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Friedrich Pov
It was dark, We were running away from the guards, I didn't know if they even heard us, Albrecht was close behind me. he fell to the ground, he must have tripped over a branch. I turned around and helped him up, grabbing his hand and dragged him with me.
We arrived at our dorm, when I wanted to open the door I realised that I was still holding his hand. I looked him deeply in the eyes and I think I got to close because he suddenly took a few steps back and looked to the ground. I immediately felt bad and when he looked at me again his cheeks were flushed red, or maybe I just imagined that, it was dark afterall.I took my hand away from Albrecht and put it on the doorknob.I whispered:,,C'mon, we gotta be quiet." We snuck into the dorm quitely, trying not to wake the others. When I laid in my bed finally beginning to relax I couldn't help but look to my side to the pretty boy laying in the bed next to me. Then Albrecht said something:,, How did you know that someone was there?" I smiled before I answered him:,,You suddenly stopped breathing."
A horrible feeling spread in my body, like just minutes before when Albrecht looked at Katherine's body. jealously. I figured it out a few weeks ago, that I was in love with him. A boy. I was pretty sure that he liked Katherine tho so I decided to keep it to myself, of course I wished that he looked at me the way he looked at her, of course I wished that my sight would take his breath, that he would hold me and tell me that it's all going to be alright and that he loved me.
and of course I knew that I was thinking nonsense again. it was illegal. it was a shame. I felt disgusting. We would never be more than best friends and I just had to accept that.
I wish he liked me back, we could escape this hell together and life a normal life, I would do anything for him, to see him smile. Suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by Albrecht's voice:,, Are you alright?" My heart melted, he always knew when I didn't feel well. ,,Not really." I answered him with a shaky voice. He sighed and turned to look at me. ,, you've been like this for weeks. so distant and cold." He was right. I've been trying to distance myself from him so that I wouldn't get hurt more than I already am. But sometimes I miss the feeling of him being near to me so much my heart aches. ,,I know I'm sorry, I just have a load of things on my mind lately." I answered hoping he'd understand.
He nodded and then asked:,,Do you maybe wanna sleep here in my bed?" he looked at me for a few moments and i must've looked pretty shocked because he then added ,,I didn't mean it in a weird way, sorry." My mind was spinning ,,No no I'd like to, it's nice." He smiled and moved his blanket aside so that I would have space. I could hardly believe my luck and quickly slipped under his covers. Then I had the Courage to ask him ,,Do you like Katherine?" he looked at me confused for a moment and then he answered ,,No, why?" I sighed in relief. ,,it's just the way you look at her... so you don't like anyone?" he waited for a few moments before he replied, like he was thinking wether he should tell me or not. ,, I do like someone, just not her." my heart sunk when he said that.
,,What about you, do you like someone?" Albrecht looked at me curiously. I sighed. ,,yes, I do." he looked a little disappointed with that answer and then asked ,,what is she like?" I smiled, thinking about him and then said ,,she writes beautiful stories, she has a pretty face and her hair is so soft , everything she does seems perfect. she's perfect." Albrecht looked a little sad and I wondered how he would react if he knew that I was just talking about him, if he would hate me.
And then suddenly Albrecht said something that brought every hope I ever had for us to be together to life. ,,Did you ever think about dating a boy." I looked at him suprised and then asked ,,will you tell anybody if I truly answer this?" he gasped ,,of course not, I'm your best friend I wouldn't tell anyone something like this." my heart ached at the words *best friend* ,,I do think about it sometimes, what about you?" Albrecht smiled. ,,Me too". and then a tear rolled down his cheek. A tear of relief. ,, Albrecht? what's wrong? Are you crying?" my hand went to his face and I brushed away the tear with my thumb.
Albrecht Pov
*Now or never* I thought. ,,I have to tell you something Friedrich." His hand still rested on my cheek and he gave me a comforting look. ,,What is it?" he asked. I looked in his eyes hoping he wouldn't hate me after I tell him this. I take one last look of his beautiful face and then close my eyes. ,,I have feelings for you." after a few moments of silence I dare to open my eyes again, only to see him grinning at me. I was confused. ,,Why are you not shouting at me? Why aren't you mad at me?" another tear rolled down my eye and his thumb quickly brushed it away. ,,Because I love you Albrecht." and then it all made sense and we didn't need words anymore. I just smiled and wrapped my arms around him.
I was safe now. I knew that. ,,Goodnight Albrecht." he whispered into my ear. ,,Goodnight Friedrich." I answered before dozing off to sleep in his arms.