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Pran is an overthinker. It has never been more apparent than now when Pran and Pat are going to spend their first rut together, as he flip flops between his overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
Earlier, Pran went to the supermarket to stock up on food for Pat. Pat had promise there were enough condoms (which turned out to be false as he would find out later). Pran made sure to get enough supplements and ointments too, just in case. He had also told Wai that he's not feeling well and will be taking the next two days off, and would need his notes for the lectures.
As he reached the hallway, he considered on knocking on Pat's door, before deciding against it. He placed the bag of food and supplies on Pat's door knob and retreats into his own room. He texts Pat and within seconds later, Pran hears the door opening and closing across the hallway.
"Thank you baby." Was Pat's reply.
Pran calls Pat, which he picks up immediately.
"Hi." Pran feels so lame with this starter.
"Hi."
"Have you finished your homework?"
"Yes."
"That's good. Remember to keep the items I passed you properly."
"Hmm" Pat hums through his reply as there were soft noises in the background, indicating that he is moving around.
"How are you feeling?" Pran asks cautiously.
"It wasn't like this earlier today, but I feel the intensity has increased now. Its almost here."
"Keep a water bottle besides your bed. Stay hydrated and rest lots." Pran tries to muster up his calm voice hoping to give Pat some comfort.
"I will... Pran?"
"Hmm?"
"Can you stay on the phone with me? Until we fall asleep." Pat's voice is small.
"Ya of course. Turn on your video."
Pat and Pran started a video call, placing their phones on the table as Pat goes through the room to prepare his rut.
"I got extra pillows." Pat looks extra proud as he shows off his mountain of pillows. "For you."
"Hope they are soft. I have high standards." Pran laughs.
Pat shows off his huge stash of lube. "Don't worry, we won't run out." Pat made sure of having enough lube supply, he would never want to even risk hurting Pran.
"Yesterday, I went to the market and got your favourite ice cream." Pat proudly shows is fridge freezer.
"Wow, you went to the market to get ice cream but you only have instant noodles in your kitchen." Pran replies which only leads to a pout from Pat. So many things for me, where are the things for you? Pran feels warm in his chest when he realised that Pat's preparation is mainly trying to keep Pran as comfortable as possible.
They try to keep the conversation light but he can see how anxious and nervous Pat is becoming as the clock ticks by. He can see the pacing around and restless hands. Pran wants nothing more than to be able to cuddle Pat and in turn Pat to comfort Pran - but he can't. He's also an Alpha and his scent might cause Pat to become more territorial.
They had done some research online and it seemed like every Alpha couple experience it differently. Pat had been particularly worried about how some might attack their Alpha partners, seeing them as threats. And Pran would be lying if he says he is not worried too.
He had a fleeting thought of how he wishes he could be an omega for Pat, but the thought is instantly gone. Pran would never wish to be someone else, he is who he is, and he loves himself. And he knows its the same for Pat too.
Pran is also feeling anxious about the upcoming time he will spend with Pat. Being an Alpha himself, he knows how aggressive ruts can get. The two of them are still in the early stages of exploring sexual intimacy. He remembers their first time together, not too long ago. Their awkward fumbling, knocking limbs, and it was over all too fast. They have gotten more comfortable over the last months but it has been nothing too crazy, they haven't even explored their kinks yet. And now, Pat's rut will probably be aggressive, will probably be a different dynamic. He wonders if he can satisfy Pat in the same way an omega can.
He pushes his worries and thoughts down as hard as possible as he tries to recollect himself as Pat continues to engage him in a conversation.
"I might not be gentle. I may forget to kiss you." Pat says, trying to joke but ended up sounding guilty over something that has not even happened.
Pat knows Pran loves the intimacy that happens during sex. He loves interlocking their fingers together, go slow, look into each other's eyes, feeling the emotions that transmits between them. Pran finally got the guy of his dreams, of course he wants to cherish these moments.
Sex is still new to them, they want to learn more so they take their time. Rough and quick fucks are even fewer, but its not like Pran hates it, as long as its with Pat. However, ruts are different, its hormones-driven, its hazy, its hard, its fast, as he had personally experienced in his own ruts. Pat has often been his jerking off material in his mind in his previous ruts (and almost all other times, but he refuses to admit that out loud). But that was just merely imagination. Now they get to physically touch and smell each other. Pran thinks back about how rough he had been with his own hands and toys as he aggressively jerks off in his own ruts.
Pran's hesitation is caught by Pat, who adds, "But I will kiss you lots whenever I'm done with a wave! I will! I promise! I will take care of you in between, treat you like my Nong Noo. Make sure you can have enough rest. I will bring you food and take you to the bathroom. I will -"
"Pat." Pran laughs, maybe he worries too much - Pat is still the Pat he knows. Maybe he will be a little bit rougher on him than usual. Maybe he will feel like attacking Pran, the other Alpha in his room. But at the end of the day, Pat won't hurt him, he would rather Pran tie up his hands and legs first. Pran had slightly lost his composure when he first saw the rope that Pat purchased. And Pran won't tie him up because they cherish each other too much. And as though sensing that, Pat continues to reassure Pran,
"You can kick me or hit me or throw me off! Just like that flying kick when we first met again in university!"
"We'll see." Pran smiles, this has been the Pat he knows. Always.
"I will be in your care." Pran says softly, earning a smile from Pat,
"That should be my line! You will take care of me soooooo good!"
"I think I should be the one taken care of I - "
They bicker over stupid bets. They laugh over meaningless things. They talk about serious conversations on their upcoming time together. All at the same time. They set their boundaries properly and talk about their worries. It eases some of the nervousness Pran has, and the weight in his stomach feels lighter.
As the conversation continues, Pran has a slight awareness that it is almost as if Pat is trying to distract Pran from his own thoughts, trying to keep him company in anticipation for the next day.
They watched a movie over the video call together. It had seemed to natural to video call each other (almost like they are preparing for a future event that will necessitate this). Pat grows increasingly restless throughout and decides that perhaps he should sleep it off. Before he heads to bed, Pat places his hand on his neck and looks away as he says, "I think my rut will arrive tomorrow. Just come in. Don't knock."
Pran's heart beats faster and the weight of Pat's room key feels heavier in his pocket. It is all too real and it is happening. Pran can't back down now so he swallows, "See you tomorrow."
After Pran says goodbye to a Pat that is tucked into bed (without Nong Nao *gasps*), Pran ends the call and tries to go to sleep with a sense of uneasiness.
When Pran wakes up early the next day, he checks to see if there's any new messages from Pat. He laughs at himself once he realised that its probably too early for his boyfriend to be awake.
Pran decides to take a cold shower to clear his overthinking mind. He takes the lube to the bathroom as he tries to prepare for Pat. He understands the urgency that a rutting Alpha might feel, and he wouldn't want to be unprepared.
Pran has never fingered himself before, usually Pat would insist on doing it, enjoying Pran's reactions. Pran takes his time opening himself up, imagining Pat's fingers on him. He wants to be gentle with himself but as his imagination grows, he gets rougher. He feels an equal sense of excitement and uneasiness as he thinks about Pat's ruts. How is Pat like in a rut? Will his personality change? Don't be stupid, he is still him. Just like I am still me.
Well, apparently the shower does nothing for his overthinking. He rinses himself off and takes an embarrassing amount of time to decide if he should wear boxers. He decides to wear it, for his own sake. He opted for wearing loose sweatpants and steps towards his bathroom cupboard.
He opens it to find the can of scent blocker spray he bought sometime back when they first started dating. They didn't want others to find out about their relationship, so Pran bought the scent blocker that will effectively mask any scent on him, given that Pat was practically hanging off of him 24/7.
But Pran knows that Pat has a scent kink - it was too obvious for him to not notice given how Pat keeps stealing his t-shirts and punching Pran's neck with his nose at any chance he has. He can't stand the subtle (not really subtle) upset pouts Pat does whenever he used his scent blocker, making it impossible to smell anything at all. So Pran switched to buying normal cologne instead. Its slightly pricier given that Pran has to spray heavier doses to mask his scent from outsiders. However, it doesn't completely mask his scent (and Pat's scent on him), as the scent is still there if someone nuzzles into his neck and nape to smell it. The only one that Pran allows to do that was Pat (and Wai once but Pran threatened to kick him and he never does it again). The price tag was worth it when he sees Pat's smile that reaches his eyes.
This time however, he doesn't want to risk it. He sprays the scent blocker on him to get rid of his Alpha scent. He doesn't want to cause Pat anymore distress. He keeps the spray can into his tote bag, ready to bring over to Pat's room.
He looks at the clock and decides to cook some breakfast for the two of them. He packs it into the container and texts Pat.
"Are you awake?"
Pran sits on his couch as he waits for Pat's reply. It was some of the longest 10 minutes of his life as he fists into his pants. He packed extra clothes just in case (which will turn out to be completely useless).
He distracts himself with mindlessly flipping over his sketches. It works for a while as he looks through sketches that reminds him of Pat. He reminds himself of all the good memories and good qualities of Pat. He can't believe his years of unrequited love and unrelenting pining has been rewarded by the best boyfriend in the world. He almost pinches himself to remind himself of the realness that is Pat, that he has reciprocated his love, that they are now even spending their ruts together, and possibly forever - he won't tell Pat this, he is already smug enough.
Finally, his phone pings and Pran shot up from the chair reflexively. He heads over to the couch to grab his phone, breathing deeply once before looking at his screen,
"Its here"
His heart beats faster as he flexes his fingers. He grabs his bag and heads out his door.
He almost knocks on the door but remembered Pat has given him permission to just go in. By now, the uneasiness in his stomach has dissipated and his excitement level has taken over.
He stills his heart (and fails) and turns the door knob.