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The blank Word document illuminates Yoongi's screen menacingly, the man wants to groan at it. He would if he wasn't in a quiet library right now. He needs to write this paper for tomorrow and he hasn't started yet.
Not that it was really Yoongi’s fault.
He's been distracted lately, or he has been for the past few months. It's not easy to work on your homework when you have someone demanding your constant attention.
He's lucky that I love him.
Not that Yoongi told him that, the black-haired man isn't sure if he's ready to hear it himself.
He wonders if the younger will be clingier once he builds up the courage to confess.
Is that even possible?
He writes one word for his essay, then deletes it. He writes a whole sentence, but ends up deleting that too.
Maybe I should just quit university at this point. Who needs a degree anyway?
The music from his headphones stops playing all of a sudden and Yoongi picks up his phone in confusion. The caller ID "Sunshine" shows up on his screen and a small smile tugs at his lips.
Of course.
He debates ending the call and texting Hoseok instead, telling him that he's working on his paper. But Yoongi does want to talk to him.
He's not making much progress right now anyway.
Yoongi answers the call and puts his phone down before speaking in a hushed voice. "What's up Seok?"
"Why does it sound like you're hiding and don't want to be heard?" He hears a gasp from the other end. "You aren't hiding under someone's bed are you?"
"No Hoseok, I would never cheat on you." Yoongi rolls his eyes. "I'm in the library working on my psych paper due tomorrow."
"You aren't done that yet?" He hears shuffling on the other line. "I thought you said you would stop procrastinating?"
"Yeah well I have a very needy boyfriend-"
"I am not needy!"
"Right." Yoongi looks out the window, smiling like an idiot. "So then I shouldn't be expecting you at the library now that I told you I'm here?"
The silence on the other line confirms his assumptions.
"You're mean." Hoseok huffs and Yoongi rolls his eyes again.
"Whatever you say. Was that the only reason you called me? To see where I was?"
"No, I didn't call you for that!"
Yoongi tilts his head. "Then why did you call me?"
"To see if you wanted to go eat lunch."
As much as Yoongi longed for a lunch date with Hoseok, he couldn't afford another late assignment.
The older man sighs. "I'm sorry Seok, I really need to finish this paper. I barely started." He looks at the blank Word documents and frowns. "We will have to do it another time."
"Okay." Hoseok doesn’t sound disappointed and Yoongi is relieved. The last thing he wants to do is make Hoseok sad or upset. "Have you eaten yet?"
"No, I'll eat after this paper." He has a bad habit living off of coffee, something that Hoseok now worries about. Yoongi tries to eat to give him a peace of mind, but he often forgets to.
"I'll bring you a sandwich from the food bar. You won't be able to finish your paper if all you can think about is how hungry you are."
Yoongi is about to tell him how he actually isn't hungry, but he keeps his mouth shut. He isn't going to complain if the younger man wants to do something nice for him.
"Thank you."
"You don't need to. That's what boyfriends are for, right?" More shuffling is heard from the other line. "I'll see you soon okay?"
"Okay Seok, see you soon."
He hears Hoseok hang up the phone and his music comes back at full force, making him jump slightly. He squares his shoulders in embarrassment and looks at his paper again, now ready to actually start.
I should do as much as I can before Hoseok gets here, I don't want to waste any more time.
He does write a good few sentences but keeps getting distracted by the people passing by the window. With each person that goes by, he watches to make sure it isn’t Hoseok. Yoongi is nose deep in his essay when Hoseok does appear, a sandwich in one hand and a coffee in the other.
"Look at you being productive." Hoseok flashes a smile at Yoongi.
"The sandwich gives me motivation."
"I knew it would." The younger man takes a seat next to him and Yoongi removes an earbud. "What are you listening to?"
"Our playlist." He takes the sandwich and starts to unravel the plastic.
"Can I listen?"
Yoongi nods and Hoseok puts the earbud in his ear. The couple made their playlist a month ago. It consists mostly of songs that one of them wanted to share with the other. Sometimes Yoongi likes to add songs that remind him of Hoseok. It's something simple, but warms Yoongi whenever he listens to it.
"I'm going to Namjoon's house after school," Yoongi tells Hoseok before taking a bite out of his sandwich.
"Is this your way of telling me I can't come over today?" Hoseok gives a playful smile. "You don't have to hang out with me all the time you know, if we hang out too much you might get sick of me."
Yoongi rolls his eyes. "Who says I'm not already?"
This earns a playful shove and Yoongi chuckles silently.
"When's your next class?" Yoongi asks after swallowing.
"In an hour and a half, but I might end up skipping." Hoseok lays back on his chair. "It's not like I need it for my major anyway."
"Yeah, but you need to pass."
The younger man sighs. "Why do you have to be a good influence?"
"Why do you have to be a bad one?" Yoongi retorted.
Hoseok grins and Yoongi takes another bite.
"Can I go to your place tomorrow?"
Yoongi looks over at his boyfriend. "Why not your place?"
"Because my parents will be there." Hoseok gives Yoongi a smile. "And your parents are never home."
The black-haired man suddenly feels nervous. Why would it matter if his parents are home?
Yoongi has been in a few relationships before being with Hoseok, he knows what a partner expects after being in a relationship for this long. Usually couples would have fooled around by now.
He knows Hoseok wants to. His boyfriend has tried to make subtle advances in the past, but Yoongi always avoided it.
Because truthfully Yoongi isn't ready to be like that with Hoseok, with anyone. And he is not sure if he ever will be.
He is scared to tell Hoseok. He is scared the younger man will run from him. Yoongi doesn't think he can handle that, not after already falling hard for him.
"Uh yeah, we can go to my place." Yoongi takes another bite, hoping it's not obvious that he's purposefully not making eye contact with Hoseok.
"Great! Can't wait then."
Yoongi can feel Hoseok's stare on him. He ignores him and finishes his sandwich before crumbling up the plastic. "As fun as it is talking to you, I need to actually get work done now."
He sees Hoseok smile from the corner of his eye. "Okay I'll work too, since you're such a good influence."
Yoongi rolls his eyes playfully before sitting on the chair properly and he begins to start typing. Yoongi is thankful that Hoseok actually works too, not interrupting or distracting Yoongi whatsoever. The black-haired man does spare a few glances at his boyfriend, he catches Hoseok doing the same. But they stay silent as they work. It isn't until Yoongi reaches the conclusion and stretches that he notices Hoseok is continuously staring at him.
"What? Do I have something on my face?" Yoongi looks at his boyfriend, who does not stop staring.
"Nah." He smiles.
"Then why do you keep staring at me like that?"
"You're just so pretty, how could I not?"
Yoongi's ears darken and he looks away, stifling a cough. "Stop doing that."
"Aww come on, you deserve to hear it."
"Uh huh." Yoongi tries to busy himself with his essay. "Stop staring and do your homework."
"I'm done with it though." Hoseok lays back in his chair. "And I would rather watch you work."
I highly doubt that.
Yoongi doesn't respond and starts to type. He is almost done regardless. It should not take him much longer.
Or it shouldn't have, if Hoseok wasn't such a distraction.
"Hoseok-"
"I'm not doing anything! Just watching." Hoseok throws his hands up in surrender. He has moved his chair so close to Yoongi’s that their thighs are practically touching. "Continue your homework, you don't want to keep Namjoon waiting."
Yoongi gives his boyfriend a knowing look before continuing his essay.
Yoongi is surprised when Hoseok sits there silently, watching him work like he said.
That was until Hoseok places a hand on Yoongi's thigh.
"Hoseok-"
"What? My hands are cold." Hoseok gives him an innocent look, but a smile tugs at his lips.
Yoongi rolls his eyes and tries to ignore it. He's almost done with his conclusion when Hoseok rests his head on Yoongi's shoulder. Yoongi doesn't say anything this time, but his cheeks heat up from the PDA.
I should be used to it by now anyway, Hoseok does stuff like this all the time.
He loves that Hoseok is so clingy, he just wishes it only happened behind closed doors.
Yoongi finally finishes his conclusion and sighs, relieved he finally has it all written.
"Hey good job!" He can feel Hoseok smiling. "Now you just need to review it."
"Which I will be doing tonight." He closes his laptop. "It shouldn't take long."
"Then you should do it now." Hoseok looks up at him, his head not leaving Yoongi's shoulder. "Tell Namjoon you need to stay a little longer to finish it."
"Is this just a way to get me to stay with you?" Yoongi looks down at Hoseok, who now has a pout on his face.
"Maybe."
Yoongi opens up his laptop. "Okay, might as well correct it now so that it's out of the way."
He can feel Hoseok give his leg a little squeeze and Yoongi smiles. He goes over his paper slowly. Not only does he not want to correct his essay at the moment, but he enjoys Hoseok being so close to him- despite them being in a library.
At least we are in the corner of the room where people don't tend to notice.
Yoongi does finish reviewing his essay within a short amount of time. He decides to submit it then and there, knowing he wouldn't look through it again before just submitting it regardless.
"I'm surprised how fast you did that essay, it got assigned to you a week ago." Hoseok is looking up at Yoongi again. "You did a good job."
Yoongi closes his laptop for the second time, his face heating up from the compliment. "I work better under pressure."
Hoseok hums in acknowledgment and closes his eyes.
"Hey you can't sleep, I need to pack up." Yoongi shakes the younger man slightly, who refuses to open his eyes.
"Just five more minutes."
"My shoulder can't be that comfortable."
Hoseok doesn't respond and Yoongi decides to detach himself from the tired man, standing up and grabbing his laptop.
"Hey!"
"Find another shoulder to sleep on"
"Are you suggesting I use the shoulders of other guys?"
Yoongi stills for a moment. "No,"
"Because I will if you want me to." He's now resting his head against his hand. "I'm sure lots of guys would allow me to."
"Ask girls."
"Not as comfy." Hoseok shrugs. "Guys have broader shoulders."
"Then ask Jimin."
"He has a boyfriend!"
"So do you." Yoongi rolls his eyes as he puts the laptop in his book bag.
"One who's shoulder isn't available for me to use."
Yoongi huffs, turning to face the other man. "I'll let you use my shoulder tomorrow. Right now I need to meet up with Namjoon."
"Fine," The younger man stands up, a smirk on his face. "As long as you'll let me use other body parts too."
Yoongi stands there, obviously confused. He doesn't stand there looking stupid for long, because Hoseok gives him a kiss and is already leaving before Yoongi could ask him what he meant. Yoongi doesn't even get to say goodbye back.
It isn't until Yoongi is also walking out the door when he realises the implication of the younger's words.
Oh,
oh .
Yoongi frowns but keeps walking. He isn't as excited as he should be for tomorrow.
It's obvious he's expecting us to take it to the next step.
Yoongi isn't sure how to tell Hoseok. He should have told him months ago before they got serious.
Now I'm in for a lot of shit, and a lot of heartbreak .
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"Maybe I should just have sex with him anyway."
"Now that is something you are not going to do." Namjoon looks up from his phone, watching Yoongi who is sprawled out on the couch. "It's not that he's not good looking." Yoongi sighs, looking up at the ceiling. "He is, like really really pretty."
"But you hate sex."
"I don't hate it." Yoongi mumbles "I just only want to do it like... once a year."
"You need to tell him Yoongi, you should have already."
Namjoon is repeating what he already knows and the older man is getting annoyed. Yoongi pushes his hair back.
"Or I can pretend I'm not ace."
"That's borderline rape."
"Not if I give him consent."
Namjoon is now fully looking at the man on the couch, his gaze full of disapproval. "How do you think Hoseok will react if he finds out that you didn't like the sex? He will feel like he raped you."
"Okay okay, I get it." The shorter man runs a hand over his face. "I need to tell him."
"Tomorrow."
His stomach churned at the thought of it. "He's going to break up with me."
Namjoon's face softens. "You don't know that for sure."
"People like sex Namjoon, most people can't live without it."
"He's stupid to break up with you because of it."
"No, he wouldn't be." Yoongi rolls over to his side to face the younger. "I've been in three relationships, Namjoon. Three. And guess how many of them ended because I was asexual?"
Namjoon doesn't respond, so Yoongi does it for him. "All three of them."
"You'll find someone who cares more for you than sex eventually Yoongi, they're out there somewhere."
He hopes it's Hoseok. He knows he shouldn't be giving himself the hope that his boyfriend would stay with him. He can't help but hope that Hoseok might also love him back, regardless of Yoongi's sex drive.
"You need to tell him tomorrow, Yoongi." Namjoon's look is stern. "Before you fall harder."
Yoongi looks at his best friend, swallowing.
If only he knew how far I've fallen.
"I will, I'll tell him tomorrow."
Namjoon gives a small smile. "I'm sure Hoseok will understand. Everyone can see how crazy he is for you, there's no way he wouldn't want to stay with you."
He might not. Not many people would give up their sex life, regardless of the reason.
"Would you give up sex to be with Seokjin?" He's asked this question before, so he expects the answer.
"I would trade anything to be with Seokjin." He has a serious look on his face. Yoongi can tell his eyes are brighter with the mention of his partner.
Yet he still doubts his answer. Saying you'll be giving up sex when you aren't horny is a lot easier than when you are.
"Most people aren't sex crazed maniacs, Yoongi." Namjoon chuckles.
"Have you ever denied sex?"
Namjoon laughs. "Of course I have. Plenty of people have."
"Really?"
"I don't want sex all the time." Namjoon rolls his eyes, to which Yoongi responds. "You act like you do."
"I do not!"
"I bet you are thinking of Seokjin's dick right now."
Namjoon blinks before responding. "I am not."
"You are now."
The younger man grabs a pillow from behind him before throwing it at Yoongi. "I hate you."
Yoongi chuckles and Namjoon says something that makes Yoongi's thoughts stop. "What about you? Have you ever thought of Hoseok's dick?"
"Maybe once."
"Asexual people don't go thinking of other people's dicks, Yoongi."
"Just because I have an intrusive thought doesn't mean I was turned on!" Yoongi throws the pillow back at Namjoon.
Namjoon catches the pillow. "Would you be upset if Hoseok denied you sex the one time a year you wanted it?"
"Of course not." Regardless if he wished to do it, the feeling would erase as soon as Hoseok utters the word "no".
"Then why do you think it wouldn't be the same with Hoseok?"
"Because my other partners didn't think the way I do."
"You mean your loser boyfriend, your dumbass boyfriend and your jerk of a girlfriend?"
"That boyfriend you just called a loser paid for my car when I got into an accident, he can't be that much of a loser."
"He claimed he loved you then dumped you after you figured out you were ace." Namjoon reminds him, and Yoongi's heart gives a painful squeeze.
The scenario reminds Yoongi too much of the present. Yoongi might love Hoseok, but that doesn’t mean the younger man feels the same way.
Even if he does, it might not change anything.
"Maybe the sex was just bad, maybe he ruined me for everyone else." Yoongi isn't being serious. He tried to have sex with his second ex but stopped midway, it doesn’t interest him at all. He is definitely asexual.
Or some type of asexual anyway.
The issue is that Yoongi can get hard. He jacks off somewhat often, but under certain circumstances.
Which makes it hard for people to believe him or take him seriously.
Back then Yoongi didn't have the answers to their questions, he was still trying to figure himself out.
He still doesn't. But he knows himself enough that having sex regularly isn't what he wants.
Yoongi sighs, closing his eyes and laying on his back.
"Why can't I just be normal?"
"Some people say normal is boring."
"Yeah well, I don't need this much excitement in my life."
"Just talk to Hoseok. You know more now then you did back then."
Yoongi doesn't reply. Talking to Hoseok about this isn't something he wants to do, at all. The conversation could end in so many ways.
Or maybe the younger man will accept him for who he is. Maybe he'll be satisfied with just a few fucks a year.
Maybe he likes his hand better anyway .
"Do you want to see a before and after picture of when I did Seokjin's eyebrows?"
Yoongi looks over at Namjoon. " You did Seokjin's eyebrows? I need to see this"
Yoongi is grateful for Namjoon's distraction, but the worry still lingers in the back of his mind.
He just hopes tomorrow goes smoothly.
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The next day goes by quicker than Yoongi wants. He shouldn't be feeling this way about Hoseok coming over, especially when they have not seen each other since yesterday. He shouldn't be feeling so scared when the doorbell rings, he should be excited.
But he opens the door with a smile regardless and welcomes Hoseok in.
"Wowww your place looks nice." Hoseok takes off his shoes and coat before walking around. "It looks so clean, did you clean all day?"
"Yeah, had nothing else to do." Which is a lie, the homework Yoongi has to do is piling up with each day. But he needed to get his mind off of tonight.
"You should have called me! I could have come over earlier and we could've spent the day together." Hoseok pouts.
And get broken up with faster? I would rather have a boyfriend for as long as possible.
But the younger man doesn't say that. "I'm sorry, I just assumed you were busy."
Hoseok sits on the couch, patting the spot beside him. "I'll only forgive you if we cuddle."
Yoongi rolls his eyes. "We always cuddle." But he sits down next to his boyfriend who wastes no time in hugging him tightly. Yoongi rolls his eyes. "If you want to cuddle properly, you're going to have to let me go."
"But you're so warm." Hoseok inhales. "And you smell so good."
"You can hold and smell me in a lying position, you know." Yoongi chuckles and tries to manoeuvre them to a lying position. Hoseok is now laying directly on Yoongi, his face in the crook of his neck.
"You're a little heavy." Yoongi huffs, wrapping his arms around his boyfriend.
"Am not." The younger mumbles.
They lay like that in silence and Yoongi is more than thankful. He was so scared for tonight, but maybe Hoseok doesn't want to have sex after all.
Maybe I read the signals wrong. Maybe he's not ready for it either.
They sit in silence for so long that Yoongi almost thinks Hoseok is asleep. He starts playing with his hair absentmindedly.
"We should put on a movie." He hears Hoseok mumble.
"What movie?"
"Doesn't matter." Hoseok shifts so that his head is now laying on Yoongi's chest. "Something romantic."
"You don't want to watch a comedy this time?" Yoongi teases him as he grabs the remote sitting on the top of the couch.
"No, not in the mood."
Yoongi gets nervous again, but tries not to let it show as he scrolls through Netflix.
What are you in the mood for then?
"Oh, let's watch that one."
"Is it any good?" Yoongi asks as he clicks on the movie.
"No idea, never heard of it before."
Yoongi snorts but doesn't complain. Hoseok is one to judge a book by its cover. "Well I guess we will both be surprised then."
The movie starts and Hoseok shifts so he's propped up more. As the movie continues, Yoongi gets more and more frustrated with the main character and grows bored of the movie. He turns to Hoseok and is about to ask him if he's actually finding the movie interesting, but Hoseok is already staring at him.
Before Yoongi could ask what was wrong, Hoseok leans in and kisses him. Yoongi doesn't hesitate to kiss back, cupping the younger's jaw and pulling him closer.
Hoseok tastes so familiar, Yoongi loves it.
Yoongi loves him.
Hoseok deepens the kiss, and Yoongi follows his lead. He feels his boyfriend move, but is too focused on not detaching from Hoseok to pay much attention to it.
Hoseok moves to Yoongi's lap and pulls him closer, not being able to breathe, not being able to stop touching each other.
Hoseok runs his hands up Yoongi's shirt and touches his sides, his cold hands leaving goosebumps.
Yoongi doesn't back down and continues to kiss the younger man, not letting go.
Lost in arousal, Hoseok grinds down on Yoongi's crotch, and Yoongi freezes.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Hoseok doesn't let go of Yoongi, his hands still dancing along his sides as he grinds down once more.
Yoongi pulls away, panting. Hoseok does the same, looking confused.
"What's wrong?" Yoongi almost wonders how Hoseok knows the older is disturbed. But he isn't hiding the fact that he wants to stop making out, that he pulled away right before it got too heated.
"I... well..."
Now, tell him now. He can almost hear Namjoon's voice in his mind as Hoseok stares at him.
But Hoseok looks disappointed, and Yoongi can’t help it when he chickens out.
"I want to watch the rest of the movie."
It's a lame excuse and Yoongi dreads Hoseok's response. But his boyfriend stays silent. Instead, he nods before adjusting himself so he's sitting on the couch. Hoseok faces the TV with a straight face. Yoongi's heart sinks but he swings his legs so he's now mimicking the younger's position, watching the TV.
Yoongi hates how the air around them feels so awkward now. He hates how Hoseok's expression is now unreadable.
He knows he needs to tell Hoseok, but he can't bring himself to. Hoseok looked so disappointed when he stopped him. How disappointed would he be if Yoongi told him he only wants it rarely?
He doesn't think his heart can handle the breakup. He loves Hoseok too much, what's the point of life without him in it?
But I can't put it off forever, he's going to start asking questions.
Hoseok feels so far away, now sitting on the opposite end of the couch. Yoongi needs to tell him soon.
But not now . He tells himself. Hoseok is already upset with the rejection, it's too fresh. Next time we are alone.
It's moments like these where Yoongi wishes he weren't dating at all. He wouldn't be in this situation if he rejected Hoseok when he asked him out.
He wonders if Hoseok will regret confessing when Yoongi tells him the truth.
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Yoongi means to tell Hoseok, he really does, but two weeks goes by and he hasn't been able to.
Namjoon tells him he's had plenty of opportunities to let his boyfriend know that he doesn't want sex as often as most people do, but he can't bring himself to.
Hoseok has been touchier than usual, more intimate. He's even been dressing differently, wearing crop tops and skinny jeans which leaves Yoongi finding it harder to tell him with each passing day. Hoseok seems like he wants to take the next step more than ever, and the disappointment on his face whenever Yoongi pushes him away is too much to bear.
Yoongi once considered doing it over text, but Namjoon assured him that Hoseok would most certainly break up with Yoongi if he were to do that.
They're sitting in Yoongi's living room again, both in different chairs. Which is odd for Hoseok, but Yoongi reminds himself the brunette has been acting odd all week. They are sitting in comfortable silence with Yoongi scrolling on his phone. Yoongi assumed it was comfortable, but Hoseok says something that makes him look up in confusion.
"Am I not hot?" Hoseok isn't looking at him.
"You don't think you're hot?" Yoongi blinks at him.
He can tell Hoseok is definitely above average, Namjoon jokes all the time on how he succeeded to pull Hoseok in the first place.
"Do you?" Hoseok is looking at Yoongi now, his expression unreadable.
Yoongi doesn't reply right away. He has learned that the word “hot” can be misleading.
Instead, Yoongi tries to avoid answering. "Why are you asking?"
"You didn't answer the question."
Yoongi swallows. He doesn't want to get into this right now, especially with his father coming back any second.
"Hoseok-"
"It's a yes or no question Yoongi."
Yoongi doesn't know what to say. He doesn't know how to say "no" without hurting the younger man’s feelings and getting into the fact that he just can't feel something like that.
I've already hurt him, I let this go on for too long.
"No,"
Hoseok looks taken aback, but the hurt is quickly replaced by anger. "So I've been trying for nothing? What do you find hot then?"
"No one!" Yoongi looks at the younger desperately. "It's-"
"Oh cut the bullshit." Hoseok scoffs. "No one? Really? That's the best excuse you can come up with?"
He doesn't believe me.
Yoongi can't think of a response, his mind is blank. The scenario feels very similar to his latest ex.
"Hoseok-"
But he stops when the front door opens. They both turn their attention to Yoongi’s father walking inside, soaked from head to toe.
"It's storming out there bad." His father places down his bag, looking at the couple. "Did I, uh, interrupt something?"
"No, I was just planning on leaving." Hoseok's voice sounds light but obviously fake as he walks past Yoongi.
"Right now? It's storming quite badly." But Hoseok doesn't hesitate as he puts on his shoes.
"I told my friend I would help him out with his project. Knowing him, he probably left it last minute." Hoseok looks up at Yoongi's dad, not sparing a glance at his boyfriend. "I'll see you later."
And without another word the brunette walks out the door and closes it shut behind him.
"What was that about?" His father turned to him. "He could have borrowed a coat."
It's not like he's coming back here, so he wouldn't really be borrowing it.
"It was nothing." He looks out the window and watches Hoseok's car drive off, sadness and grief washing over him.
Is it really over? Just like that?
Yoongi's father says something about supper but the black-haired man ignores him, heading straight to his room. He knows his father won't bother him about it, being awkward and not knowing anything about "boy troubles". As soon as he closes his door he takes out his phone to text Hoseok.
I know you don't want to talk to me, but I want us to talk before everything ends.
He bites his lip as he hits send, throwing his phone across the bed after he does so.
What am I even supposed to tell him when we see each other again?
He knows he has to tell the younger man everything, there's no point in hiding it now. Regardless if he believes Yoongi or not.
Hoseok not believing him isn't something Yoongi expected from the brunette. Disappointment, yes. Anger, maybe. But Hoseok isn't the disbelieving type, he usually trusts Yoongi.
Hoseok might not believe him due to Yoongi lying up until now, which he deserves. Yoongi doesn't think he would believe himself either.
An hour goes by and he doesn't hear from his father nor Hoseok. Yoongi looks out his window, watching the rain pour hard and the wind blowing through the trees furiously. It's storming so hard Yoongi thinks they might lose power.
Hoseok was driving in this weather, Yoongi's surprised anyone could.
What if he crashed
The thought left as soon as it came, but it still frightened the hell out of Yoongi. What if Hoseok isn't responding to him right now because he got in a car crash?
Yoongi knows he should leave it. He knows Hoseok doesn't want to talk to him, but Yoongi finds himself picking the phone back up and opening his boyfriend's text.
Did you get home safe?
He watches the screen, waiting for Hoseok to see it so Yoongi can relax.
But ten dreadful minutes go by and nothing changes. He slowly panics, finding Jimin's contact quickly.
Hoseok's excuse for why he was leaving was definitely pulled out of his ass, but he knows the younger man must have at least talked to Jimin by now. Even if he didn't go there as he said he would.
If Hoseok did, then Jimin's response won't be a nice one. Regardless, Yoongi will get his answer and will be finally able to breathe again.
Did you hear from Hoseok recently?
It doesn't take long for the dancer to reply.
Why do you care?
Yoongi sighs. Hoseok must have talked to Jimin then.
I have my answer, thanks.
He puts his phone on the night stand and lays back, sighing.
Yoongi doesn't know how he's going to survive without Hoseok, he can’t last an hour without being able to check up on him to make sure he's okay.
Maybe we can stay friends. But Yoongi cringes at the thought. He doesn't think Hoseok would want to be his friend after this.
A few tears threaten to escape his eyes but he wipes them before they fall.
Not yet. He tells himself. Hoseok didn't break up with him yet.
Yoongi isn't going to let him go without explaining himself.
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Hoseok’s reply comes a long week later, the notification on his phone almost giving him a heart attack.
Meet me at my house, 6pm.
Yoongi is relieved Hoseok actually replied. He’s almost excited to see him, if it weren’t for the circumstances. He tries not to think about how it could be the last time he sees the brunette and just focuses on getting ready.
He shows up at his boyfriend's house at 6pm sharp, not hesitating as he knocks on his door. Yoongi hears shuffling coming from the other side before the door is opened.
Hoseok reveals himself, wearing a hoodie and sweatpants. The brunette looks tired but no longer has the same angry expression from last time Yoongi saw him. Yoongi grows nervous, but he hopes it's not obvious.
"Hi," Yoongi jumps a little at his voice.
"Hi,"
Hoseok moves so Yoongi can walk in. His usually loud house is very quiet, the black-haired man assumes Hoseok's parents and sister are out for the day. The younger man doesn't say anything as Yoongi takes off his shoes and places them next to Hoseok's. His boyfriend walks through the house and Yoongi follows, his heart beating fast in his chest. Hoseok leads them to his room, something that Yoongi usually finds comfort in but currently dreads. Hoseok closes the door once they are both inside and Yoongi stands in front of the bed awkwardly. Hoseok eyes him, sitting down on the chair close to the door.
"You can sit if you want." Hoseok tries to sound casual, but Yoongi can't detect any of the warmth that he would usually hear when his boyfriend would speak to him.
Yoongi takes a seat on the younger man's bed, it squeaks under his weight.
"So..."
Yoongi watches him, waiting for Hoseok to continue.
"You want to break up with me?"
Yoongi's freezes. "No, I don't."
Hoseok's pupils narrow. "Your text was pretty clear."
"I just, well." Yoongi picks at his nails subconsciously. "Assumed you would want to break up with me."
Hoseok is quiet for a moment, and Yoongi isn't sure if he should say anything.
"But you don't feel anything... that way... for me."
Yoongi shakes his head. He can tell Hoseok has already made up his mind with the way he is speaking. Yoongi’s hope is dying with each passing second.
"Why did you say yes when I asked you out?"
Yoongi blinks at him. "What do you mean? I told you, I had a crush on you."
"Are you sure it was a crush?"
The black-haired man stares at his boyfriend, clenching his jaw before answering. "Yes."
"Did you realise you didn't have any sexual feelings for me before, or after we got together?"
Yoongi swallows. "Before."
He watches the way Hoseok's face crumbles. Yoongi hates this, he wishes it were different. He wishes he would have told Hoseok before they got together to avoid all of this.
"So what? You just led me on this whole time?" His tone isn't angry, but he's clearly upset as he runs his fingers through his hair.
"I didn't mean to-"
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?"
"I meant to, so many times," Yoongi swallows the lump in his throat. "But I got scared, I didn't want to lose you."
Hoseok catches his eye. "Why would you want to stay with me?"
Yoongi gives him a confused look. "Why wouldn't I want to?"
"Because you aren't attracted to me."
"I am, just not... sexually." Yoongi looks down at his fingers. "Hoseok, I feel so much for you, I..."
Yoongi takes a deep breath, looking back at Hoseok's eyes.
"I love you, and I was scared that you would leave me because I can't satisfy you that way."
Hoseok's lips part in shock, and Yoongi's ears heat up from the confession. Yoongi needs Hoseok to know everything, he can't hold back from him anymore. It's the only way he has a chance of fixing this.
"Yoongi-"
"I uh, obviously don't expect you to say it back or anything." He's playing with his nails again. "But I wanted to let you know everything, no secrets right?"
Hoseok doesn't say anything for a second, just staring at the older man. Yoongi shifts in his spot, waiting for his boyfriend to speak.
"Yoongi, I..." Hoseok watches him carefully. "I don't think I can date someone who doesn't feel any sexual feelings for me."
Yoongi doesn't hide his disappointment, tears threatening to prick at his eyes. "I understand." He's looking at his hands again.
"You should date someone you are actually attracted to," Yoongi looks up at the brunette. "and you should have told me this before we got into a relationship." Hoseok sighs. "It would have saved us from this mess."
"I can't date someone I feel sexual feelings for if I don't feel them." Yoongi points it out, even if it feels pointless at this point. "And I know I should have, people usually cut me out when they find out I'm ace. I know it's selfish, I just wanted to feel happy for awhile." Yoongi knows it's a pathetic response, but with his world crumbling in front of him he's blabbering everything to Hoseok. "I'm sorry."
"Ace?" Hoseok looks lost. "What does that mean?"
"Asexual,"
"I don't know what that means."
Yoongi blinks at him. "I don't have sexual feelings for people?" Did Hoseok forget what this conversation was about?
"For people you mean... everyone?" Yoongi is confused by the look of surprise on Hoseok's face.
"Um, yes. Are you... That's the reason why we're breaking up, remember?"
"So when you said... you weren't just pulling out an excuse?"
"What?"
"When you told me you didn’t find me hot." Hoseok tries to clarify. "It's not because of me? You just..."
"I don't find anyone hot." Yoongi shrugs. "But I told you that."
"I didn't believe you."
Yoongi almost scoffs, but he holds it.
"Oh, uh okay. Then surprise?"
Hoseok blinks at him for a few moments.
"So you never want to have sex, with anyone ? Not just me?"
"Well... not never ." Yoongi can feel the blush rising to his cheeks. "But uh no, I don't really care for it most of the time."
"Have you ever had sex before?"
Yoongi almost wants to ask why Hoseok is asking these questions, but the younger man seems less upset than before so he doesn't stop with the answers.
"I did, twice. With my first boyfriend."
"Only with one person?"
"It didn't take me long to figure out I didn't feel the same as him when it came to sex." Yoongi plays with his fingernails again. "The other two didn't last long enough for me to want to try." He doesn’t want to bring up the one time his ex got mad at him when Yoongi backed out, he doesn’t want to think of it ever again.
"Maybe he was just bad at sex."
Yoongi looks up at Hoseok, trying not to let his annoyance show. "I have never looked at someone and had any physical reaction."
Hoseok thinks for a moment. "So you don't masturbate then?"
Yoongi chokes for a second. "I didn't say that!"
Hoseok gives him a surprise look. "Really?"
"Yes!" Yoongi shakes his head, his face darkening. "Why would you ask that?"
"How often?"
"I don't know! Once a week maybe?"
"Really?" Hoseok looks almost fascinated and Yoongi isn't sure how to react. "I do it like twice a week."
"What-"
"Would you let me do it to you?"
Yoongi's brain blanks, his mouth agape.
"W-what?"
"Would you let me jerk you off? And you can jerk me off?" Hoseok isn't showing one ounce of embarrassment from his words and Yoongi isn't sure how, he’s a blushing mess.
"I... well..." Yoongi thinks that he would. It would be the same as masturbating, but with a second party. "I've never done that before?"
"Your exes never tried it with you?"
"No." His exes never did anything with him, after finding out he was asexual they left.
"Would you be okay with jerking me off?" Hoseok eyes him carefully and Yoongi nods honestly.
But. "You're making it sound like we aren't breaking up."
Yoongi almost didn't want to ask, but he knew he had to. He didn't know how much of this back and forth he could take before he goes crazy.
Hoseok takes a deep breath. "I misunderstood what you were trying to tell me."
Yoongi doesn't say anything, waiting for his boyfriend to continue.
"I thought I was the problem, that was why I wanted to break up with you." He admits. "I was hurt and didn't know why you were still with me if you felt nothing for me."
"But I won't be able to satisfy you, sexually." Yoongi says in a small voice. "I'm going to deny you sex, a lot. Especially at first."
"You said you were okay with jerking me off right?" Hoseok gives him a small smile. "That's all I need Yoongi, as long as we have sex sometimes, it's okay."
"Why though?" Yoongi's heart is beating fast again, the little bit of hope he had earlier making an appearance again. "Why sacrifice half of a sex life you could have to be with me?"
Hoseok gives him a soft look. "Because I love you Yoongi, you mean way more to me than sex."
I love you Yoongi,
You mean way more to me than sex
Tears pricked at Yoongi's eyes. "So does that mean we aren't breaking up? Even if I'm the way I am?"
"No Yoongi, I won't break up with you." Hoseok gives him a small smile. "I-"
Yoongi gets off the bed and rushes to kiss the younger, cupping his face in his hands as he consumes the familiar taste of his boyfriend. Something he didn't think he would ever taste again. Hoseok pulls Yoongi closer by his hips, and guides him to sit on his lap.
The kiss is passionate, Yoongi pouring all of his feelings into it, feeling Hoseok reciprocating the intensity. They kiss as if it's their last, as if the kiss is their lifeline. Yoongi never wants to let go. Hoseok ends up pulling away slightly and Yoongi is about to protest, until the younger man starts to kiss the few tears that have managed to escape from his eyes.
"I'm so happy," Yoongi whispers and he feels Hoseok smile.
"Me too." Hoseok pulls back to look at Yoongi properly. "This past week has been hell for me."
Yoongi chuckles wetly. "Yeah, me too."
Hoseok pulls Yoongi back into the kiss, keeping him close. Yoongi kisses back, melting into it.
They kiss until they run out of breath, taking a breath before kissing again.
Yoongi missed this, missed feeling safe in the younger's arms, missed being home.
Hoseok pulls away, his cheeks flushed and his eyes hooded. "Can we do it now?"
Yoongi gives him a confused look, still slightly out of breath he asks "Do what now?"
"Jerk each other off?"
Yoongi can feel his whole face heat up at the younger man’s words.
"Now?" Yoongi isn't sure how to respond, how to feel.
But jerking Hoseok off, and Hoseok doing the same to him sounds... almost exciting.
"When was the last time you jerked off?"
"Uh... well..." Yoongi can barely look Hoseok in the eyes as he answers. "Maybe two weeks ago?"
"Hmm, we both haven't in a while then." Hoseok kisses the corner of Yoongi's lip. "Do you want to?"
Yoongi chuckles. "You're so impatient,"
"When it comes to you, always."
The older man rolls his eyes playfully. He thinks about it, cumming from Hoseok's hands instead of his own. He wonders if it will feel better, if he will enjoy it more.
He's scared he won't and that he'll disappoint Hoseok again.
"Only if you want to." Hoseok is giving him a soft look. "I don't want to force you to do anything you don't want to.
"I'm just scared I won't like it." Yoongi says in a low voice.
"If you don't we'll stop right away."
"I know, I just don't want to disappoint you."
The younger man brushes a stray hair from Yoongi's face. "You could never disappoint me. We'll just try it and see how it goes okay?"
Yoongi nods. "Yeah, okay."
Hoseok's face brightens, and before the brunette can move Yoongi adds. "Um, one other thing."
Hoseok grips Yoongi's hips, listening attentively.
"It's a little more difficult for me to... um... get hard." Yoongi can't look at Hoseok as he says it. "I don't really get turned on much."
"How do I get you hard then?" The question is genuine, but Yoongi wants to hide away forever instead of answering.
"By uh, touching me. Like... down there." He doesn't know how to tell Hoseok without dying of embarrassment. "Words and stuff don't really have any effect on me."
"Good thing I was already planning on touching your dick." The younger man gives a mischievous smile. "Can I talk dirty to you regardless? I like doing it."
Yoongi nods. "It's nice, I just don't..."
"Your dick doesn't care for it."
Yoongi laughs. "Yeah."
Hoseok plants a kiss on Yoongi's lips before saying, "I can work with that."
Without warning, the younger man picks Yoongi up and Yoongi gasps, grabbing onto Hoseok tightly before being laid down on the bed. Hoseok starts to kiss him again, pulling Yoongi closer. Yoongi submits, letting Hoseok lightly bite his lip and explore his mouth. Yoongi lets himself be handled, trusting the younger man completely now that he knows everything. He feels Hoseok's front press against his, how his dick is hardening from the heated kiss alone.
Yoongi wonders for a moment if Hoseok gets turned on each time they make-out.
Hoseok pulls away from him, his lips wet and swollen. Yoongi doesn't have time to admire how Hoseok looks as the younger leans back in and kisses his neck instead, below his ear. He kisses and sucks at the skin there. The pressure being applied to his neck makes his skin tingle. His hand finds its way to Hoseok's hair, gripping it slightly as he keeps him in place.
"Can I take your pants off?" Hoseok mumbles against his skin.
"Y-yes."
He feels Hoseok smirk before he looks at Yoongi. "You sound nervous."
"I'm scared of messing up." Yoongi confesses as Hoseok's gaze softens before planting a kiss on his lips.
"Impossible."
Yoongi doesn't watch as the younger man unfastens his pants. He feels him hesitate, but not for long as the pants are removed from beneath him. After the black-haired man feels no more movement from Hoseok's end, Yoongi finally decides to look. Hoseok's eyes have darkened as he continuously stares between Yoongi's legs.
"Can I touch you?"
Yoongi nods but Hoseok doesn't move, now hooking with Yoongi's eyes.
"I need you to tell me, with your words." His face gets closer to Yoongi's. "Do you want this?"
"Yes." Yoongi tells the younger man, hoping he doesn't look as nervous as he feels.
But Hoseok seems to be satisfied with his answer. Yoongi feels his boyfriend dance around his cock, almost tracing the outline before placing his hand over it. He is still looking at Yoongi as he stops the small teasing and actually touches his dick, feeling it through his boxers. Yoongi lets out a sigh and Hoseok seems happy with the reaction.
"You like it when I touch you there?" Hoseok places a tender kiss on the corner of his lip. "Should I touch you there more then?"
Hoseok starts to rub him harsher and Yoongi gasps, not expecting the sudden movement. He doesn't stop the younger man as he touches him, his hand making him feel more wonders than he expected. Hoseok stops for a moment, and Yoongi immediately reacts.
"You never answered me."
"What?" Yoongi's thoughts are starting to get fuzzy and he's having a hard time containing himself. He isn't sure what he looks like right now, but his cheeks feel hot and his lips feel swollen.
"I asked if you wanted me to touch you more-"
"Yes!" Yoongi exclaims desperately, but quickly looks away and clears his throat. "Yes."
Hoseok plants a kiss on his ear lobe. "You don't have to hold yourself back for me baby, I want to hear everything."
Hoseok resumes his actions and Yoongi almost wants to thank him.
Hoseok touches him in all the right spots, kissing him anywhere Yoongi can think of. His cock gets harder with each stroke, The older didn't know he could get this hard this fast. He didn't know how good it felt to have someone else's hands on him. How it felt to do something sexual without worrying of it going further.
The only sound that can be heard is Yoongi's heavy breathing and the sound of fabric rubbing against skin. Hoseok gives another kiss to Yoongi's darkening hickey, and the black-haired man whimpers.
"God you sound so hot." Hoseok groans. "And you look- I can't put into words."
A small smile forms on the black-haired man's face, his heart melting. The compliments are getting to Yoongi's head, his thoughts getting fuzzier with each compliment sent his way.
Hoseok pulls back slightly so his hot breath brushes the older man's ear.
"You probably don't know how hot you are, right?" Hoseok whispers against his ear.
Yoongi swallows, holding back a moan as Hoseok continues to palm him. "N-no"
"And you have no idea what you do to me." He plants a kiss behind his ear, Yoongi can feel the smirk against his skin.
Yoongi shakes his head. The way Hoseok is playing with him right now is driving him crazy. He didn't know he could feel this way.
Hoseok is doing it the way Yoongi does it to himself, but it still feels different. Yoongi's body might not react to Hoseok's words, but it reacts to Hoseok's hand.
He knows Hoseok is enjoying this too, telling him. So he makes him continue. "What do you mean?" His voice comes out shakey.
"It means that each and every time that I see you I want to hide you, because I want you for myself." He gives a kiss to Yoongi's neck. "It means that each time I see you, I want to grab you, pin you against a wall and fuck you senseless." Hoseok moves so he's staring directly at Yoongi. "It means that you have ruined me for anybody else just by your looks. You make me feel so many things Yoongi, you have no idea."
Oh,
Hoseok crashes his lips into Yoongi's and the black-haired man follows his lead, no longer scared of the burning lust behind it. He knows Hoseok won't go farther than a handjob, he trusts him.
Hoseok pulls back, watching Yoongi's face once more. "Can I take off your boxers?"
Yoongi doesn't hesitate before nodding, then saying "Yes."
He doesn't feel shy when the younger starts to pull him out of his briefs, now fully hard. Pre-cum making a wet spot in the front.
"Stop staring." Yoongi mumbles, his ears heating up in embarrassment.
"How could I? You're just so pretty." Yoongi hears a dip in the bed before he feels a kiss on the inside of his thigh.
The action makes Yoongi panic slightly. "I don't think I'm ready for a blowjob."
He watches as Hoseok lifts his head slightly. "I wouldn't do anything without asking you first."
Yoongi nods, relaxing once more as Hoseok continues to kiss around his cock.
"Do you have, um..." Yoongi can't think straight, the arousal making his mind cloudy.
"Um?" Hoseok asks in a teasing tone. "You can't think straight anymore baby? I haven't properly jerked you off yet."
Yoongi is about to try again when the younger man gets up. Yoongi is about to question him, but just watches him when he pulls out a bottle of lube. Yoongi just blinks at Hoseok, unmoving as he makes his way back between the black-haired man's legs. Hoseok opens the cap and squeezes some onto his hand.
"Can I?" Hoseok looks back at Yoongi's face for confirmation.
"Please touch me."
Hoseok smirks. "You don't have to tell me twice." Then adds. "It's going to be cold."
Yoongi hisses as the brunette wraps his hand around his cock, not hesitating as he starts working his way up and down. He thumbs at the slit, before moving his hand back down. His touches feel like heaven, Yoongi doesn't think he could go back to his own hand ever again.
How is he so good at this?
"I've had lots of practice." Hoseok gives him a teasing smile. Yoongi blinks at him, he didn't mean to say the words out loud.
Yoongi frowns, he doesn't like it when Hoseok talks about being with other men. But the frown doesn't last long when Hoseok gives a hard tug, earning a small moan from Yoongi.
"What is it baby? Why were you frowning?" He can still hear the teasing tone in his voice. "You didn't like how I was touching you?"
"No, not-" Yoongi gasps as Hoseok strokes him a certain way. "Please please- keep doing that."
Hoseok obliges, working his hand in that specific angle that makes Yoongi's hips give involuntary jerks.
"Hoseok-"
But Hoseok is already there right in front of him, kissing him. He speeds up his movements, and Yoongi can already feel his orgasm approaching. With the way Hoseok touches him, it's impossible to hold back for long.
"Seok." There's tears in his eyes and he isn't sure why, but he's mumbling incoherent words against his boyfriend's lips. "Gonna cum."
"Let go for me Yoongi." Hoseok pulls away, watching Yoongi's pleasure-filled expression. "Cum for me."
Hoseok gives Yoongi a few more strokes before the older man gives out a low moan, jerking his hips as white cum wets his stomach. Hoseok doesn't stop touching Yoongi through it, letting his boyfriend ride it out as he whispers praises in his ear.
Yoongi calms down, arms tight around the younger man with his face in his neck as he tries to calm down his breathing.
"You're so hot, my god." Hoseok is kissing Yoongi's shoulder. "How did I get so lucky?"
Yoongi hums, not wanting to detach from his boyfriend.
It isn't until Hoseok shifts to hold Yoongi better that Yoongi realises that Hoseok is still hard.
"You're still hard." Yoongi mumbles, prying himself slightly from the younger's grasp.
"What?"
"I didn't touch you like I said I would." Yoongi feels bad. He feels selfish. He was so focused on his own pleasure he forgot about his boyfriend’s.
"Yoongi, you had someone else's hand on your dick. I didn't expect you to." Hoseok chuckles and Yoongi frowns. "It's okay-"
"Let me take care of you." Yoongi pulls back enough to look at his boyfriend's face. "Like you took care of me."
Hoseok's face softens before placing a small kiss to Yoongi's lips. "I would love that."
"Then take your pants off, I can't do much with them on."
Hoseok rolls his eyes but eagerly detaches from his boyfriend before wiggling out of his jeans, pulling his underwear down with it. Yoongi sits up, watching Hoseok eagerly.
Yoongi's nervous when he sees Hoseok's red cock. Hoseok touched him so well, he doesn't think he could do as good of a job.
Just go with what you know . He tells himself. He has a dick, he knows how to touch one.
"Do you want lube?" Yoongi scoots closer. They're both in a sitting position, Hoseok's erect cock looking a lot bigger than Yoongi's soft one.
Hoseok shakes his head. "I think I'm wet enough."
Yoongi looks at his boyfriend's dick from his words. The head is wet with pre-cum, he hopes it's enough.
"Are you sure you want to do this?"
Yoongi raises an eyebrow to Hoseok. "Aren't I supposed to be asking you that? You're the one getting your dick touched."
"I just don't want you to do anything you don't want to."
Yoongi gives a reassuring smile. "I promise I'm not."
Hoseok leans in for another kiss, but Yoongi grabs the younger's dick, giving it a tug. Hoseok dips his head, groaning.
"Bastard."
"You said you wanted it."
Yoongi tugs at it again, collecting precum from the tip before spreading it around the cock. He goes slow, watching Hoseok react as he jerks him off.
"Faster, please." Hoseok sighs, his eyes closed.
Yoongi doesn't hesitate before picking up the pace, the familiar wet sound from before returning- added with Hoseok's groans.
Yoongi didn't expect Hoseok to be the loud type.
Yoongi realises Hoseok's reactions are biggest when he plays with the tip, so he makes sure to thumb at it when he works up his cock.
Hoseok's dick twitches in Yoongi's hand so he goes faster, earning another reaction from Hoseok.
"Shit Yoongi, if you keep doing that I'm going to cum."
"Good thing that's the plan."
Hoseok is about to reply but Yoongi tugs hard, earning a groan from his boyfriend. Hoseok is moaning more and more with each stroke, letting Yoongi know he’s just about to orgasm. Yoongi takes the chance to kiss him right before he cums all over his hand, letting out a loud moan against the older man's lips. Yoongi continues to jerk him off through the orgasm, feeling his hips spasming through it. When Hoseok comes down from it, he pulls Yoongi's hand off.
" 't sensitive." Hoseok mumbles and Yoongi chuckles.
"I need to shower, or take a bath." Yoongi pulls back to look at himself. "I'm disgusting."
"I disagree," Hoseok leans to kiss him again, but Yoongi pulls back.
"No, shower first, then we can go back to kissing." Yoongi is already halfway off the bed. "I'll go first."
"But I'll miss you." Hoseok pouts. "Can we go together?"
"Fine, but change the sheets as I set it up."
Yoongi hears shuffling from behind him as he makes his way to the master bathroom, laying out towels and turning on the faucet. When he finds the temperature he prefers, he almost jumps in but strong arms keep him in place.
"Hoseok, I feel so gross right now." Yoongi complains. "Let's cuddle after."
"Hmm okay." But the younger man doesn't let go. "I want to ask you something first."
"Okay fine, only one question." Yoongi rolls his eyes playfully, leaning back on Hoseok's chest.
"Did you like it?"
Surprised, Yoongi turns around. "Did it look like I did?"
Hoseok smiles. "I just want to make sure."
Yoongi gives a kiss to Hoseok's swollen ones, making sure not to get caught up in them for too long. "I liked it a lot."
"Then can we do it more often?" His boyfriend is beaming at Yoongi now and Yoongi just smirks.
"That's two questions."
Yoongi detaches from Hoseok before getting into the shower, earning a protest from his boyfriend.
"Pleasseeee."
"I'll answer once you get in!"
The hot water hits Yoongi's back so nicely Yoongi is tempted to groan in relief, the cum and sweat washing down the drain. Hoseok joins him, watching as Yoongi tips his long hair into the water.
"Yoongiii."
"You’re so impatient." Yoongi teases, glancing at Hoseok but still rinsing out his hair.
"When it comes to you, always."
Yoongi chuckles, straightening himself.
"Yes, I would love to."
A wide grin appears on Hoseok's face. "I would too."
Yoongi smiles back at Hoseok, stepping aside so the younger man can have a turn under the water as the black-haired man puts shampoo in his hair.
Yoongi watches Hoseok as he wets his hair, the warm feeling in his chest appearing for the hundredth time tonight.
Yoongi isn't sure how he got such a perfect boyfriend, he doesn't know how he would be surviving right now if Hoseok decided to break things off with him.
But Hoseok didn't and he loves Yoongi back, he loves him more than sex.
Yoongi is glad he was wrong, there are people out there who can love you more than sex.
You just need to find the right one.