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Summary:

In the vast beyond floats two ships, carrying two beating hearts that connect through the physical beings they travel in.

(or: simon and grace's vessels connect across universes and they communicate)

Notes:

was rereading 17776 and i wanted to do a little taste test on how to format a bloodymary story similar to Things Connecting That Shouldn't ... this was a break from a sort of behemoth sized fic i've been writing my sweet angst treat. realism is at a premium LOW.

title from fresh static snow by porter robinson - listen while reading for the max. ouch factor

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HM-19 > Hello ?
HM-19 > I don’t know whats happening
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HM-19 > if anyone sees this, I’m on the Hail Mary from Earth
HM-19 > It’s not the worst planet
HM-19 > You should visit
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HM-19 > or don’t
HM-19 > That’s okay, too. It’s crowded
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HM-19 > And probably dying
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SM-13 > what is this
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HM-19 > OH
HM-19 > HELLO?
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SM-13 > ???
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HM-19 > WHERE ARE YOU FROM
HM-19 > Sorry for yelling
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SM-13 > what is this
SM-13 > who are you
SM-13 > no WHAT are you

HM-19 > I’m Ryland Grace
HM-19 > I just figured that out
HM-19 > I’m sort of piloting the Hail Mary
HM-19 > I’m not a pilot, though
HM-19 > I’m a scientist
HM-19 > Doctorate in molecular biology
HM-19 > Hello ?
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SM-13 > you talk a lot

HM-19 > I just woke up from a coma
HM-19 > I think

SM-13 > oh
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SM-13 > that sounds tough
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HM-19 > It was
HM-19 > Probably
HM-19 > Where are you ?
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HM-19 > Hello ?
HM-19 > SM-13 ?
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HM-19 > Be safe
HM-19 > I think it’s just you and me
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HM-19 > Me and you
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SM-13 > are there any stars where you are
SM-13 > ?
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HM-19 > Yes !
HM-19 > A lot of them
HM-19 > Why ?

SM-13 > how

HM-19 > What do you mean how
HM-19 > Do you know how stars form ?
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SM-13 > the quiet rapture
SM-13 > so you just didn’t get that ?
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HM-19 > The what ? ?

SM-13 > forget it

HM-19 > NO
HM-19 > Sorry
HM-19 > What do you mean ?

SM-13 > it doesn’t matter
SM-13 > if it didn’t happen for you, you’re too far
SM-13 > how are you even getting this
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SM-13 > are you real ?
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HM-19 > Why wouldn’t I be ?

SM-13 > i’m in a weird way
SM-13 > that’s all
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HM-19 > How weird ?
HM-19 > Maybe I can help you
HM-19 > I think it really is just us
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SM-13 > it’s complicated

HM-19 > Try me

SM-13 > it’s a blood ocean
SM-13 > i think they sent me down to die
SM-13 > i don’t want to die
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SM-13 > do you think i’ll die ?

HM-19 > No
HM-19 > You have a will to live
HM-19 > That’s enough
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HM-19 > Wait, a blood ocean ? ?

SM-13 > i told you
SM-13 > complicated

HM-19 > No, it’s just crazy
HM-19 > Is your entire planet just… blood ?

SM-13 > complicated…
SM-13 > they’re gone

SM-13 > the planets

SM-13 > the stars 

SM-13 > it’s not mine
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HM-19 > Oh
HM-19 > Sorry
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SM-13 > it’s okay
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HM-19 > I’m happy I’m not alone
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SM-13 > me too
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HM-19 > Be careful
HM-19 > Please
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HM-19 > What’s your name?
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SM-13 > simon

HM-19 > Is that what the SM strands for ?
HM-19 > Hah

SM-13 > might as well
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HM-19 > I think I can send you video logs
HM-19 > Wait
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HM-19 > Did you get it?
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SM-13 > wow
SM-13 > you have nice eyes
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HM-19 > Hah
HM-19 > I can send you more
HM-19 > Until I find you
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SM-13 > please

HM-19 > I got you :]
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SM-13 > what if we die here
SM-13 > alone
SM-13 > that doesn’t bother me
SM-13 > being alone
SM-13 > it kind of does now
SM-13 > because you’re here
SM-13 > and it’s different
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SM-13 > i want to live, grace
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SM-13 > i can live to see you
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SM-13 > soon, right ?
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HM-19 > Soon ! ! !
HM-19 > It’s hard, but I promise
HM-19 > I’ll get you out
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HM-19 > Just hold on for me, okay?
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SM-13 > okay
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SM-13 > grace ?
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SM-13 > can you just talk to me ?
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HM-19 > What about ?

SM-13 > anything
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HM-19 > I’m not good at space walks
HM-19 > I think I found another ship !
HM-19 > I thought it was unfriendly
HM-19 > I also think it thinks I’m dumb

SM-13 > are you
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HM-19 > You’re talking to a man with a PhD !
HM-19 > I taught middle schoolers
HM-19 > I think I called someone I worked with a waste of carbon
HM-19 > Sorry, staggering waste . Important
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SM-13 > well, were they. . .
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HM-19 > Possibly
HM-19 > My memory is still bad
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SM-13 > why ?

HM-19 > The coma, I guess
HM-19 > Something feels wrong about it, though
HM-19 > Are there others on your ship ?
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SM-13 > just me
SM-13 > it’s a submarine
SM-13 > obviously
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SM-13 > you ?
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HM-19 > No
HM-19 > They didn’t make it
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SM-13 > oh shit
SM-13 > sorry for your loss

HM-19 > No, it’s okay
HM-19 > I’m managing
HM-19 > One bag of Vodka at a time
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SM-13 > haha
SM-13 > pass it over
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HM-19 > Open wide :]
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HM-19 > I don’t think I’m scared of dying anymore
HM-19 > If this is it, if I can’t fix it
HM-19 > The stars will die
HM-19 > Earth will die
HM-19 > My students will die
HM-19 > I might as well die, too
HM-19 > ..If it happens
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SM-13 > you can’t go
SM-13 > okay ?
SM-13 > you’re smart
SM-13 > you won’t die and neither will they
SM-13 > so. stay
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HM-19 > I’m here, Simon

SM-13 > good
SM-13 > how do the stars look ?

HM-19 > Beautiful
HM-19 > Better this close…

SM-13 > describe them to me
SM-13 > please
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HM-19 > It’s kind of scary
HM-19 > Being so close
HM-19 > Seeing so much
HM-19 > I didn’t even want to, I didn’t want this
HM-19 > They’re really bright.
HM-19 > They’re everywhere
HM-19 > I wish you could see them
HM-19 > We could sit on a planet and watch them burn for centuries
HM-19 > Just you and me
HM-19 > Is that weird?
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SM-13 > no
SM-13 > it’s really nice
SM-13 > sleeping on a planet
SM-13 > haha

HM-19 > Exactly :]
HM-19 > Looking at a star now
HM-19 > It dims and comes back and dims and comes back
HM-19 > Like it’s surviving
HM-19 > I’ve been watching it since I got in contact with you
HM-19 > I named it Simon
HM-19 > You know
HM-19 > Now we’re closer
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SM-13 > really?
SM-13 > wow
SM-13 > sorry
SM-13 > i’m not good at this
SM-13 > being seen
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SM-13 > thank you
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HM-19 > :]
HM-19 > You’ll see Simon The Star soon
HM-19 > Inception !
HM-19 > I promised you, didn’t I?
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SM-13 > you did
SM-13 > holding you to it
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HM-19 > I MET THE ALIEN
HM-19 > They’re nice !
HM-19 > Sweet
HM-19 > Sending you a video log
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SM-13 > you’re smart…..
SM-13 > connecting to him
SM-13 > him ?
SM-13 > you communicate so freely
SM-13 > why would he grow in you
SM-13 > it’s mighty impressive, captain
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HM-19 > NOT a captain
HM-19 > But thank you :] !
HM-19 > That’s a long story
HM-19 > Why I thought he was gonna grow inside of me

SM-13 > we have time

HM-19 > Well.
HM-19 > What’s your situation ?
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SM-13 > dire
SM-13 > it’s scary
SM-13 > found some shit
SM-13 > bad shit
SM-13 > something’s alive down here with me
SM-13 > i don’t think it’s happy
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HM-19 > I’m going to see if Rocky can help
HM-19 > That’s his name by the way
HM-19 > Not that he told me
HM-19 > Human name…
HM-19 > After the movies
HM-19 > Anyway.
HM-19 > Hold tight. Don’t give up, okay ?
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SM-13 > never have, never will
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SM-13 > actually
SM-13 > what even are movies
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HM-19 > Oh my god

HM-19 > You're way different, huh ? 

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SM-13 > is that bad ? 

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HM-19 > No

HM-19 > Never

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SM-13 > not that i care

SM-13 > but it's good to know

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HM-19 > I guess so !
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SM-13 > i do kind of care

HM-19 > I thought so :]
HM-19 > I like different
HM-19 > I like
HM-19 > You
HM-19 > Because you’re different
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HM-19 > I hope that's not weird

SM-13 > no
SM-13 > it’s not
SM-13 > you worry about that a lot

HM-19 > I don’t want to leave a bad impression

SM-13 > you haven’t
SM-13 > if anything
SM-13 > it’s the best

HM-19 > Oh
HM-19 > Good then !
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SM-13 > the blood does something
SM-13 > it stings
SM-13 > i think it could kill
SM-13 > just by being around it, in it
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SM-13 > i think theres a leak
SM-13 > it feels so
SM-13 > alive
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SM-13 > i think it’s alive

SM-13 > it cut me

HM-19 > The blood is alive ?

SM-13 > i think
SM-13 > something like it

HM-19 > I can’t find you
HM-19 > I need more about your location
HM-19 > Rocky isn’t familiar either

SM-13 > fuck
SM-13 > i don’t know
SM-13 > there’s not much i can tell you

HM-19 > Is there anything ?
HM-19 > I can try, I won’t give up

SM-13 > i was born on a space station
SM-13 > i don’t know

HM-19 > A space station ? ?

SM-13 > the quiet rapture
SM-13 > i told you its complicated

HM-19 > Space is complicated
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SM-13 > can you tell me about earth ?
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HM-19 > Earth is weird. It’s great. Comparatively, to other planets, it feels weird, right? There’s dirt that gives life, makes home for other life forms. The breeze that makes you feel less alone. Just how small the moon looks from down there.
HM-19 > The love that's born there
HM-19 > For everything
HM-19 > the flowers
HM-19 > Humans are selfish. Earth was dying even before the Petrova line
HM-19 > but it’s home. The ocean, the grass, the breeze, and the trees, it’s home, I wish everyone saw that… I think you would like petrichor
HM-19 > Smell of rain on the pavement
HM-19 > I miss it
HM-19 > I wish you could see it.
HM-19 > Nothing could hurt you
HM-19 > Maybe the sunburn
HM-19 > And the biters, you know, like ants and stuff
HM-19 > But that’s human, that’s life
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HM-19 > We all want to live, but nobody wants to die for it, does that make sense ?
HM-19 > I guess that’s where we come in, right ?
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HM-19 > Simon ?
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HM-19 > Please be careful
HM-19 > I won’t give up on finding you, even we you lose connection
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HM-19 > I know there’s a way
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SM-13 > i’m still here

HM-19 > Oh thank God
HM-19 > What happened ? ?

SM-13 > it’s bad
SM-13 > it’s everywhere
SM-13 > it’s in me
SM-13 > i can’t feel my face
SM-13 > i wish i could see earth too
SM-13 > grace ?

HM-19 > Yes ?

SM-13 > i don’t think it’s possible
SM-13 > your rescue mission
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SM-13 > what year is it for you ?
SM-13 > when did you leave earth ?
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HM-19 > 2019
HM-19 > Why ?
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HM-19 > Simon ?
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SM-13 > fuck

HM-19 > What is it ? ?

SM-13 > you’re not real

HM-19 > What ? ? ?

SM-13 > you’re fucking with me
SM-13 > again
SM-13 > since the start

HM-19 > I’m confused
HM-19 > What’s going on ?
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HM-19 > What year is it ?
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HM-19 > Simon ? ?
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SM-13 > it doesn’t matter
SM-13 > sorry

HM-19 > Don’t apologize
HM-19 > Look, I’m gonna find a way, I don’t care what it takes
HM-19 > Just trust me, okay?
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SM-13 > okay

HM-19 > Hang tight
HM-19 > I got you

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HM-19 > I think we're in two different

HM-19 > Universes

HM-19 > Timelines ? ? 

HM-19 > But if the stars are dead, did I fail ? 

HM-19 > Did I fail you ? 

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HM-19 > That scares me 

HM-19 > I don’t want to fail you

HM-19 > Or anybody

HM-19 > An entire universe is counting on me

HM-19 > I can't really count on myself 

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HM-19 > Simon 

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HM-19 > I'm gonna show you the stars, okay ? 

HM-19 > I promise

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HM-19 > The Simon star has been dimming a lot more recently 

HM-19 > I don’t like that

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HM-19 > Can you say anything ? 

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SM-13 > i think there's help on the way

SM-13 > holy shit

SM-13 > grace

SM-13 > they fucking caved 

SM-13 > i wasn't the only one down here

SM-13 > there was another submarine uh 8 or something 

SM-13 > real important shit

SM-13 > they’re coming for me

 

HM-19 > REALLY

HM-19 > Oh my god this is awesome

HM-19 > PLEASE be safe

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SM-13 > i will

SM-13 > going home 

SM-13 > holy shit

 

HM-19 > :]

HM-19 > Will to live wins over House every tiiiime 

 

SM-13 > what ? 

 

HM-19 > Don’t worry about it

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SM-13 > what if i never see you again ?
SM-13 > when it’s over 

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HM-19 > You will
HM-19 > Someday

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SM-13 > okay
SM-13 > grace ?

HM-19 > What’s up ?

SM-13 > what does the HM stand for ? 


HM-19 > Hail Mary probably!
HM-19 > I call her Mary :]

SM-13 > oh
SM-13 > right
SM-13 > that’s pretty
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SM-13 > you’re pretty
SM-13 > that’s dumb
SM-13 > nevermind
SM-13 > i like the name
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HM-19 > I do, too :]
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HM-19 > It’s not dumb
HM-19 > You’re sweet
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HM-19 > I’m still not going to give up
HM-19 > I’ll look for you
HM-19 > Or wherever you are… were…
HM-19 > Like a star :]
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SM-13 > thank you
SM-13 > for everything
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HM-19 > I wish I could give you more

SM-13 > you gave me everything i could ask for
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SM-13 > company
SM-13 > life
SM-13 > confirmation
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SM-13 > care
SM-13 > it’s more than you know
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HM-19 > You deserve it
HM-19 > You deserve good
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HM-19 > I hope you find it
HM-19 > Good
HM-19 > Love
HM-19 > I hope you can make it yours
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HM-19 > I sent more video logs
HM-19 > About Tau Ceti e
HM-19 > Maybe you’ll like it :]
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HM-19 > Simon ? 

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HM-19 > I hope you got out safe
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HM-19 > The star is dead, I think
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HM-19 > It feels like a bad omen
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HM-19 > I’ll tell the stars about you
HM-19 > Earth, too
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