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Jinx knew nothing of many things.she welcomed to her new personality, embraced and devoured it, her gut digested every nerve that exploded, congealed, and exploded again in Jinx, and now, she was a whole new person. She doesn't know what sympathy is, she doesn't know how the word “Compassion”is pronounced from her mouth, and she doesn't know, for example, that the waste discarded from the bomb experiments has contaminated the few farmlands in Zuan that can supply wheat, she has no idea that the shimmering light within reach of the Zuan people has left them mentally depressed, their suffering intensified under the weight of economics and life. She is simple, she is cruel, she is sharp and intelligent, she is bewildered and ignorant. She doesn't know, she knows nothing, she doesn't know that Sevika is carrying her child in her womb, she is a child, a child that society cannot tame, she doesn't know this. She touches Sevika's bulging belly and asks her, oh, Sevika, is this a tumor or a pent-up food? Perhaps the obesity and sluggishness of middle age have finally gotten to you?
"It's foolishness." Sevika said, pressing the cigarette that had gone out in her mouth to the bedside table.
"You're foolish from head to toe." Jinx tried to make it sound contemptuous and joking, but her lips were quivering and her index finger pointed at Sevika's belly propped up by the fetus. "Here, too."
"It is yours." Sevika stopped Jinx at the waist and let the girl's cheek rest against her rolling belly, "It will soon have limbs and a heartbeat, and just think, it has that damn blue hair of yours and eyes exactly like yours. Jinx, sometime in the future, you hold it and look into the same eyes as you, it smiles at you, it flops into your arms, it might actually bring you what you call happiness - that's something you never got, isn't it? It's not going to happen because foolishness has a life span and it will end tomorrow."
"What's the point of babbling to me about this? Just get rid of it!" Jinx pushed Sevika away, her pretty face contorted by a mouthful of clenched teeth, her blue eyes glowing painfully ghostly in the faint light, panicked and disgusted to keep her naked upper body away from Sevika, as if touching any patch of the woman's brown skin would burn her.
"You said the exact same thing as Silco." Sevika said, "How ...... unsurprising to me then."
"Silco?" frowned Jinx, "He already knows? When?"
"Longer than you know." Sevika said.
"Then why did you put it off until now?" Jinx pointed at Sevika's belly.
"Good question." Sevika said, "Maybe I wanted to keep it."
Jinx couldn't say anything, and she gripped the sheet under her hand until it was moistened with sweat from her palms.
"I thought about having it, I was just kind of curious what kind of disgusting thing it could grow into." Sevika leaned down and pulled Jinx's thighs apart, pressing her fingers against her clit while holding her cock, using more force than ever before, hurting the girl. Jinx kicked her hard, she intended to kick in the stomach, her raised foot deflected to the base of her leg, no, she couldn't do it.
Sevika's thumb tweaked her clit and Jinx grabbed her hand and hissed in the woman's ear, "Let go, I don't want it now."
"So, let me guess, you went to the trouble of crawling into my bed today just to ...... see your baby?"
"Fuck off!" Jinx roared,as she fiercely grabbed Sevika by the neck and pinned the woman sideways to the bed, "I don't care, I don't care about it!"
The two were entangled on the bed for a while, Sevika stretched her arms around the girl's waist, bit Jinx's nipples, and stroked the girl's trembling inner thighs with the other hand, which was Jinx's favorite sexual comfort and Sevika's truce. Jinx cursed some more as Sevika kept kissing the side of the girl's breasts, wrapping her tongue around the gradually hardening nipples until a tide of fluid gushed from Jinx's hole and his cock hardened in his calloused palms. Jinx muttered something, leaning over and burying her face between the woman's breasts.Sevika's breasts were fuller and softer than before, and the girl licked her bulging nipples and sucked, she thought, if hard enough , maybe there will be milk flowing into her mouth, maybe she can taste the sweetness, she thought vaguely, she had long forgotten her mother, she couldn't remember if she had nursed her, she was someone else then, someone with a name, someone who might have been happy.
Jinx kissed Sevika's abdomen in orgasm, her fingertips caressing the woman's bulging belly as she pressed her ear to it and heard a rhythmic heartbeat, strong, intense, restless-it might have been the fetus's heartbeat-and soon, she realized, it was not only the fetus's heartbeat, but her own.
Sevika would not have chosen the hospital in Piltover if she did not have to. News of her pregnancy leaked out and her men began to whisper, realizing that Sevika also had a womb, and soon they would think that Sevika only had a womb.
Silco knew all about the gossip, he was always well informed.he warned Sevika there were a handful of people of her caliber who could take her position, and if she lost the prestige she deserved, he would kick her out like an empty, squashed can.
Obviously, Silco and Jinx were carved out of the same mold.Jinx's habitual indifference and sharpness were exactly the same as her adoptive father.
Silco didn’t know whose child was in Sevika's belly, and if he had known he was the grandfather of that child, he might have hesitated for a moment when he told Sevika to abort it.
"You don't have to worry about my prestige, boss." Sevika controlled the sarcasm in her voice, "I have ways of dealing with it. As for the boy, it's not your business. This is my child, and I will decide whether she lives or dies."
Now Sevika had decided that this little four-month-old thing would not escape death. Her mobility was becoming more and more difficult, the vomiting and frequent urination might not have been a problem for women who were kept in households, but she needed to be out in the field at all times, there was no shortage of blood work, and the discomfort always came at an inopportune time. Her knees always ached, the baby seemed to suck the marrow out of her bones, and Jinx's insatiable appetite was inherited before the baby was even born.
Sevika thought about having the child, but her situation did not allow the child to grow into shape, the intense work and the fetus only one can stay, she was not foolish enough to give up the position she had sweated and bled for over the years. What's more, the little one that has caused her all kinds of trouble is Jinx's bloodline, and that means the child will just be another bane (jinx).
They tossed and turned until the early hours of last night, and Jinx was so exhausted that she cuddled up to Sevika's breast and slept contentedly through the night. The woman pulled the girl from her body, draped herself in clothes and set off for the hospital in Piltover, where no one knew her, no one cared who she was, whose baby it was and why she had to abort it.
As Sevika sat waiting in the crowded hospital, the effects of the drug working their way through making her very sick, a passing nurse kindly handed her a pocket, and before she could say anything, she threw up in the bag in a fit of vomit. When Sevika looked up from her vomit, she unfortunately recognized the girl sitting across from her, the girl she had once made love to in a brothel. The girl was about the same age as Jinx, but with a much larger belly than Sevika's, and perhaps out of pain, or perhaps out of loneliness,, she had been crying, wiping the tittering tears that had fallen with the back of her hand. Sevika remembered the rumors that had been spread by the talkative brothel girls that the girl had a long-standing deal with an uptown playboy, which was probably why she was here, the seed of an uptowner that a downtowner didn't deserve to give birth to. The elite would rather pay good money for such children to die unnoticed.
The girl barely dried her red, swollen eyes, and now that she could see Sevika clearly, her expression was filled with surprise -
and relief.
Sevika was close to male in size, doing things that almost only men do, none more typical than killing and whoring. To these girls, who were forced to enter the brothel early in life, Sevika was a "man", a lucky "man", she didn't know anything about what Sevika was going through, she felt that this "man" who was separate from women. Sevika was a lucky "man".Sevika can even pay to enjoy her body.
One of them is the meat on the table, and the other is the "man" sitting at the table.
She found great comfort when she discovered that such a "man" would also suffer equally from all the pains of childbirth.
"Barbara!"
The girl got up in a hurry and followed the nurse who led the way into the operating room, giving Sevika another look at the last moment she entered.
Her eyes were full of compassion and understanding, and it made Sevika feel uncomfortable in her seat.
Sevika didn't notice that another person was watching with her as the girl walked into the operating room. The long blue braid had fallen to her lap when Sevika noticed that the light was blocked by the shadow of a human form.
Jinx was half-crouched in front of Sevika, her face sunken and her eyes red, as if she had cried not long ago, but she did her best to hide this.
"I talked to Silco." Jinx said, "He changed his mind, he wants you to stop having abortions."
" It' s not his baby." Sevika said, " It is none of my business what he thinks."
"If you try to do something you shouldn't, you'll be fired." Jinx whispered threateningly.
"Why don't you ask your dad how many people have tried to poach me from him in the past year?" Sevika sneered, "What's the matter? Jinx, do you want it? Well, you still have time to say goodbye to it. From now until I'm done in the operating room, feel free to say whatever goodbyes you come up with."
"Sevika ...... please ...... her, her hair might be blue ......," Jinx whispered, her voice soft and shaky.
"I'm here for an abortion." Sevika said, "Not to give birth."
A shrill hiss cut through the oppressive silence of the ward, and the waiting patients looked over at the strange pair of women. The girl with the long blue braids twisted the lanky woman's collar and cursed, cried, and then cursed again in a language they didn't understand, her fists pounding the brown-skinned woman's breasts and bulging belly. The nurse and attendant rushed to pull her aside.
"Maybe it's the mistress, the one who can't get pregnant and is mad with jealousy." The couples waiting together whispered, the women waiting alone just watched.
"That's my baby too!" Jinx yelled. Her voice was so shrill that the caretaker reached over and covered her mouth.
"Look, she's gone crazy." The couples waiting together shook their heads, and the women waiting alone wore sympathetic and confused expressions.
"You're still a child yourself." Sevika said. "Why don't you go home? Complain to your dad about things that aren't going as well as you'd like. It's not the first one and it won't be the last."
"Sevika!"
a voice shouted.
"It's me now." Sevika stood up.
"Don't go over there." Jinx gave a dangerous look as she easily brushed aside the caretaker and nurse and walked toward Sevika, the taller caretaker looking in shock at the bruised finger marks on her hand.
"Play your rotten nature somewhere else, this is not the bar your father runs." Sevika said.
Jinx closed her eyes, frowned, and slowly opened them again, controlling her emotions with extremely unskilled deep breathing. She didn't continue to approach Sevika, choosing instead to walk towards the lead nurse who was overwhelmed and leaning against the wall clutching her book and writing pad.
"The lady needs a change of procedure." Jinx said, half a head shorter than the nurse, gesturing in Sevika's direction with her eyes, aggressively demanding.
She pull her jacket open so the shivering girl could see the bomb on her inside pocket and the revolver on her belt, "Now, switch her to a fetal exam, I think you can do that. As long as you do, I won't touch a single weapon, and if you can't, everyone here is going to die with you."
"You didn't pull off the bomb directly, you made some progress." Sevika sneered. The nurse nodded quickly, trotted, and left Jinx in a hurry.
"Let's go," Sevika said.
"what?"
"Get out of here." Sevika explained.
"You changed your mind?" Jinx's eyes lit up.
"Fool, this is Piltover! The nurse you threatened has already called the police.The Enforcers will block this place in five minutes. Let's go."
"It means you change your mind." Jinx said with certainty, and there was something smug in her voice.
Sevika and Jinx disappeared into the hospital corridor one after another, leaving the patients to stare at each other in silence, confused on what was going on and left to their wild imaginations to complete the bizarre story.
Was it an entanglement between a lesbian couple and a man? They guessed.
Is it intersex? The little blue-haired girl looked so much younger than the brunette that it was probably an unfortunate accident. They guessed.
At least the baby was saved, which is a good news, anyway. They guessed.
"You're going to give birth to her, aren't you?" In the streets of Zaun, Jinx took Sevika's fingers and asked her softly in her ear. "I'm sorry, Sevika ...... damn it, I didn't know I'd ever apologize to you! I shouldn't have said that about our baby, you know I've never been able to control my emotions, I was scared at that time ......"
"The baby is dead." Sevika said flatly.
Jinx's eyes went round and she looked at Sevika incredulously, flatly asserting that she was lying. Tears streamed down from the corners of her reddened eyes without warning.Her fingers were already on the gun, but she couldn't hold the handle.
"Before the fetus can be removed, it needs to be given medicine to let it die, and the operation will not begin until the medicine has taken effect." Sevika said, "Why bother to listen at the hospital to see if it still has a heartbeat? You won't hear anything, it's already dead. You don't care how the baby was delivered, you just want to use it to give yourself a rebirth. New life? Let me tell you, selfish brat, that will never happen."
Jinx drew the gun on her belt, the revolver's nest began to turn, six shots rang out in quick succession, one hitting the trunk of a dead tree on the wasteland, one hitting a wall of addicts high on ember and unconscious, one hitting the glass of an abandoned house, one deflecting on the scorched flat ground, one deflecting into the dusky sun, and one piercing Sevika's womb.