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When you have some disease you always know that you have it. You have some symptoms and they are pretty visible or you can feel that you aren't okay. But this disease is something completely different.
I didn't even know that something as this exists. I found out about it when I started choking, coughing or spitting flower petals. Yes you heard me right, flower petals with drops of blood on them.
Red rose petals, you can maybe think, blood is red same as these petals, yeah but it's still very obvious.
Trying to hide this is very difficult, I can't control choking, it just comes by itself, anytime, anywhere in front of anyone. So everyone can easily found this "secret" that i hide as much as i can. I don't want to see Red anymore, I would feel embarrassed...I don't know why but, imagine spitting flower petals in front of someone you care about. They would think "what a weirdo" right?
I read about hanahaki disease some books, and found out that, I can die. Yes i can die if i'll let it spread in my lungs. the only thing I can do now, is to wait, maybe Red will actually like me, someday, maybe someday he will forget about Apokuna and maybe his heart will be just mine.
Apokuna, that demon guy from the Maze. All of it was just a TV show, Red won't see him ever again. Apo is dead, and I'm kinda sorry for them but they already lived their life here, now its my time to shine. I won't die to some stupid roses in my body.
Water, my biggest enemy now. I'm even more scared of water than i was before. Sometime my breath isn't the best and underwater every living thing needs air.
I used to love roses but now, i don't want to see them ever again. I got rid of every rose in my apartment, I have enough of roses inside me now.
These days I'm trying to figure out, what will happen if Red won't like me. Or if he will come to my apartment and find me coughing roses and blood. Will he help me? Or will he let me die, because he cares more about a dead demon?! I'm not a regular human, i know I'm just a trash what Void accidentally made, I shouldn't exist i'm a virus or as most of these "clever books" called me " A Glitch".
My time is unpredictable, I can die today or I can die in few years, everything matters on Red. my whole life is in Reds hands and he doesn't even know about it.
So, the important question. Am i gonna tell him about this "little issue"? Maybe, someday, when I'll be ready. Maybe I'll be dead before that time.
I need help, but I'm too scared to ask for help. Nobody would care about me. I'm sure.
i need something to drink, so i get up from my couch and go to kitchen for a glass of water. I tried to drink it, it would help for my sore throat, but flowers had other plans. the scratching in the throat and lungs was unbearable, I can't breathe, I cough, rose petals falling on the ground, little drops of blood right after them.
I dropped the glass and it shattered on few pieces. water on the floor slowly took the petals and blood with it, coloring the water red. My vision was blurry, I heard nocking on the door, but i cannot go there now, I'm still choking, oxygen running out fast, then i fell on my kitchen floor.
Last thing I saw were black shoes, and red suit running towards me, But it was too late.. It's over. I fought this disease for two months and still failed, I can already hear the Void laughing at me, at the ruin it never should have release into this cruel world.
Ashswag was killed by magic
Ashswag left the game