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If you are about to ask me about the three things that I like the most in this world, my answer would probably be banana ketchup, sinigang, and Sunghoon.
For me, banana ketchup is the most significant invention that ever existed in this world. Naniniwala ako na kayang mabago ang mundo gamit ang banana ketchup. If I were to choose between banana ketchup and a new Louis Vuitton bag, I'd probably choose banana ketchup in a snap.
Don't get me started with banana ketchup arguments, hindi ka mananalo sa akin.
Aside from my favorite banana ketchup, I picked sinigang as the second thing that I like in this world. Kasi naman diba, who the hell would hate sinigang? If you hate sinigang, then we can't be friends. I am being for real when it comes to sinigang slanders. Walang ulam ang mas sasarap pa sa sinigang. Sinigang makes my life better. Kung walang sinigang, dapat meron.
Kidding aside.
It is true that I like banana ketchup and sinigang above anything else in this world, but this third one is very special.
Unlike the first two, Sunghoon is far from being a condiment or an ulam.
Sunghoon is a person.
My favorite person.
I have known him since we were kids. Sunghoon is my first playmate. He's my first friend. Sunghoon was the first person who had seen me cry. He's the person whom I slept beside when I got the lowest score in my Math exam. The person who gives me a glass of water when I'm too lazy to get one. Sunghoon is the first one to teach me slow dances for prom.
There are so many firsts that I have experienced with Sunghoon and that doesn't exclude my first love.
Yes, Sunghoon is my first love.
…and that's how it will end.
Why? Simply because I cannot pursue someone who's already committed to someone that I also love.
Sunghoon is my brother's boyfriend.
The same person who loves my Kuya Jake.
I love them both. I really do. And I'm happy seeing them enjoying each other's company for the past years that they've been together.
Hindi naman ako isang bida kontrabida sa isang telenobela para manghimasok at manggulo sa relasyong meron sa kanila dahil lang may gusto ako sa boyfriend ng kapatid ko. I am better than that.
Although there are times when I'm getting really sick by third wheeling those love birds.
I know that Kuya Jake only wants to include me in everything. Pero sana naman wag na sa mga corny dates nila. Gosh.
"Aray ko tangina ka!" I screamed in both shock and pain when Heeseung flinched my forehead as hard as he could.
I forgot to tell you about Heeseung.
When Sunghoon and Kuya Jake came together, I was really sad to the point that I couldn't even get outside of my room. I hate seeing Kuya Jake around our house. Hindi naman sa galit ako or nagseselos.
Tampo. Yes. That's the right word.
Nagtatampo ako sa kapatid ko because I am not the very first person na sinabihan niya about sa kanila ni Sunghoon. Hindi niya alam na may gusto ako kay Sunghoon kaya nag expect ako na sa akin niya unang sasabihin. Yet, Kuya Jake told about it to Heeseung. Heeseung is the first one to know. And if it wasn't because of Heeseung, baka hindi ko pa nalaman na sila na pala ng best friend ko.
As petty as it may sound, ako dapat ang una niyang sinabihan. I am his brother! He's also my best friend.
So please don't question my pagtatampo.
Anyway, going back to Heeseung. He is my brother's classmate. Magka batch sila ni Kuya Jake and Sunghoon. Nakilala ko si Heeseung through my Kuya. Palagi ba naman silang nandito sa bahay para gumawa ng projects and all.
Nagsasawa na nga ako sa mukha niya. Idagdag mo pa yung nakakairita niyang ugali.
"Arte, hindi naman 'yon masyadong malakas." Heeseung replied.
Naglalaro kami ngayon ng UNO. Kung sinong matalo ay siya ang pipitikin sa noo. And guess what?
Natalo ako.
Lagi naman.
Heeseung is a master of all trades. Yes, he's not just a jack of all trades, but a master. Magaling siya sa lahat. Name it, singing, dancing, academics, sports, and all. Lahat yata kayang gawin nito, kaya sino ba naman ako para umasang mananalo ako sa Uno when he's my opponent?
"Akin na ita-try ko sayo para malaman mo kung masakit ba o hindi." I said. Akma akong lalapit sa kanya para pitikin ang noo niya pero ganoon na lang din ang paglayo niya sa akin.
"That's cheating! Hindi mo pa nga ako natatalo tapos mamimitik ka na!" He said, trying to free himself from my grasp.
I am about to reach his forehead. I'm very very close to flick his head…
The door of my room suddenly opened at iniluwa nito ang gulat na gulat na si Sunghoon. "Woah, sorry guys akala ko walang tao." He said, still holding the door knob of the door.
Ngayon ko lang na-realize na nakapatong pala ako kay Heeseung. And Heeseung on the other hand is holding my waist.
Para kaming…
WTF!
"It's not like what you think Sunghoon." Agad akong tumayo mula sa pagkakaibabaw ko kay Heeseung.
"I didn't say anything." Sunghoon replied. Ngumiti pa ito para ipakitang walang siyang weird na nakita.
I need to change the atmosphere. Ang awkward.
"M-may kailangan ka ba?" I asked him. Hindi naman siya pupunta ng kwarto ko kung wala siyang kailangan. The old Sunghoon would do that, but not the present version of him.
"Pinapakuha ni Jake yung charger niya, naiwan niya daw dito sa kwarto mo." Dito nga pala natulog si Kuya kagabi.
I walked towards the table beside my bed to look for the charger. I opened the first two drawers of the table pero wala akong charger na nakita. Halos halughugin ko na lahat ng sulok ng table pero wala talaga.
"It's alright if hindi mo mahanap. Sasabihin ko na lang kay Jake." Sunghoon said when he saw me struggling to find that stupid charger.
"No, nandito lang 'yon." I insisted.
Maya maya ay nakaramdam ako na tumabi sa akin para maghanap. "I'll help you." It's Heeseung.
Tumitig ako sa kanya ng ilang segundo. I kinda wished that it was Sunghoon who offered to help me find the charger.
"Ito ba 'yon?" Heeseung asked as he showed the charger in front of my face. Bigla akong nahiya. Ganon ba ako katagal na natulala bago niya mahanap yung charger? I hope Sunghoon didn't notice.
"Y-yeah that's it." I answered then Heeseung handed the charger to Sunghoon.
"Thanks." Sunghoon thanked the both of us before leaving the room.
I sat on my bed. "You okay?" Heeseung asked.
"Oo, bakit naman hindi?" I answered, trying to sound okay and normal. This is the first thing I hate about Heeseung, he's too good at telling one's feelings. "You didn't look okay to me." He sat beside me. Akala ko ay hihiga siya but on my surprise, inilapit niya ang mukha niya sa akin.
"W-why?" Tanong ko. Medyo nacoconscious ako sa sobrang lapit ng mukha niya sa akin.
"Pitikin mo na ako." I am so surprised by what he just said. The last thing that Heeseung would let me do to himself is to flick his forehead. Is this his way to make me feel better?
"Ayoko na, matutulog na ako." I tried to revert the topic.
"You like him don't you?" Biglaang tanong niya sa akin. Out of all questions, bakit ito pa?
"Kahit itanggi mo pa Sunoo, I know that you like Sunghoon." Dagdag pa nito.
Inalis ko ang aking sarili mula sa aking pagkakaupo sa kama leaving Heeseung sat there alone. "Alam mo naman pala, nagtanong ka pa." I said sarcastically as I walked towards the air freshener and plugged it in to switch it on.
Heeseung chuckled. "Since when?"
"Alam mo Heeseung, I don't have enough time for heart to heart talks, especially not with you." Muli kong sagot na ikinatawa naman niya nang mahina.
"You're so cute when you're annoyed. Don't worry, I'm just curious, that's all." Sagot niya.
"You see, wala akong makitang rason para magkwento sayo. As if namang may magagawa ka para matulungan ako." It's true. Magsasayang lang ako ng laway sa pagkekwento sa isang to. I better not say a word or so.
"And what if I do?" He said, smirking. Nagpapatawa ba siya?
Naglakad ako papalapit sa kanya. "How?" Alam kong nagbibiro lang ang isang 'to kaya panigurado kagaguhan lang ang sasabihin nito.
"We'll make him want you." Heeseung said seriously. Is he being for real?
Wala sa bucket list ko ang maging third party, kabit, or whatsoever. This is a big no!
"Gago ka b-" I was about to cuss the shit out of him when he cut after my words.
"Biro lang. I can simply help you to forget him."
"Ano ka si fairy godmother mother? Akala mo naman ganoon lang yon kadali?" Sambit ko sa kanya. His plan is impossible. Besides, I can move on by myself. Hindi ko kailangan ng tulong niya.
"Of course it's a process Sun! Tsaka, we'll do it together naman." Dagdag niya sa ideya niya.
Sa totoo lang, I personally think that his plan is plain bullshit. Pero I don't mind, besides, I need some distraction anyway.
"Fine, just make sure that it'll work." I said in agreement.
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[After 2 months]
"Swallow it Sun." Heeseung commanded habang tinitignan ang bunganga ko na puno ng kanyang tamod.
Kasalukuyan akong nakaluhod sa pagitan ng dalawang hita niya. Katatapos ko lang siyang paligayahin gamit ang aking bibig.
I do as I'm told. I swallowed all of his cum. "Fuck, you look so good when you do that." Heeseung said as he watched me swallow every drop of his juices.
"Tayo." Muli nitong utos sa akin at ganoon din naman ang pagsunod ko sa kanya. Heeseung guided me to the bed and that's where he pushed me to lie down.
Pareho na kaming hubo't hubad ngayon kaya naman madali na lang para sa kanya na landasin ang bawat sulok ng aking katawan.
Heeseung parted my legs as he kneel between my legs. His member is still standing so proud maybe because of the blowjob session that I gave him earlier. I bet that he's still sensitive.
Hawak hawak nito sa kaniyang kanang kamay ang pagkalalaki niyang naninigas habang mabagal na sinasalsal ito. "I can cum all over you just by looking at your body, god you look so beautiful." Sambit nito habang matiim na nakatitig sa aking katawan.
I blushed from the statement. Magsisinungaling ako kung sasabihin ko na hindi ako naaapektuhan sa nga sinasabi niya sa mga oras na ito. He look so fucking hot while pleasuring himself. I can watch him do that all day.
"Fuck me already." I pleaded.
Heeseung smirked from what I've said. "Chill baby, I'll fuck you hard later. Just let me admire you for a while." Sagot niya.
"You can take pictures of me naman, that'll last much longer than staring at my body, you know." I suggested it but he didn't listen. Instead this is what he just said. "I've had enough pictures and videos of you babe. Just give me this moment. Mas nalilibugan ako kapag nasa isip kita." He replied.
Heeseung is a tease. Such a big tease! Pero hindi naman ako nagrereklamo tungkol doon because honestly, gusto ko rin naman.
"Now, spread your legs." Heeseung commanded once again.
I spread my legs as wide as I can. Nakita ko kung paano nag iba ang titig ni Heeseung sa akin. His eyes are now filled with too much lust and desire. Parang kakainin niya na ako ng buhay any moment from now.
Inabot niya ang aking namamasang puke at marahang minamasahe ito. "Fuck you're so wet. I haven't touched you yet but you're already this wet huh?" I can't focus on what he's saying right now. All I know is I'm feeling good with what he's doing on my cunt.
"Libog na libog ka na ba kaya ganito ka na kabasa?"
"Tignan mo oh, naglalawa na yung puke mo."
"When's the last time I fucked you? Last week?"
Masyadong naliliyo ang utak ko para intindihin ang mga sinasabi ni Heeseung. Ang alam ko lang ay nasasarapan ako sa ginagawa niya.
Parang nagdedeliryo na yung paningin ko nang biglang ipasok ni Heeseung ang kanyang isang daliri sa loob ng aking puke. "A-aah" Ungol ko nang pagalawin niya ito sa aking loob. Marahang inilalabas masok niya pa ito sa aking butas, dahilan para mas lalo akong mabaliw sa sarap.
"H-hee put another one i-inside." I asked him sounding so desperate for his fingers.
Ikinangisi naman ito ni Heeseung. If there's one thing Heeseung loves to do in this world, that would probably be playing with my cunt. He's good at fingering. I'd give him that.
"Say what babe? I can't hear you." Panunukso pa nito.
"I s-said put another f-finger- aaaah!" He cut my words by inserting another finger inside me. Napakapit na ako sa kaniyang kamay dahil sa sobrang sarap na naramdaman ko sa mga oras na ito. Idagdag mo pa ang paglalaro niya sa aking clitoris gamit ang kaniyang hinlalaking kanina pang kinikiliti ang parteng iyon.
"Aaaah H-hee s-top" I moaned.
"F-fuck that feels so good..aaahh"
"Mmmhhh f-aster hee"
Hindi ko alam kung ilang ungol na ang kumawala sa aking bibig dahil sa paglalaro ni Heeseung sa aking puke. Nararamdaman ko na rin ang pagkunot ng kung anong klaseng sensasyon na namumuo sa aking puson. Senyales na malapit na akong labasan.
I tried to pull out his fingers as hard as I can dahil kung hindi ay lalabasan na ako kaagad. "Why? Hindi pa ako tapos sa ginagawa ko?" Tanong ni Heeseung when I pulled out his fingers.
"I'm too close to coming, stupid." I explained. Ayoko namang labasan ako kaagad. That would be boring as hell.
"Did I do you too good to make you cum too fast babe?" He asked, sounding so proud and boasty.
I rolled my eyes from his question. "Do that again and I'll fuck you hard until your eyes went white." Sambit nito.
"Lie down ulit, we're not done yet." Utos nito sa akin.
I laid down on the bed. Agad naman siyang pumaibabaw sa akin.
Tumingin muna siya sa mga mata ko at hinawi ang ilang takas na buhok na humaharang sa aking mukha. He kissed me passionately. It was deep.
He's kissing me as if I'm the most fragile thing in this world, as if one wrong touch will break me into pieces.
I kissed him back. I put my hands at the back of his head and hold on to a handful of hair as we kiss.
Without breaking the kiss, I can feel him positioning his member between my folds. Bahagya pa nitong idinikit ang uluhan ng kanyang pagkakalalaki sa entrada ng aking puke na animo'y kumakatok bago pumasok.
One moment after, he slowly glided his member inside me. My back arched from both pain and pleasure. He's big. As in big, BIG.
Para akong mapupunit sa laki niya.
This is not the very first time that we did it. But every time feels like the first time with him, especially with that long and thick dick of him to be exact.
"Aaah.." ungol ko nang maipasok niya na ito nang tuluyan. Nangingilid na ang mga luha ko sa sakit.
"Shh.. is it painful?" He asked me, full of concern and worry.
"Kaya ko pa naman, j-just don't move muna." I answered and he nodded in response.
Hindi niya nga iginalaw ito. Instead, he kissed me again on the lips. Sloppy and full of desire, kind of a kiss.
Mula sa aking mga labi ay ibinaba niya ang kaniyang mga halik papunta sa aking leeg. "mmmnh", muling ungol ko.
He reverted the pain that I'm feeling using his kisses. And it was effective. It killed the pain.
"Don't leave a mark please." I said when I felt him sucking the skin on my neck too hard. Paniguradong mag iiwan iyon ng marka.
"My babe's wish is my command." Biro nito at tumawa pa bago ako muling halikan sa labi.
While kissing, I reached for his member and I realized that it is still buried inside me. I pushed it inside me even deeper. Signaling him that he can already move.
Without wasting any second, nagsimula nang gumalaw ni Heeseung.
It was slow at first. Very relaxed.
Bawat hagod ay ramdam na ramdam ko. Ang sarap. Napakasarap.
"F-aster hee" I plead.
"You're so impatient babe." Sagot naman nito habang mahinang tumatawa.
Gaya ng aking sinabi ay sumunod naman ito. This time, his thrust is much faster. Halos mayugyog na yung buong utak ko sa bilis ng pagbayo niya. "F-fuck you're so tight ahh" Ungol ni Heeseung habang patuloy akong kinakantot.
"Tangina Sunoo, your pussy is literally made only for me." Muli pang sambit nito. Nagsimula nang magsipag unat ang mga daliri ko sa paa, senyales na malapit na akong labasan.
I hate Heeseung for being such a good fucker.
Kakasimula pa lang namin pero heto ako't pinipigilan ang sariling labasan. "W-wait Hee lalabasan n-na yata ako." Putol putol na sambit ko sa kaniya.
Animo'y walang narinig si Heeseung at mas binilisan pa nito ang kaniyang pag ulos sa aking loob. Itinukod niya ang kaniyang dalawang kamay sa magkabilang gilid ng aking bewang upang magkaroon ng mas magandang access sa pagbayo.
"Aaahh.." nakatingalang ungol ni Heeseung habang patuloy ang kaniyang pag ulos sa aking puke.
"H-hee lalabasan ako-o." Muli kong sambit sa kaniya.
I grabbed a handful of the white sheets of his bed and rolled back my eyes because of too much pleasure.
Grabe talaga kung kumantot ang isang 'to!
"Fuck." Heeseung hissed on pleasure.
Walang ano ano ay sumirit na ang ihi na aking kanina pang pinipigilan. I squirted!
Nahiya ako bigla.
Akala ko ay tatantanan na ni Heeseung ang puke kong sumisirit na ng ihi dahil sa sobrang sarap na aking naramdaman. But then I was wrong.
Nakangisi pa ito habang patuloy na kinakantot ang masikip na butas ng aking puke.
"I did that." He said, sounding so proud na makita ang aking namumulang puke na basang basa dahil sa ihi.
After a few minutes Heeseung pulled out his cock. Bahagya nitong sinalsal sa harapan ko ang kaniyang malaking burat na nangingintab pa dahil sa iilang tamod na nakabalot dito.
He masturbated for a second at nilabasan naman ito kaagad. His release is no joke!
Although mas marami yung inilabas niya kanina but come to think of it! This was his second release and marami pa rin itong nailabas.
May pabrika ba ito ng tamod at parang hindi yata siya nauubusan?
Ipinutok niya lahat ng ito sa ibabaw ng aking puson.
Matiim ko siyang pinapanood habang patuloy na sinasalsal niya ang kaniyang sarili.
"Get the tissue." Utos ko sa kanya.
"I like it when you boss me around. It makes me want to fuck you even more hanggang sa magmakaawa kang tigilan kita." Seryosong sabi nito bago niya hablutin ang aking bewang at buhatin ako.
He carried me like a little kid. Sa bigat kong ito ay nagmistulan akong isang magaang papel sa kung paano ako buhatin ni Heeseung.
Akala ko ay tapos na kami but then he inserted his dick insde me once again!
"Aaah" I moaned when he thrusted inside me. Kakaibang sensasyon ang naramdaman ko sa posisyong ito. He's literally fucking me habang buhat buhat niya ako.
"G-gusto mo ba yung ganito ha? Yung kinakantot ka habang karga karga ka?" Tanong nito, medyo hinihingal pa.
I buried my face on the side of his neck to prevent from answering his question. Pakiramdam ko ay sobrang namumula na aking mga pisngi lalo na't nakikita ko ang aming sarili sa full body sized mirror dito sa loob ng kwarto ni Heeseung.
My arms are wrapped around his neck to prevent myself from falling. My legs are hanging on the sides of his hips. His cock is buried deep inside me habang patuloy akong kinakantot.
Ubos na ang aking lakas dahil sa pagod but Heeseung is the opposite. He's railing me like there's no tomorrow!
"H-heeseung aaah" Ungol ko nang mas bilisan pa nito ang paglabas masok sa aking loob.
"I'll never get tired of you Sun, you're only mine.."
"Wala ng ibang kakantot sayo the way that I fucked you."
"Aaaah you feel so good baby, ang sikip mo."
Samu't saring mga salita na ang mga ibinubulong ni Heeseung sa aking tenga as he fucked the shit out of me.
I never knew that it would be this good to be fucked while you're being carried. Kung alam ko lang ay sana dati ko pa ito sinuggest sa kaniya.
Maya maya rin ay ibinaba na ako ni Heeseung mula sa kaniyang pagkakabuhat sa akin at inilapag ako sa kama. He gently placed me on top of the bed, napakarahan kung kumilos, akala mo talaga hindi parang halimaw kung kumantot.
"Nganga." Heeseung commanded.
I opened my mouth to catch his release. Sinalsal niya muna ulit ang kaniyang tite para tuluyan na siyang labasan. Para akong isang batang naghihintay na mabigyan ng pagkain habang nakanganga sa harap ng tite niya. This better be worth the wait, Heeseung.
After a few seconds ay nilabasan na siya.
I was about to swallow his release nang bigla niyang hawakan ang aking panga, na naging dahilan upang pigilan ang pagsara ng aking bibig.
Nanatiling nakabuka ang aking bibig na puno ng kaniyang tamod. Walang ano ano ay dinuraan niya ang loob ng aking bibig bago ako halikan. Naglawa ang pinaghalong tamod at laway sa aking bibig habang hinahalikan ako ni Heeseung.
Lalo akong namasa sa ginawa niyang iyon. Ngayon lang yata ako natuwa at nalibugan sa dura ng isang tao.
I better get myself a therapist after this, hindi na healthy si Heeseung sa sistema ko. He's going to make me crazy.
Heeseung pulled away from the kiss.
"You taste so sweet Sun." Sambit nito.
Hinablot niya ang aking kamay at inilagay ito sa kaniyang naninigas na pagkalalaki. "Look, I'm hard again." Nakangisi nitong sinabi.
Tanginang tite yan napakatigas. "Kelan ba yan lumambot?" Pang aasar ko sa kanya.
Napakalibog talaga nito ni Heeseung. Kawawa yung magiging asawa nito. Paniguradong walang araw na hindi siya makakantot ni Heeseung.
"What if round 3?" Heeseung said, smiling.
"What if umuwi na ako?" Sagot ko naman sa kanya.
"Come on, Sun! Ihahatid naman kita eh." Pagpipilit nito sa akin.
"I'm already sore Heeseung." Kung hindi mo ba naman ako kinantot ng ganon ka-grabe kanina edi sana umabot pa tayo hanggang 12 rounds.
"Fine." He said defeatedly. Tumayo ito mula sa kama at pumunta sa comfort room ng kaniyang kwarto. Maya maya ay bumalik kaagad ito dala ang isang maliit na pale na may lamang tubig at malinis na towel.
Pinaga niya ang tubig na kumapit mula sa towel. "Come here, I'll clean you up." He asked me to come near him.
Lumapit ako sa sulok ng kama kung saan naroon siya.
Nakahiga ako habang pinupunasan ni Heeseung ang aking katawan. "Baka ma-inlove na ako sayo niyan ha." I said jokingly.
Natawa naman nang mahina si Heeseung. "You better watch out for yourself then." Sagot nito.
Yabang ha!
"Alam mo, I always wonder how lucky your future partner would be." I said as I watched him wiping the stickiness out of my arms.
"I don't think so." He replied.
"No, seriously! Look at you, you're smart, kind, gentleman, sporty, and h-handsome." I explained.
"Ooh so you think I'm handsome?" Ayan na nang asar na siya. "Out of all the things na sinabi ko, ayan lang yung na-retain mo?" I rolled my eyes.
"Just kidding. But you know, I don't think that someone would be lucky enough to have me." He said seriously.
"Why tho?"
"Wala, I think na ako yung mas maswerte. Isipin mo, you have someone who will love you as who you are. Ayon yung swerte." Sagot niya.
"Okay Mr. Lover boy." Biro ko sa kanya.
Pareho kaming natawa. Sex with Heeseung is pretty nice and good as hell. But I won't trade this kind of small deep talks that we have.
"Any improvement?" He asked out of the blue. I knew what he was talking about. It's about Sunghoon.
My moving on process.
"Still the same." I answered. My feelings for Sunghoon is still the same. Walang nabago.
"That's bad tho." Naging seryoso ang mukha ni Heeseung.
Itinigil niya ang pagpupunas sa aking katawan at ibinalik ang towel sa loob ng maliit na timba.
Biglang nagbago yung ihip ng hangin sa loob ng apat na sulok ng kwarto ni Heeseung. Parang naging seryoso bigla.
"Sun.."
"I don't think our plan is helping you in any other way or so…"
"Don't you think that this is the time for us to stop this?" Tanong niya.
NO.
"W-why?" Tanong ko. Medyo hindi pa nagsisink in sa akin ang lahat.
"I just think that it would be best for you to focus on yourself first. You know, without this." Heeseung said seriously.
"Plus, I will be very busy with school. You know, graduating stuff and all." He added.
What did he mean by THIS?
"By "this" are you referring to our sexual activities?" Tanong ko sa kanya.
Tumango naman ito. It's totally fine for me to stop this kind of setup. I will certainly miss it though. But if that's what he thinks what's good for me then I would do so.
"S-sure! Walang problema." Sagot ko sa kanya ng nakangiti.
I don't know if it's right to feel this but..
why am I getting sad about this?
dapat ay okay lang ito sa akin diba?
It's not like I'm in a serious and committed relationship with him. Baka siguro dahil lang ito sa ano…
Attachment.
Sanay kasi akong laging nandyan siya.
Oo baka ayon nga yon.
Lilipas lang siguro to. A few days let's say.
"Wait, are you really fine with that?" Muling tanong nito sa akin.
"Y-yeah, bakit naman hindi?" Hindi talaga Heeseung.
Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Naiinis ako na nalulungkot na parang nagagalit…ah basta!
"Uwi na ako." Sabi ko sa kanya. Tumango naman ito bago pulutin ang mga nagkalat kong damit sa kaniyang kwarto.
"Wait for me, magdadamit lang din muna ako." Sabi nito bago tumungo sa kaniyang maliit na walk in closet sa kaniyang kwarto.
So..
This would probably be the last time that I'll be here in his room again. Hindi naman ako pumapasok sa kwarto niya unless we're going to do IT.
I scanned his room once again. I'm going to picture every little details na meron dito sa kwarto niya. I'll miss his room. I'll miss his kisses. I'll miss our little chitchats here. I'll miss this.
"Tara na?" Oo nga pala, nakalimutan kong nag offer nga pala siyang ihatid ako sa amin. "You know, I can go home by myself, hindi mo na ako kailangang ihatid." I said but he ignored it.
Tangina talaga nito.
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We're now in front of the door of our house. His car is parked steps away from the gate.
"Bye." I bid him goodbye.
I was about to reach the door knob but then his hand refrained me from doing so. Iniharap niya ako sa kanya bago ako yakapin nang mahigpit.
Sobrang higpit.
"Arte mo. It's not like we're not going to see each other once in a while." Hello? Kaibigan at kaklase siya ni Kuya Jake, he'll probably visit here just like what he normally do.
"Just stay here for 5 more minutes." Bulong niya habang mahigpit pa ring nakayakap sa akin.
"Is it too much if I asked you to please hug me back?" Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. Of course it's not too much! Malakas ka sakin Heeseung.
Ako lang yata ang hindi?
I hugged him back.
"Our neighbors will probably be weirded out if they saw us like this." Sabi ko sa kanya.
"Let them be." Heeseung said whispering.
We stayed like that for a few more minutes.
He freed me from the hug. "Go get inside." Sabi niya. Tumango naman ako bago buksan ang pinto. Huminto ako saglit bago tuluyang pumasok. "Are you sure you don't want to get inside?" Alok ko sa kaniya na agad naman niyang tinanggihan.
After that ay agad na akong pumasok. Pagkasara ko ng pinto ay hindi muna ako umakyat papunta sa aking kwarto. Nanatili akong nakasandal sa pintuan.
Maya maya ay narinig ko na ang pag start ng makina ng kotse ni Heeseung, senyales na paalis na siya.
There's a part of me wanting to open the door and chase him before he gets away.
…pero hindi ko ginawa.
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That was the last time that I saw him. He spared no visits, calls, texts, replies, and all after that day.
There are times na nagkikita kami sa school, but before I can greet him ay iniiwasan niya na ako. I had no idea what happened to Heeseung. To us.
As far as I know ay wala naman kaming naging problema or away before we called off our setup.
What went wrong? I asked myself.
Hindi ko maiwasang balik balikan yung mga huling oras na okay pa kami, the time when I still have him as my friend.
I wished I hugged him much longer than I did that day.
I wished I had forced him to come inside the house and spend the night there. With me.
I wished I had chased him that night.
Kung alam ko lang sana…