existentialcrisistime
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After Everything by existentialcrisistime
Fandoms: Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves (2023)
12 Jun 2025
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Xenk looked up at him through lidded eyes, his expression now a picture of unshakeable devotion. If this is how he looked in worship, Edgin thought, then maybe he should be jealous of the gods.
or, shortly after the events of Neverwinter, Edgin and the party recieve a surprise visitor at the tavern they're celebrating in.
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Jim Kirk’s Guide to Delivering the Goods by existentialcrisistime, remylebae
Fandoms: Star Trek, Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies)
25 Nov 2024
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Summer just started, and Jim is bored out of his mind. The courses he needs to take aren’t being offered until the second half of the summer, so he has an entire month to bother his roommate Bones. At Bones’ suggestion to get a job, Jim fixes up a motorbike and starts making deliveries to people in town, including a cute Vulcan professor named Spock. But when Jim is beaten up while making a delivery, it’s Spock who delivers Jim back to the apartment he shares with Bones.
After the meet-cute from hell, Spock and Bones start dating… and so do Jim and Spock. With neither roommate aware they’re both dating the same man, there’s only so long that things can go well for them before the other shoe finally drops.
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The Changing of the Seasons (Winter Turns to Spring) by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
Fandoms: Formula 1 RPF
27 Sep 2024
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Two pieces painted for this year's F1 Big Bang. Based on the fic Winter Turns to Spring, which you can read here
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Captain's Chair by existentialcrisistime
Fandoms: Star Trek, Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies)
30 Mar 2024
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My piece for the Wild Heart Zine - a NSFW AOS Spirk digital zine.
Jim and Spock make the most of a quiet moment on the bridge.
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In From the Cold by existentialcrisistime
Fandoms: Star Trek, Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies)
04 Jan 2024
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He’d just closed his eyes again when he heard it – a faint knock on the door. Who the hell could it be this late? Cursing under his breath, Leonard got to his feet and opened the door to see –
Jim, bedraggled and cold, looking the picture of patheticness in his doorway.
After an argument between them, Jim arrives at Leonard’s dorm room sick and afraid he won’t be let in. Leonard, of course, takes care of him anyway.
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Cele’s gaze snaps back into focus, like a switch being flipped so abruptly it takes Marco aback. There’s something intense and burning behind Cele’s glowing pupils, something hungry, frenzied, that Marco has never seen before. He has always been pretty convinced he knew Celestino inside and out, like the pockets of his jeans; his quirks, his reactions, his core values, his stupid inner monologue that’s sometimes telling him to set a dumpster on fire – thank God he rarely gives into his intrusive thoughts, anyway. Still, this is new, unexplored territory. Celestino doesn’t look exactly angry, doesn’t look exactly sad, but a mixture of the two glued together by sheer determination. It’s…scary, somehow. Makes things feel a hundred times more real.
“What you said at dinner,” Celestino starts, staring at him as if Marco actually has all the answers, even to the questions he has never asked himself in the first place. “Did you really mean it?”Bez says something deeply inappropriate at the dinner table but, luckily for him, he doesn't come to regret it.
Bookmarked by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
31 May 2026
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Things go very wrong, very quickly from there; the elevator dings and starts moving. Then, since the Universe has got a sick sense of humor, it comes to an abrupt stop – except that the doors don’t open and an ominous, red light starts blinking around the alarm button.
Alright. Sharing an elevator ride with his ex boyfriend wasn’t the worst case scenario. Getting stuck in the elevator with said ex boyfriend, however, is.
Fermin takes a very long, very annoyed breath through his nose. It’s loud, and it bounces off the metal-and-glass walls like a ricocheting bullet.
He lifts his eyes from the polished floors only to see Pedro stand extremely still, his back pressed into the glass, eyes wide and a little panicky – he doesn’t remember Pedro having the phobia of elevators, but whatever. A lot of people do.What's worse than getting stuck in an elevator with your ex boyfriend? Well, for one, getting stuck in an elevator with your ex boyfriend and reminisce about your time together while trying to help him through a panic attack.
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- Part 4 of spin the wheel of pain!
Bookmarked by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
22 May 2026
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The tube of medicated cream looks tiny inside Sava’s massive hand. With a sigh, Bez nods, letting him peel the leathers off his shoulders and hips, keeping his gaze trained on a dark spot on the wall so that he doesn’t stare at Sava as he crouches down, tugs at the leathers until they slip down his calves, leaving him far too exposed in his leggings and top, almost as raw as a nerve ending struck with an electric prod. It’s stupid, really. It’s not like he’s naked and mooing on his fours or anything, but it feels kind of worse than that – he’s flustered, his heart beating in his wrists just like the first time he’s had a dude giving him a blowjob in the parking lot of a club in Riccione and he really didn’t know what to expect.
Having Sava tenderly coaxing him into getting undressed is, to some extent, far more intimate than having his dick sucked by a stranger.Sava insists on taking care of Bez's bruises, Bez doesn't know how to act around his crush, and things escalate quickly.
Bookmarked by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
20 May 2026
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Pecco has known for a very long time that Marco has sex with men. He knows where they touch him, how they hold him, what they do to him. Pecco knows.
A 90s coming of age AU.
[Zine for @LoveLeah’s 2024 Motorsport Zine Exchange]
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Bookmarked by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
23 Mar 2026
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Bez says goodbye to his bike, Marianna, before leaving VR46. He lets Edo in on the secret too.
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Bookmarked by nicbutnasty (existentialcrisistime)
16 Feb 2026