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“Hollander.” Ilya said, with some panic creeping in to his voice, as he watched Shane’s eyes flick everywhere all at once. Ilya lifted an arm, and let it go just over Shane’s own thigh. It came down, with no resistance to the drop.
Still pinning him up with one hand, he squatted on the locker room floor just in front of Shane. “Have you seen this before, Coach?” Ilya asked. He surely hadn’t.
“It’s new to me, Rosanov. I think I have to get medical involved. Can you watch him until I get back?”
“Please hurry.” Ilya sat back next to Shane on the bench, one of his one legs over Shane’s, and one hand lightly on his neck to keep his head steady. His other hand ran the largest circles he could on Shane’s back. He wouldn’t say it out loud, but maybe this was a panic attack.
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Shane has an unusual health emergency, and Ilya does his best to make Shane comfortable through it all.
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03 Jul 2026
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Do You Think About Me At All? by ChaoticRussian2481
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Apr 2026
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Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”
“Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”
“Rozanov…”
“You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”
Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.
This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.
Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.
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Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.
But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?
What if that moment had never existed?
Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?
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02 Jul 2026
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Much better (as you like it) by No_good_deed
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
19 Feb 2026
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Shane’s face fell.
‘Wait, are you leaving again?’‘Hollander-‘, Ilya said warningly but Shane interrupted him, either not hearing Ilya or choosing to ignore him.
‘No. We didn’t even kiss’, he whispered, avoiding eyecontact. Shane was staring at the floor, frowning, like he knew this was important somehow, but he forgot why.
Ilya froze, very aware of the nurse standing behind them.
Or: Shane isn’t allowed to leave the hospital alone after getting a concussion. Surely one of his teammates could pick him up, but a drugged Shane only wants to go with Ilya.
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01 Jul 2026
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Invite Me Home by SunsetMaiden
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
15 Apr 2026
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After Scott Hunter comes out on national TV, Ilya wants nothing more than to go to Shane's cottage and figure out a way to make their relationship work. Too bad he broke things off and blocked Shane after the Montreal/Boston game that sent Shane to the hospital. Upon discovering that Shane has blocked him back, Ilya decides to show up at the cottage and win his Hollander back.
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“Jane would not block me,” Ilya insisted again, even as his chest constricted with uncertainty. Ilya Rozanov did not get blocked, especially by pretty, pouty, freckled Canadians who meant everything.
Marleau threw his hands out in helpless surrender, Ilya’s glare fierce enough to send him scurrying from the kitchen. Ilya waited a beat before carefully tapping Shane’s contact to call. He held his breath, heart sinking to the pit of his stomach as it rang once and connected to voicemail. Clenching his jaw, he hung up and tried again. Then one more time, torment ripping through his already tattered heart. This time when it connected, he left a message. Short, sweet, and full of intention even if Shane wouldn’t hear it. “I’m coming to the cottage.”
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30 Jun 2026
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I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by allmylovesatonce
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jun 2026
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Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.
But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.
Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.
Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?
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30 Jun 2026