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For someone who’d spent the last few months hating the hell out of Stars Hollow, Jess Mariano wasn’t exactly thrilled to be back in New York.
Go figure.
He’d bitched about that town constantly. The smiling weirdos. The pointless chitchat. The absurd level of town-event-related drama.
It wasn’t exactly his thing.
But it had distance. From Liz, specifically.
From whatever junkie boyfriend she was pretending was different this time. From his shitshow of a life and the part of him that still gave a crap, even though he knew better.
Now he was back. The apartment still smelled like incense and dust, still haunted by the ghosts of bad decisions. But Liz had landed herself a rich finance guy this time. A man with actual table manners, who apparently meditated and read.
Jess hated how decent he seemed. It felt like a trap.
Because decent doesn’t last around Liz Danes. It gets swallowed whole. Not because she means to ruin things, Jess thought. Stability just made her itchy, like it was some polite version of death.
That's probably why she didn’t visit Luke that often.
Luke was past decent. He was good in a way that sticks. The kind of good that doesn’t go anywhere, even when you’re being an insufferable little shit. Jess had pushed him hard enough to know that all too well.
And because Jess was Lizzie’s son, he hadn’t picked up a single call from his uncle after the accident.
Luke had that look in his eyes the last time Jess saw him. It wasn't even anger, just a quiet disappointment. That bone-deep kind of belief in someone who didn’t deserve it. Jess wasn't used to it, which made it impossibly harder to face.
Rory managed to be even worse. She looked at him like he wasn’t even a mistake yet and there was still something salvageable under all that mess. He didn’t know what to do with that kind of softness.
Jess knew he shouldn't have stuck around her. But she had this thing about her, something he couldn't name. With her, he could just… be. But, of course, even when he wanted to protect the good things that came his way, fate, or God, or karma would make it hard as fuck.
Her prince charming of a boyfriend hated him. Her mother, who was nice to everyone, hated him even more. Jess couldn't blame them, they had their reasons.
He had tried, though. That was the part nobody seemed to get.
But trying only got you so far when your entire life felt temporary. Liz blew up every good thing that came near her, and Jimmy was wired to bail the second anything required effort.
Jess didn’t want to turn into either of them. Still, it was in his blood.
For better or for worse, now he was back on his bullshit.
He worked, a lot. He read at the park. Went to school enough to pass, but never enough to care. Hung out with friends who didn’t ask too many questions. Smoked too much. Drank when his head got too loud.
Whatever.
It was Friday night when he left Liz’s apartment to meet his friends. The usual crowd, punk music blasting loud enough to blur the thoughts. The conversation turned to politics and systems and broken things they’d never have the power, or the stamina, to fix.
Sarah, his ex, was draped over him before the second round. Not because she missed him, not really. But the attention was familiar, and the sex was easy, and neither of them had anything better to do. So when everyone splintered off into their respective subway lines and half-empty beds, he walked her home. Fell into her sheets like muscle memory.
It was impressive how quickly he slipped back into that life. Like nothing had changed. Like he hadn’t changed.
That stung. For a while there, he really thought he had.
When he decided to go back to Liz’s, the sky was bleeding pink at the edges as the sunrise crept through the cracks in the skyline. And for a flicker of a second, he missed it.
The way the air felt even cleaner in the mornings. The silence before Miss Patty’s studio opened. The smell of Luke’s coffee drifting into the street at dawn.
Stars Hollow had its claws in him, whether he liked it or not.
Jess kicked off his shoes at the door before he slipped inside. He stepped into the living room with the kind of quiet that only came from years of practiced invisibility.
The boy thought he was in the clear, until he saw Charles.
His mom's new boyfriend sat at the kitchen counter like a fucking Norman Rockwell painting. Coffee steaming, newspaper folded just so, wearing a crisp button-down that looked too stuffy for a Saturday morning in The Bronx.
When he heard Jess come in, his eyes slowly peeled away from the paper. His expression shifted slightly when he saw Jess. Surprise first. Then concern.
“Your mother told me you went to bed early last night,” Charles almost whispered, his voice deliberately low not to wake Liz.
“I told her I was going out,” Jess replied, matching the quiet, even if he knew there was no way Liz would wake up before 10 on a Saturday.
He wasn’t lying either. He had told her. But Jess also knew damn well what Lizzie would say to keep things smooth. She was building a curated, grown-up, thriving Liz, just for Charles, and, in that version, her underage son didn’t disappear until sunrise.
Not exactly the kind of detail that played well over French press and small talk.
Charles took a sip of his coffee, but his eyes didn’t leave Jess. Not accusing, just… observant, as if he was trying to put together a puzzle with half the pieces missing and the other half turned.
“I want to talk to you,” he said finally. “About something important.”
Jess leaned against the fridge. He didn't say anything, but he waited, which was all the acknowledgement he could muster when he knew it had to be something bad on the way.
Charles folded the newspaper and set it aside. “I’m going to propose to your mother.”
Jess blinked, once. Twice. His jaw tensed, then relaxed. He’d expected a lot of things from this conversation. A lecture. A guilt trip. Maybe even some weird father-figure attempt at bonding. But definitely not this.
Charles went on, calm and precise like a man reading off a script he’d rehearsed in his head a hundred times.
“She has such a good, pure heart. I love her and I believe she loves me too.”
Jess didn’t answer. His tongue felt like sandpaper. His heart, a clenched fist. He swallowed forcefully and frowned. Who the fuck was this woman he was talking about?
“There’s more,” Charles said. “If she says yes… we’re moving to Hartford. I got a job offer there, managing a new branch, bigger clients, better pay. It’s a good opportunity.”
Hartford.
Gated neighborhoods, country clubs, dinner parties with people who wore cufflinks unironically. The kind of place where women had signature cocktails and men referred to their therapists by their first name. Jess could already feel the suffocation creeping in.
That town wasn’t made for people like him. It was a showroom. A stage. And he was all frayed edges and unresolved issues, too sharp in all the wrong ways.
But Charles just kept talking, calm and measured as he detonated the last bit of familiarity Jess had.
“Your mother mentioned you’d been living with your uncle. Small town, not too far from Hartford. I think this move could be good for you too,” he said as it was some kind of olive branch. “Closer to family.”
Charles paused then, pressing his lips into a line so thin it barely existed. His gaze lingered on Jess like he was trying to connect but didn’t quite know how: earnest, overreaching, a little afraid of what they might find.
“I went into your room a couple of weeks ago,” he said, cautious. “Door was open. I wasn’t snooping, I swear. But I saw the books.”
Jess’ jaw tensed, his whole body bracing for the speech he knew would follow.
“You weren’t even living here, and still...” Charles let out a quiet breath, part wonder, part confusion. “Did you really read all of that?”
Jess gave a small nod and Charles exhaled again, this time sharp and surprised.
“I want to give you the education you deserve,” he said finally. “Hartford has great schools.”
Jess stared at him for a moment, trying to figure out if this was one of those well-meaning speeches or something more final.
“You don’t even know me,” he muttered after a beat, grabbing a cup just to have something to do with his hands. “You read a couple of book spines and now you think I need saving?”
Charles didn’t flinch. If anything, he softened.
“I really don't think you need saving, Jess. I’m just trying to give you options.”
That made him laugh. A dry, humorless sound. “Yeah? Is that what this is? An option?”
Charles took a breath and leaned back slightly, as if weighing how much truth Jess could tolerate before bolting.
“Look,” he began, careful but not patronizing. “Your mother told me a little about what is happening at school. I’m not judging you for it. Believe it or not, I get it. I was the angry, restless kid who couldn’t stand the sound of his own name in roll call. Teachers thought I was trouble. My parents thought I was lazy. But the truth was, I was bored out of my damn mind. Nobody challenged me.”
He looked down for a beat, then back up, voice quieter now.
“My folks... they weren’t big on books. Or much of anything, really. I had to claw my way into every opportunity I ever got. Not because I was better. But because I refused to be what they said I was. And that fight? It’s exhausting when no one’s in your corner.”
His gaze sharpened.
“I’m not saying we’re the same. You’ve had your own version of hell. But I see you, Jess. I see how sharp you are, how much you think, even when you're trying to disappear into yourself. And if you let me, I’d like to be someone who gives a damn. Not out of guilt or charity. Just... because I believe you’re worth it.”
Silence pressed between them like fog. When Charles realized Jess wasn't going to say anything, he continued.
“You're still a minor and need someone to be responsible for you, so you don't really have a choice about moving if Liz decides she wants to be my wife. However, you can take advantage of this opportunity or not. That part is up to you.”
“Okay," was Jess’ answer. “Can I go to my room now?"
Charles let out a long sigh, and nodded.
Jess finished pouring his coffee and left the kitchen. Maybe if he moved fast enough, he wouldn’t have to admit how much the idea of Hartford scared the shit out of him.
Not because it was bad, but because it might be good.
And good never lasted.