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into hell with joy by semantics_error
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
10 Apr 2026
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When Ray knocked up a girl right after college, he thought that the biological child he never intended to have would be safe with his doting best friend. That, under Mew’s care, the familial curse which drove his mother to her death would never touch the little girl’s cherished heart.
He was wrong.
Now, faced with Mew and Top’s death in a freak accident, Ray is forced to confront his daughter’s damning grief—and the consequences that members of his bloodline have always faced for their reckless actions.
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- Part 1 of life after life
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18 Jun 2026
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of all the girls, i'm his favorite by abdication
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
13 Jun 2026
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"You wanna be my girl, Ray?"
Sand expects to be shoved or outright told to fuck off.
Instead, Ray swallows, without saying anything at all. He doesn't even meet Sand's eyes. There's a little flush along the tops of his cheekbones, and when he exhales, it's drawn-out and—Oh.
Ray wants to know how Sand fucks women. Sand is happy to demonstrate.
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14 Jun 2026
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I Can Feel the Soil by squidinkblot
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
03 Jun 2026
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“Do you… Do you know who it is?” Sand asks.
Ray nods, just once.
“Mew. It has to be. It’s always been Mew.”or: Ray develops hanahaki disease and is forced to reckon with his relationship to life, death, and love.
Inspired by/title from the song 'I Know It's Over' by The Smiths
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11 Jun 2026
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don't it make you feel see through? by abdication
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
01 Jun 2026
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"You're drunk," Sand tells him.
And fuck, anger is too gentle of a word for what Ray feels then. The nerve, the sheer hypocrisy. He looks up at Sand, on the verge of scowling. "That's never stopped you before."
"Yeah." Sand's voice is hard when he says, "I know."
Ray breaks up with Mew. The rest should be easy, right?
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- Part 3 of see through
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02 Jun 2026
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god knows, i'll try enough for two by abdication
Fandoms: เพื่อนต้องห้าม | Only Friends (Thailand TV 2023)
24 May 2026
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"Is that what you wanted to hear, Sand?" Ray gets close, right up in his face, pointing a finger at his chest. "That I love you more?" He's never said those words so harshly before. "I can't just pretend not to care like you do."
Ray braces for a reckoning. What he gets is worse.
Sand's wide brown eyes fill with tears.
Sand's high school ex comes to visit. It goes spectacularly.
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31 May 2026