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  1. Public Bookmark 29

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    How do you refer to yourself when your older brother is gone? When your father can't look at you in the eye? When your sisters just cry and your mother screams?

    What do you call yourself when all you feel is guilt and the blood of your brother staining your hands.

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    05 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 34

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    Lo’ak can pinpoint the exact moment Dad’s brain catches up with his mouth. But the words are out there, and the world doesn’t end, not like Lo’ak had pictured it would once his father finally said what he’s been saying for weeks with his indifference. In his head, he’d imagined the worst. Some eruption, or a moon blowing to pieces above them.

    There’s nothing explosive about it, but the ground beneath him still feels like it’s going to give.

    Or, Neteyam survives.

    So why does Lo’ak still feel like he's grieving?

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    16 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 66

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    “Ma Jake.” Her hands pause in their ministrations. “You are too hard on him. He is hurting too.”
    There’s a long silence where his father doesn’t say anything.
    “I know.” He takes a heavy breath. “But I don’t know how else to get through to him. He’s so stubborn and hardheaded-”
    “Like you,” Mom admonishes.
    Dad is quiet for a long stretch. Then: “Yeah,” he admits softly. “Like me.”
    Something cold settles in the gap behind Lo’ak’s ribs, snatching his breath. He holds himself still.

    With the aftermath of his attempt hanging over his head, Lo'ak is struggling to keep himself afloat.

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    16 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 74

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    Lo’ak is shuddering hard with each breath. His lips are pulled back, teeth bared a little. Grey around the mouth. Eyes open but not really seeing anything. But Jake can see Lo’ak’s chest going up and down in big pulls, and all he feels is relief. For a second, that’s all that matters. His son is breathing and alive. But the relief, however strong, bleeds out, and all he's left with is dread because something is very, very wrong.

     

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    Lo'ak walks to a beach with his dad's rifle. Jake finds out.

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    16 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 38

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    Lo’ak’s dad won’t look at him.

    It’s like a tension has been building between the two of them since the war started, and Neteyam’s death froze it in place temporarily.

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    Jake can’t look at his son’s face. He can’t look at Lo’ak, without seeing Neteyam.

    “Son,”

     

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    Jake and Lo'ak in the aftermath

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    16 May 2026