck me same as you wanna beat the shit out of me, just to see if you can.”
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Some little scene sketches from early in Marty and Rust's partnership, and parts of the 1995 investigation. Not in chronological order.
In Louisiana Rust creates his own structure. His work is necessary and not overtly cruel to the larger human organism of which he is a part. He is entitled to the things that allow him to do the work: mattress, cigarettes, books, shoes.
He is not entitled to Marty but has ended up with him anyway. This will backfire.
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He hasn't slept in forty hours and it's too loud under his skin. He's got a beer and a new cracked tooth, one of the front ones, but Ginger’s watching him like he’s Miss Tits America.
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The first night Marty gets Rust home and put to bed he whimpers like an old hound dog in his sleep, making these ripped-raw noises that well and gurgle up past his lips like fresh blood from the hole in his gut all over again. Doesn’t know he’s doing it, course not, but Marty lays there next to him in the dark—the man’s only got one bed, ain’t no shame in that—and has to wonder about the Vietnam-grade shit Rust’s got playing in living technicolor in his head.
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- Part 1 of What We've Got Verse
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They don’t talk, which, Marty usually got something to say when they’re eating, something idle about the news or sports or the weather, and that he ain’t talking means that he’s probably thinking about it too, the touch of his hand across the line of Rust’s ribs, the way that line is burning under Rust’s borrowed flannel.
— 2012. a night, then a morning, then a night again.
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- Part 12 of hunger and haunt
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Submission is a matter of handling someone. Rust hates to drive but he’s going to need something to do with his hands, with his eyes, some lost hall of memory to fall back into as Marty says, “Gay rodeo,” twitchy in the passenger seat, and, “What d’ya make of that, huh?”
— October 2000, Rust and Marty catch a case that has two worlds colliding.
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- Part 7 of hunger and haunt
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In the glow of the lighter, watching it dissolve in the pit of the spoon, Rust’s profile is put together like something handsome drawn only from memory, the connective tissue slightly off, lines configuring without anything soft or warm in it. Marty wants to touch that cheekbone. Hit it, maybe. Find out if it’s really as unyielding as it looks.
— the night after Ledoux, Marty and Rust each seek out a different sort of release.
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- Part 5 of hunger and haunt
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His Christmas list would be blank, not because he’s short of things to want but he’s somehow forgotten how.
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- Part 3 of hunger and haunt
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