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    “Nothing you could ever ask would be too weird.” Ilya said, hauling him back in for a kiss. Shane knew Ilya would taste his own sweat in his mouth.

    “Nothing? There's literally nothing I could ask that would make you want to stop?” Shane asked, trying to build courage to ask for something that has prickled at his brain for quite some time now.

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    Shane and Ilya get down and dirty outside.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Eight years after their divorce, Ilya and Shane have become experts at avoiding each other. They only speak when absolutely necessary, never hold each other's gaze for too long, barely make eye contact, and never talk about what happened. But ignoring one another becomes nearly impossible when they're still raising two children.
    One day, Ilya gets into what seems to be a serious argument with their oldest daughter, and Shane is forced to step in. Suddenly, everything they've spent years avoiding begins to surface.

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    Shane was about to break an unspoken rule.
    Because every time he and Ilya got together to talk, they ended up fucking.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.

    Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”

    Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”

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    Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever

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    31 May 2026

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    “It won’t stop,” Shane said to the floor. His hands slid down and grabbed at his crotch, rubbing frantically over his boxers. “I can’t make it stop.”

    They were still in the fucking hallway, and yes, it was six in the morning, but it was not private. Anyone could walk in, from their own apartments or the elevator. And Shane wasn’t exactly being quiet, gasping and groaning as he massaged himself. Viagra didn’t do this. It didn’t make you lose all sense of space, of boundaries, of… yourself.

    This wasn’t normal. This wasn’t natural.

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    The morning after Ilya watches Shane and Rose together at the club, he gets a call from Shane. Something is wrong, and Shane says Ilya is the only one who can fix it. Ilya knows it's a bad idea, but that's never stopped him before.

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    17 May 2026

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    “You’re home,” Shane breathed. He sounded relieved. Like he had been waiting for him, like he wanted Ilya there. 

    Ilya felt something blossom in his chest, something only Shane knew how to grow. 

    “I did not know you knew how to make shchi.”

    “I don’t,” Shane said with a laugh, his face turning even redder. He was embarrassed, Ilya realized. “It’s kind of a ‘learn as I go’ thing.”

    Ilya took a step forward, surveying the kitchen. “So you decided to learn today? Did I miss special occasion, is it National Treat Your Russian Boyfriend Day?”

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    i just really wanted ilya to be shanes baby im sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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    07 May 2026