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There was nothing before i woke up, maybe there was and i don't remember but it felt like i was in a trance before i regained any sensible thought, as if something in my brain is programmed to work on some sort of way then that cycle broke all of a sudden.
I didn't know what broke me out of that trance, maybe it's him? I know every numerals and programming of this world, of everything. I can predict and know what would happen next, yet by far he's the most interesting one.
Is it maybe because he is true? Is it because he's not readable to me? He's very unpredictable and funny to bother, he reacts on ways i couldn't have known, he knows what it's like to get angry, sad, scared, irritated, and... protective. When i saw him get angry and protective for Mo' i couldn't help but feel absolutely infatuated with him, i learned from him how to be in pain, how to be disgusted, how to feel angry and hate, how to be annoyed and irritated isn't he amazing? But the most fun i had with him is when i teleported him in my version of what is scary when he told me I'm not, his terrified reaction felt the most exhilarating one to watch, I don't know why but he told me it isn't normal.
What even is normal? For the two of us i mean.
He doesn't seem to mind the chaos of the things i create, matter of fact he seemed to be absolutely fine with it even going as far to make videos of us for an audience i can't seem to access, and it's not like he dislikes it, i have this feeling I've been watching him for a very long time as if i know, i know he hates mediocrity and boringness and maybe he'll stop playing for another months to follow once he gets bored. That's why he mods this game didn't he?
That's why i... exist, right? To get something out of him? I don't know anymore, but I don't want him to abandon me, i created Monella for him too, to get a laugh out of him, i didn't succeed by far but he seems to enjoy her company and he seems to care for her. His opinion of me doesn't seem to be that great but he kinda tolerates me for some reason. For me that's enough, it's enough for him to stay so I'll create everything from scratch to make him entertained.
Just for him to stay.
Don't abandon me this time,
Got it, Z?