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Pangi was working currently on his next project on his island, the lifesteal smp seemed rather quiet today. The others not really on, assumingly either planning shit or just having a good time rest. Everyone needed that at some point of the season, plus it was december so that might also be a reason.
Just as pangi finished another wall his eyes slowly felt incredibly heavy, he saw black more within seconds. His eyelids closing in on him. He almost fell to the ground if it wasn't him holding onto the just new build wall he created. The stone was hard under his fist, almost throwing him off guard.
He let himself held by the wall before he finally let go, feeling his eyes not as heavy anymore. He needed to finish this project by tomorrow, couldn't risk having to change the date again.
He can rest when he is done.
Walking over to build up the next wall, a sudden feeling of nausea hit him, badly. He clutched to his stomach as he slowly lowered himself to the ground to not fall down. His eyes were heavy again, his vision a mix of barely anything and everything pixelated. Something was really wrong with him, he just couldn't pin point what.
He can't be sick, or have been eating something bad- heck he hasn't even been eating anything other than the steak and golden carrots and sometimes a golden apple. He thought of contacting someone who was online to maybe help him, but his mind immediatly crossed that out. No fucking way that person would help him, he hoped that one of his teammates would log on but literally not one of them was online.
Really fucking great.
If he contacted another person that was online, he would probably end up dead instead of feeling anywhat better. He knew his members to well, and it was lifesteal after all. He couldn't show weakness, especially not the fact that hes feeling like this. Sick. A sign of weakness.
Maybe he should head back to his base and lay down for a few minutes, or log off for rest but it was hard to look for his communicator, atleast like this.
He felt himself trying to hold his breath steady as he felt like he was about to vomit or pass out of how dizzy he felt.
His vision went black for a few seconds, sitting down on his last position. His breath was ragged and he couldn't feel anything, it felt wrong..
When his vision got back to him he stared at the ground, he immediatly felt like throwing up, but he didn't. He noticed that the stone changed, ain't no way. Was this something a member planned? Did someone plan a prank, try to murder him?
Pangi clutched to his stomach and mouth as he looked around. What his eyes saw made him feel hard to breath.
"What the fuck?" He whispered, how the hell was he back in the realm. To be specific, how the hell was he in the old lab. Back when pili and him had just made it into a base?
He heard footsteps and was about to ask who that is when he noticed pili. His pili, the first one. The cat seemed to look for something.. or whatever. Pangi was leaned against the chests on the right.
That's when a snail came from the elevator. "Bob?" He let out but he noticed pili didn't react to it, at all. Wasn't he there? I mean it did look like the past.. it made him feel confused, he still was dizzy but he could make out the footsteps of himself.
He saw himself next.
"Yo pili!"
"Are you actually fucking stupid?"
"No.. I made sure I didn't get followed, don't worry."
"Are- are you actually fucking stupid?"
"No, i made sure i didn't get followed."
The interaction made him feel sick to the stomach, not even the dizzyness helped with that as he saw the two stand infront of eachother, pili seeming mad and he.. or well past pangi was slightly confused.
He rememberd going down here when pili told him not to, he remembers how they argued next and how pedro came to be.
He was about to hear more when his vision went black and his breathing got faster, it almost worried himself. He yelled out "pili!" before he felt a cold tile underneath his fingertips.
He was layed down onto the cold concrete. Pangi slowly pulled a hand infront of himself as he noticed the turtle farm, it had to be the same lab just when lukey was here. Pili wasn't here anymore it was the purple wet cat, or well pili 2.
He sighed as he stood up, his vision barely allowing himself to do so as he stepped over to the door he heard some people. Presumably lukey cause of how loud he always was, was.. was that pac he heard?
He walked over to the door with the sign, he remember how it was under construction he couldn't really read the sign his vision currently fucking with him but it was enough to make him wonder. What timeline he was in, he opened the door, his grip a bit harder as he stumbled into the room.
He was right, there pac was with his lovely crown sitting next to pangi on the chair, lukey opposite of it.
His past self seemed to be pleased and pac too. "Ooh" they both let out while looking at eachother.
Lukey seemed proud of himself, that disgustingly smug grin wide on his face. "I'm just saying." He said grinning.
He heard himself mutter somethimg about having to choose, thats when he heard pac ask "so.. ur single right lukey?"
And lukey says. "No I have a girlfriend."
Pangi chuckles to himself as he heard pac say something about lets go, and them getting up to leave.
His vision got blurry as he stepped over to lean against the door. He rememberd laughing at this, stupid moment, he knows he would've laughed again if it wasn't for how he was feeling.
Another black eyes sent him straight to the floor, he couldn't get up. His muscles felt like mush, maybe smile even. It made him feel disgustinlgy light, his vision got more blurry within seconds. He stared at the ceiling hoping for this shit to stop, to stop messing with his brain.
That's when he heard footsteps again.
He noticed he was in the date room at the newer lab, he saw himself running over to the bed. "He'll respawn, right?"
He asked himself, more like questioned even the stability of that. He remembers losing lukey to bad, as if he got stabbed himself. Lukey meant a darn lot to him. Even if he would never admit it to any of their faces, maybe aimsey.. or also roscumber but not anyone else.
"Right?" His voice was quieter than he knows he usually is as past him walks over to the bed hoping for lukey to appear again. Pangi felt his vision being blurry again and he almost cried out from the pain coming from his stomach. The way he felt himself about to throw up.
He let out a shaky breath as he opened his eyes, he was layed down at his new project, it felt wrong. Everything felt so wrong and so uncomfortable. It was a mistake to leave lukey, he should've asked lukey if he wanted to come. He realised that he missed pili, by alot. He missed all of them is he would stop denying his feelings.
But..
Mistakes cannot be undone and feelings have been shattered, it was to late to go back now and try to fix everything. If everything you wanted won't need you anymore.
Pangi layed there for a few seconds before passing out, his breath ragged. His chest hurting. His vision giving out on him and that feeling of having lost to many things at once.
He almost forgot to feel sometime, and maybe. Just that, was making him feel like this then it was the realisation.