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If you were to map out the geography of Hwang Hyunjin’s entire existence, Kim Seungmin would not just be a landmark; he would be the tectonic plate upon which everything else was built.
There was no distinct before and after when it came to Seungmin. Hyunjin’s earliest memory was a blur of bright primary colors in a preschool classroom, the smell of cheap tempera paint, and a quiet boy with perfectly round cheeks who refused to give up the blue crayon until he was entirely finished with his drawing of a very blocky, structurally sound house. Hyunjin, who had already managed to get red paint in his hair and on his overalls, had pouted dramatically until Seungmin, without a single word, broke the blue crayon in half and handed him the larger piece.
They had been inseparable ever since.
They were a study in absolute contradictions, a pair that on paper should have driven each other up the wall. Hyunjin was a creature made entirely of raw, unfiltered emotion, an artist who wore his heart not just on his sleeve, but draped over his shoulders like a heavy, dramatic cape. He moved through life like a romantic poet born in the wrong century, crying at beautiful sunsets, hoarding vintage silver rings, and treating every minor inconvenience as a personal tragedy.
Seungmin, on the other hand, was gravity. He was a creature of routine, pragmatism, and a dry, cynical wit that could cut through Hyunjin’s theatricality like a sharp pair of shears. He studied pre-law, kept his desk meticulously organized, and possessed a laugh that sounded like a handful of gravel shifting under a warm wave—grounded, textured, and entirely real. Yet, somehow, the gears of their lives meshed perfectly. Through elementary school recess, the awkward, acne-ridden halls of middle school, the high stakes of high school, and now, the sprawling, red-brick reality of their university campus, they had remained a fixed pair.
It was autumn of their junior year when the shift happened. Or rather, when Hyunjin finally noticed the shift that had likely occurred years ago, quietly settling into his bones while he was looking the other way.
They were sitting in the university library’s basement—a place that smelled of old paper and dust, illuminated by the harsh, flickering glow of fluorescent lights. Hyunjin was supposed to be sketching for his advanced life-drawing class, but his charcoal pencil had been idle for twenty minutes. Instead, his gaze was fixed on Seungmin, who sat across the heavy oak table, entirely buried in a massive textbook on constitutional law.
The autumn air outside was chilly, and Seungmin was wearing an oversized, cable-knit beige sweater that made him look softer than usual. His hair, a rich, chocolate brown, was slightly overgrown, flopping over his forehead and occasionally brushing against the frames of his glasses. Every few minutes, Seungmin would reach up with an impatient flick of his wrist to push it back, only for the stubborn strands to fall right back into his eyes.
Hyunjin watched the floppy hair fall. He watched the slight, focused crease between Seungmin’s eyebrows. He watched the way Seungmin’s lower lip tucked inward when he was processing a difficult paragraph.
And suddenly, the air in Hyunjin’s lungs felt incredibly heavy.
It wasn't a sudden flash of lightning; it was more like a canvas that had been drying in a dark room for years, finally being brought out into the bright, unyielding sunlight. The realization settled over him with a terrifying, beautiful weight: I am head over heels in love with him. I have always been in love with him.
"If you stare at me any harder, Hyunjin, you’re going to burn a hole through my notes," Seungmin murmured, not even looking up from his textbook. His voice was a low, comforting rumble in the quiet library.
Hyunjin blinked, his cheeks instantly flushing a deep, violent crimson. He quickly dropped his eyes to his sketchbook, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. "I wasn't staring. I was... analyzing your form, for um… for artistic purposes."
Seungmin let out a soft huff of amusement, finally tilting his head up. His glasses slipped slightly down the bridge of his nose, and he looked at Hyunjin with that familiar, fond, completely clueless expression that he always wore. "Sure. Just make sure your artistic purposes don't prevent us from getting dinner. I'm starving. Take me out to dinner, Hwang. You owe me for helping you carry those giant canvas boards across campus yesterday."
Take me out to dinner. The phrase echoed in Hyunjin’s mind, sounding entirely too much like a date, even though he knew Seungmin meant it in the purely platonic, you owe me a bowl of jjajangmyeon kind of way.
"Anywhere," Hyunjin blurted out, his voice a little too high, a little too breathless. "You know you can take me anywhere, Seungmin."
Seungmin blinked, a faint, puzzled smile touching the corners of his lips. "Okay, dramatic. Let's just go to the noodle shop down the street. No need to make it sound like a grand pilgrimage."
Hyunjin could only nod, his hands trembling slightly as he packed away his charcoals and sketchbook. He was deeply, utterly screwed.
The problem with being a hopeless romantic like Hwang Hyunjin was that he had a history. A very long, very loud, very chaotic history of falling in love with the idea of love.
Throughout his teenage years and his first two years of college, Hyunjin had sprinted headfirst into relationships with the enthusiasm of a golden retriever and the foresight of a moth drawn to a flame. He wanted the cinematic romance. He wanted the rain-soaked declarations, the burning passion, the tragic poetry.
There had been the dramatic theater major in his freshman year, with whom Hyunjin had shared a tumultuous three months filled with late-night poetry recitations and screaming matches in the campus courtyard over "emotional artistic differences." Then there was the quiet literature student who broke his heart via a meticulously worded text message because Hyunjin was "too overwhelming." Every single time Hyunjin entered a new relationship, he would look at his friends with wide, shining eyes and declare, "This is it. We’re gonna get married even before we get to thirty. I’ve found the one."
And every single time, it had ended in a spectacular, catastrophic heartbreak that left Hyunjin a weeping, dramatic mess on his apartment floor, surrounded by crumpled tissues, empty bottles of cheap beer and half-finished, angsty paintings.
But through every single one of those self-inflicted disasters, there was a constant.
Wounds are healing, talking on the phone. The rhythm of Hyunjin’s recoveries were dictated by one, stable thing. After every breakup, when the initial theatrical tears had dried and the friends had gone home, Hyunjin would lie awake in the dark, the heavy ache in his chest feeling like a permanent fixture. And then his phone would buzz.
It would be Seungmin. Seungmin, who didn't offer empty platitudes or tell him to get over it. Seungmin would just stay on the line. Sometimes they wouldn't even talk; Hyunjin would just listen to the steady, rhythmic sound of Seungmin typing up an essay, or the soft rustle of pages turning. Sometimes Seungmin would complain about his professor for forty minutes just to distract him, or he would patiently listen to Hyunjin ramble about how he was destined to die alone in a tower like Rapunzel.
“You’re not going to die alone, Hyunjin,” Seungmin had said during one of those late-night calls, his voice a steady anchor in the dark. “You’re too loud to be left alone in a tower anyway. Someone would complain about the noise. Now go to sleep. I’ll walk you to class tomorrow.”
Sitting in the noodle shop now, watching Seungmin expertly mix his black bean noodles, Hyunjin felt a profound sense of clarity. All those past relationships—those chaotic, burning fires that had left him scorched—felt like nothing more than cheap static compared to the clear, beautiful symphony of Seungmin. All his ex-partners had heard those desperate lines about forever, but Hyunjin realized, with a sudden, fierce certainty, that he liked Seungmin better by a million times. He had just been too blind to see that the forever he was looking for was already sitting right in front of him, chewing on a yellow radish.
"You're doing it again," Seungmin pointed out, pointing his chopsticks at Hyunjin. "The spacing-out thing. Are you okay? Is your brain fried from midterms already?"
"I'm fine," Hyunjin said softly, leaning his chin on his palm. He let his gaze soften, letting himself feel the full, unrestricted weight of his affection. "Just thinking about how much I like you."
Seungmin paused, a piece of radish halfway to his mouth. A subtle, barely noticeable pink hue dusted the tips of his ears, but his expression remained fiercely unimpressed. "Don't get sappy with me just so I'll pay for your dumplings, Hwang. It won't work."
"I'm serious!" Hyunjin laughed, the sound bright and musical. "I like you a lot, Minnie. You're a killer. Floppy hair and all."
Seungmin rolled his eyes, but the corners of his mouth twitched upward into a helpless smile. He reached out and lightly tapped the back of Hyunjin’s hand with his chopsticks. "Eat your food, idiot."
The rest of their friend group noticed the change almost immediately.
Once they had entered university, Hyunjin and Seungmin’s small circle had expanded into a tightly knit, fiercely loyal group of eight. They practically lived at the off-campus apartment shared by Bang Chan and Lee Minho, which had become the designated headquarters for weekend dinners, movie nights, and impromptu therapy sessions.
On a Friday evening, the apartment was filled with the usual domestic chaos. Chan was in the kitchen, carefully supervising Changbin and Felix as they attempted to bake a batch of brownies that weren't entirely burnt. In the living room, Jisung and Jeongin were aggressively button-mashing during a video game match, shouting insults at each other while Minho sat on the armchair, calmly nursing a cup of tea and watching them like a tired cat.
Hyunjin was sprawled across the sofa, his head resting in Seungmin’s lap. Seungmin was completely unfazed by this, his fingers casually tangling into Hyunjin’s long, silky hair, gently playing with the strands while he read an article on his tablet. It was a position they had assumed a thousand times over the last decade, but tonight, Hyunjin was vibrating with a restless, hyper-aware energy.
Every time Seungmin’s fingertips brushed against his scalp, a literal shiver ran down Hyunjin’s spine. He kept sighing—deep, melodramatic, longing sighs that echoed across the living room.
Minho took a slow sip of his tea, his sharp eyes darting from Seungmin’s indifferent face to Hyunjin’s completely love-struck, pathetic expression. Minho sighed, a long-suffering sound.
"Hyunjin," Minho called out, his voice dripping with dry amusement. "If you sigh like that one more time, I'm throwing you out onto the balcony. The plants don't need your pollution."
Jisung paused his game for a fraction of a second, just long enough to glance over. "He's in his feelings again. Who is it this time, Hyunjin? Did you make eye contact with a beautiful barista again? Are we planning a wedding?"
From the kitchen, Felix poked his head out, holding a flour-dusted wooden spoon. "Wait, Hyunjin has a new crush? Who is it? Do I need to make them cookies?"
Hyunjin groaned, burying his face directly into the fabric of Seungmin’s sweatpants, right over his thigh. "Leave me alone. I am suffering in silence."
"You don't know the meaning of the word silence when it comes to love, Hyung," Jeongin muttered, ruthlessly defeating Jisung’s character on screen.
Seungmin didn't look up from his tablet, but his hand never stopped stroking Hyunjin’s hair, his thumb smoothing down a particularly stubborn knot near the crown of his head. "He’s been like this all week. Don't feed into it. He’s probably just having another one of his art crises again."
Hyunjin peeked out from Seungmin’s thigh, staring up at him with wide, pained eyes. It’s you, you beautiful, dense block of concrete, Hyunjin thought desperately. I’m suffering because of you.
Later that night, when Seungmin went to the bathroom, the rest of the group immediately descended upon Hyunjin like a pack of wolves.
Chan walked over from the kitchen, wiping his hands on a dish towel, a deeply concerned, paternal frown on his face. "Okay, Hyunjin. Out with it. You've been looking at Seungmin like he's the literal sun all night. What's going on?"
Hyunjin scrambled upright on the couch, pulling a throw pillow to his chest defensively. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"Oh, please," Minho scoffed, leaning forward. "You practically have hearts shooting out of your eyes. It’s disgusting. Even Felix and Changbin aren't that nauseating, and they literally share a brain cell."
"Hey!" Changbin protested from the kitchen, though Felix just nodded in agreement.
"Is it... Seungmin?" Jisung asked, his eyes wide with sudden realization. "Wait. Seungmin? As in, Kim Seungmin? Your childhood best friend? The guy who once watched you eat dirt in kindergarten and didn't stop you because he wanted to see if you'd turn into a plant?"
Hyunjin hid his burning face behind the throw pillow. "Yes," he muffled into the fabric. "It's Seungmin. I think... I think I'm completely, totally, hopelessly in love with him."
A collective groan echoed through the living room. Jeongin threw his hands up in the air. "Oh, great. This is going to be a disaster. He's more oblivious than a brick wall."
"Hyunjin, look at me," Chan said gently, sitting down on the coffee table in front of him. He placed a steadying hand on Hyunjin’s knee. All of his friends were looking at him now, their initial teasing melting away into genuine, protective concern. They knew Hyunjin’s track record. They knew how deeply he fell, how fast he ran, and how easily he broke.
"We love you," Changbin said, walking into the living room and leaning against the wall. "But you need to take it slow this time. Seriously. This isn't like the theater major or the indie poet. This is Seungmin. If this goes south, you're not just losing a boyfriend, you're losing more than twenty years of shared history."
"They're right," Felix added softly, his eyes full of sympathy. "Take it slow, Hyunjin. Give it time. See how he feels before you go throwing yourself off a romantic cliff."
Hyunjin looked around at his friends. He knew they were right. He knew that modern love was a cruel, terrifying endeavor, especially when the stakes were this incredibly high. If he confessed and Seungmin didn't feel the same way, the delicate, perfect architecture of their friendship could crumble into dust.
But as Hyunjin heard the bathroom door click open and watched Seungmin walk back into the room, shaking his hands dry, his hair still messy, his eyes immediately scanning the room until they landed on Hyunjin—he felt a sudden wave of fierce, reckless defiance.
They say modern love's a cruel endeavor. And to that I say, fuck it, whatever.
He didn't care about the risks. He didn't care about the statistics of childhood friends falling apart. He looked at Seungmin, and all he could think about was forever.
"What are you guys all staring at?" Seungmin asked, raising an eyebrow as he walked back over to the couch. "Did Hyunjin finally cry over some unfinished art piece of his?"
"No," Hyunjin said, shifting over to make room for him, his heart full to the absolute brim. "Come back here. Your hands are cold, I need to warm them up."
Seungmin sat down, letting out a small, fond sigh, and immediately shoved his cold hands right under Hyunjin’s hoodie, pressing them against his warm stomach. Hyunjin yelped, shivering at the sudden chill, but he didn't pull away. He just wrapped his arms tightly around Seungmin’s waist, holding on like he never wanted to let go.
Across the room, Chan, Minho, and the rest of the group collectively rolled their eyes, but there were soft, knowing smiles hidden behind their expressions.
Over the next few weeks, Hyunjin’s pining reached astronomical proportions. He became a man possessed by a singular, poetic vision of a future that he desperately wanted to realize.
He found himself getting completely overwhelmed, his artistic mind running way too far ahead of himself. He would be sitting in a lecture, completely ignoring the professor, while his notebook filled up with doodles of their initials trapped inside little hearts. He fantasized about the most mundane, domestic things. He wanted to buy a vintage, beat-up car just so they could take road trips down the coast. He wanted them to drive until the upholstery cracked, just so he could take a pocket knife and carve their names into the car seat leather. H + S = <3. He wanted that tangible, permanent proof that they existed together, a marker that would outlast the vehicle itself.
He wanted to buy Seungmin silver jewelry—delicate chains and rings that would catch the light when Seungmin gestured wildly while debating a point in class. He started keeping a stash of different sweet treats in his backpack at all times, knowing that Seungmin had a secret, deeply hidden sweet tooth that usually only manifested during late-night study sessions.
One rainy Tuesday afternoon, they found themselves riding the campus shuttle back to their respective dorms. The bus was nearly empty, the windows fogged up from the cold rain drumming against the glass outside. They were sitting in the very back row, the rhythmic hum of the engine vibrating beneath them.
Seungmin was looking out the window, his chin resting in his hand, his profile silhouetted against the gray, watery light.
"Minnie?" Hyunjin called out softly.
"Hmm?"
"Tell me yet again about when we met," Hyunjin murmured, leaning his head against the cool glass of the window, staring at Seungmin. "And what you thought of me. The very first time."
Seungmin turned his head, a look of profound disbelief on his face. "Hyunjin, I’ve told you this story a hundred times. Why do you always want to hear it?"
"Because I like it," Hyunjin pouted, shifting closer until their shoulders were pressed together, a solid line of warmth through their jackets. "Come on. Please?"
Seungmin sighed, but the fondness in his eyes was unmistakable. He adjusted his glasses, looking back out the window as a small smile tugged at his lips. "Fine. You were a disaster. You had red paint literally smeared across your forehead like Simba, and you were crying because you couldn't find a blue crayon. I thought you were the loudest, most dramatic kid I had ever seen in my life."
"And?" Hyunjin prompted, his heart skipping a beat. "What else?"
"And I thought..." Seungmin paused, his voice softening, dropping to a lower, gentler register that made Hyunjin’s knees go weak. "I thought that you looked like you needed someone to look after you. You were so messy, Hyunjin. I figured if I didn't give you that crayon, you'd probably end up eating the red one out of spite."
"I would not have eaten the crayon," Hyunjin mumbled, though he secretly knew he probably would have. He stared down at their hands, which were resting on the seat between them, just inches apart. "Did you know you'd be stuck with me for basically twenty years?"
"If I had known, I probably would have run away to a different preschool," Seungmin joked, but then he shifted his hand. His fingers brushed against Hyunjin’s, light and tentative, before he casually slotted his fingers between Hyunjin’s, locking their hands together. His palm was warm, dry, and perfectly steady. "But I guess it turned out okay. I don't think I'd know what to do with the silence if you weren't around."
Hyunjin squeezed his hand, his eyes stinging with a sudden, overwhelming rush of emotion. I know everybody changes, but I hope that we don't, he thought fiercely. The world was changing around them; they were growing up, facing graduation in a year, entering a terrifying adult world where people drifted apart, grew cynical, and lost their way. But looking at Seungmin, Hyunjin felt an absolute conviction that some things were meant to be eternal.
He didn't want anyone else. He would never want anyone else. It was a terrifying realization for someone who used to change crushes every few weeks, but now, the thought of a lifetime with just Kim Seungmin felt like the only thing that made absolute sense.
"You're being quiet," Seungmin noted, glancing down at their joined hands and then up at Hyunjin’s face. "Are you getting sick? Your face is really red."
"I'm not sick," Hyunjin whispered, his voice trembling slightly. He reached into his backpack with his free hand, pulled out a rich, dark chocolate bar, and dropped it into Seungmin’s lap. "Here. For your late-night study session later."
Seungmin stared at the chocolate bar, then looked up at Hyunjin, his eyes wide with a sudden, soft surprise. "How did you know I ran out of these yesterday?"
"Because I know everything about you, Kim Seungmin," Hyunjin said, trying to keep his voice light, even though his heart was screaming.
Seungmin looked at him for a long, quiet moment, his gaze searching Hyunjin’s face with an intensity that made Hyunjin’s breath hitch. For a second, just a fraction of a second, Hyunjin thought that maybe, just maybe, Seungmin was finally seeing it. The pining, the love, the absolute devotion written across Hyunjin’s entire being.
But then, Seungmin just smiled, a bright, crinkly-eyed smile that entirely melted his usual cynical exterior. "Thanks, Jinnie. You're the best."
Hyunjin let out a quiet breath, a mixture of relief and fond exasperation. Still completely clueless. But that was okay. Hyunjin could wait. He had a lifetime.
The opportunity to finally break the silence came a weekend later, during a visit to Seungmin’s family home.
Seungmin’s parents were out of town for a wedding, and his older sister had invited them over for a home-cooked dinner. Hyunjin had always loved Seungmin’s family. His house felt like a second home, a place filled with the familiar smells of roasted barley tea and old wood.
Seungmin was a couple of years older than them, a sharp-tongued, fiercely intelligent woman who worked a steady job and had a full, happy life. She possessed the exact same face as Seungmin—the same sharp jawline, the same expressive, dark eyes, and the exact same devastatingly dry sense of humor.
While Seungmin was upstairs in his room searching for a specific textbook he had left behind over vacation, Hyunjin was left alone in the kitchen with his sister, helping her chop vegetables for a stew.
Hyunjin, desperate to be the perfect guest and secretly wanting to win over the gatekeeper of Seungmin’s life, was trying his absolute hardest. He was leaning heavily into his specific brand of cynical humor, trying to match her wit, while a playlist of ballads—which he had meticulously curated because he knew she loved those meaningful, slow songs—played softly from his phone on the counter.
"So," she started, expertly dicing an onion without shedding a single tear, her eyes sliding over to Hyunjin. "Seungmin tells me you've been acting weird lately. He thinks you're having an existential crisis about your art thesis."
Hyunjin nearly cut his finger on a carrot. He quickly set the knife down, his cheeks flushing. "He... he said that?"
"Mm-hmm. He said you keep staring at him like you're trying to memorize his facial structure for a sculpture, and that you bought him chocolate out of nowhere." She paused, turning her body to face him fully, crossing her arms. A slow, knowing smirk spread across her face—the exact same smirk Seungmin gave when he caught Hyunjin in a lie. "But I know my brother. And I know you, Hyunjin. You're not having an art crisis. You're in love with him."
Hyunjin’s jaw dropped. He looked around the kitchen frantically, as if checking for hidden cameras. "Is it really that obvious?!"
"To anyone with working eyes? Yes," the girl laughed, a rich, musical sound. "The rest of your friends must be exhausted watching you two."
"They are," Hyunjin groaned, burying his face in his hands. "Chan and Minho keep telling me to take it slow. But, noona, I'm losing my mind. He is so dense. He literally thinks I'm just being an eccentric artist."
Hyunjin then watched as she walked over to him, tapping his shoulder gently to make him look up. Her expression softened, looking remarkably like Seungmin when he was being genuinely sweet. "He's not dense, Hyunjin. He's just scared of losing the most important person in his life. He's built his entire world around you since he was five years old. To him, you are a permanent fixture. He doesn't even let himself entertain the thought of you liking him back, because if he's wrong, his whole world shatters."
Hyunjin blinked, her words echoing through his mind, shedding a completely new light on Seungmin’s cluelessness. It wasn't that Seungmin couldn't see it; it was that he was actively protecting himself from the possibility of a dream that felt too good to be true.
"You should tell him," She said softly, glancing toward the hallway as they heard footsteps descending the stairs. "Before you explode. And for the record? I approve. I'd rather have you as a brother-in-law than some random stranger who doesn't even know what yearning ballads are about."
Hyunjin smiled, a genuine, soaring feeling taking over his chest. "Thanks, noona."
"What are you guys talking about?" Seungmin asked, walking into the kitchen with a heavy stack of books in his arms. He looked between his sister and Hyunjin, his eyes narrowing slightly with suspicion. "Why is IU playing? Hyunjin, are you trying to win my sister over again?"
"Always," Hyunjin said, stepping forward and naturally taking half the heavy books from Seungmin’s arms to lighten the load. He looked directly into Seungmin’s eyes, his heart steady, the fear that had been holding him back for weeks suddenly evaporating into nothingness. "Come on. Let's help your sister finish dinner."
The confession didn't happen in a rainstorm, and it didn't happen with a grand poetic speech. It happened in the front seat of Chan’s old, battered car, which Hyunjin had borrowed under the guise of needing to transport a large canvas back to his dorm.
It was nearly midnight. The rain had stopped, leaving the asphalt of the campus parking lot dark and gleaming like obsidian under the amber glow of the streetlights. The car heater was humming a low, warm tune, casting a cozy, isolated bubble around the two of them.
Seungmin was in the passenger seat, his head tilted back against the headrest, his eyes closed. He looked exhausted, his hair a beautiful, floppy mess, his glasses sitting slightly crooked on his face.
Hyunjin turned off the engine. The sudden silence in the car was heavy, filled only with the faint, metallic cooling of the engine and the sound of their steady breathing.
Hyunjin looked down at the center console between them. He traced the cracked, worn leather of the seat with his index finger. He could see the faint scratches where years of college students had carelessly thrown keys and backpacks. In his pocket, his fingers brushed against a small, silver ring he had bought a week ago—a simple, elegant band that he had envisioned on Seungmin’s finger.
"Seungmin," Hyunjin whispered.
Seungmin hummed, not opening his eyes, a faint, sleepy smile touching his lips. "Yeah, Jinnie?"
"I lied to my ex-boyfriends," Hyunjin said softly, the words coming out completely unprompted, cutting through the quiet air.
Seungmin’s eyes cracked open, turning his head to look at Hyunjin through the dim light of the dashboard. "What do you mean?"
"Every time I was in a relationship," Hyunjin continued, his voice steady, though his hands were trembling as he gripped the steering wheel. "I used to tell them that we'd get married before we were thirty. I used to tell them that they were the one, that I'd never want anyone else. I thought I meant it. I thought that was what love was—just falling fast and shouting it loud."
Seungmin sat up slightly, his sleepy demeanor vanishing, replaced by a quiet, focused attention. He watched Hyunjin, his dark eyes intense in the shadows of the car. "Why are you telling me this now?"
"Because I realized I was wrong," Hyunjin said, finally turning his head to face Seungmin fully. He let his heart open completely, letting every single ounce of the love he had carried for years show in his eyes. "I liked them because they were a distraction. But I like you better by a million times, Seungmin. I’ve liked you better my entire life."
The car was entirely still. Seungmin’s breath hitched, his eyes widening as the words settled over him.
"Hyunjin..." Seungmin’s voice was barely a whisper, a vulnerable, fragile sound that broke Hyunjin’s heart. "Don't... don't joke about this. Please."
"I'm not joking," Hyunjin said fiercely, reaching across the console and grabbing both of Seungmin’s hands, holding them tightly against his chest. "I am completely, entirely, head over heels in love with you. I don't want a chaotic, temporary romance anymore. I want the kind of love that heals wounds. I want the kind of love where we talk on the phone until four in the morning for no reason. I want to buy you silver jewelry and chocolate, and I want to carve our names into this stupid car seat leather just so the world knows we belong together."
Hyunjin took a deep, shaky breath, tears pricking the corners of his eyes, but they were tears of absolute joy, not heartbreak. "Everybody changes, Seungmin. We're growing up, and the world is getting bigger and scarier. But I hope that we don't change. I want us to be together, forever and ever."
Seungmin stared at him, his lips parted, a single tear escaping his eye and tracking down his cheek. He looked completely undone, the carefully constructed walls of pragmatism and cynicism completely crumbling away, leaving behind the boy who had broken his blue crayon in half twenty years ago.
"You're an idiot," Seungmin choked out, a watery, breathless laugh escaping his lips. "You are such a dramatic, poetic idiot, Hwang Hyunjin."
"I know," Hyunjin smiled, his own tears spilling over. "But I'm your idiot. If you'll have me."
Seungmin didn't answer with words. Instead, he lunged across the center console, ignoring the awkward barrier of the gear shift, and threw his arms tightly around Hyunjin’s neck. He buried his face directly into the crook of Hyunjin’s shoulder, holding onto him with a fierce, desperate strength that told Hyunjin everything he ever needed to know.
"I've been in love with you since high school," Seungmin muffled into Hyunjin’s jacket, his voice shaking. "You kept falling for all these awful people, and I had to sit there and fix you every time, and I was so terrified that if I told you, you'd run away because I wasn't dramatic or poetic enough for you."
Hyunjin wrapped his arms around Seungmin’s waist, pulling him as close as humanly possible in the cramped space of the car. He kissed the side of Seungmin’s head, tasting the faint salt of his tears, a bright, triumphant happiness exploding in his chest. "You are everything to me, Minnie. You are the poetry."
They stayed like that for a long time, tangled together in the front seat of a borrowed car, the amber streetlights painting them in a warm, eternal gold.
Finally, Seungmin pulled back, his face flush, his eyes shining with a happiness that Hyunjin had never seen before. He reached up, his fingers gently wiping away the tears on Hyunjin’s cheeks, before his hand slid down to cup his jaw line.
"So," Seungmin whispered, a small, beautiful smirk returning to his face. "Forever?"
"Forever and ever," Hyunjin promised, leaning forward until their foreheads rested together.
From his pocket, Hyunjin pulled out the simple silver ring, slipping it gently onto Seungmin’s finger. It fit perfectly, catching the dim light of the dashboard. Seungmin looked down at it, his smile so bright it could have lit up the entire campus.
"Sounds good," Seungmin murmured, and then he leaned in, finally closing the distance between them, sealing their forever with a sweet, lingering kiss that tasted like home, like childhood, and like the beautiful, unyielding future they were going to build together.