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You wanna try it, bite it, lick it, spit it, Pull it to the side and get all up in it.
Seungmin is woken up by his phone alarm. His body and eyelids feeling so heavy, like he barely got any sleep.
Still he forces his body up off the couch to head into the shower. They have a day of schedules today so he needs to look and feel alive.
Felix’s eyes slowly flutter open, awakening from his slumber.
He doesn’t remember passing out.
He moves around to stretch a bit, softly groaning as he tries to remember when and how he had fallen asleep.
Then a memory hits him like a flashback.
He shoots himself up, feeling wide awake almost immediately and taking in his surroundings.
It’s still a bit dark, the sky a light shade of blue as the sun just barely begins to rise, but he can make out here he is.
He’s still in Seungmin’s room. Laying in his bed. Alone.
‘Oh shit…’
He thinks to himself.
It wasn’t all just a dream, he actually did it.
He carefully gets himself out of the bed, dragging along the blanket to keep wrapped around his naked bottom half as he heads to open the door, peaking out to try not to run into the boy he came onto last night. (Literally).
He sees the bathroom light from under the door and hears the shower running, so he’s in the clear for now.
Still he carefully scatters back into his bedroom.
His face heats up with the recollection of last night.
Like an actual dream had come true.
A smile creeps onto his face as he lightly chuckles with disbelief.
He actually did it, and he doesn’t regret his decision one bit. Proud of it even.
One thing checked off in his bucket list.
Still feeling just overly embarrassed by it, but that’s okay. Because he promised not to put Seungmin in that position again in the future.
It’s best for the both of them.
Felix lets the blanket drop onto the floor before walking over to sit on his own bed and pick up his phone, opening it to begin looking at sex toy websites. Finally getting that extra push he needed to do so.
Seungmin gets out of the shower and begins to dry himself, wrapping the towel around his waist. He applies his daily skin and hair care, then when he’s done with that he heads out of the bathroom.
He opens the door to leave and is startled, almost having bumped into Felix who was standing at the doorway, with a towel thrown over a shoulder.
He still had the tee he slept in, but paired with boxers this time.
Seungmin didn’t mean for his eyes to go that low.
“My turn. ‘Scuse me.” Felix happily says as he walks past the younger to step into the bathroom.
Seungmin steps out into the hallway and hears the door close behind him, becoming swallowed into the hallway’s darkness.
He stands there for a second longer until he hears the water turned on again and decides to head back into his bedroom.
He turns on his light and notices his bed first.
The duvet has been taken off, leaving it bare with just the sheet and pillows, no stains, no wrinkles. Like nothing had happened.
The next two weeks followed suit, like nothing had happened between the two, like it was just some funny dream. They lived and worked together as they usually would before the occurrence.
Although some moments still seemed very awkward, Felix powered through them like a champ.
Seungmin tried to do the same. But found it difficult for some reason.
His mind always found its way back to Felix, much more often than usual.
While in the kitchen Seungmin caught Felix running out of the dorm. Confused at first of course, figured he must be running late somewhere.
But minutes later he’s back inside, with a package in his hands.
“Oh what’d you get?” Seungmin asks.
“Oh uhm, it’s nothing.” Felix responds with a shrug as he continues walking to his bedroom, closing the door behind him.
That confuses Seungmin more.
Whenever Felix gets something he usually always shows him the haul of what he got, whether it be in person or online shopping.
It really shouldn’t bother him that he doesn’t share this time, but it does.
Before he knows it he’s quietly walking over to Felix’s bedroom, pressing his ear against the door to hear whatever he can.
On the other side Felix is unboxing his impulsed purchase. Removing the bubble wrap to reveal a blank box. He quickly opens it to pull out the dildo safely packed inside.
His eyes light up and he cant help but feel ecstatic.
Having finally caved in and bought one to no longer burden Seungmin, or anyone else in the future.
He watched that tracking like a hawk up until this moment to finally have it in his hands.
He takes in it’s details, the vein grooves, the tip head, and the testicles. It even has suctioning at the bottom so he can keep it in place wherever he pleases.
Maybe the floor, the shower wall, his desk chair, his mind races with all the possibilities.
He chose it to be transparent colored, just thought it’d be pretty, and it is now that he’s seeing it in his hands.
He’s too excited, finally owning a toy. Feeling impatient to waiting to try it.
So he walks over to his door, and locks it.
Seungmin steps back, afraid that Felix was going to step out and find him listening in on him. Instead he’s locking himself in with his new mystery purchase.
He barely heard anything, just the sounds of the unboxing, unable to make out what the item is,
But, he has some ideas.
He shouldn’t keep listening in, Felix deserves to have his privacy, so he walks himself back to the kitchen to focus on his task.
Again this shouldn’t even be bothering him, but it does. For some reason.
One night the entire group had gathered in Chan and Jeongin’s dorm for dinner.
The atmosphere was lively and loud as the members joked with each other while getting full on food and drinks.
While everyone sat together on the couch and other available seats, Seungmin preferred to remain standing and walking around the home.
“Why wont you sit already! Bugging me seeing you circling around.”
Han playfully gibed towards Seungmin.
Seungmin ignores him and continues to wander, making the others laugh while angering Han more, those around him teasingly hold him back from standing up as he tries using the force to strangle Seungmin.
Seungmin unintentionally glances over to see Felix giggling. His eyes scrunch and crinkle alongside the rosiness of his cheeks, very adorably.
The topic changes quickly and voices overlap one another, unable to even hear what is playing on the tv anymore.
Seungmin remains roaming, but then freezes from a moment as something catches his eye.
Felix is leaned forward, reaching out to grab more to eat on the table, by doing so creates a gap in the back of his pants, making his underwear show.
Normally this is nothing, the boys always have theirs peeking either on purpose or accident and it’s never weird to them,
except Felix doesn’t seem to be wearing his usual boxers.
It’s the bright colors of them that caught his attention.
Felix stayed in that position for a second longer before sitting back again, not realizing what was peeked.
Seungmin darts his eyes over at Jeongin and Changbin who are sat beside Felix, trying to see if they had noticed what he did, but there was no signs that they did.
It was only him who saw it.
It happened so fast he tried convincing himself that it couldn’t have even happened, but then Felix leans forward again.
Not only him, the other two sat beside him go forward aswell to see something that Chan is showing on his phone. Making them each laugh and clap loudly before leaning back against the couch again.
So Seungmin sees it again.
They’re white. A soft cream.
It seemed speckled with some kind of pattern on them, but it is too small and he is too far away to know for sure.
But the other detail he saw, the one that made his mouth drop just slightly. Is that they’re laced trimmed.
Also a soft white.
It stood out like an advertisement, complimenting perfectly with his baggy jean shorts and ridden up oversized white tee. Like he intended it to do so.
Perhaps not for others to see, but just for himself.
He doesn’t know that someone else now knows.
How stunned it makes him.
Along with intrigued.
Seungmin has no idea how long he’s been staring, but he is drawn back my the mention of his name.
He looks over to where he was being called to find a couple of eyes already on him. Afraid as if his thoughts are being played out loud.
“Seungmin-ah! You finally decide to stay still?”
Han calls out.
“Your legs tired out?”
Hyunjin jokes.
Minho joins in by whistling and making kissing sounds while holding his hand out to wave around a piece of food.
“Seungminnie~! Come! Come! Here boy! Sit!”
The rest begin to laugh along. To them it only seemed like he had zoned out.
He choses to ignore their joke, swaying himself side to side while staying in his current spot conveniently right behind the sofa Felix is sat at.
The topic is changed again, taking the attention off of Seungmin.
Which is good, he didn’t want to be part of the conversation, having too many questions racing through his mind now.
Each revolving around Felix.
Like, has he always worn panties like that under his pants?
Does he have more? Different colors, designs, when did he buy them?
How would he look, in just them alone?
Felix’s soft milky thighs, bare toned stomach, and wrapped around his hips, the lace.
It goes along his bikini line and inner thighs, where he has seen before, now hidden just behind the pretty patterned cloth.
It’s driving him crazy, having had a taste before, now he wants it again, craves it.
Does Felix even feel the same way? Did he maybe wear that under his pair of shorts that obviously needs a belt’s help to keep them up. Just for them to peak out and make Seungmin’s or anyone else’s head spin?
Does it turn him on? Knowing he’s making the younger boy crazy over him, keeping him in mind practically 24/7?
Creating a wet spot on his pretty panties-
“Yah! Seungminnah!”
He’s pulled out of his mind again.
Turning his head to who sounded like Chan, who was looking at with raised eyebrows and a wide smile.
Seungmin raised his eyebrows as a response.
“Didn’t you hear us?” He asks with a chuckle.
A few eyes on him again, including Felix’s.
He’s smiling with teeth and his eyes are just slightly squinted.
Guilt and shame is immediately dumped over his head like iced water.
He looks back over to Chan, unable to meet Felix’s eyes again.
“He wasn’t paying attention! Let me have it! I want it!” Changbin exclaims loudly, which makes Han counter at the same volume, creating a loud playful argument between them while everyone else laughs and also joins in.
Seungmin has no idea what they were talking about, nor does he really care. But he really should get out of his head and be in the moment. It’s not right or normal to be thinking of his friend this way.
Even after what happened, Felix was able to move on, so why is it so hard form him to do so?
It’s none of his business what he wears, why is he thinking about his underwear of all things.
His pretty underwear.
That would look much prettier with a darkening spot of fluid gushing out from arousal.
He’s back to thinking about it…
Oh well.
Seungmin leaves his physical body, wanting to feel Felix’s waist and thighs in his daydreaming mind. To put his head in between them.
He’d lick over the panties, soaking them more with his saliva, making sure to press down and give his pussy friction to gush out more. Then he’d bite and chew on them, sucking out every drop of the juice left on them, making it almost clean.
Now he doesn’t know which idea sounds better,
To pull the crotch covering off to the side so he can keep the pretty panties on while he east him out.
Or, to pull them off with his teeth so he can spread his legs wider, as wide as he can, even if it starts to ache so Seungmin can taste every single inch of him.
To make his pussy feel good with his tongue like he can with his fingers.
If he’s given another chance to prove it. But he knows that’s not happening.
And Felix has made it very clear that he doesn’t need his help anymore.
The jealousy over a possible toy in his possession.
It’s stupid, really it is. To be jealous over a sex toy. The thing is he’s not even 100% positive that what he bought even is a toy, it’s just a hunch.
His fingers and tongue would definitely be better than some some fake plastic dick-
“Seungminnie!”
He’s pushed out of his thoughts again, this time being grabbed by someone.
He quickly looks over at who’s thrown their arm over his shoulder and is lightly shaking him with their other hand.
It’s Hyunjin. Smile wide.
“C’mon and help me bring something form the kitchen. Iyen-ah asked.”
“Ah. Kay.”
Hyunjin keeps his arm around the younger’s shoulder as he leads the both of them away from the group and into the much quieter and calm kitchen.
His arm slips off of Seungmin who stops to stand right by the island in the middle of the kitchen, while the older heads towards the fridge.
“Something on your mind?” He while opening opens it.
Seungmin stays still where he’s standing.
“Uh. What do you mean?” He stupidly asks. As if he hadn’t been zoning out for almost the entire dinner.
Hyunjin turns back around and is now holding a large fruit tart in a clear box packaging. He kicks the fridge closed with his foot and walks towards Seungmin, placing the tart down onto the island before making eye contact with the younger.
“Maybe your friend down there knows.”
Seungmin is so confused but quickly looks down to see what Hyunjin could possibly be talking about.
And there it is. His erection just beginning to chub up.
He didn’t even feel it, but once his eyes saw it, it’s all he can feel. It does not help that he’s dressed comfortably in sweatpants. Extra baggy of course but still.
His ears heat up as he goes to cover it with his hands, he hopes Hyunjin was the only one who noticed. Though he is thankful to be pulled away and warned before the others could notice.
The older laughs.
“Before you glue your hands there, look into those drawers and get me a knife, please.”
Seungmin almost didn’t want to move at all due to how embarrassed he feels, but he turns to face his back towards the older as he starts opening and closing drawers until he finds where the knives are kept.
He hands it to Hyunjin who took the tart out of its packaging, beginning to cut slices now with the knife.
“So…is it anything particular?” The older so casually asks.
“H-huh?”
“Whoever, or whatever’s got you all, worked up right now.” Hyunjin chuckles.
Seungmin looks down again and quietly curses at himself. He can’t be that obvious can he? Was he staring at Felix while spaced out?
“Uhh. J-just, some porn video I saw. Guess I can’t stop thinking about it…”
Seungmin lies.
Hyunjin nods as he continues to slice the tart.
“Okay well, either go take care of that, or think of a turn off before heading back.”
Hyunjin gives the younger a soft nudge with his elbow.
“And no need to feel embarrassed about it now, y’know it’s normal. Nothing new to us.”He adds as he picks up the now cut up tart to take into the living room, leaving Seungmin alone in the kitchen.
Yeah. Normal.
It’s totally normal to get turned on by thinking of your bandmate.
Later that night Seungmin lays on his bed, staring at the ceiling. Experiencing trouble falling asleep.
It’s not that late, but he still feels no ounce of tiredness.
It’s irritating him. Everything is.
Why he cant get over the one time he had with Felix. How Felix got over it so quickly, replaced him. Having erotic daydreams of him. Embarrassing himself in front of everyone.
All of that, piled up on the fact that he is losing sleep.
He has to do something about it.
He’s going do something about it.
Seungmin throws off his covers and hops off his bed, leaving his room to enter the darkened hallway.
He maps his way to Felix’s room until he’s standing right at his door. He inhales and exhales deeply before bringing a fist up.
He strongly knocks three times before calling out.
“Felix.”
He reaches his hand down to grab the knob, attempting to turn it, only it doesn’t budge.
It’s locked.
Seungmin hears shuffling noises from the other side, then a muffled voice.
“Uh- h-hang on! Just give me a minute!”
There’s more shuffling and some stumbling, then the sound of footsteps coming up to the door. The door is unlocked and opened.
There Felix is standing, wearing a tee with loose shorts peeking underneath.
Nothing unusual.
“Hey! Sorry, I was uh in the middle of a game. Did you need something?”
Felix lies.
Seungmin peeks past him over at his gaming desk, where his monitor is on as has discord open. Could he actually be gaming with others? He didn’t hear his usual keyboard clicking that’s usually loud enough to hear with the door closed.
In case he is actually interrupting in a gaming session, Seungmin decides to do what he came here for.
He takes another breath.
“Can I see it.”
Felix’s head slightly tilts as he makes a confused expression while keeping an innocent smile.
“Huh? See what?-“
“The toy.”
Seungmin interrupts.
Felix’s expression doesn’t change.
“Toy?”
He awkwardly chuckles softly before continuing.
“Uhm, you’re gonna have to be more specific, you know I have different collections. Did you mean the squishy one you like-“
“I mean. The pleasurable kind.”
Felix’s mouth hangs open, trying to form words but no sound comes out.
His body grows warmer as his heart beat speeds up. He didn’t expect to be put in such position.
Was it, that obvious?
“Uh…” He clears his throat.
“I dont know what you’re talking about…”
Seungmin remains eye contact with him, even if the older is now avoiding it.
“Lix. Can I just see it. Please?”
Felix was about to deny again, but Seungmin continues.
“It’ll help me sleep better. Knowing.”
Felix’s eyes meet his again.
It baffles him a bit, how he even found out. He thought he was pretty secretive, using it only when he was all alone or late at night, like now.
Why did Seungmin care that he had one? And why does he want to see it so bad? He guesses, it shouldn’t be too weird then. They are close friends with many years behind. Plus, they’ve already done ‘weird’.
Felix nervously bites his bottom lip before letting out a soft sigh and turning his back to the boy and walking back over to his bed.
Seungmin follows right behind him.
His room is slightly messy, some clothes and shoes spread around the floor.
As he scans the mess; internally irking as he detests a mess,
he notices something.
By the side of his bed, over what seemed like the bottoms he was wearing earlier this evening, are the pretty cream tone panties.
The very ones that drove him to insanity.
Felix starts tossing around his mess of blankets, searching.
He had hid it so quickly he forgot where it was, but he finds it under his pillow along with a small tube of lube that was given with the package as a freebie.
He picks it up and turns to Seungmin.
“Uhm…here it is, haha…”
He chuckles nervously as he holds and shows it to the other boy.
Seungmin quickly looks up from staring at the panties on the ground to look at the object in Felix’s hand.
So he was right.
“I uh, got it so I didn’t have to bother you again. Felt, pretty bad, so I’m sorry. A-and sorry for apologizing just now, I know should’ve earlier, but I didn’t want to bring it up and you uncomfortable or whatever, heh.”
Seungmin’s eyes stayed glued at the toy held in Felix’s hands.
“ ’s okay.” He just says.
“Well, since you asked, what do you think?”
Felix chuckles.
“I really like it haha. It’s flexible and feels, good. Not too big but not small either, fits in nicely. Plus it’s pretty, I really like the transparent color and how simple it is. I mean there’s so many prettier ones out there, I hope to get them too someday. Were you interested in them too? I could show the site I got it from-“
“Is it better?” Seungmin interrupts Felix’s ramble.
“Huh?”
“Do you really like it better, than me?”
Felix nervously laughs.
“W-w, what are you taking about?”
Seungmin steps closer to Felix, looking straight at him again.
“Does it feel better, than me?”
Felix stammers and awkwardly chuckles under Seungmin’s gaze. Feeling so small.
He really has no idea how to respond. So he decides to stay quiet and avert his eyes.
Seungmin does not like that.
“Felix.”
He says deeply. Wanting the boy to look back at him.
Felix’s eyes flicker around his room before he slowly looks back up at the younger.
Once their faces align again, Seungmin can’t help himself.
He leans in and presses his lips softly against the older’s.
Felix freezes, registering what is going on.
Seungmin just kissed him.
Their lips stay pressed together for three full seconds before Seungmin pulls away, but the older quickly chases after him. Pressing their lips together again.
It surprises them both, but they’re equally so needy right now.
The kiss is deepened, lips part and tongues slip in. Felix sighs out a soft moan from the taste and feeling.
It feels so weird. Kissing a friend you’ve known and partially grown up with for a long time, but it also feels so good and right.
Felix starts to get touchy, running his hands over Seungmin’s chest before throwing them over his shoulders.
Seungmin places his hands on the older’s waist and hips, caressing him for a moment before pushing him back to fall onto the bed.
He keeps their lips connected while he hovers over Felix and takes a hold of his butt to push and align them more comfortably on the bed.
Felix just about squeals from feeling the younger’s hands gripping his ass and pushing him into a position. Never having expected the night to go this way.
Once they’re laid comfortably on Felix’s bed, Seungmin’s hands go up to feel and massage the boy’s thighs before gripping onto his shorts.
He tightly tugs on them and they easily slip off.
Seungmin breaks away from kissing to quickly peak down as he pulls off the shorts, revealing that Felix was bare under. Something he definitely suspected already.
His lips curl into a small smirk before pressing them back against Felix’s.
The shorts stop just at Felix’s knees, Seungmin’s hands go up and down caressing the older’s thighs. When they go back up he thumbs go over the pussy lips.
Felix moans into the younger’s mouth.
He spreads his legs slightly, inviting the other boy to touch more.
Seungmin keeps one hand on Felix’s hip as he lowers his second hand to go over the pussy again, his thumb going over the flaps and enlarged clit.
Felix moans again and squirms a little, wanting more.
Seungmin glides his thumb over the clit again before dipping into the entrance. It slips in easily, due to already being drenched and stretched.
He slips his thumb back out and spreads the slick over the pussy.
Seungmin slips his thumb teasingly in and out of Felix.
What if he went to pick up the panties from the floor, wave them around to acknowledge their existence in front of Felix. He’d love to tease him with them, rub the fabric over his clit. Then stuff it into his cunt, pushing them deeper in until only just a bit peaking out. Rubbing over Felix to make him cum and drench the panties stuffed in him, so the younger could suck and clean them off after.
The thought makes Seungmin moan, his eyebrows furrowed and a dick twitching in his pants. He’s so painfully hard.
Felix has never heard Seungmin make such a noise. Only some grunts and groans, but a whole moan?
It has him leaking more. Feeling proud that he’s able to have Seungmin make such a noise.
Seungmin brings up his middle and ring finger to rub over the cunt, spreading more of the slick before dipping them both into the boy.
They slip in so easily, Felix is slick and stretched. Seungmin’s fingers feel around the inside of the pussy again, getting nice whines and moans out of the older.
Seungmin backs away slightly to get a better look at Felix’s expression. It’s so hot, now that there are lights in the room for him to actually see.
But then he notices it again. The dildo, lying right beside the boy’s head.
Right, thats why he’s already stretched out. He was using it before Seungmin came in and disrupted him.
Seungmin pulls his fingers out of the pussy.
Felix begins to whine loudly, looking back at Seungmin and wondering why he stopped touching him.
Before he could ask, Seungmin reaches over to pick up the dildo. Felix had forgotten all about it too.
Seungmin brings the toy closer, inspecting it in his hands.
Felix whines in confusion and wants to ask what he’s doing, but Seungmin speaks before he attempts to.
“Must be pretty good, huh?”
Seungmin tilts his head as he waves the toy around.
Felix watches with a confused expression.
Seungmin then brings the toy closer to the older’s face, letting it tap against his lips.
“Tongue.”
Felix obeys, slowly opening and sticking out his tongue for Seungmin.
The dildo gets pressed against his tongue. Felix closes his lips around it, mouthing on the tip.
He opens and sticks his tongue all the way out, letting Seungmin glide the toy over it, getting it coated in saliva.
Felix groans and moans as he tastes himself off of it.
The younger pushes the toy deeper into the boy’s mouth. His lips close around it as he wraps his tongue around creating more saliva. It presses against the inside of his cheek.
Seungmin then pulls it out without warning. Theres a string of saliva connecting the toy and Felix’s bottom lip as he gasps.
Seungmin softly groans.
“You really like being filled up don’t you. How many times have you used it already?”
He brings the dildo lower and in between Felix’s legs, lining it up to his entrance.
The older stutters and whines, unable to answer the question. Already feeling drunk from arousal.
“Well, since you like it so much, better use it than right?”
Seungmin then pushes the dildo deep into Felix’s pussy.
“OOH-! NGHAHH-!“
Moans are pushed out of him.
Seungmin slips it out, leaving just the tip before pushing back in. Creating a merciless rhythm.
The sweet music of wet slick and cried moans fill the room. Seungmin’s dick continuously twitches, aching and begging to be touched. To replace the toy and feel Felix’s warm grip around it.
He slams the toy faster into Felix’s cunt.
“A-ang! Ani-hah, hahh, waeee. Ah! Ah, ah, I-I, fuck! Hmmng!”
Felix cries and babbles between Korean and English.
Seungmin loves it, how much of a mess Felix can become from his touch. But it’s not just him, it’s the toy doing the work. Still, his noises bring him closer and closer to spilling in his pants again.
He figures Felix should be getting close too.
Seungmin leans back down and shuts Felix up by kissing him.
Felix sloppily kisses back while moaning into the younger’s mouth.
His moans then become higher pitched, which Seungmin knows is a sign that he’s close. So he doesn’t stop his movements.
Felix arches himself up a bit as he lets out a long high moan, slightly shaking as he orgasms. Seungmin finally slows down then completely stops once Felix’s lays his body back down flat, then pulls himself away from his face.
He takes one long look at the boy, his mouth a shade of red with a mess of spit and drool, his chest heaving, and in between his legs he keeps the toy stuffed.
Seungmin shutters to himself as he gets off the boy and off the bed. He walks out the room and slams the door shut, leaning himself onto it.
His own chest begins to rise and shrink, body shaking just a bit.
He pulls his bottoms down allowing his aching dick to spring out. He wraps a hand around it and starts stroking vigorously until he’s spilling right onto himself and some of the floor as well.
On the other side Felix lays still, catching his breath.
He clenches allowing the toy to be pushed out of him. It leaves his cunt with a slippery sound that makes him whine once feeling empty again.
He cant help but have a smile on his face.
Who knew, he really drove Seungmin crazy enough to become jealous of a sex toy.
It’s funny, but also adorable. His silly puppy. He wont ever let this go, and actually, hopes he can make him jealous again.