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The hotel room is dim, not really by intention but by old bulbs and bad wiring. A lamp buzzes quietly in the corner like it’s whispering secrets to the dust and the walls. Outside, the night is dark and the rain taps against the windows in irregular patterns, gentle but insistent, like it's trying to remind them that time hasn’t stopped just because they want it to, even after three months.
The air smells like whiskey and cologne. House’s jacket is thrown over a chair and Wilson’s tie is left over the edge of the bathroom sink, limp and forgotten. They haven’t turned the TV on. Haven’t tried to fill the silence. They just sit with it—House on the end of the bed, Wilson on the old, sunken couch. The silence isn’t awkward. It’s the kind that settles in when two people are too tired to pretend anymore.
Wilson convinces himself it's just the alcohol, or maybe that he's too tired to think properly. He glances at House and something makes his stomach flip and his hands tremble. This is another thing that has been happening a lot lately. He thinks about earlier in the day. They stopped at a used bookstore, the kind that smells like time and yellowed pages. Wilson had planned to buy a philosophy book he never finished in college, but instead left with a pocket guide on medicinal plants. House teased him the whole walk out of the store. They ended up at a fast-food place, passing fries back and forth across a greasy table, laughing about old cases, patient screw-ups, and once again debating which hospital ghost story had the best ending.
It was nice.
And maybe that's what makes his stomach twist now. The weight of something too nice. Too good for the time they have.
House looks at Wilson and his heart flinches when he notices the younger man is already looking at him from the small and old couch in the room—or more like he's looking into his soul while his mind is anywhere else.
"You good?" House asks, rising an eyebrow as Wilson blinks repeatedly.
"Yeah, just thinking, you know." Wilson nods. He doesn't elaborate, because he doesn't need to. House is watching him in that way again—like he's looking through him, not at him—and Wilson knows he understands. Understands the weight of memories that keep replaying, the quiet terror beneath the calm.
"Thinking? Wow, must be giving you a hard time" House says with a smirk, trying to make this something better. Something that doesn't feels like another end.
Wilson laughs. It’s soft, real. House doesn’t laugh. He just watches him and thinks, I’m going to lose him.
House gets up and moves to the couch. He sits down next to Wilson, carefully, and exhales.
"I've been thinking about—life. Endings." Wilson tilts his head and looks to the window. "About Amber, and Kutner.. and Thirteen."
He doesn’t have to explain. House remembers it all, too. Remembers how quiet Thirteen had been that night after she told him her diagnosis. The way her fingers had trembled ever so slightly when she handed him the keys.
"You've been thinking about endings," House lets out a small sigh and glances at Wilson. "While I just try not to think at all."
Wilson turns his head to look at him. He doesn't say anything, just gives him that caring and almost soft eyes. That look that destroys House every time—because Wilson means it, and they both know it even if nobody says it.
"You know what pisses me off the most?" House's voice trembles and he's the one to look at the window now. "It's not really the cancer. It's that I don't get to be mad at you."
Wilson furrows his brow slightly. "What do you mean?"
"Because I'd stay mad at you forever," House whispers, "if it meant you'd keep breathing forever."
There's a pause.
House feels Wilson sit a bit closer—just an inch, and he can feel his warmth and his natural scent, like something sweet, old paper, and strong coffee. He looks back at him and Wilson's eyes are still in him. Still kind, still soft.
"Do you regret anything?" Wilson asks slowly, feeling as if something might break if he speaks too loud, not really knowing what or why.
Wilson’s hand drifts to the edge of the couch, resting palm-up. House glances at it. Doesn’t take it. But his fingers hover close. Waiting.
"A lot." House replies, staring in the man's eyes. "The pills, the prison, Cuddy—crashing your car and leaving you alone."
His eyes soften as he lets out the next words. "But not you. Never you."
And that is enough for both of them. They don't need to say 'I love you'. They don't need to say anything else, because they know each other's minds like their own hands, and they know they had been saying so many things in such wrong ways since the day they met.
Wilson leans in first, and House meets him halfway. Their lips brush softly. House sighs—relief, tension, too much, too little—and closes the distance fully. The kiss is quiet, steady. Like something that’s been waiting a long time.
There’s no hurry. No rush to undress or fumble. Just slow exploration. Wilson cradles House’s jaw as he moves them from and couch and gently pushes him back onto the bed. The mattress creaks beneath them, old and slightly uneven, but they move with care.
Clothes come off in pauses, between kisses and small laughs. Wilson's belt gets stuck for a moment, House's fingers struggle with his buttons. They undress slowly, admiring each other and leaving soft kisses everywhere. House lays Wilson flat and presses his mouth to his stomach, then rests his forehead against his hipbone. His hand trails down the length of his thigh.. He doesn't say anything, becase he knows Wilson knows anything he could ever want to say.
Wilson lets out a sigh as he feels the older man take him into his hand, moving it up and down slowly, almost teasing him—and also caressing him. He closes his eyes, letting himself relax in House's arms, because he knows he's safe there. Even in all the danger, he's safe with the man he loves, and that is all he needs.
They don't stop touching, not really—even when House reaches to grab a condom from his bag on the floor, his hand is still over Wilson's chest. And even as Wilson parts from their kiss to get a bottle of lube from his bag on the night table, their legs are still tangled together.
House's hand moves to Wilson's shoulder, then down his arm, almost as if he's waiting. Wilson lifts a little bit his hand to feel the stubble on House’s cheek, the slight hitch in his heavy breathing. And when House pulls back, just a little, Wilson looks at him like he’s never seen him properly before.
"Are you sure?" House asks, but he knows the answer already.
Wilson nods, "I've never been more."
And so House buries himself inside Wilson, slowly, deliberately, somewhere between holding himself back and never wanting to move. But they move, together, holding onto eachother like they're the only real thing in the world. They still don't say 'I love you' with words, but it's there—in the way Wilson mouths at House's shoulder and neck like he's memorizing his skin, In the way House threads his fingers with Wilson's and doesn't let go.
When House trembles, body giving in to the heat of it all, unraveling in time with Wilson, he’s sure he hears him whisper Greg.
And he’s almost certain he answered with James.
. . .
Some minutes later, they're lying on their sides. House has folded himself into the space beneath Wilson’s chin, warm against his chest. Their skin is still sticky with sweat, but the silence is sweet now, not heavy. Just... quiet.
Wilson takes House's hand, turns it over once, then again, like he’s trying to read it. The skin is warm, soft in places, calloused in others. A little sticky from sweat. He traces a line with his thumb, slowly, absentmindedly, like it might spell something if he pays enough attention. It's an old hand. A tired hand. But it's full of love. Full of everything they never got to say until now. He intertwines their fingers, and pulls back a bit to get House to look at him. His eyes seem tired, but for the first time in a while, also calm.
They stay like that for a while. Just breathing. House's fingers tracing aimless circles on Wilson's ribs. The lamp hums, the rain quiets. Wilson shifts slightly, enough to feel House hold him tighter. Then, softly, carefully, he speaks.
"When the time comes," Wilson starts, as normal as if he's talking about the weather. "when my time comes— Will you do me a favor?"
House swallows. He knows what Wilson is talking about, and yet he's surprised by the next words that come out of the youngest man's mouth.
"Will you kill me?"
He looks so... calm. So normal about it. Just waiting for an answer, ready to accept anything. House looks in his eyes, those deep brown eyes, those tired lashes, those old eyelids. Same eyes that had looked at him time and time again, same eyes that made him get out of bed, even if he didn't notice at the time it was just to be able to look at them another day. Same eyes he was going to lose.
Silence.
House blinks once, then again. The room hasn’t changed, the lamp still buzzes, but everything inside him stills. For a second, it feels like he’s not in this bed, not in this room—he’s in his old office again, with Thirteen sitting across from him. Her eyes had that same quiet acceptance. The same weight of a request that would tear something apart inside him and still be right.
He wants to scream. But instead, he just pulls Wilson closer. He cuddles onto his neck again, pressing their bodies together, holding his hand a bit stronger than before.
And he nods.