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The world had gone quiet.
Not truly quiet.
Arthur could still hear things.
The wind moving through the pines. The distant cry of a hawk somewhere high above. The rustle of grass as the evening breeze rolled across the mountainside. But it all sounded far away now. Like he was hearing it from the bottom of a deep river.
Arthur Morgan lay on his back against the hillside. His chest rose.
Fell.
Rose.
Fell.
Every breath felt harder than the last. His lungs burned. The ache that had lived inside him for months had finally won. The fight was over.
For the first time in a long while, Arthur wasn’t scared. Just tired, he was so damn tired.
His eyes drifted toward the sky. The sunset painted the clouds gold and red, a beautiful sight, truly.
Funny. He’d spent most of his life too busy robbing somebody or running from somebody to stop and look at a sunset. A weak chuckle rattled in his throat before turning into a cough, blood stained his lips.
Arthur closed his eyes, the world began to change.
He was a boy again, real young.
Maybe four, maybe five.
The details didn’t matter.
His mother sat beside a fire, smiling, a face he’d nearly forgotten. Yet now he could see every detail. The lines around her eyes, the warmth in her expression, the way she looked at him.
Like he mattered, like he was worth something.
Arthur wanted to say something. Anything.
But the memory moved on before he could. Like pages turning in a book. His father appeared.
Angry. Drunk. Mean.
The old bitterness stirred inside Arthur. Even now. Even at the end.
He remembered being scared, hungry, cold.
He remembered the beatings, the shouting, the loneliness.
Then another page turned.
A younger Hosea filled his mind, accomplices with a younger Dutch.
A campfire.
Three figures sitting beneath the stars.
Arthur remembered how hopeful he’d been. How much he’d believed. Back then the world had seemed simple.
They were going to be free. Build something. Become something.
Dutch had spoken about a better world. Arthur had believed every word.
The memory shifted. Years passed in moments. Robberies flooded through, shootouts.
Then another page turned. Campfires, laughter.
Oh so much laughter.
Sean grinning like a fool, Lenny making everyone laugh, Charles sitting quietly by the fire, Uncle snoring, Pearson stirring a pot, Tilly, Karen, Mary-Beth.
Many a people that were gone now. Their faces swallowed by time.
Arthur watched them all, for a moment his heart ached. Not from the sickness, but rather from loss. So many people, oh so many graves.
The world shifted again.
Eliza. Arthur’s breath caught, yet there she was.
Standing in the sunlight, just as beautiful as he’d remembered.
Isaac stood beside her. A little boy. His son.
His boy.
Arthur stared, unable to look away.
The memory hurt more than any bullet he’d ever taken.
He remembered the little gifts, his visits.
The awkward smiles, the dreams he’d never said out loud.
Maybe one day. Maybe he’d leave this life. Maybe he’d be a father. Maybe he’d be better.
Then came the memory he hated most.
The tiny grave, the blood, the silence.
The realization that he had arrived too late.
He was always too late.
Arthur felt tears sliding down his cheeks.
“I was sorry,” he whispered. His voice barely existed. “Never won’t be.”
The figures smiled anyway, then as suddenly as they appeared, they were gone.
Darkness rolled through the memory. Gunfire. Screaming. People he’d hurt. People he’d killed. Dozens. Hundreds. Thousands.
Arthur saw faces. Some he remembered. Most he didn’t, store clerks, guards, other outlaws, lawmen.
Men who had deserved it, most men who probably hadn’t.
The weight of them settled on his shoulders. A lifetime of violence. A lifetime of blood.
He wished he could take some of it back. Not all, some men had needed killing, but not all of them. Not even close to all of them.
He thought of the families. The wives, the children, the empty chairs left behind, the lives ended because Arthur Morgan had squeezed a trigger.
Regret filled him. Not fear, not even guilt, just regret.
The knowledge that he’d been given one life, only given one chance.
And he’d spent too much of it angry, far toward much of it blind.
Then came the better memories. Helping strangers, saving lives.
The people he’d aided simply because it was right. John. Abigail. Jack. The other folk he’d tried to protect.
The folks he’d helped without asking for anything in return. Small things. Meaningless things. Yet somehow those memories shined brighter than all the robberies and gunfights. Funny how that worked. At the end, nobody remembered the money. Nobody remembered the score.
What stayed was kindness.
The moments when he’d chosen to be better. Arthur smiled faintly, maybe that meant something, maybe it didn’t, but he hoped it did.
The world around him dissolved completely, the mountain faded, the sky disappeared.
Everything became a vast endless light.
Yet Arthur found he wasn’t afraid.
He felt light, lighter than he had in years. The coughing was gone. The pain was gone. The weight was gone. He stood alone in the light.
Watching pieces of his life drift past like lanterns floating down a river. Every mistake, every victory, every loss, every person he’d loved, every person he’d failed, every person he’d become.
The lanterns slowly drifted away.
One by one, until only a single light remained. A distant glow waiting somewhere ahead.
Arthur looked at it.
Then he took a step forward, then another, and another. The light welcomed him.
The light grew brighter, warmer, familiar.
Like coming home after a very long journey.