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Part 5 of As you ask
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2012-11-24
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2012-11-25
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On Purpose

Summary:

A movieverse take on the lead-up to and the aftermath of Clint's deafness. Very short.

Chapter 1

Notes:

A super-short fill for the following prompt at avengerkink. (link)

 

I've seen a lot of prompts and fills that bring Clint's deafness into movieverse. Not so many that focus on how he became deaf intentionally, to avoid sound-based mind control. And I think that would be kind of a big thing for movie!Clint, considering what he's been through, so I'd like something that focuses on just the moments leading up to that, with the terror and the oh god not again never again and relief when it's done, and the certainty that not only was it the right thing to do but the only thing he could have done.

 

I have no knowledge of the comics, only what I have guessed from other stories and Wikipedia. I know it's really short; it was written really quickly.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

The music was lilting and discordant.

The moment he heard it he felt the familiar tug of another mind entering and commanding his. The feeling was not as strong this time and the hold tenuous and he managed to full free.

The music was still there though and it took him more and more willpower to keep his mind out of the other man's control.

He began to panic as he recognised the feeling of being under someone's rule once again. He didn't want to have to fight his friends again and he definitely didn't want to let himself into that cycle of self-hatred and panic and insecurity again.

He did not want to lose control over his actions again.

His control over his mind slipped for a moment as those thoughts ran through it.

He quickly pushed everything from his mind as he sought to regain control and to find a way out.

The answer presented itself to him after a moment's thought.

He pulled out the sonic arrow that was meant to be fired and set it off, just as he felt his control over himself slip.

A moment of blinding pain and silence reigned.

He screamed against the pain and forced the last vestiges of control from his mind.

And relief reigned in his mind and he knew that they would not control him again.

It was the best way – no, actually, it was the only way.

He had control - he was free.

The world faded to black.

Notes:

[Originally published at the prompt and on my ffnet on 10 August 2012.]