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I love you, too.
The words kept Toji up most of the night. Megumi seemed to fall asleep right after, blissfully unaware that Toji felt like his world was crashing. Megumi wasn’t supposed to be in love with him, he was supposed to move on. Maybe not now, but eventually. Megumi needed to find someone he could actually have a future with instead of tying himself down to whatever this was. He knew this. So why did it feel so good knowing Megumi felt the same? He wanted to wake Megumi up just to hear Megumi tell him that he loved him again to be sure he wasn’t hallucinating. Fuck. Toji let out a deep sigh as he stared at the ceiling. The right thing to do would be to find a way to end it, but how was he supposed to end it when every time he looked at Megumi it only made him want Megumi more?
When the morning finally came everything felt normal. Toji was expecting there to be some kind of change, or at the very least Megumi would say it again when he woke up, but so far Megumi was behaving the same way he always did after a night of rough sex. He was so soft and clingy, snuggling closer to Toji until most of his body was lying on top of Toji’s. Megumi was always so beautiful, it made Toji wish he was an artist so he could show Megumi how perfect he was.
After a while, the silence was beginning to drive Toji crazy. For a moment it felt like he was back in high school trying to decide who was supposed to confess their love first. Was Megumi waiting for him to say it again? Or was it actually a hallucination? Maybe he was just being impatient. Just as Toji opened his mouth to confess Megumi finally spoke.
“Daddy?” Megumi asked, face still against Toji’s chest. His voice sounded small and uncertain.
“Yes, blessing?”
“Last night, after you carried me to our bed…” Megumi started, making Toji’s heart beat faster. “Do you remember what you said? I remember we were talking about something, but I don’t know if I dreamed it or not.”
Toji felt like his world stopped. He could lie to Megumi and give him the chance to move on. It’s what he should do. It would certainly be less painful to let him think it was a dream than to end it any other way in the future. If he thought it was a dream he could simply outgrow this when he found someone else, someone who could love Megumi without the need to hide. Until then things could stay exactly as they have been.
“I think you were dreaming, baby.”
As the lie left his mouth Toji regretted it. He wanted to pull the words back and force them back down his throat. Megumi looked up at Toji, disappointment was written on his pretty face.
“You didn’t say anything?”
“No, I didn’t,” Toji said, rubbing Megumi’s back forcing himself to continue the lie.
“Oh,” Megumi said looking back down at his hands that were gripping the sheet that covered their bodies. “I should clean up.”
“Let me help you,” Toji said, sitting up as Megumi started to move away.
“No, it’s okay,” Megumi said pulling his hand away from Toji’s. “I won’t take long.”
Toji wanted to take it back. He wanted to pull Megumi back into bed so he could kiss his pretty face and tell him he loved him more than anything. Instead, Toji stayed in bed staring at the ceiling trying to ignore the pain in his heart, and told himself that this was for the best.
Megumi felt like he couldn’t breathe hearing Toji’s words. How could it have been a dream when it felt so real? Megumi could swear he could still feel Toji’s breath against his skin as he said the words Megumi had been dying to hear. Under the hot water of the shower, Megumi allowed himself to cry as he scrubbed his skin as if he could scrub away his feelings for Toji and watch them disappear down the drain along with his tears. Logically he knew that even though this time was a dream that didn’t mean Toji would never say it. However, Megumi could feel the waves of anxiety crashing into him. What if he doesn’t love me? What if he’s just using me for sex? After all, he’s never shy about telling me how much he loves fucking me. By the time Megumi got out his skin was rubbed raw and his shoulders only felt heavier as doubts plagued his every thought.
Megumi started pulling away. It was slow at first, but over time Toji noticed Megumi stopped falling asleep in his arms and the bed was empty more often than not when he woke up. Toji tried to search his memory for when it started, but he couldn’t remember. The next morning Megumi was still asleep when he woke up. Desperate for things to return to how they were Toji pulled Megumi close and kissed his face.
“Good morning, baby,” Toji said softly as Megumi began to stir.
“Morning,” Megumi said before pushing Toji away so he could get out of their bed.
Toji let Megumi go without a fight. He closed his eyes as he listened to Megumi’s footsteps disappear down the hall. It was only a matter of time before this happened. It was actually better for it to happen now rather than later. After all, Megumi was still young. Maybe with enough therapy Megumi would forgive him. Toji tried his best to steady his breaths as the ache in his heart only got worse as his brain shouted at him that if he had noticed sooner maybe Megumi would still be in their bed. The bracelet Megumi had given him felt heavy with all the memories of their trip together. Maybe they should have stayed like Megumi wanted. Would things be different if they had? No, this was for the best. It’s better this way.
Toji would remind himself each day that it was for the best as Megumi drifted further. Every touch felt shorter and every kiss felt like it could be the last. Yet somehow in the back of his mind, Toji was convinced Megumi would come back to him and everything would be just as it was. That was until one night after working late Toji was expecting to see Megumi lying on the couch waiting for him as always, however, as he pulled into the driveway he noticed the porch light wasn’t turned on. Once he unlocked the door he saw the couch was empty and the house was quiet. The only sign Megumi had gotten home safe was the note left on the dining room table that pizza was in the fridge. Toji checked their room thinking Megumi might have just been tired but their bed was empty. His legs felt heavy as he walked back down the hall and quietly pushed open the door to confirm what he already knew. Megumi was asleep in his old bed. It’s for the best Toji kept repeating it over and over in his head until he finally crawled into his bed alone. Had it always been so cold before? The memories of better times echoed in his mind as he tried to sleep.
“You look like shit,” Shiu said as he sat down at Toji’s desk.
“Thanks, you really know how to make a guy feel better,” Toji said, leaning back in his chair as he closed his eyes.
“Anytime, it’s what I’m here for. What’s going on, trouble in paradise?”
“Megumi slept in his room last night,” Toji said with a sigh. “Turns out I can’t fucking sleep without him.”
“So then it’s over?”
Toji felt the pain in his heart again hearing the suggestion out loud. “I don’t know, I… maybe I just need to talk to him.”
“Do you hear yourself right now? You do remember this is your son we’re talking about,” Shiu said in a hushed, firm tone. “He’s finally moving on and you want to talk to him about letting you fuck him again just so you can sleep better?”
“You don’t get it.”
“What’s not to get? Just let him move on and if you need to get off to sleep just jerk off like everyone else.”
Before Megumi knew it his school was once again preparing for prom and just like the time before Megumi expected to go with his friends. No one had ever asked him out in the past and the one person Megumi would want to go with as a date wouldn’t be able to take him without raising several flags. However, once Megumi found a card in his locker from Kokichi, a boy who sat behind him in math class, Megumi’s friends wouldn’t let it go. It was a sweet card asking him if would like to go to prom with him and it had his phone number scribbled at the bottom.
“C’mon, you should go with him,” Maki said as they all say together at the lunch table.
“I don’t know, I don’t really think he’s my type.”
“Is that really why? Or are you just saying that because of your college guy?” Yuta asked.
“You can’t let some college guy who won’t commit stop you from having fun with a sweet guy at prom!” Maki said, lightly hitting Megumi’s arm.
“It’s complicated,” Megumi said quietly thinking about how easy it has been to pull away. Megumi had hoped that maybe returning to his room would make Toji go to him like he did when things first started. When Toji opened the door Megumi felt his heart race, expecting Toji to touch him as he was supposedly asleep. Instead, Toji just closed the door and went back to his room. “I don’t know if it’s going to work out with him actually.”
Maki’s gaze softened hearing Megumi’s voice shake as he said the words. “Megumi, I’m so sorry. Fuck him, he was probably just some creep who was using you for sex.”
Megumi silently pushed his food around his tray. Was that all Toji wanted him for? Megumi was reminded again at of how the one time Toji said that he loved him it turned out to be a dream.
“I don’t know…” Megumi said, thinking about how badly he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Toji. Not that it mattered what he wanted if Toji didn’t feel the same.
“At least think about going with Kokichi,” Yuta encouraged. “It could be good to help you move on.”
That night Megumi was quiet throughout dinner as he considered everything his friends had said. Megumi wondered if he would still have the same appeal to Toji years from now or if he would move on to another young body to keep him warm. Was it too much for a son to ask his father to love him forever?
“Will you be joining me tonight?” Toji asked, his voice cutting through Megumi’s thoughts.
“Did you want me to?”
Megumi’s voice sounded small and uncertain. Toji reached out and took Megumi’s hand. “I want what you want.”
Megumi couldn’t help it, he laughed. If that was true then they would be somewhere else, somewhere where they could hold hands and kiss whenever they wanted. If it were true then Toji would have actually told him he loved him all those nights ago. When his eyes met Toji’s his father looked surprised at his reaction.
“How many people have you slept with?” Megumi asked, changing the subject.
“What does that have to do with anything?” Toji asked, clearly confused.
“I just wanna know.”
“I’m not sure,” Toji said honestly as his mind went through the faces of countless men and women he had been with over the years. “A lot, I guess.”
Megumi frowned at Toji’s answer. He hated that Toji had been with a large number of people. It was worse somehow that Toji wasn’t even sure how many. Megumi felt a pain in the pit of his stomach as he pictured a future where Megumi became just another past conquest for Toji.
“Baby, you can’t get jealous after asking me the question,” Toji said as he brought Megumi’s hand to his lips.
“Why not?” Megumi said, pulling his hand back.
“Because most of it happened before you were born,” Toji said simply. “And if I hadn’t slept with one of them you wouldn’t be here.”
Megumi pouted as he thought about Toji’s words. If most of it happened before Megumi was born, how many were after? And how many more will there be now that Toji is getting bored of him? “I wish I had you all to myself.”
“You have me, baby,” Toji said, taking Megumi’s hand once again. “I’m all yours.”
For how long?
Part of Megumi wanted to believe in Toji’s sweet words, but the doubts in Megumi’s mind were so much louder. He wanted Toji to feel the same he felt right now. The words left Megumi’s mouth before he could even think them through. “A boy asked me to go to prom today.”
Toji’s face was unreadable. “And what did you say?”
“Nothing yet, I wasn’t sure if I should go.”
“Do you want to go with him?”
“I’m not sure,” Megumi repeated, searching Toji’s eyes for any kind of emotion.
“You should go, it could be fun,” Toji said as he let go of Megumi’s hand. “I know I had fun at my prom.”
Megumi felt like he got punched in the gut. He wanted to scream and tell Toji that he was the only person that Megumi wanted to go anywhere with. Instead, he swallowed the lump forming in his throat and said, “Maybe I will.”
Megumi accepted Kokichi’s invite the next day which thrilled Megumi’s friends. Leading up to the dance Megumi was expecting Toji to have more of a reaction, but even as he took pictures of Kokichi and him together before the dance there was nothing. The night was a blur. At first, it was strange feeling inexperienced hands pulling his body close, but as the night went on Megumi found himself getting drunk on the idea of letting someone else touch him. After all, Toji didn’t care and why should he? It’s not like they were lovers. In the backseat of Kokichi’s car, their breath fogged the windows as their hips moved against each other. It was clumsy and Megumi was certain he could feel Kokichi's hands trembling as they slid down his back. Megumi threw his head back, moaning as he ground his hips harder against Kokichi’s cock. This seemed to give Kokichi enough confidence to finally grab Megumi’s ass. Megumi tried to whimper the way he would with Toji as he chased his own orgasm, but his noises sounded more like frustration than desperation as Megumi struggled to make himself feel as good as he did with his father. Kokichi seemed oblivious to his frustration though and gripped Megumi’s ass tighter as he sucked the skin on Megumi’s neck.
“I don’t have a condom,” Kokichi said as his hands moved to help Megumi out of his jacket.
Megumi froze. He hadn’t considered having sex with Kokichi. He just wanted to grind against Kokichi’s cock until he came.
“N-not that we have to have sex or anything,” Kokichi stammered, hands suddenly shaking once again now that Megumi stopped enthusiastically moving his hips. “I just thought I would mention it beforehand.”
“It’s okay, you’re right, we should slow down,” Megumi said, kissing Kokichi slower. “I’ve never done this before.”
“Really?” Kokichi said, pulling back slightly, and looking at Megumi with wide eyes.
“Is that so surprising?” Megumi asked, mind racing as he tried to think of an excuse for why he hadn’t been a very convincing virgin.
“You’re just so hot, I would have thought there would have been someone before me,” Kokichi explained. “I was shocked you agreed to go out with me in the first place.”
“There hasn’t been anyone else. This is the first date I’ve ever been on,” Megumi said. The lies seemed to get easier the longer they spoke, but it’s not like he could tell him his father had already taken all of his firsts.
“First kiss, first date… How would you feel about me being your first boyfriend?” Kokichi asked, unable to look Megumi in the eyes as he asked.
“I might be okay with that,” Megumi said making Kokichi look back at him, eyes wide with shock.
“R-really?” He stammered as he looked at Megumi with stars in his eyes.
“I think you’re sweet and I like the way I feel when I’m with you.”
“I’m so fucking lucky, I get to have all of your firsts,” Kokichi said, kissing Megumi again before playfully adding “Hopefully I won’t be your first heartbreak.”
“You won’t be,” Megumi said. Toji had already taken that too.
That night when Megumi got home he crawled into his bed. He hated sleeping alone, turns out the house was colder without Toji’s body there to keep him warm. Wrapped up in his blankets Megumi was curled up trying to forget what it was like to feel Toji’s lips gliding across his skin as if forgetting would somehow make the aching in his chest disappear. In Megumi’s dreams, he woke up in Toji’s arms and Toji told Megumi everything he’s always wanted to hear, but when morning came Megumi woke up alone.
“Did you have fun with Kokichi last night?” Toji asked over breakfast.
Megumi noted the way Toji spat out his name like it left a bitter taste in his mouth. “It was okay.”
“Just okay?” Toji questioned, his eyes locked onto the marks left on Megumi’s neck. “Looks like it was better than just okay to me.”
He wasn’t you Megumi thought as he took another bite of his food. “And so what if it was?”
Toji bit his tongue. His imagination went wild picturing that boy touching Megumi. Kokichi wasn’t worthy of looking in Megumi’s direction let alone kissing him, marking him, listening to Megumi’s sweet noises… Toji’s jaw clenched at the thought of Kokichi taking Megumi in the backseat of that shitty old car. Toji wanted to press Megumi for details, he needed to know if Megumi actually was having sex with someone else. Instead, they finished their breakfast in silence.
Megumi wanted to love Kokichi. He spent as much time as he could with him as if the prolonged exposure would trick his heart into wanting someone else. It didn’t take Megumi long to notice Toji began to coming home later. Part of Megumi wanted to believe it was because he was jealous but he knew that was just wishful thinking. It was more likely that Toji was out in some bar somewhere hooking up with someone else. Still, it was nice sometimes to pretend.
For Toji it was like Kokichi was moving in with how often he saw the boy in their house. Often he would come home and see Kokichi on the couch with Megumi, curled up watching the same shows and movies that Megumi would pick out to watch with Toji. Did it feel the same to Megumi or did it feel different? Better? It must have been. Seeing the way Megumi would laugh at jokes Kokichi would make about the characters made Toji sick. He started staying late at work more, not wanting to bear witness to Megumi’s newfound happiness. At least at work he could keep himself busy and stay productive or at least that’s what he told himself. In reality, more often than not he would find himself running his fingers across the rope around his wrist and wonder if Megumi still thought about what they had.
“Hey, do you want to grab some drinks tonight?” Shiu asked Toji as he stopped by Toji’s office on his way out.
“I don’t know,” Toji said as he looked at the papers scattered across his desk trying to remember what it was he was pretending to work on.
“C’mon, it’ll beat staying here pretending to be busy.”
Toji agreed and as the cool night air hit his skin Toji took out his phone to text Megumi that he would be out late. Then, pictures of Megumi laughing with Kokichi on their couch flashed in his mind and instead Toji turned the phone off without sending anything. Megumi had Kokichi there to keep him company and Toji planned on being home before Megumi could have a chance to notice he wasn’t there. It was surprisingly fun being out with his co-workers again. There were brief moments when Toji would even forget about Megumi. At least until he saw a pair of green eyes or a head of dark hair or felt the weight of the bracelet around his wrist that was still heavy with the promise of a future that never came to be.
“When are you gonna take that off?” Shiu asked, not bothering to mask the annoyance in his voice.
“I’m not sure I ever will,” Toji answered honestly.
“You’re gonna have to move on eventually,” Shiu said, putting his arm around Toji’s shoulders. “If you ever need anything I’m here.”
Toji finished off his glass and raised his hand at the bartender, signaling he wanted another. Before Toji knew it they were the only ones from the office still drinking. When did everyone else go home? Toji looked around the bar as if he looked hard enough their other co-workers would manifest out of thin air. Toji attention was brought back as he felt Shiu’s hand on his thigh.
“What are you doing?” Toji asked as looked over at Shiu.
“C’mon, don’t you miss it?” Shiu asked, leaning over to place a kiss on Toji’s jaw. “I helped you forget his mom, I can help you forget about him too.”
Toji’s lips found Shiu’s, relaxing into the familiar feeling. Shiu’s fingers carded through Toji’s hair as he moaned into Toji’s mouth. Toji pulled at Shiu’s shirt, wanting to feel Shiu’s body against his. Then, just as quick as it started Toji pulled away.
“I can’t do this,” Toji said, keeping a hand on Shiu’s chest to keep him away.
“Of course you can,” Shiu said, grabbing Toji’s shirt to try to pull him closer.
“No, I can’t. I’m sorry,” Toji said standing up and taking a step back.
Toji managed to get outside before fishing his phone from his pocket. Once he turned it back on he was met with several missed call notifications and texts from Megumi asking where he was. Toji called an Uber hoping the drive would sober him up enough to sneak into the house without waking Megumi. Surely he had fallen asleep by now with how late it had become. However, when he walked through the front door he was met with a very frazzled-looking Megumi who was gripping his phone so tight Toji thought it might crack under the pressure.
“You’re still awake,” Toji said, clearly surprised. He looked around the room and his shoulders relaxed when he saw Megumi was alone.
“Where the hell have you been?” Megumi said, getting off the couch and walking towards Toji. Up close he could smell the alcohol on Toji’s breath and the smoke that clung to his clothes.
“We went for drinks after work, I guess I just lost track of time.”
Megumi narrowed his eyes at Toji. “You could have texted me to let me know you’d be running late.”
“It’s like I said, I lost track of time,” Toji asked, brushing past Megumi. The room felt like it was spinning and could still taste Shiu on his tongue. He needed to brush his teeth and lie down.
Megumi grabbed Toji’s arm and pulled him back. “Is it that difficult for you to text me back?”
“You seem to be busy with Kokichi these days, I thought you wouldn’t care if I came home or not.” When Toji saw the hurt in Megumi’s eyes he wanted to take it back.
“Of course I fucking care,” Megumi said as he pushed Toji’s chest. “I thought something horrible happened to you.”
“Baby, I’m sorry,” Toji said, moving to pull Megumi into his arms only to get pushed away again.
“I’ve been texting you all night, worried about you being dead in a ditch somewhere and you come home just to tell me I’m the one who doesn’t care, well, fuck you!”
“You’re right, I’m sorry,” Toji said softly, reaching out and letting Megumi push him away again.
“Just because I’m not sleeping with you anymore you think it’s okay to just ignore me like this?” Megumi felt tears start to stream down his face.
“No, of course not.”
Toji pulled Megumi in again, not allowing Megumi to push him away any longer. “Don’t touch me, let me go,” Megumi sobbed, hitting Toji’s chest with his balled-up fists as Toji pulled him into his arms. “Don’t fucking touch me.”
Toji held Megumi close, rubbing Megumi’s back as his tears soaked through Toji’s shirt. “I’m so sorry, baby. I should have called. I don’t want you to worry about me.”
Megumi wrapped his arms around Toji, letting himself sink into the familiar comfort. Breathing in Toji’s scent that was hidden under everything else as Toji kissed his hair. Soon Megumi’s breathing slowly returned to normal and his tears subsided. Toji pulled back just enough so he could hold Megumi’s face with his hands and used his thumbs to wipe away the excess tears on Megumi’s cheeks as he looked into Megumi’s pretty green eyes. “You’re such a good boy, I’m so sorry for worrying you.”
Megumi let himself melt into Toji’s arms as Toji kissed his forehead. When Toji pulled back his eyes traveled to Toji’s lips. Megumi stood on his tip toes and leaned in, Toji’s breath hitched as Megumi’s nose brushed against his own. He could feel Megumi’s breath against his lips.
“Megumi,” Toji said softly, against Megumi’s lips in an almost kiss. “You should get some sleep.”
Toji pulled away making Megumi blink with confusion before his face turned red from embarrassment. “You’re right, I’m sorry. Goodnight.”
The next time Kokichi and Megumi were alone Megumi found himself in Kokichi’s lap as they kissed. Kokichi’s hands slipped under Megumi’s shirt as their tongues danced together. Megumi pushed Kokichi’s hands down as they continued to kiss only for Kokichi to once again slip his hands under Megumi’s shirt. When Megumi tried to push his hands down again Kokichi resisted.
“C’mon, Megumi,” Kokichi said against Megumi’s lips. “You love me, don’t you?”
“Of course,” Megumi said. “I just don’t know if I’m ready.”
“I know it’s your first time, but it’ll be mine too and I want to share that with you,” Kokichi said before kissing Megumi once again.
Megumi tried to relax into Kokichi’s kiss but tensed up again feeling Kokichi’s fingers slide higher up his shirt. Megumi broke the kiss and Kokichi sighed with frustration as his hands slid back down to Megumi’s hips.
“I’m sorry,” Megumi said immediately. “I want to, I’m just nervous.”
“You have nothing to be nervous about, babe. You are so sexy and I love you so much. Don’t you want to show me how much you love me?”
Megumi nodded and tried to relax as Kokichi’s fingers touched his skin once again. Taking a deep breath Megumi raised his arms so Kokichi could help him out of his shirt.
“Let’s get this off too, shall we?” Kokichi said as he helped Megumi out of his binder.
Megumi could feel Kokichi’s cock harden at the sight of his bare chest. Despite this Megumi still felt embarrassed but resisted the urge to grab his shirt to cover up.
“Holy shit,” Kokichi breathed as he cupped Megumi’s breasts with his hands. “You’re even sexier than I imagined. I can’t wait to see the rest of you.”
“Babe, wait,” Megumi said grabbing Kokichi’s hands that quickly made their way to the button of Megumi’s jeans.
“What’s the matter now?”
“I don’t want my first time to be on my couch in the living room.”
“Then we can move to your bedroom.”
“Can we just hold off? Just until tomorrow. You can spend the night and we can make it special,” Megumi said before kissing Kokichi sweetly. “Please?”
“Okay,” Kokichi said after taking a moment to consider. “Tomorrow then.”
That next night Megumi led Kokichi to his room where the two cuddled closely, waiting for Toji to turn in for the night. Instead, Toji opened Megumi’s door and looked at Kokichi, surprised to see him not only still in the house but in bed with Megumi.
“Hey, shouldn’t you be headed out? I don’t want your parents to worry about you,” Toji said, his voice laced with what sounded like genuine concern.
“Kokichi is spending the night tonight,” Megumi said before kissing Kokichi’s cheek.
“And that’s okay with his parents?”
They both nodded before Kokichi answered. “Yes, sir.”
Megumi seemed satisfied with himself as Toji left them be. Kokichi kissed Megumi’s neck now that they were alone. “I thought you said you told your dad.”
“I thought I did, I guess I forgot,” Megumi said leaning into his touch. “Did you remember the condoms?”
“Yeah, they’re in my bag,” Kokichi said as he got up to dig through his bag.
“Wait here,” Megumi said as he slipped out of the room to change. He had promised Kokichi he would make their first time special so he put on one of the babydoll lingerie sets he used to wear for Toji. He looked at himself in the mirror and took a deep breath, trying his best to forget all the times Toji nearly tore this set off him as he exhaled.
Kokichi was already mostly stripped down and only in his underwear as he lay on Megumi’s bed waiting. His eyes widened as he laid eyes on Megumi, swearing under his breath. With how nervous Megumi felt it made it easy for Megumi to pretend this really was his first time, hands shaking as he took his spot straddling Kokichi.
“Do you like it?”
“Your tits are incredible,” Kokichi said, grabbing onto them. “You should show them off more.”
“Just for you,” Megumi said as he started to grind down on Kokichi’s cock.
Megumi let out a moan before remembering Toji was just down the hall. At first, Megumi tried to be quiet but quickly started to get more turned on by the fact that Toji could hear him getting fucked by someone else. Thinking about Toji it didn’t take long for Megumi to get close, but just before he could cum Kokichi flipped them over so Megumi was on his back. Megumi let out a whine as he lifted his hips to try to get some friction so he could cum only for Kokichi to push his hips back down onto the mattress. Kokichi helped Megumi out of his panties and tossed them to the side before removing his own underwear and returning to his spot between Megumi’s legs. Kokichi spread Megumi’s thighs getting a clear look at Megumi’s wet pussy.
“Look at you, you’re so fucking hot,” Kokichi said before grabbing the condom packet. “I love that I get to be the first person inside of you.”
Megumi was a little disappointed to see Kokichi couldn’t compare to Toji in terms of size, but at least he wasn’t what Megumi would consider small. Just before Kokichi could push himself inside Megumi placed a hand on Kokichi’s stomach.
“Just go slow,” Megumi said softly, playing the part of a nervous virgin as well as he could. He threw his head back against the pillows as Kokichi pushed in, gripping the sheets as he faked feeling overwhelmed.
“Fuck, Megumi. You feel so tight.”
Megumi whimpered as he rolled his hips. “You’re so big, it feels so good.”
Kokichi started to thrust into Megumi’s pussy, trying to keep his moans down. Megumi, on the other hand, was moaning just loud enough that he knew Toji would be able to hear him if he was still awake. The thought of Toji listening was more exciting than sex itself. Megumi knew he should feel bad for thinking of his father while Kokichi was inside of him, but he couldn’t help it. Since it was actually Kokichi’s first time Megumi wasn’t expecting much, but somehow was still left disappointed. Kokichi came long before Megumi could even get close. Then, right after he came, he pulled out without a word leaving Megumi feeling empty and used. Kokichi tied off the condom and threw it in the trash before rejoining Megumi in bed.
“That was incredible. How was it for you?”
“Amazing,” Megumi lied, kissing Kokichi trying to feel a sense of closeness that was missing from the sex itself.
“Can we go again? You feel so good, babe,” Kokichi practically begged, already grabbing another condom.
“Okay,” Megumi said, hoping it might be a little better the second time around but was left disappointed by a repeat performance.
Kokichi started spending the night almost every night, dying to be inside Megumi as often as Megumi allowed. Megumi was expecting Kokichi to get better over time, but he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t starting to get frustrated. Each time felt like a repeat of the first night. Megumi slipped out of bed after Kokichi fell asleep deciding he would take matters into his own hands, literally, so he could finally cum.
“Everything okay?” Toji asked seeing Megumi in the hallway. The sudden noise made Megumi jump.
“Fuck, you scared me,” Megumi said. His eyes scanned Toji’s bare chest before following the familiar trail of hair that led to Toji’s cock. “What are you doing up?”
“Same as you I imagine. I couldn’t sleep,” Toji said, taking a step into Megumi’s personal space. “That is why you’re up, isn’t it?”
Megumi’s mouth went dry as he forced himself to meet Toji’s eyes. “Yeah, trouble sleeping.”
“I don’t recall you ever having trouble sleeping after sex,” Toji said before leaning forward so he could whisper against Megumi’s ear. “Is your little boyfriend not giving you what you need?”
Megumi blushed as he pushed Toji away from him. “Shut up.”
Toji had a smug expression on his face looking down at Megumi. “Does he know you’re faking it for him?”
“I’m not faking anything.”
“Of course you are, I know what you sound like when you cum, baby. He hasn’t even gotten close,” Toji said, backing Megumi into the wall. “That’s why you’re so loud, isn’t it? So I can know he’s not fucking you right.”
Megumi whimpered as he felt Toji’s fingers tease the inside of his thighs. Instinctively Megumi spread his legs so Toji would have easier access. Toji’s hand traveled higher up Megumi’s thigh.
“You’re still such a good boy,” Toji whispered against Megumi’s ear before taking Megumi’s earlobe between his teeth.
Megumi moaned softly as Toji gently bit down and tugged his earlobe. Megumi moved his hips forward desperate for Toji to touch his pussy already, but Toji’s fingers stayed on his thigh as Toji started to kiss along Megumi’s jaw.
“Such a dirty little boy, spreading your legs for me in the open like this. What if your boyfriend were to wake up and see us?”
“Daddy,” Megumi whined. “I don’t care, just touch me.”
“I am touching you, baby,” Toji teased, making Megumi huff with frustration.
“Daddy,” Megumi whined again, trying to pull Toji’s hand to his cunt but Toji wouldn’t budge.
Toji gave Megumi one last kiss along his jaw before pulling away completely. “Go back to your boyfriend, baby.”
Megumi watched with his mouth open as Toji walked back to his room, leaving him alone in the hall. Megumi ended up back in his bed with Kokichi only more frustrated and turned on than before. Toji had shown interest for the first time in what felt like ages just to tease him. It wasn’t exactly how he pictured things would end up. Toji was supposed to beg Megumi to go back to him, but at the moment Megumi was ready to crawl back to Toji on his hands and knees if that’s what it took to get off. Over the next week, Megumi tried to guide Kokichi and teach him how to make him cum. However, after lying about being a virgin and their first time being amazing Megumi was finding it difficult to try to change things without admitting he wasn’t satisfied.
“Fuck, you’re getting so wet,” Kokichi said as Megumi guided Kokichi’s fingers across his pussy.
“Feels so good,” Megumi moved his hips against Kokichi’s fingers. He could feel his orgasm building.
Just as Megumi was about to cum Kokichi pulled away. Megumi made a noise of protest and tried to pull Kokichi’s hand back but it was no use. Kokichi retrieved a condom from his bag and settled between Megumi’s legs as always.
“I’m sorry, babe. I can’t wait any longer,” Kokichi said as he rolled on the condom.
Megumi whined as Kokichi thrust into him feeling his orgasm fade away. After Kokichi fell asleep Megumi once again slipped out of bed, but this time he found himself standing outside of Toji’s door. Megumi slowly turned the door knob and slid into the dark room making sure to close the door behind him. Megumi carefully straddled Toji’s sleeping form and started grinding against Toji’s clothed cock.
“Daddy,” Megumi moaned as his pussy started to soak the fabric of Toji’s pants.
Toji awoke to the familiar sight of Megumi naked on top of him. Toji gripped Megumi’s hips making Megumi pause his motions. Megumi placed his hands on Toji’s chest.
“Daddy, I need you,” Megumi said as he rolled his hips against Toji’s hard cock.
Toji flipped them so Megumi was on his back and he spread Megumi’s thighs open. Toji ran a finger across Megumi’s wet slit. “Is he not satisfying you, baby?”
Megumi shook his head, sobbing when Toji pulled his hand away. “Use your words, baby. Is he making you cum?”
“You already know he’s not,” Megumi said with a huff, getting impatient. “Are you going to help me or not?”
Megumi yelped as Toji slapped his pussy. Megumi tried to close his legs but Toji pushed them back open before slapping Megumi’s cunt again. Toji kept pressure on Megumi’s thigh, keeping him spread as brought his hand down again. Megumi tried to keep it down, his pussy was already red and stung from the abuse. With each slap, Megumi could start to feel the initial pain start to get replaced with pleasure. Megumi hid his face as best he could after letting out a moan from feeling Toji’s hand slap his clit. He could feel his face heat up as he could feel an orgasm building. The sound of wet slaps filled the room reminding Megumi that it didn’t matter if he hid his moans, his pussy soaking the sheets was proof enough how much Megumi was enjoying it.
“Are you ready to be a good boy?” Toji asked, taking a moment to admire how pretty Megumi’s pussy looked all red and shiny from slick.
“Yes, Daddy,” Megumi said quietly as he stopped hiding so he could look at Toji.
Toji gently gathered Megumi’s slick on his fingers and slid his fingers across Megumi’s sensitive clit. “Look at you, baby. Do you get this wet for your little boyfriend?”
“No, Daddy.”
“I can feel you trembling. Were you about to cum just from me spanking your pussy?”
Megumi's face turned a deeper shade of red. He didn’t want to admit this was the closest he’d been to cumming in what felt like forever. When Megumi didn’t respond Toji slapped his cunt once again making Megumi jump with surprise.
“Answer me, baby.”
“Yes, Daddy,” Megumi said, covering his face in shame with one of his arms. “I was about to cum.”
“You’ve been such a bad boy, letting someone else touch you. Do you think you deserve to cum?”
“Please, Daddy. I’m sorry, just please let me cum.”
Toji watched as his beautiful boy squirmed, Megumi’s small hands reached out to grab onto Toji to try to pull him closer. Toji’s fingers slid across Megumi’s warm, wet pussy lips enjoying how Megumi’s cunt twitched around nothing so desperate to be filled. More slick leaked from Megumi’s needy hole further soaking the sheets.
“If I keep going do you think you could cum like this?” Toji said before slapping Megumi’s pussy.
“Fuck,” Megumi said at the sudden blow. “Yes, Daddy.”
Megumi did his best to suppress his moans as Toji’s hand continued to slap his cunt harder than before. Megumi’s head was spinning listening to Toji’s degrading words accompanied by each harsh, stinging blow. Megumi gripped the pillow beneath his head for something to hold onto as Toji said he was nothing but a desperate whore, how shameful he was to let another man fuck him just to spread his legs like this for his own father. Megumi let out a choked moan once he finally came.
“Good boy,” Toji said, gently running his fingers across Megumi’s slit.
Toji left kisses along Megumi’s jaw and neck as he gave his son a moment to catch his breath. He avoided stimulating Megumi’s clit and instead focused on trying to soothe the sensitive flesh.
“You’re such a good boy, you look so pretty when you cum for me, baby. You’re always so pretty, my beautiful baby boy.”
Megumi melted hearing Toji’s praise and feeling his soothing touches. He felt so cherished he almost wanted to cry. Kokichi never held him like this. His kisses were never this soft. Touches were never this careful. His words were never this sweet.
“It stings, Daddy,” Megumj said with a pout. “Need you to kiss it better.”
“Of course, baby,” Toji said wasting no time settling between Megumi’s thighs.
Toji placed kisses on Megumi’s inner thighs and licked Megumi’s soft skin just to tease him further. Toji placed a soft kiss on the lips of Megumi’s pussy, the skin was still hot from before. Just as Megumi was about to start begging Toji’s tongue licked Megumi’s cunt from his leaking hole to his clit. Megumi practically melted as he placed a hand on the back of Toji’s head. It had been so long since Megumi felt a tongue on his pussy he forgot how fucking good it felt. Toji took his time slowly building Megumi up to another orgasm, moaning against Megumi’s cunt as Megumi came against Toji’s tongue. Toji lapped up the juices from Megumi’s leaking hole giving his son a moment to recover before sucking on Megumi’s clit until he came again.
“Daddy,” Megumi said weakly, already feeling the exhaustion start to creep.
“You taste incredible,” Toji said before diving back in for another taste. Megumi tried to push Toji away but soon gave up as he felt another orgasm quickly building. Toji’s firm grip kept Megumi in place as his body shook from pleasure.
Toji gave Megumi’s sensitive clit a kiss before easily sliding two fingers into Megumi’s tight, wet cunt. Megumi begged Toji not to stop as his knuckles turned white from gripping the sheets beneath them. Toji kept fingering Megumi’s cunt, curling his fingers just right to make Megumi squirt. Megumi's eyelids felt heavy as he felt Toji’s lips trace a path back to his own. Megumi eagerly slid his tongue across Toji’s so he could taste himself. Megumi moaned as he felt Toji’s cock slide against his pussy.
“Do you let him cum inside you?” Toji asked against Megumi’s lips.
“No, Daddy. I make him wear a condom,” Megumi said, his breath hitching as Toji slid in with one thrust. Megumi wrapped his legs around Toji’s waist, pulling him closer. “I only want your cum inside of me.”
“God, you’re perfect,” Toji breathed letting his head rest against Megumi’s shoulder.
Toji’s thrusts started slow and deep as he gave Megumi time to adjust. Soon Toji couldn’t hold back any longer, his fingers digging into Megumi’s hips as he roughly fucked Megumi’s tight pussy.
“Who does your pussy belong to, baby?”
“You, fuck,” Megumi said as his eyes rolled back from the pleasure. “My pussy’s yours, Daddy.”
Megumi's nails dug into Toji’s skin. Toji covered Megumi’s mouth with his hand as Megumi squirted around his cock in an attempt to muffle Megumi’s cries of pleasure. With how much noise Megumi has been making Toji was grateful Kokichi wasn’t awake, but there was no need to press their luck.
“You need to keep it down,” Toji whispered, removing his hand from Megumi’s mouth. “You don’t want your little boyfriend hearing you do you?”
Megumi shook his head but Toji could feel Megumi’s pussy tighten at the suggestion. “I’ll be quiet.”
“Good boy,” Toji said as he started thrusting into Megumi once again.
Promises to keep quiet were immediately forgotten as Megumi mewled beneath him. Toji pushed Megumi’s legs up so they could rest on Toji’s shoulders.
“So good, so deep,” Megumi sobbed as Toji fucked him.
Toji kissed Megumi to help keep Megumi quiet so Kokichi wouldn’t wake up and find them like this. Toji swallowed Megumi’s moans as Megumi came around Toji’s cock once again, this time Toji didn’t let up and continued fucking Megumi’s sensitive pussy. Megumi felt like he was in heaven as he could already feel another orgasm building. Toji pulled back using a hand to keep one of Megumi’s legs pushed up, letting the other rest by his waist. Toji wrapped his free hand around Megumi’s throat, silently asking for permission. Megumi nodded and Toji pressed down cutting off his air as Megumi came again. Toji let out a deep moan as he filled Megumi’s womb with his cum. Megumi gasped for air once Toji released his grip.
“That was incredible,” Megumi said, ready to give in to sleep as he closed his eyes.
“Oh, blessing,” Toji cooed, brushing Megumi’s hair from his face. “You don’t think we’re done, do you?”
Megumi spent half the night delirious as Toji used his cunt relentlessly. Megumi could swear his belly felt inflated from all the cum Toji filled him with. Megumi was on his knees getting railed from behind as he placed his hand on his stomach so he could feel Toji’s cock rearranging his insides. Megumi felt overwhelmed with how good Toji was making him feel.
“Daddy,” Megumi whined. “It’s too much.”
“You can take it.”
“I can’t,” Megumi said as tears fell from his eyes.
Toji draped his body over Megumi’s, reaching around Megumi’s body so he could use one hand to play with Megumi’s clit and the other to squeeze Megumi’s tits. Megumi buried his face on the pillow as he sobbed from the added stimulation.
“Just a little more, baby. You’re doing so well.”
“Yes, Daddy,” Megumi said through his muffled moans.
After a few more thrusts they came together. Megumi's body went limp beneath Toji, nearly sliding off of Toji’s cock before Toji placed a hand on Megumi’s stomach to hold him in place. Megumi could feel Toji’s cum leaking from his pussy. Toji kissed Megumi’s face whispering praise as they both caught their breath.
“I’m going to pull out now, okay?”
“No,” Megumi said once Toji pulled out halfway making his father pause. “Stay inside, please.”
Megumi moaned softly as Toji pushed his cock back in. “You want to fall asleep with me inside you, baby?”
Megumi nodded slightly. “Please.”
Toji kissed Megumi’s shoulder as he felt Megumi’s body relax, waiting until he was certain Megumi was asleep before pulling out and taking his spot next to Megumi. Toji’s eyelids were heavy, his body desperate for the quality sleep that came along with having Megumi in his arms. Still, Toji resisted as long as he could not wanting this moment to end. Toji felt certain things were over with Kokichi, why else would Megumi come back to him unless he was ending it?
Megumi woke up before sunrise. Quickly he became very aware he was not in his room with Kokichi. Looking at Toji’s sleeping form Megumi was tempted to wake up Toji for a quick round, but judging by the time they didn’t have time for morning sex. Regrettably, Megumi slid out of Toji’s bed and went straight to the shower to scrub away the smell of their sex. After inspecting himself in the mirror Megumi was grateful Toji didn’t leave any marks on his skin. When Megumi returned to his room he was relieved to see Kokichi was still asleep. Megumi straddled his boyfriend and kissed his face until he stirred.
“What time is it?” Kokichi asked, wrapping an arm around Megumi’s waist.
“Early,” Megumi said kissing along Kokichi’s jaw. Being with his boyfriend now Megumi started to feel the weight of what he had done. Kokichi has been so sweet to him and he betrayed him for meaningless sex.
“You’ve already showered.”
“I have,” Megumi said, rubbing his pussy against Kokichi’s morning wood. “I miss your smell on me.”
“Your dad-”
“He’s still asleep,” Megumi said, kissing Kokichi’s neck. “I want to taste you.”
Kokichi watched silently as Megumi left a trail of kisses down his body before finally reaching his cock. Megumi licked Kokichi’s cock, getting it nice and wet before sucking on the tip. Megumi’s hallowed his cheeks as he slowly took more and more of Kokichi’s cock with each bob of his head until he finally swallowed him whole.
“Holy shit,” Kokichi breathed as Megumi’s moans sent vibrations across his cock.
Megumi pulled back using his tongue to swirl around the tip before taking Kokichi’s cock down his throat once again. Sooner than expected Megumi could feel Kokichi’s cock start to throb. Megumi did his best not to wince as he tasted Kokichi’s cum. It wasn’t necessarily bad it was just different compared to Toji. Despite not enjoying the taste Megumi still swallowed everything Kokichi gave him. After Kokichi came Megumi stayed put, gently sucking on the tip making sure Kokichi was ready for another round before pulling away so he could grab a condom from his bedside drawer.
“I wanna ride you,” Megumi said as he rolled the condom onto Kokichi’s cock.
Sex with Kokichi was more disappointing after spending the night with Toji. Megumi wanted to enjoy himself, but the experience always left Megumi craving more. His pleasure didn’t matter though, all that mattered was Kokichi.
That night Kokichi stayed at his house leaving Megumi and Toji alone. Toji wrapped his arms around Megumi’s waist from behind and started kissing his neck as Megumi did the dishes. “Will you be joining me again tonight?”
“No,” Megumi said, using his elbow to push Toji away. “Don’t touch me.”
“What’s the matter? I thought you wanted this.”
“Last night was a mistake,” Megumi said putting the last dish in the dish rack to dry. “This isn’t what I want.”
Toji grabbed Megumi’s arm as he tried to walk away. “Hang on, you can’t just tell me last night was a mistake.”
Megumi narrowed his eyes at Toji. “Well that’s what it was and it’s not happening again.”
“It wasn’t a mistake, Megumi. You can’t call waking me up in the middle of the night telling me you need me a mistake,” Toji argued raising his voice slightly.
“You can call it whatever you want, I don’t care, but I care about Kokichi and I think we have a chance of having a future together.”
“Not even you believe that,” Toji said with a laugh. “You’ll never be happy with him.
“And how would you know?” Megumi said, pulling his arm from Toji’s grasp. “I don’t think I need dating advice from a man who fucks his own son.”
“And you think just cause you got yourself a silly little boyfriend that you’re better than me? You’re the one who came begging for your father’s cock last night.”
“It was-”
“A mistake, I know,” Toji said, trying not to raise his voice. Memories of last night flooded his mind, how tightly Megumi held onto him and how sweet his voice sounded telling Toji he needed him. How could it have been a mistake? “So that’s just it then? But last night-”
“What about last night?” Megumi asked, clearly getting more annoyed.
“Was it really just sex?”
“Yes. I thought you of all people would understand,” Megumi said before leaving Toji alone in the kitchen.
When Megumi got to his room he locked the door behind him before sinking to the floor. Megumi brought his knees to his chest as he felt the tears streaming down his face. How could he have been so stupid last night? Toji didn’t really care about him. Megumi knew that. Yet every time Toji was close every part of Megumi’s being practically screamed with the desire to be close to him. However, there was no future with Toji and he needed to move on. He needed to be a better boyfriend to Kokichi. If he gave it enough time maybe it’ll stop hurting to look at Toji.
The next time Megumi was with Kokichi they were supposed to go out to a museum that just got a new exhibit. However, instead, Kokichi insisted on staying in to watch a movie instead and promised he’d take Megumi to the museum another day. Once Megumi picked out a movie it became clear from how Kokichi was kissing Megumi’s neck what Kokichi really wanted. Megumi gave in quickly, kissing Kokichi and letting Kokichi grope his tits and ass. Just before Megumi could move to straddle him Kokichi started gently pushing Megumi’s head towards his cock. Megumi immediately backed away, opening his mouth to protest.
“Please, babe?” Kokichi said, cutting Megumi off. “It felt so good when you sucked my cock before, I want to feel that mouth of yours again.”
Megumi wanted to refuse, but after cheating on him the other night with his father Megumi felt like he owed to Kokichi to do whatever he wanted. Megumi wordlessly freed Kokichi’s cock and got to work. It didn’t take long for Megumi to make Kokichi cum and after swallowing Megumi started to pull away only for Kokichi to press down on the back of his head, forcing his cock back down Megumi’s throat. Megumi gagged at the surprise intrusion.
“Shit, sorry, babe,” Kokichi said, removing his hand. “Your mouth just feels so good.”
Megumi pulled away, taking a second to cough and catch his breath. “It’s okay.”
Reluctantly Megumi took Kokichi’s cock back into his mouth. Kokichi threaded his fingerers through Megumi’s hair as Megumi sucked his dick. When he was finished Kokichi allowed Megumi to get up that time. When Megumi went to kiss Kokichi his boyfriend seemed reluctant to kiss him for very long, always moving away from Megumi’s lips.
“You are so good at sucking my cock, babe. It’s like you were made for it.”
“I’m glad I make you feel good,” Megumi said.
“You’re amazing,” Kokichi said, squeezing Megumi’s ass. “Your mouth, your pussy… I swear you were made for sex.”
Megumi wanted to be okay with their sex life. After all, Kokichi deserved to have their sex life revolve around his pleasure instead of Megumi’s. Even if Kokichi didn’t know about Megumi cheating on him it didn’t change the fact that Megumi still felt guilty about it. To make things worse Megumi often had to think about Toji to even get in the mood for sex. Even when Megumi would touch himself no matter how hard he tried to envision Kokichi it was always Toji’s name he would call out as he came. For a while, it was enough, but eventually, Megumi craved more.
Every attempt Megumi made to try to teach Kokichi how to please him seemed to fail. However, as far as Kokichi was concerned their sex life was incredible. Megumi would suck his cock damn near on command and was always willing to spread his legs. Megumi was on his knees sucking Kokichi’s cock by the pool in Kokichi’s backyard when Kokichi chose to invite Megumi to his family’s annual vacation to the mountains. Megumi narrowed his eyes before pulling away.
“Are you seriously thinking about your family vacation while I’m sucking your cock?”
“No, I was thinking about how we would have our own room and you can finally be as loud as you want.”
“How long would be away for?”
“A couple of weeks.”
Megumi wasn’t entirely sure he wanted to spend a couple of weeks faking orgasms but louder. On top of that sharing a room would most likely eliminate the privacy of being able to masturbate when he was horny.
“I’m not sure my dad will be okay with me going, but I can ask,” Megumi lied easily. It seemed to please Kokichi well enough.
“Thank you so much, babe,” Kokichi said, petting Megumi’s head before gently pushing down Megumi’s head so Megumi could go back to sucking him off.
Kokichi seemed agreeable enough to wait for Megumi to talk to Toji and thankfully dropped the subject. Megumi was quite pleased with how easy it was to avoid the trip, however, the next time Kokichi joined them for dinner Kokichi asked Toji directly.
“Can Megumi come with me and my family to the mountains next week?”
Fuck.
“How long would you all be gone?”
“We usually stay for a couple of weeks, but if you want him to be home sooner I completely understand.”
Toji looked over at Megumi who subtly shook his head indicating he didn’t want to go. Toji looked back at Kokichi, the boy was clearly crazy about Megumi and Toji couldn’t blame him. How could he not be? Everything about Megumi was perfect. Well, maybe his morality was skewed but Toji was willing to take the blame for that. Toji had every intention of following along with Megumi’s wishes, but when he opened his mouth to speak it seemed like he had different plans.
“I think that sounds like a great idea,” Toji said, giving Kokichi his best smile.
“You do?” Megumi said, eyes widening. Kokichi on the other hand looked like he won the lottery.
“Of course, I think it’ll be a great opportunity for you two love birds to get to know each other better,” Toji said with faux enthusiasm. “Kokichi you tell your parents to let me know how much it’ll all cost for Megumi to head up there.”
Kokichi spent the rest of the dinner excitedly telling Toji and Megumi about how great the trip was going to be. Megumi wanted to die. He couldn’t believe Toji agreed to send him away so quickly. Was he being punished? Megumi was starting to think of faking an illness to get out of the trip when Kokichi pulled him from his thoughts by grabbing his face and kissing his cheek.
“I’m going to call my parents real quick, they’re going to be so excited,” Kokichi said excusing himself from the table to step outside.
“Why?” Megumi asked as soon as they were alone.
“Megumi, I’m shocked you’re not more excited. I thought you liked romantic getaways.”
With you, Megumi wanted to say, but he knew it was pointless. Deep down he knew that maybe this trip would be good. It would give him time away from Toji and maybe help him finally let go. After all, he didn’t need Toji to love him anymore, that is what Kokichi was there for.
“Two weeks is a long time,” Megumi protested, still feeling hurt that Toji was so quick to send him away even after knowing Megumi didn’t want to go.
“Are you gonna miss me, baby?”
“What if I say yes?”
Toji took a moment to be surprised. They hadn’t been on the best of terms lately so the suggestion Megumi would miss him was a bit of a shock. “Then maybe should tell him you don’t want to go.”
“I can’t back out now, he’ll be heartbroken.”
“So you do care about him.”
“Is that what this is about?” Megumi asked, fighting to keep his voice down. “You’re punishing me for moving on?”
“I’d hardly call giving you permission to go on a trip with your boyfriend punishment,” Toji said, ignoring how it stung to hear Megumi confirm he’s moved on.
Megumi bit his tongue as Toji’s face lit up with amusement. Megumi, of course, ended up going. How could he not? Kokichi was so excited he couldn’t exactly back out. The snow in the mountains was beautiful to look at, but whenever Megumi was outside he found himself missing the warmth of Toji’s body. Kokichi was patient teaching Megumi to ski and after a while, it was a lot of fun, but the guilt Megumi felt grew every time he thought about how much better it would be if Toji was there. More specifically if it was just him and his father like the last trip they took. Megumi’s heart ached as he pictured what it would be like to feel Toji’s arms wrapped around him looking at the gorgeous view.
By the time the two made it to their room, Megumi wasted no time pulling Kokichi’s clothes off. Kokichi seemed just as eager, clearly excited about the fact that they had their own room.
“You are so sexy,” Kokichi said as he helped Megumi out of his clothes. “I still can’t believe I’m your first boyfriend.”
“Lucky you,” Megumi said, pulling Kokichi to the mattress. Megumi wrapped his legs around Kokichi’s waist as soon as he pulled Kokichi down with him.
“You’re incredible,” Kokichi said against Megumi’s lips before kissing him. “It’s so hot knowing no one else has seen you like this. I’ve wanted you for so long.”
“You should have said something sooner, I wanted you too,” Megumi lied easily.
“You did?”
Megumi nodded before pulling Kokichi in for another kiss. “Used to think about you every time I touched myself.”
“Fuck, that’s hot,” Kokichi breathed as he rubbed Megumi’s pussy through his panties. “You’re soaked. That excited to finally not have to worry about keeping it down?”
Megumi nodded as they stopped each other of their remaining clothes. Kokichi didn’t need to know the reason he was so wet was because he couldn’t stop thinking about Toji.
“Wait, I got you something to make tonight special,” Kokichi said pulling away so he could rustle through his bag. When he returned to Megumi’s side he handed Megumi a small pink bag. “I want you to put this on. I’ll wait here for you.”
Not having a choice Megumi took the bag and excused himself to the restroom to change. Megumi took a quick shower to wash the sweat from spending all day skiing from his body before taking out the lingerie set from the small bag. It was a light pink set that was practically see-through and had a floral pattern. The skirt was short and frilly. It was too small causing Megumi’s breasts to spill from the top. The fabric was rough against Megumi’s skin but he hoped he still looked good enough to please Kokichi.
“Holy shit,” Kokichi said as he laid eyes on Megumi.
“Do I look okay?” Megumi asked nervously, arms crossed over his stomach.
“You look so hot babe, c’mere and get on the bed.”
Megumi laid down and let Kokichi move his arms so he could get a better look. Megumi blushed under Kokichi’s hungry gaze. Kokichi pushed up Megumi’s tits further, his firm grip making the rough lace scratch his skin uncomfortably. Kokichi kissed Megumi before instructing him to stay still. When Kokichi got off the bed he pulled out his phone pointing the camera at Megumi.
“What are you doing?” Megumi said, immediately covering himself with the sheets.
Kokichi was visibly frustrated as he tried to move the sheets. “Babe, c’mon. Just a few pictures.”
“No,” Megumi said, tugging at the sheet to keep himself covered.
“Babe, c’mon. Don’t you think I should be allowed to have some pictures of you in that pretty outfit I got for you?”
Megumi considered Kokichi’s words as he gripped the sheets tighter. He had filmed videos for Toji before and this wouldn’t be as graphic as that. Yet Megumi couldn’t shake the pit in his stomach telling him to push Kokichi away. Still, he felt Kokichi was right. He did bring him on this trip and bought him an outfit, albeit an ill-fitting one with uncomfortable fabric but it was the thought that counted, wasn’t it?
“If I let you take pictures can we try something new?” Megumi asked, his voice coming out smaller than intended.
“Sure, babe. What do you want to try?”
“I want you to go down on me.”
Kokichi took his hand off the sheet. “I don’t know if I’ll be good at it.”
“I’ll tell you what feels good. Please, babe. I wanna know what your tongue feels like.”
“And you’ll let me take pictures?” Kokichi said after considering for a moment. Megumi silently nodded. “Okay, fair enough.”
Megumi let Kokichi take the blanket from him and let him move his arms and legs how he wanted. Kokichi's flash went off as he took photos of Megumi. Squeezing one of Megumi’s breasts and taking more. Megumi turned his face away as he blushed with embarrassment.
“C’mon, babe. You’re not a virgin anymore you don’t have to act like one.”
“Haven’t you taken enough?” Megumi asked, ignoring Kokichi’s comment.
“Just a few more,” Kokichi said as he used his hand to spread Megumi’s thighs to take a picture of his panties. When Kokichi pulled the panties to the side Megumi snapped his legs shut.
“That’s not what we agreed, you said you just wanted pictures of the outfit,” Megumi said, pulling the sheets back.
“You’re right, I’m sorry. I just got carried away,” Kokichi said tossing the phone to the side before kissing Megumi’s face.
Megumi wanted to leave. Going home wasn’t a possibility, but maybe locking himself in the bathroom for some space was. Kokichi kept kissing Megumi waiting for Megumi to relax.
“It was just a few pictures, there’s no need for you to act like such a princess.”
“I’m not a princess,” Megumi said pushing Kokichi away.
“Your pussy says otherwise,” Kokichi said teasingly as he leaned in causing Megumi to push him away again.
“Get away from me, I’m not in the mood anymore,” Megumi said as he tried to get out of bed.
“Hey, hey, I’m sorry,” Kokichi said, pulling Megumi back. “It was just a joke, I’m sorry. Come back to bed.”
Megumi tried to squirm but Kokichi’s grip was surprisingly strong. “Let go, Kokichi.”
“Okay,” Kokichi said as he raised his hands letting Megumi get out of the bed. “I’m sorry, okay? Let me make it up to you.”
“I just want some space,” Megumi said as he covered himself as best he could with his arms. He felt dirty.
“Babe, c’mon it’s our first night of vacation just come back to bed. I’m sorry, okay?”
Megumi felt like crying. If he called Toji would he even answer? Would he allow him to go home? Megumi say on a chair by the window and brought his knees to his chest, not wanting to get back in bed. Kokichi walked over to Megumi and got on his knees in front of him.
“Babe, please. I’m so sorry,” Kokichi said placing his hands on the armrests waiting for Megumi to be willing to let him touch him again. “What can I do to make it up to you?”
Megumi looked at Kokichi and immediately started to feel guilty for throwing a tantrum. Kokichi loved him and this trip meant a lot to him so Megumi shouldn’t spoil it by being difficult. Megumi moved so he could lean down to kiss Kokichi and didn’t resist as Kokichi lifted him up and brought him back to bed. Megumi tried to relax as Kokichi nervously settled between Megumi’s thighs. After he helped Megumi out of his panties he gave an experimental lick across Megumi’s slit, Megumi encouraged him to keep going giving Kokichi some more confidence. Megumi tried to relax enough to enjoy it but was having difficulty. Still, Megumi did his best to act as if he was enjoying it as much as he knew he could. After all, if he didn’t like it then there would be no chance of Kokichi doing this again. Megumi threaded his finger through Kokichi’s hair, tugging slightly as he tried to lose himself in the feeling. Unfortunately, Kokichi wasn’t moving his tongue right.
“Higher,” Megumi breathed, desperately needing Kokichi to start licking his clit. “Fuck, yes, right there.”
Megumi tried to guide Kokichi on how to make him cum, but it felt like Kokichi was getting annoyed at following instructions. It didn’t help that Megumi was still having difficulty getting relaxed enough to really enjoy the thought of sex. Frustrated Megumi finally told Kokichi to flatten his tongue and Megumi gripped his boyfriend’s hair tighter so he could ride his face. Megumi closed his eyes as he tried to conjure up a memory to get him there. At first, he cycled through all the times he had ridden Kokichi’s cock, but quickly Megumi’s mind led him to the same place as always. Toji. Countless memories filled Megumi’s mind of Toji’s skilled tongue sliding across his pussy. Megumi arched his back as he pictured it was Toji between his legs. His moans got louder as he felt his orgasm building as his mind painted a beautiful picture of Toji's hands caressing the curves of his body, whispering words of praise against his skin. Megumi was so close he could almost feel Toji’s breath against his ear.
Cum for me, baby.
Megumi’s mind went blank as he came harder than he had in what felt like ages. The reality of who Megumi was actually with shattered Megumi’s high as Kokichi’s voice broke the silence.
“How was that?” Kokichi asked crawling back up Megumi’s body so they were face to face. Looking at Kokichi made the tightness in Megumi’s shoulders return. Megumi tried to hide his disappointment that Kokichi didn’t stay between his thighs by kissing him.
“Incredible.”
The next night it was easier to pretend to be exciting about having sex. Kokichi finally made him cum, granted Megumi had to do most of the work, but with enough practice maybe Kokichi would be able to on his own. The fact that Megumi had to pretend it was Toji was pushed aside as an insignificant fact that didn’t have to change anything. Megumi pulled Kokichi in for a kiss as he helped him out of his coat.
“Been thinking about your tongue all day,” Megumi said making Kokichi freeze.
“You wanted me to do that again?”
“Well, yes,” Megumi said carefully as he slid his hands down and started undoing Kokichi’s belt. “I can suck your cock first if you want.”
“No, it’s not that,” Kokichi said, stopping Megumi’s hands. “I just… how about we just do it like we had been before?”
“Why?”
“I just don’t think it’s something we have to do every time,” Kokichi said with a shrug. “Can we leave it at that?”
“Why not?” Megumi pressed unable to understand why making him cum wasn’t something they had to do every time.
“Megumi can we please just drop it? We can do it another time, I promise,” Kokichi said before trying to kiss Megumi on to be pushed back.
“No. You ask me to suck your cock all the time, why can’t you do this for me?”
“Yeah, but you like doing that!”
Megumi felt like he had just been slapped. Regret seemed to be painted across Kokichi’s face, it was clear that he had no intention of admitting this. “Why don’t you like it?”
“I don’t like the taste,” Kokichi admitted as he blushed with embarrassment. “It’s bitter.”
“Oh,” Megumi said deflating.
“I’m sorry, babe,” Kokichi said, wrapping his arms around Megumi. “You don’t have to suck my cock anymore if you don’t want to. Things can just stay like how they were before with just regular sex. We both enjoyed it that way.”
Megumi wanted to scream, but instead, he just agreed. What other choice did he have? “My father has never had an issue with how my pussy tastes so there must be something wrong with you” wasn’t something he could bring up, so it felt like he didn’t have a choice but to accept it.
After a week Kokichi suggested having sex without a condom. “I’ve heard it feels even better.”
“No,” Megumi said instantly.
“But baby you’re already on birth control and we’re only seeing each other. Please?” Kokichi pleaded.
“I’m just not comfortable with it.”
“Let’s just try it then, yeah? Just a couple of thrusts, I’m dying to know how your pussy feels without the condom in the way. It will feel better for you too.”
“I doubt that it would make much of a difference,” Megumi lied knowing full well how much of a difference it made.
“It will, babe, I swear. I read that you’ll be able to feel it better when I cum, isn’t that hot?”
“I’m just not comfortable with it, can we please drop it?”
“I’ll go down on you,” Kokichi pressed.
“You really think going down on me will magically make me okay with fucking without a condom?”
“Just once, baby, please. I’ll go down on you for a whole month, please.”
Megumi could feel his anger rising at the fact Kokichi felt that eating his pussy was some kind of bargaining chip for sex without protection. Like Megumi was supposed to cave since Kokichi would make such a horrible sacrifice. He wanted to push Kokichi away, instead, he took a deep breath and agreed to think about it.
The rest of the trip Megumi did his best to keep up the act that he enjoyed it when Kokichi would do what felt like the bare minimum in terms of sex. Or maybe it’s what was normal and it was Toji that spoiled him with high expectations. How long would the stains of their past continue to seep into Megumi’s mind? Megumi desperately wanted to forget, but how could he? Their final night together Megumi pulled Kokichi close.
“I’ll do it,” Megumi said against Kokichi’s lips. “A month from now it’ll be time for homecoming, we can rent a room and make it special.”
Kokichi looked over the moon, he kissed Megumi’s lips thanking Megumi as he worked his way down before settling between Megumi’s thighs. As Megumi felt Kokichi’s tongue slide across his folds he closed his eyes. Kokichi was more open to trying to do better as he followed Megumi’s instructions as well as he could. Still, when Megumi’s pleasure peaked he had to bite his tongue to keep from screaming the wrong name. The flight home felt long as Kokichi tried to be more affectionate. Megumi’s stomach was in knots as Kokichi pulled Megumi close so he could rest his head on Kokichi’s shoulder. The anxiety stayed with Megumi as he walked through the door. Megumi’s legs moved on their own as made his way to Toji’s room. Lying down on the familiar sheets Megumi breathed in Toji’s scent and for the first time in two weeks it felt easy to exhale.