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Today is the day.
Jake is glad that all of the members is out to go eat outside. He excuses himself, saying that he wasn't feeling well and that he's fine with cooking himself some ramyeon, he knows the others didn't believe him with the look they gave but they didn't insisted more and he feels giddy now that he got the dorm all to himself.
Because today is the day that the package arrives, and it's their day-off so the universe must love him today because it was all a perfect timing to finally pleasure himself. He fingers and masturbates, although he always fails because of the pain. Often stopping with regret washing over him.
He took the package from the delivery guy who's oblivious to the items in the box, he bid him goodbye and once the door was shut, Jake feels himself heat up from the excitement. Fingers dancing on the box, he was smiling like an idiot and he feels like a virgin loser but he thanks the universe for their schedule.
He hums as he makes his way to his own room, and puts the box under the bed, even though he knows that he's alone, he's still afraid that someone would walk in and see a package of mystery and opens it, he imagines the look of horror on the person's face, and Jake can't stand the humiliation at the thought.
He grabs a pair of scissors from the kitchen and ran fast back to his room. Immediately grabbing the box and placing it on his bed. It was heavy, he's not sure if that was a bad thing or not, but his hand works faster than him and suddenly he's opening the box, and he's greeted with sex toys in different colors, one catches his eye. The vibrator. He can't wait. There were a few dildos and some bottles of lube in the box, he feels excited to do these.
But he decided to go easy today and just picked the lube, the vibrator and the remote of it. Satisfied, he closes the box and hid it under his bed. He took off his pants and the underwear he's wearing before grabbing the lube.
It says strawberry flavor. How the fuck does a lube taste like strawberry? He paid no mind and added a cupious amount on his palm and warmed it up. Then coated his fingers with it.
He went to position, ass up in the air and his face on a pillow. This position was the easiest for him the most as he can reach behind him and fuck his hole.
The first finger was easy, he circled his rim as it slowly went in, and he was trying to be patient with the burn he's familiar with but he quickly added the second finger. And he scrunches his nose in pain. The burn was becoming painful at the second finger, so he moves slowly even though he's getting needy and impatient. Jake softly moaned when his fingers graced at his sweet spot, fucking it in and out of him, he tried to scissor himself and prepares for the third finger.
The third finger is always the worse he thinks. It prods at his rim and slowly went in.. and when he was a knuckle deep, he pulls his finger out after he let out a pained sound.
"Fuck!" He screamed into the pillow, he's so frustrated. He just wanted to pleasure himself and he cannot do it. He rolled over like a madman, groaning in his palms. He sat up and started punching the pillow. Cursing to himself and brought the pillow to his face and screamed
He cannot do it. "I'm so stupid."
But then someone knocks on the door.
Jake froze, his dumbass was still half-naked. He looks up and the realization dawns on him. He panics as he scrambles to pick up his underwear from the floor-
"Jake hyung?" Jungwon's voice yelled his name.
Shit. Jungwon was on the other side of the door, and from what Jake is used to, this is the moment where Jungwon fucking opens the door. He didn't lock the door. He's so stupid shit, he's still half-naked!
And just as he predicted, Jungwon's head peeked until his form was visible. The door swung before Jake pulls up the blanket and he was glad Jungwon didn't see his naked half from the first 0.1 seconds. He swiftly brushed off the lube on his hands on the blanket before Jungwon could notice.
"Are you 'kay? I heard screaming.." Jungwon slurred, he was still wearing his flannel from when he went out.
"Oh, mhm! Totally fine! I'm just- warming up my vocals." Jake said in a fake enthusiasm but Jungwon looks too tired to mention it.
"Why're you red?" Jungwon walked over, sitting on the edge of his bed. Shit, the vibrator and the bottle of lube was just behind where Jungwon is sitting, hidden beneath the blanket. "Um-" He stops when Jungwon pressed a palm on his forehead. He looks up and Jungwon was just innocently looking at him with concern.
"You're heating up hyung." Jungwon said in a monotone.
Jake wants to mention that it's because of Jungwon's calloused palm in the contrast of the soft texture of his skin but he just laughs if off, "Yeah? Where're the others?" He changes the topic, it seemed to work since Jungwon removed the hand and smiled down at him.
"I was the first to left, they were planning to stop by an arcade but I was too tired to play so they dropped me off." He said, eyes closing as he yawns behind his hand. "I'm so tired hyung."
"You should sleep." Jake tried to give off the hint. "Yeah I should. But I have to change first and I'm too tired." Jungwon stared off at Jake's eyes looking up at him.
"That sucks man, you should do it now before you fall asleep." Jake tries, but Jungwon's tired state can't seem to get the hint.
"I actually love that idea." He smiles, staring on the floor.
Jake was quick to counter, "No you don't."
"My body feels like 's going to give up soon if I don't sleep."
"That's horrible." Jake giggles, and Jungwon smiled with him, too out of energy to burst a laugh,
"Can you move? I'll just take a nap."
Jungwon crawled over as panic slowly washes over Jake's confused face but Jungwon closed his eyes as he settles on the bed until he feels something poke his arm. "But-"
Something round poked on his arm, "Hyung, you should clean up your bed." Jungwon lazily sat up and Jake watched in excruciating slow motion as Jungwon reached underneath the blanket and finds himself wrapping his hand around something round.
"You know you'd get harmed if-?" Jungwon mumbled as he stares at the object, his eyes slightly widening at what his tired brain came into a conclusion of. A vibrator. The name carved in small letters.
"Oh."
"Oops that's-!" Jake was quick to snatch away the object in Jungwon's hand whose face remains still, he looks at the object then back to Jake, then at the object then back to Jake. "I-It's not dirty! It's—uhm," Jake felt himself heat up at Jungwon's gaze, "It's new! It just came today—I still haven't used it I swear." He doesn't know why he's saying that but Jungwon just remains still, he's afraid that the younger will look at him differently tomorrow.
Then Jungwon's face finally shows an emotion, he exhaled a breath, "Y-you're good.." Jungwon stood up, "I should've left, I'm sorry." He stares at the floor then to Jake's face, "You should- continue what you were.. um, doing." Jake saw the blush creeping on the younger's cheeks.
Shit, Jake kind of wanna tell his problem to the younger, to ask for help but he sees Jungwon's form walking away. Goddamit, he's too horny to care.
He looks at Jungwon's hands. Hands with fingers that's carrying a soft appearance. They look pretty, and gentle to touch.
He grabs Jungwon's wrist and the boy immediately come into a halt. Even though Jungwon is still conflicted with the thought that his Jake hyung was pleasuring himself behind that closed door, the awkward feeling of knowing what Jake did, he whips his head to the older and Jake finds himself just staring up at him. Jake was glad that Jungwon still turned around to face him. The younger was always like this, he never judges anyone and listens with an open mind, so he gathers the courage.
"Hyung?"
"Jungwon I-" He lets go of his wrist first, breathing in deeply, "I kind of.. have a problem with this." He trails off.
Jungwon paused, face morphing into understanding before he sat on the edge of the bed again. "Tell me about it."
Jake has put himself in this position now, he felt himself get red at the attention he's getting. "I tried to-" He curses, "I tried to finger myself to prep." The words he said makes himself want to grab a rock and bash his head to it. Stupid wording.
Jungwon nodded at him, urging him to continue, "But I was too scared, I stopped at the third finger because it hurt, shit, I don't know why I'm saying this." He said to mostly just himself, Jungwon hums at him, "I'm also afraid of the fact that this might get stuck." the last word was a whisper, he fears that Jungwon didn't catch it.
There was this drop in the air that Jake felt, he wasn't sure if it's okay that he brought it up. He doesn't even know what he's expecting.
"I'm sorry I-I shouldn't have-"
"You just have to relax and take it slow. Hyung." Jungwon replied, a small smile in display, "It of course always hurts at the beginning so you gotta be patient, you know?" Jungwon finally said. Jake took note of Jungwon's sentence and that's exactly what he did. But his fear got the best of him.
"But I'm scared."
Jungwon hums in understanding, trying to think of a solution for his friend, Jake looks at him, expecting another advice that he already read off the internet.
"Then in that case maybe you should have someone do it for you."
"Someone?"
Jungwon nodded, "Someone you trust."
Jake takes in the words. That someone he trusts is in front of him right now. Jungwon fingering him open.. He brushes off the thought.
He's already saying too much. If he said the word-
"I trust you." Jake blurted out loud, Jungwon's eyes widened with him.
Jungwon's lips parted, opening and closing like a fish, "Do you mean..?" he trails off, afraid he got the wrong hint.
Fuck, fuck, fuck, stupid Jake and his stupid mouth, he shook his head so fast he thought he'd break his neck, Jake screams internally.
"I-I mean-" Jake sees how Jungwon's face tries to take up the words he just said. He really took him by suprise and he feels bad. "I just want you to.. prep me and put the vibrator in." He curses under his breath with the sentence he just said.
"Only if you want to though.." Jake added sheepishly, "You're tried so I'm sorry if I bothered you up to this point."
Jungwon inhaled deeply, Jake knows he's being shameless but he's too needy to care. "It's fine." Jungwon reassured him, standing up and walked to the door. Jake wants to cry immediately at that, he feels rejected but his mind changed when he hears the lock of the door. He rolled his sleeves as he walked over to the older. Jake gulps.
"How'd you wanna do it?" He asks, voice monotone, the older knows that it's wrong but he finds the sleepy voice of Jungwon cute.
"You decide." Jake replied as moved the blanket off of him, he felt himself heat up when Jungwon's gaze lowers at his naked half. "I'd suggest you lay on your back so that it's comfortable." Jungwon brought his gaze up to Jake's face, picking up the lube from the mattress.
"And- uhm, spread your legs too so it'll be easier." Jake did just that, he gulps as he lays down on his back, spreading his legs for Jungwon. He heats up more from the embarrassment and uses his hands to cover his face.
"Don't hide," Jungwon pushes the hands away with gentle hands, and Jake laughed shyly, "I wanna see if you're in pain or not." He added as he lathers his hand of lube, adding some to Jake's fluttering hole, he flinches at the coldness but sighs as he tries to relax. Jungwon grabs the inside of one of his thighs as he lays between Jake's spread legs, and Jake felt the thumb drawing shapes on his skin.
"Hyung, relax okay? It will hurt but you'll be okay. Focus on my thumb on your thigh."
He shudders when he feels the pad of Jungwon's finger prodding at his hole. "Tell me when to stop." It slowly went in, and because of what Jake did to himself earlier, it easily slipped. He gasps at the feeling.
"How does my hand feel on your thigh?"
"It's soothing." Jake tries his best to relax, but he just can't with the gaze Jungwon has on his hole.
"Hyung, relax." he spins his finger, lubing his inside in the process. "'M sorry, I'm trying.."
"Too much?" Jungwon's careful voice makes his chest feel a little lighter. He shakes his head, "No, keep going." He pants. Jungwon nodded. Jake's thighs shake whenever the younger's breath hit his skin and Jungwon can't help but smirk.
He tries to focus on the thumb drawing shapes on his skin, tries to remember Jungwon's careful touch and not the burn he feels.
"You can add the second finger."
And Jungwon obeyed, he pulls out and the two fingers slowly pushing in. Jungwon's fingers were much different than his so he hisses at the new stretch. He gasps when he feels Jungwon nip at his thigh. "Hyung you're doing so good, relax." He praises, Jake's breath hitch when the finger kept pushing. But he relaxes a little when Jungwon nips on his thigh.
Jake's stubbornly silent, but his body betrays him, hips jerking, from the feeling, and his cock slowly getting hard. The escaped whines and huffs is enough to make heat pool in Jungwon's stomach.
"So good.. look at you." Jungwon looked at the sight of Jake's hole swallowing his two fingers. He moves it in and out and Jake moaned softly. Jungwon scissors his fingers and Jake's body jolted as Jungwon brushed against his bundle of nerves.
"Right there.." Jake pants, chest heaving, "That's your prostate?" Jake nodded, "You've never reached it before?" Jake shakes his head, mind focused on the pleasure. It feels so so good, he's glad someone invented masturbating. Jungwon chuckles at the older, his responses becoming more and more shameless and dumb as time passes.
Jungwon pressed harshly at that spot and Jake feels himself getting hard, his back arching, "M-more.. Jungwon-ah, please."
Jungwon pulls out his two fingers and Jake gasps when he feels the three fingers prodding, Jungwon shushes him and tries to relax him by giving more kisses on his thigh. Jake opens his eyes and looks down at the younger. Jungwon was peppering kisses down his thigh, eyes closed, eyebrows scrunched as he concentrates on pleasuring him. He feels himself get more hard at the sight.
He doesn't even notice when Jungwon pumps his three fingers inside of him until he realized he's been whining so loud.
"Does it feel good?" Jungwon asks, voice deep. Jake nodded immediately. "Use your words." Above him, he can feel Jake's breath come out shaky.
"Good- feels so good Jungwon. I can't explain, it's so, so good." Jake blabbers, mind hazy as pleasure swallows him.
God, Jake was already out of it just from his fingers. He can't help but think if he gave him more, to see how much loud Jake can get. Something flutters in his chest, proud that he was the one who caused this Jake.
Jungwon gives one final thrust until he pulls his fingers out, earning a whine from Jake. Jungwon chuckles at Jake's reaction and watches his face as he pokes his hole with the tip of the vibrator.
"You're putting it in?"
Jungwon hums, and slipped it inside, right against his prostate. He did a great job at stretching him that Jake didn't even feel the sting, just clenching around the object inside him.
Jungwon sat up, and Jake opened his eyes from the movement, he sees Jungwon's eyes fixated on between his spread legs for a moment before he locks eyes with Jake. His gaze was dark, and his face was.. aroused, he assumed. He looked down and sees a tent in the younger's jeans.
"You're fine now, hyung." Jungwon cleared his throat. "See? There's nothing to worry about, it isn't as scary isn't it?"
"Jungwon.."
"I'm gonna leave now, I should sleep probably." Jungwon chuckled, an awkward one.
Jake wanted more from him. He doesn't know, but he wanted more.
"C-can you stay a little bit more?" He finally asked, his voice breathy. "You.. the remote, please?"
"You want me to control it?"
"Yes please, Jungwon please." Jungwon looked at him. Jake's eyes were unfocused, there's drool on the corner of his mouth and he's fixated on the weight of the object inside him, clenching around it. "Please."
He gulps.
"Okay." Jake smiled at his response, "Thank you, thank you so much."
Jungwon grabbed the remote, "Tell me if it gets too much, okay?"
There was a beat of silence, it was until Jungwon turned it on and Jake reacted immediately, his back arching.
"Ah-!" He gripped the sheets, "Good- So fucking good-" The toy felt so good. The vibration spreading throughout his body deliciously, his thighs trembled from the pleasure. "Want me to raise it?"
"Yesyesyes, please, Jungwon." He mewled when Jungwon raised the intensity, he was a moaning mess now. And he can't seem to care, especially when the pleasure makes his mind numb. He twitched uncontrollably, shame was not in his vocabulary now, his moans bouncing around the four corners of his room.
"Jungwon- Jungwon-ah." Jungwon looked at him, the older's eyes welling with tears. "Please touch me, please." He begged, his cock throbbing for attention.
Jungwon's breath hitch, he hums and moves his hand and reached for it, the Jake twitches under his palms, using his pre-cum as lube, wrapping his hands around and pressing his tip with his thumb. He can feel the boy's body shiver under him. Fuck.
Jake keened and used the back of his hand to uselessly cover his mouth. Uncontrollably releasing noises that makes Jungwon tempt. He younger raised the intensity with no warning and pumped his hand, earning a gurgled cry from Jake, his pupils disappearing to the back of his head.
Jungwon wonders if he can pull more from Jake than that.
But the older immediately cums, his thighs trembling and his mouth opened in a silent cry, Jungwon watches him shake, still moving his hand until Jake was whining and squirming from overstimulation. Jungwon's hands were white, and the hand that's holding the vibrator was shaking, turning it off when he realized it was still on.
"Fuck, Jake-" He gulps, "Are you okay?"
The said man looked at him, he was such a mess. Jungwon has to dig his nails into his palm to stop himself from leaning down kissing Jake. He was messy. Jake looks perfectly, utterly messy, with his lips glistening with spit and swollen and from him biting too much, to his flushed skin. A sadistic side of him wants to see him get even more ruined, in shambles, and crying uncontrollably, but he doesn't want to admit that to himself, not even to himself.
"That was so good." He closes his eyes for a second then opening them to look at the hand that's covered in his cum. He grabbed it and put it in his mouth, sucking on one of the fingers. The younger looks at him as he do so.
Jungwon wonders that if it's not his hand, but his dick that Jake's sucking, he'd grab the older's hair and forcefully stuff him full, bathing in the cries of Jake around him that went unheard, looking down at the eyes that pleads, watching as he turns pliant under him just to please, so that Jungwon can take, and take, and take.
Jungwon snaps back to reality when Jake makes a sound, the two of his fingers were inside Jake's mouth and are pressing on his tongue, and the older was looking at him expectantly. He knows that he's asking for more, but he pulls out his hand and takes a few deep breaths, watching the shine in Jake's eyes that's begging for him. He clears the fog of desire out of his mind and focuses on the task that he's already done with.
"I-"
"I'm gonna sleep now." He said, although he knows he'd do something sinful in his room aside from sleeping.
Jake looks down, Jungwon catches it. He knows he's hard.
"How about I help you?"
Jungwon's breath stopped for a moment, "What?"
Jake chuckles, his eyes crinkling, "You're hard, stupid kid."
A part of Jungwon wants to accept the offer, but he knows that they can't. Jungwon knows himself, he knows that he'd seek more of Jake once he let it happen—although he knows that he already got himself into trouble when he sees Jake's post orgasm state, or when he agreed to helping him— so he shakes his head offered him a smile.
"I'm fine hyung," He stands up and gave the remote onto Jake's hand, "I hope with this you can pleasure yourself by yourself now."
Jake doesn't respond.
"I'll be- sleeping now, I'm tired."
Jake watches as Jungwon waved his hand and opened the door, he doesn't know if that previous situation did something to their relationship, but he covers his face with his hands and groans.
"Mkay, sleep well Jungwon."