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Jisung has been staring at the same line in his textbook for what feels like forever. The words refuse to sink in, swimming across the page in a blur of black ink and yellow highlighter. His desk is a disaster of open books, crumpled sticky notes, and a half-empty cup of coffee that went cold hours ago. The small lamp in the corner of the room casts a warm, focused pool of light over everything, but it does nothing to help his concentration. Outside the window, the city hums with distant traffic, but inside, it is quiet except for the occasional scratch of his pen when he forces himself to take a note.
His bladder has been sending increasingly urgent signals for the last hour and a half. He has drunk too much water, and now the pressure is a constant, low ache in his belly that he keeps trying to ignore. Just finish this chapter, he had told himself over and over. Then you can go. But the chapter turned into two, and then the practice questions, and now his thighs are pressed tightly together under the desk, one foot tapping restlessly against the leg of the chair. He shifts again, wincing as the movement makes the need spike sharply for a second.
He is so focused on holding it and forcing his eyes to stay on the page that he doesn't hear the soft footsteps behind him until arms slide around his shoulders from behind. Warm breath ghosts over the side of his neck, followed by the familiar press of lips just below his ear.
"Still at it?" Minho's voice is low. His chest is solid against Jisung's back, and one hand is already drifting lower, fingertips tracing idle patterns over Jisung's stomach through his shirt.
Jisung startles, his pen slipping from his fingers and rolling across the desk. "Minho—hey. I didn't hear you come in." His voice comes out tighter than he means it to, strained around the edges from how full he feels. He tries to sit up straighter, but Minho's arms only tighten, pulling him back against the chair and his warm body.
"You've been hunched over this desk since I got home," Minho murmurs, lips brushing the sensitive skin of Jisung's neck again, slower this time, lingering. "Hours, Jisung. Your back is probably screaming." Another kiss, this one open-mouthed, the barest hint of teeth. "And you're squirming like you can't sit still. What's wrong, baby?"
Jisung's face heats immediately. He knows that tone. Knows exactly what Minho is doing, and his body is already reacting even though his mind is still trying to cling to the idea of studying. "I'm fine. I just... I need to finish this section. Midterms are next week and I—ah—"
Minho's hand slips lower, palm pressing deliberately against the front of Jisung's sweatpants, right over the growing half-hard line of his cock. The touch is slow, possessive, and Jisung's hips jerk forward into it before he can stop himself.
"Minho, seriously," Jisung tries again, but it comes out breathy, weak. "I have to study. You can't just—"
"I can," Minho says simply, and there is a smile in his voice now, that quiet, pleased curve that always makes Jisung's stomach twist with a complicated mix of embarrassment and heat. Minho's fingers rub a little firmer, tracing the shape of him through the fabric. "You've been such a good student all evening. I think you deserve a break, don't you?"
Jisung bites his lip hard, trying to keep the sound that wants to escape locked behind his teeth. It doesn't work. A small, shaky exhale leaves him as Minho's hand strokes him more deliberately, coaxing him to full hardness too easily. This is always how it starts. Minho knows exactly how to touch him, exactly where to press, exactly how to make Jisung's brain short-circuit even when he is trying so hard to focus on something else. It's humiliating how quickly his body betrays him.
"I—I can't," Jisung manages, though the protest sounds pathetic even to his own ears. His cock is fully hard now, straining against Minho's palm, and every slow stroke sends sparks up his spine that make it harder to remember why he is supposed to be resisting. "The exam—"
"The exam will still be there in an hour," Minho says against his neck, voice dropping lower. He nips at the tendon there, then soothes it with his tongue. "Right now, I want you. Been thinking about you all day. Thinking about how pretty you look when you're trying so hard to be good and focused and I get to ruin it."
Jisung's breath hitches. The words land exactly where Minho knows they will—deep in that part of him that still feels shy and inexperienced even after months with Minho. He had been a virgin when they met, sheltered in ways that made him blush at the slightest innuendo. Minho had been patient, but he had also been relentless in the best and most overwhelming ways, introducing Jisung to sensations and feelings he had never let himself imagine before. And somewhere along the way, Minho had figured out that Jisung's embarrassment, his shyness, the way he still sometimes cries when things get too intense… Minho likes that a lot.
The first time Minho made him come, Jisung sobbed through it, overwhelmed and mortified by how hard his body shook and how much noise he made. Minho held him through it, kissed his wet cheeks, and told him he was perfect, but there had been something dark and satisfied in his eyes that Jisung has never forgotten. Minho likes seeing him like that—stripped of any control, flushed and trembling and so, so embarrassed about it.
And now Minho is doing it again, right here at his desk, with Jisung's textbooks still open in front of him.
Minho's other hand slides up under Jisung's shirt, palm warm against his stomach, then higher to brush over one nipple. Jisung jerks, a soft sound escaping him. His cock twitches in Minho's hand.
"That's it," Minho murmurs, approving. "Let me hear you. You've been so quiet all night. I missed your voice."
Jisung's face burns hotter. He glances toward the window even though the curtains are drawn, as if someone might see even though they are alone in the apartment. It's ridiculous. He knows it's ridiculous. But the shame still curls low in his belly, mixing with the arousal until he can't tell them apart.
"Minho, please," he whispers, not sure if he's asking Minho to stop or keep going. His hips are moving now, small, involuntary rolls into Minho's hand. The pressure in his bladder is still there, still insistent, but it's getting harder to focus on anything except the rhythm of Minho's palm and the way Minho's mouth is working over his neck, leaving marks that will still be visible tomorrow.
Minho hums against his skin, then pulls back just enough to spin Jisung's chair around. Jisung finds himself face to face with him, Minho's eyes dark and intent, plush lips slightly parted. Before Jisung can say anything, Minho is kissing him—deep and slow and thorough, one hand still working between Jisung's legs while the other cups the back of his neck, holding him in place.
Jisung melts into it the way he always does. His hands come up to clutch at Minho's shoulders, fingers digging into the fabric of his shirt. The kiss tastes like the pudding Minho was eating earlier, and underneath that, something warmer, more familiar. When Minho finally pulls back, Jisung is panting, lips wet and tingling.
"Stand up," Minho says quietly.
Jisung's legs feel unsteady when he obeys. Minho guides him up and turns him around again, pressing him forward until his hips meet the edge of the desk. Books and papers shift under his hands as Minho bends him over it, one palm between Jisung's shoulder blades. The position makes Jisung's face flame all over again—bent over his own study materials, ass presented, Minho's body crowding in behind him.
"Minho—" he starts, voice cracking.
"Shh." Minho's hands are already at the waistband of Jisung's sweatpants, tugging them down along with his underwear in one smooth motion. The cool air hits Jisung's heated skin, and he shivers. His cock hangs heavy between his legs, and he can feel how wet the head already is, a bead of precum dripping slowly onto the floor. "Look at you. Already so hard for me and I barely touched you."
Jisung buries his face in his arms, mortified. He can hear the smile in Minho's voice, that fond, teasing edge that always makes him feel small and exposed in the best way. "I was trying to study," he mumbles into his sleeve, the words muffled and pathetic.
"I know." Minho's hand smooths over the curve of Jisung's ass, squeezing gently. "And now you're going to let me use you instead. Because that's what you need, isn't it? My shy little toy, all worked up and trying so hard to pretend you don't want this."
Jisung's cock twitches at the words. He hates how much they affect him, how they make heat pool low in his belly and his hole clench around nothing. He had never been like this before Minho. But Minho has a way of pulling it out of him, of making him want to be good, to be used, even when his brain is screaming that he should be embarrassed.
Minho reaches past him, and Jisung hears the soft click of a drawer opening—the one where they keep lube for exactly this kind of spontaneous moment. There is the sound of a cap, then slick fingers pressing between Jisung's cheeks, circling his hole with practiced ease.
Jisung gasps, hips jerking forward against the desk. The touch is cool and wet and perfect, and when one finger pushes inside, he can't stop the low moan that tears from his throat.
"There you go," Minho says softly, almost soothing. He works the finger in and out slowly, then adds a second, scissoring gently to open him up. It burns a little, but it's the good kind of burn, the kind that makes Jisung's toes curl in his socks. "Relax for me, baby. Let me in."
Jisung tries. He really does. But his body is tense from holding his bladder, and every time Minho's fingers brush that spot inside him, the pressure spikes sharply. The need to pee is getting worse, mixing with the pleasure in a way that makes his head spin.
"Minho," he says, voice small. "I… I really need to go to the bathroom. Like, actually. I drank too much water and I've been holding it and—"
Minho's fingers still for a second, then push deeper, curling deliberately against Jisung's prostate. Jisung cries out, his cock leaking a fresh spurt of precum onto the floor.
"I know," Minho says, and there is something darker in his voice now that makes Jisung's stomach flip. "I can feel how full you are. You're clenching so tight around my fingers." He leans down, chest pressing against Jisung's back, mouth right by his ear. "But you're not going anywhere."
Jisung's breath catches. "But—Minho, please, I really have to—"
"No." Minho's voice is firm the way it gets when he's in this mood. He pulls his fingers out, and Jisung hears the rustle of clothing, the sound of a zipper. Then the blunt, hot press of Minho's cock against his hole, slick with lube. "You're going to stay right here and take it, because you're my toy right now, Jisung. And toys don't get bathroom breaks when their owner wants to use them."
Jisung's face burns so hot he thinks he might combust, and his eyes sting with sudden tears—not from pain, but the overwhelming rush of humiliation and arousal that crashes through him. Minho has done this before, pushed his boundaries, made him confront things that make him shy and squirmy and desperate. But this is new. This deliberate denial, this refusal to let him go when he needs something so basic… it's humiliating in a way that makes his cock throb and his hole flutter.
Minho pushes in slowly, not stopping until he is buried to the hilt. Jisung's mouth falls open on a silent cry. The stretch is intense, and the pressure on his bladder from this angle is immediate and almost unbearable. Every inch of Minho's cock seems to press right against the full, aching place inside of him, and Jisung's legs shake with the effort of holding everything in.
"Fuck," Minho breathes, hands gripping Jisung's hips hard enough to bruise. "You're so tight like this. Can feel how bad you need to go. You're squeezing me so good, baby."
Jisung can't speak. His fingers scrabble at the desk, knocking papers to the floor. His vision blurs with unshed tears. The dual sensations—Minho thick and hot inside him, the desperate, cramping need to pee—are too much. He feels split open, exposed, and so ashamed of how much his body is responding.
Minho starts to move, slow, deep thrusts that rock Jisung forward against the desk with every roll of his hips. Each one makes the pressure in Jisung's bladder spike, and he clenches down instinctively, trying to hold it. The clenching only makes Minho groan and thrust harder.
"Minho, please," Jisung gasps. "I can't—I really can't hold it if you keep—ah—doing that."
Minho's hand slides around to wrap around Jisung's cock, stroking him in time with his thrusts. "Yes, you can. You're going to hold it for me like a good toy. I want to feel you struggling. I want to feel you trying so hard not to make a mess while I fuck you."
Jisung sobs, the sound muffled against his arm. Tears spill over, hot on his cheeks. He's crying from the humiliation, from the overwhelming pleasure, from the desperate, burning need to pee that is getting harder and harder to control with every thrust. His cock is leaking steadily now, both precum and the first terrifying hint of something else.
Minho notices. His hand slows on Jisung's cock, thumb swiping over the head. "Oh, baby. Are you leaking already? Can't hold it?"
Jisung shakes his head frantically, even as another small spurt escapes him, wetting Minho's fingers. "I'm trying," he chokes out. "I'm trying so hard. Please, Minho, please let me go to the bathroom. I can't—I'm going to—"
"No." Minho's voice is gentle but unyielding. He thrusts deeper, angling so that every stroke drags right over Jisung's prostate. "You're going to hold it. And you're going to cum for me while you do it. I want to feel you fall apart on my cock, all desperate and humiliated and so fucking pretty."
Jisung's whole body is shaking now. His thighs tremble, his arms ache from gripping the desk, and his bladder feels like it's going to burst. Every thrust sends a jolt of almost painful pressure through him, and the pleasure is building anyway, coiling tight in his belly despite everything—or maybe because of it. He doesn't even know anymore. All he knows is that Minho is using him exactly like he said—like a toy, something to be played with and filled and denied—and Jisung is getting off on it, even as tears streak his face and his voice breaks on every plea.
"Minho," he whimpers, "I can't hold it anymore. I'm going to pee. Please, please, I need to—"
Minho's hand tightens on his cock, stroking faster. "Then hold it until I say you can let go. Be good for me, Jisung. Just a little longer."
Jisung doesn't think he can. The pressure is cresting, white-hot and unbearable, and Minho's cock keeps hitting that spot inside him. His orgasm is building too, that familiar tight coil in his gut, and the two sensations are tangling together until he can't tell where one ends and the other begins.
He's going to come. He's going to pee. He's going to do both at the same time, bent over his desk with his boyfriend's cock buried inside him, and the thought is so humiliating, so overwhelming, that fresh tears spill down his cheeks.
"Minho," he sobs, "I'm—I'm going to—"
"Let go," Minho says, voice rough and commanding. "Come for me. If you can't hold it, then don't."
The permission—or the order—breaks something in Jisung. His orgasm crashes over him hard, his cock pulsing in Minho's hand as he comes in thick, messy spurts across the floor and Minho's fingers. And with it goes the last of his control.
Warmth floods out of him, uncontrollable, soaking his thighs, pants, and the floor beneath him. Jisung wails, mortified and overwhelmed and still coming through it, his body clenching and releasing in helpless waves. The sound of it—liquid hitting the floor, the wet heat of it—is obscene, and Jisung buries his face in his arms, sobbing through the aftershocks.
Minho groans behind him, hips stuttering. "Fuck, Jisung—yes, just like that. Let it all go. Such a good toy for me." He thrusts a few more times, hard and deep, and then he is coming too, filling Jisung up with a low, satisfied groan.
For a long moment, the only sounds in the room are their ragged breathing and the soft, shameful drip of liquid onto the floor. Jisung is still crying, small, hiccuping sobs that he can't seem to stop. His face is hot and wet, his body trembling.
Minho stays inside him for a moment longer, then carefully pulls out. Jisung feels the mess of lube and cum dripping down his thighs. He can't bring himself to move. Can't bring himself to look at the puddle on the floor or the ruined papers that have fallen there.
Minho's hands are gentle as they turn him around, pulling him into a standing embrace. Jisung goes willingly, hiding his face in Minho's shoulder, still shaking.
"Shh," Minho murmurs, one hand stroking up and down Jisung's back. "You did so good, baby. So perfect for me. I know that was a lot. I've got you."
Jisung clings to him, fingers twisted in Minho's shirt. "I peed," he whispers, voice small and broken. "On the floor. While you were—while I was—"
"I know." Minho's voice is warm and fond, with no trace of judgment. "And it was beautiful. You were beautiful. All desperate and shy and letting me see you like that." He pulls back just enough to cup Jisung's face, thumbs wiping away the tears. "Did you hate it?"
Jisung hesitates. His body feels wrung out, empty in the best way, and the humiliation is still there, lingering low in his belly. But underneath is something warm and satisfied and safe. Minho always makes him feel safe, even when he is pushing Jisung to his edges.
"No," he admits quietly. "I didn't hate it. It was… a lot. But I liked it, I think." His face burns again. "I don't know why I like it when you make me feel like that."
Minho smiles, soft and a little crooked, and kisses Jisung's forehead. "You don't have to know why. You just have to tell me if it's too much. Was it too much?"
Jisung shakes his head. "No. It was… good. In a weird, humiliating way." He manages a watery laugh. "You're kind of mean sometimes."
Minho's smile widens. "Only because you like it." He kisses Jisung properly then, slow and sweet, and Jisung melts into it, the last of the tension draining out of him.
When they pull apart, Minho glances down at the mess on the floor and the state of Jisung's clothes. "Come on, let's get you cleaned up. Shower, then I'll get you something to eat, and you can decide if you still want to study or if you're done for the night."
Jisung nods, letting Minho guide him toward the bathroom. His legs are still shaky, and he leans into Minho's side, feeling small and cared for and thoroughly used.
In the bathroom, Minho turns on the shower and helps Jisung out of his clothes, then strips his own. The water is warm when they step in, and Minho takes his time washing Jisung—gentle hands soaping his skin, rinsing away the evidence of what happened, murmuring soft praises the whole time. Jisung lets himself be taken care of, eyes half closed, body pliant.
When they are clean and dry, Minho wraps Jisung in a towel and pulls him close again. "Proud of you," he says quietly. "For trusting me."
Jisung's chest feels tight. He presses his face into Minho's neck. "Thank you. For… for knowing what I need even when I don't."
Minho hums, kissing the top of his head. "Always."
Minho keeps a hand on his back for another moment before pulling away enough to look at him. "Stay here for a second, okay? I'm going to clean up."
Jisung stiffens. "I can help."
"You can sit down," Minho says gently. "Your legs are shaking."
Jisung looks away, embarrassed because it's true. Minho does not make him argue for it. He helps him into one of his oversized hoodies, guides him to sit down on the closed toilet lid, then goes back out with a towel and the bottle of cleaner from under the sink.
Jisung hears him moving around in the other room: papers being gathered, the chair rolled aside, the quiet spray of cleaner against the floor. The shame pricks at him again, sharper now that the heat of the moment has passed. It's one thing to fall apart while Minho is touching him, but it's another to sit here clean and wrapped up while Minho wipes up the evidence of it.
After a few minutes, Minho comes back to toss the towel in the laundry basket. "The floor's clean," he says. "I threw out the papers that were on the floor. Your textbooks are fine."
Jisung swallows. "Sorry."
Minho's expression softens immediately. "Don't apologize for that."
"It's still embarrassing."
"I know." Minho crouches in front of him, resting his hands on Jisung's knees. "But I don't want you sitting here feeling bad about it. I pushed you there because we both wanted it. I'm not going to act like cleanup is suddenly a punishment."
Jisung looks at him then, something in his chest loosening.
They end up on the couch, Jisung curled against Minho's side while Minho orders takeout on his phone. Jisung's textbooks are still on the desk in the other room, and he should really be studying, but Jisung finds he doesn't care as much as he would expect. There will be time to study tomorrow. Right now, he's warm and safe and worn out, and Minho's hand is carding gently through his hair.
"Hey," Minho says after a while, voice soft. "Still with me?"
Jisung flushes, but he nods. "Yeah."
Minho smiles against his hair. "Good boy."
twt: @neme_sisK