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Stan wasn’t planning on drowning.
But then again, does anyone ever pencil that into their calendar?
The day had started as predictably as ever. Salt thick in the air, the Nordhavn’s steady engine hum vibrating gently beneath his feet, Ford buried in his maps and muttering about their next heading. Typical rhythms of their odd, sea-bound life. They’d just left Thebes behind, and Ford was still buzzing from his latest archaeological goose chase through dusty streets, going on about "cultural significance" and "mythological resonance."
Blah, blah, blah.
Stan honestly didn’t see the appeal.
Sure, Thebes had its myths —big names, flashy stories—but reality rarely lived up to the legend. It was just another sleepy Greek town, flooded with tourists, overpriced cafes, and a distinct lack of decent bars. No dramatic ruins to explore, no mysterious temples carved with dire warnings, and not even a half-crazy oracle to spice things up.
Ford had nearly gotten himself banned from a museum again, though, and that had been something. Watching his brother argue theology and metallurgy with a curator over what amounted to an aggressively ugly jug had been the real highlight. Stan had half a mind to pocket the damn thing just to spite both of them.
They left with nothing but sore feet, a warning from security, and Ford’s quiet hum of satisfaction, which meant something else had caught his interest. Probably another half-translated glyph about the underworld.
Stan didn’t ask.
He didn’t want to encourage him.
At least their wanderings had led them toward Eleusis, which had turned out a hell of a lot more intriguing. Stan had walked away with a smile, a sunburn, and a stolen gold chain that practically jumped into his pocket when the vendor looked the other way.
He’d twirled it in his fingers all the way back, leaning into the car’s breeze. Because really, if you’re gonna mark shit up for tourists, isn’t it just karma if one of those trinkets goes missing?
Public service, practically.
Still, maybe he should’ve paid attention to the signs.
A seagull nailed his shoe the moment he tucked the necklace away, and not thirty minutes later he nearly ate pavement getting out of the car.
Then, back aboard the Nordhavn, Ford got that righteous glint in his eye and declared it Stan’s turn to scrub the deck.
Bullshit.
He knew it wasn’t his turn. He didn’t have to look at the calendar to know.
(Not that he did look. But still. He knew.)
Stan had grumbled, dumped his stuff, and gone for the supplies as if heading to the gallows.
Then headfirst into the goddamn cabinet.
He could’ve sworn it was closed a second ago. Then it wasn’t. Then his skull was ringing, sharp and sudden, like someone had smacked a bell with a wrench.
Ford appeared a moment later, eyebrow arched. “You alright?”
Stan rubbed the sore spot, wincing dramatically. “Fantastic. Just thought I’d give headbutting cabinets a try.”
Ford stepped in, arms crossed, his face flickering with something between amusement and mild concern. “And?”
“Two stars. Would not recommend. Concussion comes free. ”
Ford’s laugh was low, the kind that curled in Stan’s ribs before he could stomp it down. “Karma. For all the times you left them open when we were kids.”
“Har har,” Stan deadpanned, rolling his eyes. “I should be makin' you clean, y’know. It was your turn.”
“I don’t recall that being the case.”
Stan scowled. “We wrote it down.”
Ford gave an exaggerated sigh. “Tides have changed, Stanley.”
“ You changed ‘em, jackass,” Stan muttered, bending down to grab the cleaning fluid.
Ford snorted, tapping the galley table as if resetting the conversation. “I’ll be charting our course. With decent weather, we should hit Syracuse without trouble.”
“That’s a big if, Sixer. You do remember how much of a pain in the ass it was just getting through the Med, right? Wind’s like a goddamn light switch—either all on or all off.”
Ford’s voice drifted back, calm and clipped as ever. “No storm advisories. No swells. Clear skies ahead.”
Yeah. Sure.
Stan sighed, grabbed the brush, and got to work. The deck was hot under his knees, the sea slow and patient around them, the engine humming like a purr. Every scrape of the bristles against fiberglass was a defiant little war.
This scuff? Dead.
That mark? Obliterated.
And it wasn’t so bad, really.
They were afloat. The sun was kind. The world, for once, wasn’t pulling them apart at the seams. Even Ford hadn’t driven him completely insane yet, which was its own flavor of miraculous.
It felt good. The dangerous kind. A calm too long in the making.
Stan dug into his pocket, pulled the chain free, and let it drape across his fingers, molten sunlight slipping through them. The thing was warm. Still. It shouldn’t have been, not after hours crumpled in his shorts. It shimmered when it caught the light—an oily, pearlescent glint that shifted with every movement. The clasp—two serpents, sculpted so delicately they seemed ready to hiss if he breathed too hard—almost touched. The bite was coming any second.
He slipped it over his neck anyway. Let the metal settle, a verdict resting just beneath his collarbone. It felt... right. As if it had always belonged there. A faint hum stirred, almost too quiet to notice.
Above, the sky stretched out in perfect blue. Ford stood at the helm, one arm braced on the console, the other dragging across a map, commanding the sea with sheer will. That focus. That stupid, blinding tunnel vision that always made Stan feel something in his chest begin to unravel.
He didn’t remember everything. Not yet. The edges were still blurred, memory caught somewhere between fog and static—an image half-developed in a darkroom just out of reach. But the moments that returned clung hard, anchoring themselves deep.
No flashing montage. No dramatic soul-revelation. Just one breath at a time, bleeding through: a smell, a laugh, Ford standing too close during an argument. Ford patching a scrape with care. Ford pacing the deck at night, as if the ocean itself was waiting.
He didn’t have the whole picture. But, with each little flicker of recall, one thing hit harder than the rest.
Ford mattered.
He mattered in ways Stan didn’t have words for. Not just as his brother. Not just as his friend. Not even just as the guy who dragged him back from the edge more times than Stan could count.
Ford was the thing that tethered Stan to himself.
But that wasn’t something he could readily admit to. Not even to himself. Because if he did… what the hell then? There were lines. Whole damn oceans of lines. And he’d already waded into deep water.
One wrong move and it’d be gone. Poof. Fragile thing, whatever this was.
Still, he couldn’t stop watching him. Couldn’t stop wanting the worry in Ford’s voice. Couldn’t stop that stupid skip his heart did every time Ford looked at him like—
Plip.
Something splattered on his glasses.
Stan blinked up. Nothing. Sky was a postcard. No clouds. No birds. Just sun and blue and the faint creak of the boat.
He wiped his lens with a grunt. “Great. God’s droolin’. That’s what I need.”
He set the rag down and climbed toward the cockpit, steps slow and careful. The door was cracked open, golden sunlight spilling in, thick and warm. And inside—there he was.
Ford, hunched and feral with intent, nose nearly on the map. One hand braced, the other tapping at the barometer, muttering about pressure shifts as if he could bargain with the sea. Glasses askew. Lips pursed. Hands steady.
Stan leaned in the doorway, watching.
His chest did that thing again—tight twist, sharp inhale.
Focus.
“We should’ve put money on it,” he said abruptly.
Ford didn’t even glance up. “On what?”
“It’s gonna rain.”
That made Ford glance over. Slow. Calculated. A little too long. Like he was measuring cloud density by looking at Stan’s face.
Stan raised a brow. “What?”
Ford quirked his head. “Rain… or sweat ?”
Stan snorted, reaching out and swatting his arm. “Eat shit.”
“You are working up a sweat.”
“Yeah, scrubbin’ your damn boat.”
“ Our boat,” Ford said, without missing a beat, already turning back to the barometer.
Stan rolled his eyes. “Y’know what? I ain’t wastin’ my meteorology skills on you. I’m makin’ a sandwich.”
“It’s I am not. And bring me a coffee… please .” Ford said without missing a beat.
Stan threw a hand up in exasperation. “Only if you take a normal amount of sugar, for once in your goddamn life.”
Ford merely hummed thoughtfully.
Stan smiled.
Quiet, secret, stupid. One of those smiles that was mostly exhaled. He let it hang in the air a second before heading for the galley, heart beating just a little too fast.
He was gonna cave. He always caved.
“Fifteen freakin’ packets.” The words hissed from Stan's mouth as he watched a snowstorm of Splenda dissolve into Ford’s coffee. It swirled, pale and poisonous, and he stirred it once more with the spoon— clink clink —just to see if he could make the sugar disintegrate faster with sheer spite. “Sixer’s gonna piss saccharine at this rate.”
The moment his hand brushed the side of the mug, the boat pitched hard to starboard. No warning. No groan, no whisper from the hull. Just sudden violence, a jarring lurch that sent the world tilting like some god had elbowed the planet.
Stan slammed into the galley counter, shoulder cracking against metal—“ fuck !”—but somehow, miraculously, the mug stayed upright. A miracle. Possibly divine. He’d thank whichever deity spared the coffee after he punched Ford in the jaw.
He charged up the stairs, every stomp fueled by the impending rant he was about to bury Ford under. What the hell was that maneuver? Who taught him to helm, a blindfolded goat? By the time he burst into the cockpit, the sarcasm was already halfway out of his throat—
And then he saw it.
Everything outside was wrong.
The windows were a curtain of gray. Rain lashed sideways in thick ropes, smeared across the glass in clawed streaks. The wind didn’t howl—it screamed—as the Nordhavn bucked beneath them, alive and thrashing. Lines snapped taut against the masts, the sea churning into froth and fury.
It was like stepping into a different world.
“The fuck…” he whispered.
Ford didn’t answer. He just snatched the mug from Stan’s hand as if he were entitled to it, sloshing scalding liquid across Stan’s knuckles.
“OW, shit, hey! Jesus, you’re welcome!”
Ford didn’t blink. He sipped, eyes locked on the GPS, fingers racing across the touchscreen in a frantic rhythm, as if speed alone might fix what logic couldn’t. His voice, when it came, was tight enough to splinter. “Thank you. There was nothing on the radar. No pressure systems. No warnings. It was clear.”
Stan braced against the console as another hard lurch rattled the vessel. The hull groaned beneath them—deep, drawn out, almost wounded.
“A medicane just pops up outta nowhere?” Stan barked. “You kiddin’ me?”
Ford stayed locked in, scanning and recalculating. Desperation moved through him. Every sweep of his hand across the screen was a prayer flung into static.
Another jolt. Then suddenly Ford was there, slammed into his side, breath hot and uneven at Stan’s jaw. Instinct moved first. Stan caught him, one arm around his back, the other bracing them both against the vibrating metal.
For a second, it all slowed.
Rain streaked the windows. The storm dipped into silence, distant, like it had sunk below the surface to breathe. And all Stan felt was Ford’s grip on his side—clutching, not steady, not braced. Just holding on.
Not the time idiot.
“We’re not near any coastline, right?” Stan forced himself back into practicality.
Ford shook his head. “We have enough sea room. We could ride it out.”
Stan exhaled through his nose, planting his feet against the tilt of the deck. “Anchor’ll hold, yeah?”
“ It should. ”
Ford's voice didn’t inspire much confidence. Should was a placeholder for fuck if I know when it came to things like this.
Their Nordhavn was a hell of a boat—sturdy, with a full-displacement hull built for ocean crossings, a raised pilothouse, and a range that could take them damn near anywhere in the world. She was meant to handle rough seas. But no boat was invincible.
And right now, she was not handling this well.
The rain had gone from miserable to biblical in under five minutes, hammering against the pilothouse windows in thick, wind-driven sheets. Visibility was forfeit. It was all whitecaps and chaos out there, the water a churning, angry mess.
And beneath his feet, the rhythm was wrong.
Stan knew how the boat should move. Knew how she should feel. They had a certain motion in bad weather, a natural rise and fall with the waves, the steady cadence of displacement hull engineering doing its job.
This? This was not that.
The roll was sluggish. Off-balance.
Something was dragging them.
He could raise the anchor.
Ford looked at him immediately, sharply, like he’d been waiting for Stan to say that. “Absolutely not.”
Didn’t matter. Stan was already halfway to the door.
“ Stanley —”
“It’s dragging,” Stan yelled, bracing himself in the doorway as the wind clawed at his jacket, trying to shove him backward.
“I’m aware.” Too calm. Ford was trying to be calm. That meant he was holding back every single thing he wanted to say. Stan wasn’t in the mood to hear it.
“Can’t run over the chain,” Stan shouted, gripping the doorframe as the wind screamed in his face. “Foul the props and we’re screwed!”
“We’re not risking your life over an anchor, Stanley!”
“It’s not the anchor I’m worried about!” Stan barked. “It’s what happens when it snaps!”
Ford exhaled sharply through his nose, as if physically restraining himself from strangling Stan where he stood. Stan pretended not to notice.
The rain was savage. It didn’t fall so much as attack, slicing sideways across his skin and soaking him to the bone in seconds. His shirt clung, cold and useless, boots slipping against the deck despite the so-called non-skid coating. False advertising—because it was definitely still slippery.
He gripped the railing, hauling himself toward the bow one muscle at a time. Each step was a gamble, and stan’s stomach twisted in a nauseous, dizzying lurch. His mother’s voice echoed in his head, bitching about her vertigo, and man, maybe he owed her an apology for tuning her out all those years.
Ford was behind him, shouting something lost to the wind. Stan didn’t look. One slip and he’d be part of the sea.
“This is ridiculous!” Ford shouted over the wind.
“Workin’ with what I got!” Stan hollered back.
No argument. That was a win.
The bow loomed. He turned the corner (of course the railing ended) and there it was: the windlass, gleaming and furious, chain pulled taut and shuddering with a pulse of its own. It snaked out over the edge, raw and alive.
Only one way across. Open deck.
Fantastic.
He moved slowly. Measured. Each step a negotiation with the boat and the sky.
One.
Two.
Of-fucking-course.
For one terrible, back-snapping second, Stan was nothing but flailing limbs and sick vertigo. The sky stretched above him, cracked and indifferent, and the sea below writhed, ravenous for his bones.
The world snapped tight around his wrist.
Ford’s grip caught and yanked him mid-fall, a jolt that lit up every nerve in his body. His spine sang with it, white-hot pain lancing down his side. His boots scrabbled for traction that wasn’t there, the hull slick and heartless. His shoulder nearly tore free.
Above him, Ford crouched in a statue’s half-collapse. Face pale, lips parted, eyes blown wide and rain-glazed. Every line of him braced, bent around Stan’s weight like the boat could rip itself in half and he still wouldn’t let go.
Stan’s fingers scrambled for something, anything, caught Ford’s forearm and clung, knuckles blanching, the sinew under his grip taut as cable. The boat rocked again, and Ford grunted, boots skidding. The only thing between Stan and the hungry black water was that arm. That stubborn, furious, stupid arm.
“Fuck—” Stan gasped, legs swinging uselessly, nothing under him but air and rage.
Ford’s mouth was drawn tight with concentration, or fear, or maybe both, and his soaked shirt clung to the curve of his shoulders.
And still Stan felt it. Not just the pull of his own body weight, but the tilt. The shift. Ford was inching forward with every jolt of the deck. They were on the edge. Literally.
Stan blinked through the stinging rain. Watched Ford’s center of gravity bend. One foot skidded half a step, just a twitch—and that twitch meant death.
His lungs spasmed. Not from the storm. Not from the cold. From the math.
If he stayed right here, clinging like a selfish bastard, Ford was going to come with him.
And he couldn’t. He couldn’t let that happen. Not after everything. Not now. Not when they’d finally gotten it right.
Stan knew who he was. A human anchor. A goddamn wrecking ball dressed in cheap leather and worse decisions. And Ford…Ford had always been the one who climbed out. Who swam hard enough to escape the undertow. Who made it.
Stan wouldn’t be the one to sink him again.
He tried to swallow. His vision tunneled.
God, if he let himself look too long, Ford’s face—twisted with effort, desperate —made something crack open inside his ribs.
He opened his mouth, looking for the right words. Some kind of goodbye that wouldn’t sound like a confession. Something that wouldn’t ruin everything they’d built.
And all that came out was:
“You got any cool gadgets that can help me out right now?” he rasped.
It was a joke. Or supposed to be. The kind of gallows humor that brought you a second more breath before the fall.
Keep it light.
Keep it stupid.
Don’t make it real.
Ford didn’t laugh.
“Stanley,” he barked, voice hoarse and raw over the hurricane roar, “this is not the time—”
Another shift. The deck rolled. Stan’s arm yanked in Ford’s grip, and he felt it give just a hair. Just a sliver.
Too close.
Ford’s other hand clawed for leverage. Nothing. Just slick fiberglass and betrayal.
Stan’s lungs burned. His legs flailed once, hopeless.
He could see the choice breaking across Ford’s face: do I save him, or do we both die?
Stan had already made the call.
“Ford.”
“No, ” Ford cut in, too fast, too loud, too late. He already knew where this was heading.
Stan smiled. That crooked, sideways smile that used to mean trouble and now meant something a hell of a lot heavier.
“You gotta let me go.”
Ford’s entire face twisted. Pain, disbelief, fury, and something deeper underneath it all. “ No. ” The word landed sharp, hard, as if it could stop the fall on its own. “I can pull you up—I have you—”
“You don’t, Ford,” Stan said softly.
Ford blinked, rain running down his face in rivulets that weren’t just rain anymore. His mouth opened, then shut again. Nothing came out.
Stan could feel it. The storm. The ache. The pull between them, fraying.
His breath hitched.
“Gonna drag ya’ down,” he rasped, throat raw. “Always have.”
Ford shook his head. “This isn’t—”
“It is. It always is.” Stan’s mouth twisted into something that might’ve been a smile, or a grimace, or the kind of last look you give someone when you know you don’t get another. “But this time? We had a good run. Hell of a run, Sixer. You—” His voice broke, and he hated it. Swallowed it. “You were good to me. I’ll remember that.”
Ford’s jaw clenched. “Don’t say it’s over—don’t you fucking dare—”
Water slammed the deck. The sea beneath him hissed, hungry and mean.
“I don’t want to ruin this,” Stan whispered. “Not now. Not when we’ve finally figured out how not to hate each other.”
Ford’s hand flexed. Every finger burned against Stan’s skin.
“I’m not letting go,” Ford said. “You let go, and...Christ I’ll jump in after you.”
Stan huffed a breath. That old stubbornness. The same stubbornness that got them through years of silence, anger, and the strange, stupid peace of now. The same thing that made Ford Ford.
He wanted to tell him. Everything.
But it would shatter something. Change things. And if this was the last moment, Stan wasn’t gonna spend it ruining the best version of them they’d ever had.
So instead, he just locked eyes with him one more time, and said the one thing he’d never meant more:
“Thanks, Sixer.”
Then he let go.
Ford’s fingers clawed—grabbing, pleading, no —but the rain was faster. The storm took him.
Stan’s back hit the water hard. Cold, unrelenting, instant. The sea swallowed him whole.