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Dear Christopher,
I know you're mad at me and I don't blame you for that. If it were me, I would be too. But this fact doesn't make me want to stay away from you. In fact, it's the opposite: if I could, I would go back in time and would never make the same mistakes again if it meant having you here with me. But that's not possible and I made a mistake. A mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life, because I never wanted to hurt you. But I need you to understand that I was hurt too, mi hijo. And honestly, I think I still am. I think I felt like I could fix things with your mom and... Well, I was wrong and it affected you.
I don't really know how to fix this, but I went back to therapy. Buck was worried about me and even took me to my first session yesterday. It was... hard, but I'm trying. That's how it works, even if it hurts, we have to push ourselves to get back up again.
I promise, kid, i’m getting better for you. I’ll be better. I’m so, so sorry.
Oh my God, this is so hard. Christopher, mi hijo, I miss you so much. You have no idea. And even though I know how mad you are at me, that you might not even read this letter, I need you to know this. I love you, kid, and that will never change. Ever.
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that. And whenever you want to come back, if you do, I'll be waiting, no matter how long.
I love you every moment and everywhere, mi hijo.
— Dad