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Being cheated on hurts like hell, I remember back then while watching one movie with my mom there's a scene where the woman who got cheated on breaking down and crying and I unconsciously say
“Grabe ‘yung acting ganyan ba talaga? Parang ang OA.”
“Ganyan talaga, kapag niloko ka para kang hinahati sa walo.” my mom says, I just laugh it off well siguro naman tamang partner ‘yung mapipili ko in the future at hindi ako lolokohin.
That's what I thought, but seeing my boyfriend Sunghoon kissing passionately his “Best Friend” Sunoo, hindi ko alam kung gusto ko ba magpasalamat at dumiretso ako ng library para mag review sa quiz kasi nalaman ko na ginagago nila ako o mas pipiliin kong hindi ko na lang alam.
Sana pala pumasok nalang ako ng saktong 11 para hindi ko sila naabutan.
“Gotta go ali, mag 11:00 na malapit na ‘yun si Jake.” saw him cares Sunoo’s face and give him a peck at tumango naman si Sunoo.
Hindi ko na kinaya at tumakbo na ako palabas ng building, napaisip ako kung gaano na ba nila ako katagal niloloko dahil mukhang normal na sa kanila ‘yon, Sunghoon even say my name casually. Normal ba sa kanila mag laplapan? Hobby na ba nila 'yun mag best friend before us happened?
Sunoo is so nice to me, he's not the typical boy best friend sa social media na pino-portray nung tiktoker na papansin. He's so natural hindi ko sila napag isipan ng masama dahil nga bata pa sila magkakilala na sila at sadyang sobrang bait niya lang talaga and he looks like someone na hindi gagawin ‘yun but looks can be deceiving nga naman.
Pero kahit gaano kasakit lokohin I still can't bring it up to Sunghoon kasi natatakot ako baka hindi ako ang piliin. Maybe I just knew how much he treasure Sunoo at alam kong hindi niya kayang i let go ‘yung friendship na meron sila. Ano nga naman ‘yung almost three years relationship namin sa more than ten years of friendship na meron sila.
“You’re here in the middle of the week.” Someone approached me.
I looked at him and saw Heeseung Lee. Sunghoon’s cousin. He sat on the chair in front of me at tumawag pa ng waiter para sabihin na doon sa table ko ilagay ang order niya.
We’re here sa isang bar sa taas ng hotel na pag mamayari ng kuya ko. Luckily he's busy with his other businesses hindi niya ako pinapakialaman sa araw-araw kong pag punta dito. But maybe luck really is not on my side because Heeseung Lee saw me drinking here, mamaya sabihin niya pa kay Sunghoon ‘to.
“Bakit nandito ka sa table ko?”
“You look sad so as a decent human being who knows you, I’ll accompany you.” He smiled sweetly.
“Sino nag sabi na malungkot ako? Hibang ka ba?”
“So tell me why you go here everyday to drink after knowing that your boyfriend is cheating on you?” Tinaasan naman niya ako ng kilay at inirapan ko lamang siya. “It’s been three months. Bakit hindi mo pa rin sila kin-confront?” Nagulat naman ako sa sinabi niya.
Ayoko na mag tanong pero siguro bilang pinsan ni Sunghoon at blockmates pa silang tatlo nila Sunoo matagal na niyang alam.
“That's none of your business, Heeseung.”
To someone who's just seeing the third point of view on someone's relationship it's so easy to say “Break up with your boyfriend.” but being in a relationship you have to consider everything.
I can't afford to lose Sunghoon, maisip ko palang na iiwan niya ko hindi ko talaga kaya. So I gotta put up on this situation kaso habang tumatagal mas lalong sumasakit hindi rin nakakatulong ang pag overthink. Pero siguro hanggang hindi siya ‘yung bumibitaw kakapit pa rin ako.
“Hanggang kelan?” Hee asked.
“Ha?” Tanong ko dito. Dahil hindi ko ma-gets ang ibig sabihin niya.
“Hanggang kelan ka mag papanggap na hindi mo alam?” I just smiled sadly to him, at hindi na siya sinagot.
We both stayed silent for the next two hours parehas lang kaming inom ng inom ng mga cocktail drinks na in-order niya. Minsan nahuhuli ko siyang tumitingin sa akin at ngumi-ngiti lang siya sabay iiwas ng tingin. Siguro okay na din na may kasama ako dito, I feel so lonely for the past three months kaya I feel somehow comfort from him kahit papano may kasama ako ngayon at alam kung anong pinagdadaanan ko.
I don't know what happened next. I just woke up at the hotel room’s bed naked with Heeseung sleeping heavily beside me. Napasapo naman ako sa noo ko, tangina may nangyari ba samin? Bakit parehas kaming nakahubad pero naka pants padin naman siya at ako lang ‘tong walang suot na kahit na ano.
“Good morning.” Bati ni Heeseung sa akin nagising yata siya sa biglang pag bangon ko and he had the audacity to smile at me, putang ina bakit ang gwapo niya sa umaga?!
“May nangyari ba satin?” Maingat na tanong ko sa kanya.
“Hmm, what do you think?” He said and I know that he's teasing me.
“Wala akong maalala.”
Unti-unti naman siyang lumapit sa akin. “Gusto mo paalala ko sayo?” Hindi pa ako nakakasagot sa tanong niya naramdaman ko na ang labi niya sa akin para bigyan ako ng halik. Lumayo siya agad at tinignan ako, sa gulat ay hindi agad ako nakapag salita. Tumawa pa siya at umiling sa reaksyon ko.
“Tang-” Again he kissed my lips to shut me up but the kiss he's been giving me right now is longer and deeper than he did a while ago.
I can't think straight when I feel his tongue trying to enter my mouth. “Open Jake.” I immediately open my mouth and he enters it as I open it.
Heeseung is very dominant, that's my first impression of him and I’m right. The first time I met him at a freshies party I got intimidated immediately, he got this aura kasi na everything he wants he always gets.
But because of the two of us being a member of student council in our respective department we became acquaintances, we interact every meeting din kapag kailangan specially kapag may program sa uni at kaming council ang kailangan kumilos.
Outside the council office we sometimes met at their family dinner. I'm Sunghoon plus one and he always brings different girls, sometimes guys. I don't know if he's just really a fuck boy or relationship doesn't work for him.
Heeseung is very famous in our university hindi lang dahil sa pogi siya, he’s sporty and smart too and based on his past flings he's really good in bed “daw”. Nakakahiya nga na madalas pag hindi siya naka-attend ng council meetings siya ang naging topic after madalas kasing mag kiss and tell ‘yung mga flings nya and almost everyday may bagong balita parang headline lang sa dyaryo e. I’m not gonna lie it makes me curious how he dominate his flings at nababaliw sila ng ganon, I just shrug it off dahil may boyfriend na ako and speaking of.
“S-stopmmm.” I tried to stop him but it turned into a moan, after I felt his thumb brushing my nipples.
“What Jake? Saying something?” Napapikit na lamang ako dahil patuloy niyang pinag lalaruan ang nipples ko.
Hindi ko na alam anong gagawin ko. I’m so torned between pushing him or I’ll pull him close to me to feel more of his warmth. But the first one wins since kanina pa ako tumutugon sa mga halik niya.
His kisses went to my jaw up to my ears and nibbled it. Heeseung is so good at this.
“I don't know how Hoon can afford to cheat on you when you taste this good.” I stopped responding to his kisses when I heard my boyfriend's name.
It shakes me, tangina bakit ako nakikipag momol sa pinsan niya? Do I need to stoop this low para gumanti? Pero hindi ko iniisip gumanti habang nakikipaghalikan kanina, it's just that Heeseung felt so good it cleared my mind. Tangina, libog lang ‘to. Pero may boyfriend ako. Oo Jake may boyfriend ka pa!
Litong-lito na ako my thoughts is so messy. Napakapit na lamang ako at siniksik ang mukha ko sa leeg ni Heeseung. Tuloy tuloy lumandas ang luha sa mata ko at alam kong nararamdaman niya ‘yon sa kanyang leeg. Conscience hit me, how can Sunghoon afford to do that to me easily?
“I’m sorry, we will stop.”
Heeseung hugs me and cares my back for like a 5 or 1 minutes I actually lost track feeling his warmth, naramdaman ko nalang na dahan dahan kumalas sa yakap para tignan ako.
“Jake, I'm sorry.” He patted my head. “I have a class later at one pm, alis na ‘ko.” He smiled at me and gently cupped my face.
“Can we talk first?” I asked, and mabilis naman siyang tumango at tinulungan niya naman akong bumangon para umupo sa kama. “May nangyari ba satin?”
“Wala.” Mabilis niyang sagot, I actually know since wala namang masakit sakin bukod sa ulo ko. Heeseung has a reputation in uni that once he fuck you, you won't be able to stand up the next morning.
“Then what happened?” Natawa naman siya at umiling.
“Jake nandito na tayo sa room ko saglit tayo ka muna kunin ko lang ‘yung card sa wallet ko.” Lasing na lasing si Jake at kanina ko pa siya inaalalayan mula rooftop hanggang dito ang daldal talaga neto kapag lasing.
“Alam mo ba crush na crush kita since freshies party! As in kaso super daming nalapit sayo that night so hindi na din ako sumubok.” He giggled, Jake looks so happy telling me his story.
“Talaga?”
“Yes!” He jumped enthusiastically. “You're so pogi, like pag kakita ko palang sayo sa event napa ‘hala ang pogi naman neto!’ ako agad sa ka-block ko. They encourage me to make a move nga nung nasa party na kaso ayun ang large ng crowd kung nasaan ka kaya hindi na din ako naka-tyempo.” Bigla namang nalungkot ang mukha niya and then smiled again. “But we became friends naman dahil sa council! It felt like the Lord really loves me when I saw you at the meeting e. Because He gave me the will to attend!” He giggles.
Kinurot ko naman ang pisngi niya, ang cute talaga ni Jake malasing. Nakikita ko lang siyang ganto kapag nag yayaan ng night out after program ‘yung council to celebrate and we rarely have a conversation during those times dahil maraming kumakausap sa akin.
“Pasok na tayo” Binuksan ko na ang pinto at inalalayan siya papasok. “Jake, dito ka na matulog baka umiyak ka lang kapag mag isa ka sa hotel room mo e.” Biro ko sa kanya.
“I’m not gonna cry. I’m here with my crush! Kaya I’m so happy!!” Lumapit naman siya sa akin at kinurot ang pisngi ko at niyakap niya pa ako ng mahigpit.
Dahan dahan naman siyang tuminhala at tumitig sakin.
“Can I kiss you?” Agad akong umiling, para tanggihan siya pero agad ko namang naramdaman ang labi niya sakin.
Dahan dahan ko siyang nilayo sa akin at dinikit ang noo ko sa kanya.
“Jake lasing kana, you should take a rest.”
“But I want kiss!”
“I’ll kiss you when you wake up.” He smiled.
“Promise ‘yan ah!”
“Putangina, joke time ka.” Singhal ko sa kanya, tangina bakit ko naman gagawin ‘yon?
“Kasi nga crush mo ako? Ikaw crush mo pala ako nung first year edi sana hindi ka umiiyak ngayon kung ako boyfriend mo.”
“Wow, sige magpapanggap akong hindi ko alam na gusto mo akong ligawan noong 2nd year.”
“Joke lang ‘yon!” Deny niya.
“Sige sabi mo e.” Hinayaan ko na lamang siya, at hindi na pinilit pa para maasar din siya.
“Oo nga! Bakit hindi mo inamin na crush mo pala ako noon ha?”
“Kasi naging friends tayo? Teka nga wala sa kwento mo kung bakit ako naka hubad ngayon!”
Lumapit naman siya sakin gumapang ang kamay niya sa ilalim ng kumot na nakabalot sakin hahampasin ko na sana siya pero hinawakan niya ang tuhod ko ng madiin at naramdaman ko ang kirot dito.
“Putangina ang init. Tubig tubig!” Nagising ako sa likot ni Jake sa tabi ko. Tumayo ito at narinig ko na lamang siyang bumagsak sa lapag mula sa kama. “Aray!”
Binuksan ko naman ang ilaw para tingnan kung ano bang nangyari sa kanya.
“Gago! Bakit ka nag hubad?” Sigaw ko dahil nakahubad na siya ngayon at naiwan na lamang ang kanyang lace panty it's color red. Habang nakapikit at iniinda ang tuhod niyang una atang bumagsak kanina.
“Ang init init!” Pulang pula na ngayon ang mukha niya hanggang dibdib, kanina niya padin pinapaypayan ang sarili.
“Tayo ka muna diyan kuhanan kita ng tubig.” Dinala ko naman siya pabalik ng kama at kumuha na din ng tubig.
Kailangan ko pa siyang gisingin, halatang antok na antok siya. Tangina bakit ako nag aalaga ng lasing ngayon?
“Ang init init.” Paulit-ulit lang niyang sinasabi ‘yon. Uhaw na uhaw yata siya dahil sa dami ng alak na ininom namin kagabi, nakalimutan ko pala siyang painumin ng tubig bago matulog.
“Ang lakas na ng AC lamig na lamig na ako.”
Parang hindi naman niya ako naririnig at patuloy lang siya sa pag paypay sa sarili niya gamit ang kamay.
“Please close your eyes.” Pagkatapos niya ‘yon sabihin nakita ko siyang hinawakan ang waistband ng kanyang panty, agad na akong tumalikod at pinatay ang ilaw. Buti na lang antok at may tama padin ako ng alak kaya agad din akong nakatulog pag higa ko sa tabi niya.
“Sakit no? Ayan ang laki ng pasa mo ang likot mo kasi.”
Shit, ganun ba ako ka-lasing kagabi. Hindi na ako iinom!
“So why did you kiss me kanina ha?”
“Kasi I made a promise, malay ko bang may amnesia ka pag nalalasing. Akala ko you're being sulky because of the kiss.” Nag kibit balikat pa ito at halatang nang-aasar.
“Inamo.”
“Sige na, ma-late pa ako sa class ko.”
“Heeseung, wait!” I stopped him.
“Hmm?”
“Gaano mo na katagal alam ‘yung kay Sunoo and Sunghoon?” Tanong ko dito.
“Nung araw na nalaman mo, I was also there. Hindi ko rin nga alam e.” Bahagya pa siyang natawa sa sarili. “Sobrang close din kasi ng dalawang ‘yon kahit nung mga bata pa kami kaya nagulat din ako nung nakita ko sila.”
That hurt me the most kasi hindi ko rin in-expect na gagaguhin nila ako. They're both the nicest people I’ve ever met, I just can't accept the fact that they did that to me and me not breaking up with Sunghoon yet give me a little satisfaction na wag sila hayaang maging masaya.
“Sorry Jake.” Naramdaman ko naman ang pag hawi ni Heeseung sa mga luha sa mata ko, hindi ko na namalayan na umiyak na naman pala ako.
Lumapit ako kay Heeseung at mahigpit siyang niyakap. He hugged me back, we stayed like that for around five minutes after breaking the hug. “Huwag ka mag alala I won't tell Sunghoon about this.” He patted my head and I smiled at him.
After that day I stopped going to that rooftop bar, I just realized that it will do me no good if I continue doing that.
I always see Heeseung din around uni and sometimes during our council meeting, may isang beses nga na nagkasabay pa kaming apat si Sunghoon, Sunoo, Heeseung at ako kumain sa Army Navy malapit sa uni, nakitaan ko naman ng awa ‘yung mga mata niya tuwing nahuhuli kong nakatingin siya sakin and I just give him a smile to assure him that I’m okay.
It's Jay’s birthday today. Jungwon, his boyfriend, invited me to go to his party. Jungwon and I are blocked mates for 3 years now and we're pretty close since sabay namin nalampasan ang lahat ng subjects at prof na fresh from hell. He told me that it's just a few people that Jay knows kaya pumayag agad ako.
Nakalimutan ko nga palang social butterfly and varsity ‘yung boyfriend niya so scam ‘yung few people na kilala ni Jay, lahat ata ng students sa iba’t-ibang course nandito. Of course my boyfriend is also here and Heeseung because they both are varsity.
It was a fun night. We played beer pong, spin the bottle and other drinking games. There are some people pa nga who join body shots, nagulat pa ako parang ‘yung iba nakikita kong may kasamang jowa sa uni and acting single right now. Cheaters.
I looked at my wrist watch and saw that it's already 2:00 AM, late na din pala. I still have a class tomorrow afternoon so I need to go home na.
“Won, uwi na ako. May class pa tayo bukas. Papasok ka ba?”
“Ah nope, birthday ni Jay e. Alam mo na.” He give me a suggestive smile, napailing na lamang ako sa kanya.
Napansin ko namang wala si Hoon sa table, kanina lang nandito ‘yon ah. I tried to find him in the crowd pero hindi ko siya nakita. But I saw Heeseung sa table ng mga nag beer pong. May kaakbay pa siyang babae at binubulungan ito ng kung ano. Lumapit naman ako sa kanya tatawagin ko sana siya pero nakita ko si Ni-ki his brother kaya sa kanya na ako lumapit.
“Ni-ki!” Agad naman itong lumingon at kumaway. Itinaas niya pa ang hawak niyang red cup para alukin ng alak na agad kong inilingan. “Have you seen Sunghoon? Gusto ko na kasi umuwi e.”
“Hindi ko siya napansin e kay kuya? Kuya Hee!” Agad namang naagaw ni Ni-ki ang pansin ni Heeseung at lumingon kung nasan kami. Agad nag tama ang mata namin at inalis ang pag akbay sa babaeng katabi niya tsaka lumapit samin.
“Si Kuya Hoon daw nakita mo ba?” Tanong ni Ni-ki.
“Hindi e, baka nasa kotse niya na? Mukhang lasing na ‘yon kanina baka natulog lang at nag pababa ng amats.” Napatango naman ako sa kanya, baka nga he hates drunk driving pa naman.
“Sige, check ko. Una na ako, thank you Ni-ki and H–”
“Samahan kita.” Pigil sa akin habang naka hawak sa palapulsuhan ko.
“Ah no, you're playing diba? Okay lang kaya ko naman.” Tatanggalin ko na sana ang hawak niya sa akin pero pinigilan niya ako.
“I insist, kayo na munan diyan balik ako.” Agad na niya ako hinila papuntang parking. “Jake, I’m sorry about what happened nung alam mo na. Narealize ko lang na I was so wrong, I just do that without asking you.” He sincerely said
“No problem, I’m sober at that time so if anything happens the two of us are to blame.” I said. Hee just gave me a smile and nodded.
I’m trying to find Sunghoon's car in Jay’s garage pero wala na ang kotse niya kung saan siya nag park kanina.
“Umuwi na ba siya?.” I mumbled, I tried to call him but the phone just kept ringing.
“Let's try to look outside?” Hee suggested, at lumabas naman kami ng bahay nila Jay.
There were a few cars that were parked outside their house, and I saw a familiar car a few meters away from Jay’s gate.
Napahinto ako dahil kahit malayo palang kitang-kita na kung paano umaalog ang kotse ni Sunghoon, his car was heavily tinted but by the look of it I know there is something happening inside his car. Naramdaman ko naman ang pagtakip ni Heeseung sa mga mata ko at hinila niya na ako paalis don.
Heeseung brought me to his car and asked for my address but I couldn't say a word and he just let me. I was glad that he didn't push me to say something.
“You wanna go to my place?” He asked, tumingin ako sa kanya at tumango na dahil sa sitwasyon ko ngayon ayokong mapag isa. My thoughts will surely kill me alive.
I still can't process what was happening. I don't know who Sunghoon is fucking inside his car is it Sunoo? But I didn't see him at the party, at kung nandon man siya dapat kasama namin siya sa table. Is he fucking someone else? I really don't know anymore.
I received a message from Sunghoon that confirms my thoughts.
From: Love
Hi love, I’m with Sunoo. He had an emergency a while ago so I had to pick him up. On the way na kami pabalik diyan.
To: Love
No need, I went home with your cousin.
From: Love
Okay, tell Hee to drive safely.
Natawa na lamang ako, ayun na ‘yon no question asked? Marahas ko namang binato sa hita ko ang phone ko at napalingon si Heeseung dahil don.
“Bakit?”
“Sunghoon fucked Sunoo inside his car and he told me Sunoo had emergency. Emergency my ass, ano ‘yan emergency kantot.” Napailing na lamang si Heeseung sa akin.
I should be crying right now, pero sa tagal ko nang alam na ginagago nila ako na manhid na ako. But deep inside it still hurts, ‘yung harap harapan nag sisinungalin sayo ‘yung boyfriend mo. Mahirap din na alam mong matatapos na ang relasyon niyo, konting araw na lang ang binibilang pero hindi ka padin handa sa pwedeng mangyari. It's either we broke up or they will end their friendship pero asa namang piliin niya ako.
“I don't want to hurt you but I just wanna ask. Hanggang kelan ka ganiyan?” Heeseung chug his beer.
Nandito kami sa veranda ng condo niya, drinking. I badly want to erase the thought of them fucking each other inside his car. I look at Heeseung, he’s not looking at me, his eyes are focused on the city lights, the view from his veranda.
“I don't know either. I can't lose him. Sunghoon keeps me sane.” Natawa naman si Heeseung at tinignan na niya ako, he looks so amused by what I said.
“Keeps you sane huh? Eh mabaliw-baliw kana nga kakaisip sa kagaguhan niya e. Ilang buwan ka ng ganiyan.”
“You don't have to remind me.” I just roll my eyes and go back inside.
I feel so dizzy right now, naparami din ang inom ko sa party ni Jay pero nahimasmasan ako nung nakita kong umaalog ang kotse ni Sunghoon, tangina sana all nadiligan sama ng loob ko lang sa mag best friend na ‘yon araw-araw may dilig sakin e.
Kukuha pa sana ako ng isa pang bote ng beer nang pigilan ako ni Heeseung buksan ang fridge niya, humarap naman ako sa kaniya at napakunot na lamang ng noo dahil sa ginawa, sinundan pala niya ako dito sa loob.
“You should sleep. Akala ko ba papasok ka nang morning?” Tinabig ko naman ang kamay niya na nakaharang sa fridge para mabuksan nang tuluyan ito at kumuha ng apat pa ng beer at dumiretso na sa sala niya, nilapag ko din naman agad sa lapag ang beer na hawak.
“I'll be absent na muna tomorrow minor lang naman ‘yon. Let's watch netflix?” Nakita ko naman siyang tumango bilang sang ayon at kinuha ko na ang remote para i-open ang tv.
We watched Insidious. I was so confident that I would not get scared. Sabi kasi sakin dati kapag broken hearted ka walang effect sayo ‘yung horror movies. Whoever said that is a big scam! I was so scared every jumpscare, kulang na nga lang mag tago ako sa likuran ni Heeseung para lang ma protektahan ang sarili ko. There's this one part pa sa movie na we both got scared so we tend to hug each other. Agad naman akong bumitaw pero ‘yung kamay niya sa balikat ko ay hindi na niya inalis kaya hinayaan ko na.
Hindi na din namin tinapos ang insidious kaya pinalitan ko na lang nang The Notebook.
“I think I already watched this movie.” Heeseung said, I look at him. He is so good looking up close, wala ba siyang jowa? Agad ko namang iniwas ang tingin ko sakaniya ng nilingon niya ako.
“Uhm, a-ah yeah. Sikat din kaya ‘to!” I heard him chuckle at ginulo niya ang buhok ko gamit ang kamay niyang nasa balikat ko.
I was crying so much when we got to the part that Allie found out about Noah’s letter. I was so drunk, emotional and heartbroken for them.
“Iyakin mo.” Heeseung said, he leaned his head on my shoulder and felt his arms on my waist hugging me. “Huwag na iyak.”
Hinayaan ko na lang din siya, ewan siguro dala na din ng kalasingan.
His hug felt so warm, I forgot how the feeling of being held because Sunghoon became less touchy probably because of his relationship with Sunoo right now. Honestly I don't care. I'm not fond of cuddling him anymore after being aware of our situation.
“Palautos naman ‘to.” He chuckled as I felt his hug getting tighter.
I look at Heeseung and his eyes are closed. I cares his face, napadilat naman siya at napalingon sakin dahil don.
“Hmm?” Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa kanya para lapatan ng halik ang labi niya.
I closed my eyes as I felt the softness of his lips, I missed kissing someone. Naramdaman ko naman ang pag ngiti niya habang magkadikit parin ang labi namin.
“Hilig mo talaga mang halik kapag lasing, pasok kana don sa kwarto ko, lasing din ako baka hindi kita matantya diyan.” He chuckled.
I gave him a peck again. Inalis naman niya ang pagkayakap sa akin at binigyan ako ng mababaw at nakakalasing na halik. Agad din naman siyang huminto.
Fuck I want more! Mabilis akong pumatong sa kanya at kumandong and I immediately felt his hard cock against my pussy.
Hahalik pa sana ulit ako pero pinigilan na niya ako. “Hey, that's enough lasing ka lang.” Hawak niya ang magkabilang balikat ko. Kitang kita ko sa mga mata ang pagpipigil.
“No no no, please I want you.” I pleaded.
I don't know what got into me, maybe because of the alcohol but I’m definitely horny right now.
“Fuck. Tagal ko na nagpipigil sayo. Gusto mo talaga?” Tanong niya, saw a mixture of softness and lust in his eyes. I immediately nodded and felt him kissing my cheeks. “Words, baby”
“Yes please.” I grind on his maleness and I felt his hands caressing my thighs hard.
Heeseung held my face and kissed me thoroughly. I put my arms on his neck as I kissed him back. Heeseung is a good kisser, the stories of him being a good kisser are true. Totoo din kaya ‘yung… putang ina Jake pull yourself together!
“Sarap mo Jake.” He moaned. Binuhat naman niya ako para isinandal pahiga sa sofa without breaking the kiss, and he settled in between my legs. I wrap my legs on his waist to feel him.
His kisses went from my lips to my cheeks and now on my neck. His hand is busy playing with my nipples against my shirt. Hindi naman siya nakuntento don, tumigil siya sa paghalik sa leeg ko at humiwalay ng konti sa akin.
“Hubad.” He said, while holding the hem of my shirt. Mabilis ko namang hinubad ang t-shirt ko habang tinulungan niya din akong hubarin ang jeans ko leaving my panties alone.
His eyes locked on my body. Agad naman akong nahiya at niyakap ang katawan ko. “Huwag ka mahiya, you're sexy. Your waist is so small, and fuck those hips.” I removed my hands on my body as he held my waist down to my hips tracing my shape. “Ang ganda mo, gusto na kita kantutin.” Napapikit ako tangina Heeseung bakit ang bastos ng bibig mo! Why does it turns me on more.
“Stop talking dirty to me.” But he didn't mind me as he licked my nipples and played with the other one. I looked down on him and I saw him looking so intense at me.
“Sarap ba?” Yes ang sarap! I badly want to shout it but I'm too shy to say it out loud.
I just closed my eyes and felt his tongue, lips and hand sucking and playing with my nipples. Heeseung is so good at this! I'm getting excited to feel him inside me. Ramdam ko na kung gaano ako kabasa.
“Jake masarap ba?” He sounds so authoritative. I looked at him again and I saw that he's still looking at me waiting for my answer. “Ah, hindi ka sasagot?”
“A-aw, heeseung it hurts!” He fucking bit my nipples!
“Ano masarap ba?”
“Yes! Masarap ang sarap mo Hee!” Napapikit na lang ako sa hiya.
He stopped sucking my nipples and leveled his face to mine. “Kapag tinanong kita, matuto kang sumagot o iiwan kita ditong bitin. Okay?” Agad naman akong tumango.
He is now sucking my neck and leaving marks down to my chest and now my nipples again and I could tell that he always does this, well maybe the rumors about how good he is in bed is true, I hope it's true!
I felt his hands massaging my thighs and slowly going up until he reached my clothed pussy. “Fuck, basang basa kana.” Tanging ungol na lamang ang lumabas sa bibig ko, he played it against my undies. Fuck this is torture.
Heeseung and I locked eyes . I see so much adoration and lust in him. Hindi ko kinaya ang tensyon kaya mahigpit ko nalang siyang niyakap at ibinaon ang ulo ko sa leeg niya. “H-heeseung p-please.”
“Hmm, please what jakeu?” I kissed his neck and nipped on it. “Ah fuck.”
“Can you Ahh.” Napa daing na lamang ako ng dahan-dahan niyang pasadahan ng kanyang daliri ang panty ko.
“So wet for me. Sarap siguro kainin neto, pwede ba kitang kainin Jake?” Tinanggal niya ang pag kayakap ko sa kanya at hinanap niya ang paningin ko. “Please Jake.” He pleaded. Mabilis naman akong tumango at bumaba na rin siya to face my pussy.
He looks erotic right now in between my legs. He licked my clothed pussy. “Ahh remove my ahhh fuck can you r-remove m-my panty?” I looked at him and he seemed to enjoy licking me down there with my panty ons.
“Why?” He smiled.
“Ayaw mo ba?”
“Gusto ko Jake fuck kahit bawal gugustuhin ko basta ikaw.” He lick me again, hindi ko na yata kaya lalabasan na yata ako just like that.
“A-ah please please please remove my panty. Mas masarap ‘to without it I wanna feel your tongue against me please!” Napa sigaw na ako, but he didn't take me seriously and just smiled. Enjoy na enjoy yata siyang libog na libog ako sa kanya ngayon.
“Okay, since you say please.” Tinanggal niya sa wakas ang panty ko mabilis ko namang pinagdikit ang hita ko when I felt the cold air from the AC. “Open up baby, gusto mo tanggalin yang panty mo tapos ayaw mo ipakita sakin?”
Napapikit naman ako ng madiin at dahan-dahang binuksan ang mga binti ko para sa kanya. Kitang kita ko ang lawak ng ngiti niya habang titig na titig siya sa ibaba ko. Muli niyang hinawakan ito at kitang kita ang slick na kumapit sa daliri niya. “Basang basa ka na Jake, pwede ko na agad ipasok ang tite ko dito. Gusto mo ipasok ko agad? Without prepping you?”
Napatingin naman ako sa umbok sa gitna ng pants niya, kahit hindi ko pa ito nakita sa personal halata agad kung gaano siya kalaki.
“Prep me first please.”
“Kaya mo na ‘yan.” He encouraged me while still touching, playing with my pussy and rubbing my clit. “Basang basa kana nga oh, ang dulas na niyan kapag pumasok ako.” Ungol lamang ang lumabas sa bibig ko, sobrang sarap ng pakiramdam ng hawak ni Heeseung sa akin, parang kaya niya akong mapapayag sa gusto niya kahit alam kong masasaktan ako ng sobra. “I have a better idea babe, you open up yourself. Show me how you play with your pussy.”
Umatras si Heeseung at inalis ang pag hawak sa akin para tingnan ako hindi ako gumalaw at tinignan lamang siya sa mata. “What? Do it. As if you're not used to touching yourself.” He smirked. Umiling ako dahil totoong hindi ko naman iyon ginagawa.
I have a boyfriend and we're active. So I have no chance of doing it alone since I'm always satiated. Ngayon lang naman kami hindi active, since I always make excuses kapag nag pupunta siya sa condo at siguro siya din masaya na siyang kinakantot ang bestfriend niya.
“W-we always have sex so I-I don't do it alone.” Muling lumapit si Heeseung sa akin at hinawakan ang kamay ko para dalhin sa gitna ko.
“Eh bakit ang sikip mo pa rin?” Ibinaon ni Heeseung sa akin ang isang daliri niya kasama ang isang daliri ko.
“A- AHHHhh.”
“Sarap diba? Dagdagan pa natin hmm?” Mabilis akong tumango habang mariin ang titig niya sa akin naramdaman ko naman ang pag pasok ng dalawa pang daliri, dalawa sakin at dalawa sa kanya.
“F-fuck, I think I’m coming.” Bigla namang bumilis ang pag labas pasok ng daliri namin. “A-Ahh there hee ahh the fuck!” Napasigaw ako sa bigla niyang pag hinto, I saw him smirk.
“Come on my dick baby.” He opens his buttons and removes his pants so fast. I didn't even have a chance to look at his dick for a long time because he immediately entered me to the brim.
“Ah Aaahh.” I felt my orgasm. Heeseung is so big that it made me cum so fast, my pussy was unbelievably stretched and it was so good. He’s so good at this really.
“Sikip mo puta.” Heeseung didn't move, he's kissing my forehead, my eyes to my cheeks and to my lips. His kisses are so intimate that it felt so good, so real. He's moving slowly. “Sarap ba? Sarap mo Jake. Basang basa ka ang sarap mo pasukin.” Hinahayaan naman niya akong mag adjust sa laki niya. Ang sakit at ang sarap at the same time. Maybe the 3 months of not having sex with Sunghoon made me this tight.
Unti-unti namang bumilis ang pag galaw niya nang masanay na ako, still have a little sting but it felt really good inside me. Naramdaman ko nanaman ang muling pag nginig ng binti ko, at ang paglabas ng tite niya sa akin.
“Fuck you squirt, ang dami non ah. Sarap hmm? Sarap ko ba kumantot?” He kissed me on my forehead and entered me again.
“S-stop hee, I can't do it anymore.”
“Hindi pa ako nilalabasan Jake. Patapusin mo ako.”
“Ah Ah Ah No p-please” .I held his face and pulled him to me.
“No.” He smiled and kissed me on my lips.
Muling bumilis ang pag labas pasok niya sa akin. I'm shaking so bad because of oversensitivity.
“A-ang s-sarap.”
“What baby? Sarap?”
“Y-yes.”
“Puta ka, ang sarap mo Jake. Yung puke mong basang basa ang sarap. Gusto kita tamuran, pwede ba? Putok ko sa loob mo Jake tapos buntisin kita. Fuck gusto kong makitang nag lalawa ‘yang puke mo ng tamod ko.” Ungol na lamang ang natugon ko hindi ko na din alam I’m so high because of pleasure Heeseung giving me.
“Lapit na ako Jake fuck. Sabihin mo lang na pwede kong punuin ‘yang puke mo ng tamod itatali na kita dito sa kama ko.”
“Ouhmmm.”
“Ah ano?”
“P-putok mo sa l-loob.” Bigla ko namang naramdaman ang labi niya sa akin at marahas akong hinalikan kasabay ng marahas na pag bayo niya sa akin.
“AH FUCK!” Bigla niya naman akong kinagat sa leeg at naramdaman ko ang paglabas ng tamod niya sa loob ko. I felt so full and good it made me come after him.
Siniksik niya ang mukha niya sa leeg ko at dinilaan ang parte kung saan niya ako kinagat. Lumayo na siya sa akin para bumangon at tingnan ako.
“Ganda mo Jake.” Saad ni Heeseung habang nakatingin sa gitna ko, nakapasok pa rin ang tite niya sa akin. “Pwede ko ba picturan?” Agad niyang kinuha ang phone na nasa bedside table niya. Wala na akong nagawa kundi takpan ang mukha ko.
“Dami Jake lumalabas na ‘yung iba.” Inipon niya naman ang pinag halong tamod namin sa daliri niya at pilit pinasok ito sa loob ko habang nasa loob ko pa din siya.
“S-stop it, I can't go on anymore.”
“Huh? First round palang ah?” Binalik naman niya ang phone kung saan ‘to nakalagay kanina
“W-what?”
Agad siyang pumwesto sa likod ko nang hindi ito nilalabas.
“Yes we will go all night baby, until you can't walk anymore.” Nilapatan niya pa ng halik ang noo ko at gumalaw na sa likod ko.