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Derek Hale stares at the ceiling of his loft, the exposed beams crisscrossing like a tangled web that mirrors his own thoughts. The city lights of Beacon Hills filter through the window, casting elongated shadows that dance across the walls. He lies on his bed, his muscular frame tense despite the exhaustion weighing heavy on his bones. He rolls over onto his side, as his thoughts continue to haunt him. The fact that at his age he has built a life armored in stoicism, a werewolf alpha who commands respect through the sheer presence and a history scarred by loss. Yet, beneath that impenetrable exterior lurks a vulnerability and desire he has long suppressed, a yearning that defies the labels he has clung to for survival, the lessons that all werewolves are taught from a young age.
Psychologically, Derek's internal conflict is a labyrinth of contradictions. He knows himself to be straight, drawn to the softness of women. Women have been his companions, his fleeting escapes from the chaos of his supernatural existence.
But submission? True, unhindered submission? That requires something else, it's something he cannot find in the gentle dominance some women offer. It's not about gender, it's about the raw power dynamic, the unyielding control that his inner wolf wants, an intensity that mirrors Derek's own primal strength. He craves to be broken down, to surrender the alpha in him to someone who understands the ferocity of it all. It's a hunger for someone whose dominance isn't tempered by societal expectations of femininity. And that someone, in his fantasies is always male.
The memories come without thought, as they often do in the quiet hours of the night. Flashes of failed encounters, each one a mere contributor to his frustration, replaying like a montage in his mind, fueling the fire of his restless mind.
The first attempt had been at a discreet club on the outskirts of town, a place without much of a presence. He had arrived in black jeans and a fitted shirt, giving off an aura of silent intensity that drew many looks. The club was dimly lit, heavy with the scent of leather, pulsating with low bass from speakers sunken into the ceiling.
At the bar, he had spotted a potential dom, a tall man with broad shoulders and a commanding gaze, his leather vest adorned with a red patch that contrasted to Derek's blue armband. They talked over drinks, Derek's voice low and measured as he hinted about his desires. Marcus listened, until Marcus had leaned in. "Straight guy, huh?" Looking for a man to top you?"
Derek had paused at that, not quite sure how to answer, but before he could, Marcus' expression had shifted, his amusement souring into skepticism. "Listen, boy," he murmured. "You're built like a tank. Subs like you? They need breaking, but I don't do experiments with straight dudes playing gay. Fine a domme; it'll suit your type better." He then walked away, leaving Derek staring down into his drink, the rejection stinging like wolfsbane.
Weeks later, another had surfaced: an online connecting through an app Derek had caved and downloaded. The man is called Alex, seasoned Dom in his forties, with a profile promising 'strict but fair guidance for novices.' They meet at a coffee shop first, then adjourn to Alex's apartment. Alex, wiry but intense, circled Derek, assessing as they discuss boundaries and safewords. Derek had opened up more this time, explaining his attraction to women but his need for male dominance in this realm, that its about power, not romance. Alex had seemed intrigued, binding Derek's wrists loosely with rope to demonstrate his technique. The sensation had sent a thrill through Derek. However, as the night progressed Alex paused from where he was tying the ropes around Derek's chest into a rope harness. "This isn't working," he sighed, frustration clear in his scent. "You're holding back, I can feel it. I can't work with that."
Derek had protested, promising that he wasn't that he could be good for Alex, but Alex was firm, ushering him out with a curt goodbye. The door clicked shut, leaving Derek to stand in the hallway, his shirt clenched in his fist, the wolf inside of him howling with rage and sorrow.
Flash after flash plays in his mind: the polite declines from online chats, the awkward exits from meetups, the underlying thread of doubt from every potential Dom. They sense his internal war, the straight label clashing with his desire for dominance, and repels them. Some call it repression, others say it's a red flag for emotional unavailability. Derek analyzes it endlessly in his mind, dissecting each failure like a battle.
As the night deepens, Derek rises from the bed, pacing the loft. The memories fade, but the ache remains, a hollow in his chest that no amount of running or fighting can fill.
Now, he stands at the edge of the shadowed mezzanine of a new club, his arms crossed over his chest like a barrier against the world. The club is called Nocturne, barely two weeks open, drawing Derek's attention with the hope that newcomers will be more accepting of someone with his…situation.
It's sleeker than the others he's visited, black marble floors veined with silver, low amber lighting that makes every leather strap and steel cuff gleam like a promise. The air hums with bass and the sharp scents of arousal, cedar wood cologne, and the metallic tang of lust.
In the mezzanine, the crowd thins out. Couples and trios occupy the velvet banquettes, but the railing gives him a clear view of the main floor without forcing him to mingle. This is it, he tells himself, the final roll of the dice before he buries the whole damn fantasy and accepts that he is hopeless.
His black Henley clings to his shoulders, sleeves pushed to the elbows, forearms corded and strained as he clenches his muscles in anticipation.
He's been here forty minutes. Long enough to clock those who are obviously usual players; the leather doms holding court near the bar, the rope rigs already in use on the lower level, the soft cries that trail off into subspace drifting up from the padded alcoves. Long enough to feel the familiar churn of disappointment settling in his gut.
And then, a presence catches his attention, sliding into his peripheral vision, quiet, deliberate, unhurried. Derek doesn't turn his head. He doesn't need to. The scent hits him first: something warm and electric, like ozone after lightning, undercut with pine, and the faintest trace of medication. Human though…with an edge, Male. And confident.
The stranger stops two feet away, just outside arm's reach, and says nothing.
Derek's jaw tightens. He keeps his gaze fixed on the floor below, but every nerve ending is tuned to the man beside him. A few inches shorter than him, lean, but not slight. Dark hair that looks mussed in an intentional way. Pale skin that catches the amber light like it's made for shadows: charcoal button-down rolled to the forearms, black slim-fit slacks, polished shoes. No visible gear, no obvious markers of role. Just his presence.
Minutes stretch. The silence between them thickens. Derek's patience snaps first.
He turns his head, slow, predatory. Red flickers at the edges of his irises before he reins it back.
"What do you want?" The words come out low, edged wit ha growl that vibrates in his chest.
But the stranger doesn't flinch. He doesn't even blink. He studies Derek the way someone might study a painting, his head titled, lips parted just enough to show he's thinking. Then, he finally gives a slow, crooked smirk.
"I think the better question," he says, voice calm and pitched perfectly to carry over the music without outright shouting, "is what do you want?"
Derek's breath hitches, only for a second, but it's enough. Enough for the stranger to notice. For that smirk to deepen into something knowing, almost amused.
"I'm not here to play twenty questions," Derek snaps, turning fully now, shoulders squaring. "If you've got something to say, say it."
The man doesn't back up. If anything, he steps half a pace closer, close enough that Derek can see the faint freckles scattered across the bridge of his nose, the way his eyes, whiskey brown, catch every flicker of Derek's expression.
"I'm saying it," the stranger replies, unbothered by Derek's attitude. "You've been standing here for almost an hour like a statue someone carved out of frustration. You're not watching the scenes, you're the crowd. Looking for something, or someone. And you're not finding it." he pauses, letting his words settle over Derek. "So I'm asking. What. Do. You. Want?"
Derek's hands flex at his sides. The wolf inside him wants to shove, to snarl, to reestablish distance. The man in him wants to bolt. But there's something in the stranger's tone, not mockery, not pity, just blunt curiosity laced with quiet authority…that roots him in place.
He doesn't answer right away. Instead, he lets his gaze rake over the other man again, cataloging: no visible collar, no wrist cuffs, no obvious submissive tells. The way he holds himself is loose but deliberate, like he knows exactly how much space he's allowed to take. Like he's already decided how this conversation will end.
"You don't know me," Derek says finally, voice rough. "Stop acting like you do."
"But I know that look. I've seen it on faces before," the stranger replies. "Not usually on someone built like you, though. Most guys your size come in here swinging a flogger, not looking like they're waiting for someone to use it on them."
Derek's eyes narrow. "You think you've got me all figured out?"
"I think you're tired of being figured out wrong." The words are soft, almost gentle, but they land like a slap. "And I think you're about five seconds from walking out that door and never coming back to any club again."
Derek's chest rises on a slow, controlled inhale. The other man is right, dangerously right, and that knowledge sits like lead in his stomach.
The man tilts his head again, studying Derek's silence.
"I'm Stiles," he says, offering the name casually, like its no big deal, like they're meeting at a coffee shop instead of a dungeon. "And if you're done growling at me, maybe tell me what you're actually looking for. Because I'm pretty good at listening. And I'm really good at not wasting any time."
Derek stares at him for a long beat. The club pulses around them, oblivious. Somewhere below, leather cracks against skin; a low moan drifts upward. But up here, the only sound is Derek's own heartbeat thudding to loud in his ears.
He could walk away. He should walk away. But then his previous thoughts enter his mind.
'One last chance.'
"I want..." The words stick to his tongue. But taking a breath, he forces them out anyway, low enough that only Stiles can hear. "I want someone who can take it…the control. Without flinching, no asking if I'm sure. Without treating me like I'm going to break…or like I'm just curious."
Stiles doesn't interrupt. Doesn't smirk this time. He just waits, expression unreadable but attentive, giving Derek room to keep going.
His throat works. "And I want…it to be a man." The admission tastes like rust and relief at once. "Not because I'm gay. I'm not. But this isn't about fucking. It's about…" He trails off as he searches for the words, jaw clenching. "Surrender. Real surrender. And I can't get that from anyone who isn't ready to meet me at full strength and still make me kneel."
Silence stretches again, but it's different now. Not hostile. Not judging. He exhales through his nose, a small almost private sound.
He then steps even closer, close enough that Derek can feel the heat radiating off him, and lower his voice to match.
"Okay," Stiles says simply.
Derek blinks, a slight frown etching his lips.
"Okay," Stiles repeats. "Now let me asks you something else,"
Derek waits, braced for the impact.
"Do you want to stop talking about it... start doing it?"
Derek's pulse slams against his ribs, he doesn't answer with words, he can't. He just nods, once, sharp and final.
Stiles' smile returns, small and full of promise. "Good," he murmurs. Then he turns, gestures toward the shadowed hallway and starts walking.
Derek watches him for a moment before he moves to follow.
One last chance.