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“woonhak, please stop.”
woonhak scoffed, “stop? you’re telling me to stop? if you saw me hugging another man with our faces an inch away from each other, wouldn’t you also get mad? wouldn’t you? tell me.”
silence filled the room.
“or do you really just not love me enough to even care if that happened? do you even love me? did you ever love me in our 3 years of being together?”
“what are you saying? i do love you, i always tell you i love you.”
“telling me you do isn’t enough. i can’t feel your love. i can’t feel you at all.”
“what are you saying? I DO.”
“if you really do, look me in the eyes and tell me you love me.”
jaehyun looked at his lover’s sparkling eyes, “I… I-“
“see? you can’t even say it. i’m tired of this, jaehyun. i need a break. don’t contact me for a while.”
with that, woonhak walked out of their shared apartment, finally letting his tears fall.
it was pouring outside, but woonhak would rather get soaked in the rain than get soaked with jaehyun’s fake tears.
woonhak tried booking a taxi, but no driver was accepting passengers because of the heavy rain.
without thinking, he called dongmin and asked him to pick him up and let him stay at his place for a while.
📞 hello?
“hyung,” woonhak sniffled
📞 are you okay? why are you crying? what happened? isn’t jaehyun hyung with you?
“i’m fine hyung, me and jaehyun hyung just had an argument, that’s all..”
📞 are you sure you’re okay? where are you now?
“i’m outside our apartment, hyung…”
📞 what? it’s raining, woonhak-a
“i know, hyung.. i just, i just have no where else to go and taxis aren’t accepting passengers”
📞 do you want me to come pick you up?
“is it okay with you, hyung? can i also stay at your place for a while?”
📞 it’s totally fine, i’ll be there in a few minutes, find someplace with a shade so you won’t get too soaked in the rain
“yes, hyung.. thank you”
📞 mhm
after a few minutes of zoning out, a black mercedes stopped in front of woonhak, lights blinding him.
dongmin stepped out of his car and immediately went to woonhak
“hakie, let’s go, it looks like the rain isn’t stopping anytime soon.”
“thank you so much, hyung”
“it’s nothing, that’s what best friends are for, right? i’ll always be here for you”
woonhak smiled in response.
dongmin opened the car door for woonhak and helped him put on his seatbelt. he circled around the car to get to his seat and gave woonhak a blanket he prepared in advance.
“take this, woonhak-a, don’t want you getting sick, you’re whiney as hell when you’re sick”
“HYUNG!”
taesan chuckled, “just kidding, hakie, use that blanket, hmm?”
“yeah i’ll use it, thanks”
“do you prefer having the windows down or the ac running?”
“windows down, please hyung”
“windows down it is, get some sleep, looks like you need it”
the ride back to dongmin’s place was quiet, only the sound of the wind blowing and their breathing could be heard.
after dongmin parked his car, he was about to wake woonhak up, but the latter looked so peaceful and pretty, he couldn’t bring himself to and instead, leaned on his steering wheel, and stared at woonhak.
“so cute,” dongmin whispered, a smile forming on his face
eventually, he fell asleep. when woonhak woke up, he saw taesan asleep, face towards him. his face didn’t have that usual intimidating stare, not that he looked at woonhak like that, no, the latter always looked at him with fondness and care. he looked at everyone else with no emotion, and woonhak knows that. woonhak knows he is taesan’s only exception. and taesan, he doesn’t know it, but he’s also woonhak’s only exception. he was lost in dongmin’s face, but he checked time, 1:07 am.
he shook dongmin’s shoulders, “hyung, wake up, it’s 1 am..”
thankfully, dongmin woke up, “oh, sorry. i accidentally fell asleep. let’s go inside?”
“it’s okay hyung, i just woke up too..”
as soon as they entered dongmin’s apartment, woonhak was hit with the strong smell of citrus, dongmin’s favorite scent. honestly, at first, woonhak hated the smell of citrus, but he has grown to like it since he started hanging out with dongmin.
dongmin handed woonhak an oversized black tee with shorts, “woonhak-a? here’s some clothes, go and wash up”
“thank you, hyung”
“i’ll be at the living room, i’m gonna watch a movie, not feeling sleepy yet”
“yes hyung,” woonhak shouted, stepping into dongmin’s bathroom.
woonhak turned the shower on, letting his hair get soaked by the warm water. without realizing, woonhak was already crying.
he kept thinking about his fight with jaehyun, thoughts flooding in, anxiety creeping up.
what did i do to deserve this? why can’t he love me the way i want to be loved? why was he hugging that man? who was that man? why can’t he say he loves me? does he even love me? did he ever really love me?
countless unanswered questions on his mind, eating him one by one. he was sobbing uncontrollably, he loves jaehyun so much, with all his heart, but why? why is the world so cruel to him? is love supposed to be this painful? are relationships supposed to turn out this way? is love, his relationship with jaehyun, ephemeral? is the eternity he imagined with the love of his life not even bound to ever happen?
when he realized he has been crying for long, he wiped his face, and quickly finished taking a bath.
when he stepped out the bathroom, dongmin was still watching a movie, so he sat down next to him and made himself comfortable.
dongmin took a glance at woonhak and noticed his eyes were puffy, obviously from crying, so he didn’t try teasing him like usual.
everything was fine, but then woonhak decided to place his legs on the coffee table, in front of dongmin.
dongmin tried to ignore woonhak’s pale, long, smooth legs, forcing himself to watch the movie, but his eyes and mind couldn’t stop drifting back to woonhak’s raised legs.
unable to focus, he turned and looked at woonhak, staring at him intently, slowly loosing his sanity. he felt himself hardening.
“woonhak-a”
“yes hyung,” woonhak responded, eyes still focused on the movie
“woonagi”
“what is it, hyung?” woonhak asked again, turning his attention to dongmin this time
taesan gulped, “I.. are you okay?”
“yes, i’m okay,” woonhak laughed awkwardly
“no.. you’re not. what happened?”
“well, you already know me and jaehyun fought right”
“mhm, continue..”
“i saw jaehyun hyung hugging another guy at a club and their faces were an inch away from each other and it looked like they were about to kiss, so i got mad and confronted jaehyun hyung, but he got offended and told me to stop, so we got into an argument. then i-”
“hyung? are u even listening to me?”
“what? yes i am”
“no, hyung. you’re not. you said you’ll always be here for me, yet you’re not even listening.”
“i’m sorry, woonhak-a. i’ll listen to you later. i need the bathroom, sorry,” dongmin said, rushing to his bathroom.
dongmin immediately untied his sweatpants and slid them down as soon as he stepped into his bathroom.
he sat on the toilet bowl, and threw his head back. a moan escaped his lips without even touching himself.
this was so wrong.
jerking off to the image of his best friend’s legs, is so incredibly wrong.
leaving his best friend hanging just to jerk off is so wrong.
he reached into his underwear, wrapped his big hands around his hardening length, and began stroking himself slowly.
the image of woonhak kept flashing in his mind, fueling his lust.
he quickened up his pace, hands moving up and down uncontrollably.
“fuck… woonhak… shit…” he moaned breathlessly, furiously jerking himself off, desperately chasing release.
he came all over his hand, still holding his cock tightly.
“this is so fucking wrong, shit”
he went up to the sink and washed his hands covered in his cum.
when he went out the bathroom, woonhak was still there, waiting, in the same position taesan left him.
he sat next to woonhak, making sure to keep a distance between him and woonhak.
but God forbid, woonhak scooted closer to dongmin, making him stiffen.
“HYUNG, listen to me now, okay?”
“yeah yeah, i’ll listen”
“okay, so as you know me and jaehyun hyung had an argument. it was because i saw hugging another man and it looked like they were about to kiss, so i got mad and confronted him, then he got mad, so i asked him to look me in the eye and tell me he loves me. and… he didn’t, he couldn’t. so i got disappointed and angry, so i walked out and told him to not contact me for a while and yeah, that’s why i’m here right now.”
“woonhak-a, you have to leave him, he’s not worth it. he doesn’t deserve you, he never will.
“but i love him-”
“sometimes, loving someone isn’t enough to stay. does he love you? does he respect you?”
the room fell silent
“exactly. he doesn’t. why can’t you see that? you deserve so much better. this is why he keeps disrespecting you. he keeps repeating his so called mistakes because you keep forgiving and believing him. woonhak, please wake up. he doesn’t really love you, he’s using you to boost his ego. you’re his play toy he can discard and can always come back to, and you’re letting him treat you like that!”
“hyung, he does love me…”
“you said so yourself he couldn’t even say i love you to your face, yet you dare to say that? woonhak, stop letting yourself get mistreated.”
“hyung i can’t, i love him too much, i just-”
“stop.”
“i can give him another chance, i know he’ll change this time, i swear!”
“no, he won’t. you know deep down he won’t. you’ve given him countless chances.”
“but-”
“let’s go to sleep, woonhak, i don’t wanna fight just because of that man. goodnight, sleep well.”
“ah, okay, hyung.. goodnight”
dongmin slept on the couch, while woonhak slept in his room, the air between them cold, goodnights lingering in the air.