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But if you hold me without hurting me
You'll be the first who ever did
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"They're pathetic"
Jiraiya's voice rang through the small bathroom and Tsunade felt her stomach twist in an instant, there he was, months without him and they had to meet on a time like this, on a cramped small bathroom, the space too little that there's nowhere for her to run, to hide all what she's feeling inside
Tsunade had been summoned to the feudal lord's palace because of recent events, the akatsuki attacks, Hiruku most of all, had caused trouble that the Hokage needs to explain the leaf's innocence and loyalty to the five great nations, Tsunade thinks for the most part, had handled the situation well, all the baseless accusations, baseless rumors, kudeta over and over again she have to clarify that the ninja's who had gone rogue doesn't have any more affiliation with the leaf village, it's not easy to convince all those self centered feudal lords of course, but if she managed to get the sand's village help then the leaf village will completely walk out on this commotion unscathed, only if she manage to reach gaara which from what she heard had gone radio silent
"I really hate it when they treat you like that"
Back to the current situation, she had asked for Kakashi and Guy along with Shizune to escort her to the travel to the feudal lord's palace and didn't expect Jiraiya to show up halfway through that travel after hearing what was going on, they hadn't have alone time on that travel, none whatsoever, and this is the first time that she gets to be alone with him, her stomach are churning for whatever reason and it's certainly not because of the humiliation she felt earlier surrounded by scrutinizing eyes of nation's leader who will save themselves first when a high crisis arrives
"This is not your battle Jiraiya" She breath softly dabbing the towel on her face, he was there earlier, silently watching as she was threatened by those feudal lords, all the words she had heard earlier, even the foolest won't dare to say to her on a normal situation, he was there and had heard and knows that all that she does was to take all of it in, what can she do to be honest? She might be known for her temper but certainly not for being illogical, she is a woman who knows how to pick her battles, and debating with those feaudal lord about the loyalty of a village that had protected them for so long isn't one of those, but unfortunately Jiraiya doesn't like it, he never even like it when a fly as much touches her skin, what more when someone promptly humiliate her in a crowd? She knows how hard it is for him to just stay still and fight her honor and god she doesn't need him to, but there's something so delicious about the thought, he who's loyal to no nation would do anything solely for her
"-And don't talk like that, someone might hear you" their eyes meet on the mirror and thrill suddenly run through her whole being which is ridiculous, so fucking ridiculous but it suddenly dawn on her that they are now on an enclosed bathroom where no prying eyes could see them and his scent, his warmth so big it suddenly fills all the spaces she breathes, her skin are buzzing, from anxiety, from anticipation, it felt like forever since they had been truly alone
"And so?" Jiraiya stepped closer, close enough for him to be near her on a woman's bathroom but she doesn't dare stop him, she found herself gripping the towel she was holding tighter, her cheeks suddenly felt warm for reasons she shouldn't be feeling on a time like this, her heart pounding when he stepped closer, "that doesn't mean you have to let them talk to you like that"
"Unfortunately i have too" She tore her gaze away from him and turn off the faucet, if she dare holding his gaze for a little bit more she might as well fall on her knees, she always like the way Jiraiya look at her, all loving and adoring and only for her, but there's something so thrilling at the way he's looking at her right now too, pissed off, dark with unforgiving thoughts but most of all.. He was looking at her as if he was going to devour her at any given chance and god, she doesn't know if she's strong enough to stop him, he had been away too long "And you know why I have to don't you Jiraiya?"
Jiraiya's jaw clench as he look away from her and she can see the gears turning on his head, and let him process the thought, let him come to terms on his own, there's so much that they can do for the village, even if it means losing dignity, even if it means losing face, Tsunade couldn't care less about what those people think to be honest, but for her people she's willing to suffer those, after a while she turned and face him fully but didn't bother to step closer, if she does the consequences of the action she might made was one she can't reason about, that's how much Jiraiya made her lose her mind, he made her want to forget reasons
"That doesn't mean that I like it"
Tsunade chuckles, bright and airy, and the butterflies inside her stomach might have doubled entirely, damn him and his words, "you don't have to, but honey what can we do? This is the only way"
The only way
He had told that to her when he was asking for her permission to train Naruto and she doesn't miss how he recognizes those words and flinches, Tsunade shook her head amusedly, he should understand, and turn around to continue fixing herself, hoping that the conversation will end on that point or if not, will be continued somewhere else, preferably somewhere where she could breathe and not afraid that she won't drown from his intoxicating smell
But when Jiraiya stepped closer, his footsteps sounding so loud on that close bathroom, panic instantly rose through her as she searched his eyes through the mirror only to fail as his back was already press on her, his arms slipping inside her haori with practiced ease as his face buried in the crook of her neck as if it solely belonged there
"I really hate that it was you that has to do all this" He whispers voice barely a whisper and Tsunade felt her heart pounding a little bit more as air completely left her lungs altogether, she have to grab his arms so she wouldn't melt into him completely
"Then why did you recommend me for the job" She chuckled, breathless, the sight of them, in the mirror are making her dizzy more than any alcohol could do, Jiraiya's broad figure along with her lithe one, they do complement each other so well, even colors, they make a perfect harmony, just like they do when they battle before, moves in sync perfectly knowing what the other are capable of doing, they're once was three, and although the number had reduced into two that knowledge doesn't tamper the fact that she had trusted him more than anything in the world
"If only I had known" he murmurs lips moving against her skin "I wouldn't have done so, so they know how weak they are when no one is there to back them up when hundreds of rouge ninja's decides to attack them all of a sudden"
"That's not a nice thing to say" she laughed running her hand on his arms, definitely appreciating his physique, those same hands that's gently holding her now was clenched from too much restrain earlier, trying so hard to stop himself to protect her honor and that thought almost makes her want to laugh, as if there is still something to protect, everyone already see her at her worst what there is for her to lose?
"What they say earlier even more," his voice was firm and laced with irritation and the sound made her dizzy, made her heart race and her brain swirl, it's so rare to see Jiraiya angry, for him to be losing all composure for something she couldn't be bothered about are doing something on her insides, "and what did you do? just sit there taking every word as if it doesn't bother you the least, fuck i really hate it"
Tsunade's head tipped and touched his shoulder when she chuckled, god, how far they had become? Where was the boy who was once her daily source of irritant, now, every single word, every touch, was setting her ablaze for whatever idiotic reason
"And why would it bother me Jiraiya?" She ask running her hand on his arm much slower, wondering if his planning tore her haori apart at how hard he is gripping it, "Should it bother me that they say I am merely an eye candy, hiding behind your oh so gallant reputation incapable of running the village on my own?"
"You are not!" Jiraiya hisses mouth moving against her neck and Tsunade's eyes flutter at the warmth of his breath fanning her skin, her touch skimmed down his arms until she could hold his wrist, can sink her nails just above his pulse, her last vain attempt to gain control over the desire that's consuming her whole
"Yes, I am not" She hummed pressing herself closer to him without meaning it too, he grunted as his palm splayed on her stomach, pulling her much closer as if that's all he could do, of course, she couldn't be just the only one whose so affected "So why bother riling myself up over nonconsequential things, just a waste of energy"
"If it's not affecting you why are you hiding inside this bathroom" Jiraiya groan not believing her for a second and she smirks and tried to search his eyes on the mirror, to no avail as his was close and he was busy burying his face on the crook of her neck, inhaling her scent and an involuntary noise escaped her lips just looking at the image they make, god she must been possessed, possessed by desire
"Not on the reasons you were thinking about" She breathed tipping her chin a little so his mouth could slide down on the juncture of her neck, and the way he knows exactly what to do when she gave him an inch made her absolutely incensed, a man who knows her through and through, yes that was him, he gently nipped a skin near her pulse and a sigh escaped her lips as her hand cards on his hair pulling him closer, firmer, because she wants more, needed more, his touch, his skin, everything
"You never even kiss me when we meet earlier" She breathed voice a little hurt and Jiraiya groaned as if that knowledge hurt him too, as if her saying that with such vulnerability was a torture for him
"I don't know if you want me too"
Oh, you don't know how much I want that
She wants to say, but she was the one who tells that no one should know about their affair, that their marriage should remain to them only, what people don't know they couldn't ruin, but she would be a fool not to say that some part of that was for his safety, she is a hokage now and Jiraiya travel all around the world, if someone knows that they are together people will notice him more, she can't risk him being a target of the enemies she made through her job
But oh, he doesn't know how hard it is for her when he suddenly appears in front of her and he's whole and safe and looking like someone she wants to hold close for the rest of her life, but she has to stop herself because she can't, not when Shizune and Kakashi start looking at them a little weirdly after the fireworks show months ago
"You're such an idiot" she whispers, fondly, pushing her anxiety to the side, he's safe and now in her arms, no one would harm him, tilting his chin so their eyes meet, the desire, want swimming in his eyes instantly drowns her "you don't have a problem kissing me silly inside my office months ago"
Jiraiya chuckles and she wonders if her cheeks were red as they felt warm, admitting to him that she had been thinking about their kisses, about him made her want to crawl her skin more than being subjected to judgmental eyes for some reason
"Well because months ago, the missus wasn't pissed at me"
The memory of when they last together surface on her mind, this is why she doesn't want to be on a close quarter with him she thinks, he showed up earlier looking so smug and so innocent as if he was not the same person who perch her on the desk of her office and kiss her to oblivion, the sharp bite of the end of the desk on her hip, the crumpled paper she was reviewing prior on her hand, her hips thrown on his waist and his tongue inside her mouth, she can still vividly remember how he tasted then, suspiciously like jasmine tea and a little bit of strawberry mochi she had left on her bedside table for him to wake up to
I will be back in an instant She remembers him panting against the space between their breathing and Tsunade flush from all the kissing, unable to form coherence merely nodded, body humming, pulse singing at the belying promises behind his words, at the prospect of his return, flash forward, he doesn't come home for months, and when he does he has the guts to show her his infuriating smug smile
No wonder why she's so riled up, they hadn't been intimate for months
"Well whose fault is that," she gnawed her lower lip when his hand stopped right just under her breast just right on the flesh where she's sensitive the most and he knows that as he gave it a little squeeze, she glared at him "you love making promises you can't fulfill"
"When did I do that?" Jiraiya's laugh was like a fuel that setting her on fire, and his touch, like an alcohol she can't get enough, he nipped the shell of her ear and a whimper escaped her lips, her bottom involuntarily pressing on his crotch and both of them had to tamp down the moan that threatened to fall on both their lips, Jiraiya absolutely will leave a mark on her neck when they gone out of this bathroom that's something she's now sure about "I come home didn't i?"
"Months too late" She knows that she's spectacularly failing to be firm, how could she when his hands, oh those hand of his, manage to unbuttoned her trouser with ease, and now playing the edge of her underwear, and the anticipation, the thrill that surge through her was laughable because fuck, she knows they shouldn't do this, but there's something so delicious, so dubious about him touching her on a place like this, where people thinks they're all high and mighty and untainted, and Jiraiya would make her come with his hands, if they got lucky, he might have the time to press her against the wall, his hand will be on her mouth trying to keep her quiet and her legs will wrapped around him, as she take him over and over, and Tsunade will allow him to do that and she made him know that as she rolled her hips against his, this time deliberately slow, his mouth curved into a knowing smirk on her neck and she gasped when he gently bite a skin
"So Tempting," he chuckles hand slipping further into dangerous territory making her tremble with anticipation "but what should I expect? I'm irresistible like that"
"As if you're any better, remember months ago inside my office?" she taunted grip on his hair tightening, legs widening a little to give him all the signal that he needs "don't tell me you don't think about it"
"What? Fucking you on a place like this?" Jiraiya's tone was incredulous, as if he was baffled that she have to ask and she would mind his mockery, if it wasn't the same time that a finger managed to slipped inside her, she was wet, already was ever since she saw him looking so grim on that goddamn meeting so it doesn't took him long enough to slipped another one, pressing on places that had her gasping "curl my fingers inside you like this and make you moan my name until everybody was hearing us? Oh i absolutely thought about it princess"
"Oh..." Tsunade moaned as his thumb pressed on her clit, her hand shot to grasp his wrist, not to stop him, no, but to simply guide him on the pace that she wanted, her hips rolled on his hand, and she bit her lower lip from moaning much louder, knowing that someone whose stupid enough to look for her, was just outside the door
"Don't you think it doesn't do things to me" Jiraiya groan venom on his voice, fingers sliding deeper inside her as if to made a point, she could swear she saw stars for a second, "carrying yourself so fucking well, absolutely not giving a fuck about their opinion" one the thing she hates, is how good he is at this, how precise he is, knowing where to touch and where to press, knowing every pleasure points she doesn't even know existed, "So brave and so strong, who the fuck they think they are? You are better than all of them"
Tsunade lost for things to say grasp his wrist tighter, the other slipped on his hair as she brought his face closer to her, feeling herself getting closer and closer to her crest with every stroke of his hand, sliding deeper and deeper inside her with every silent broken gasp that was escaping on her mouth
"Kiss me"
She demanded when she felt the dizzying pleasure was about to swallow her whole and she didn't know if she could keep herself quite but Jiraiya only shook his head as he pressed her back to his front firmly, and Tsunade swore she was about to cry when he rejected her but then his teeth caught her earlobe as he whispered darkly
"Let them hear you"
And Tsunade all but lost it as her orgasm crashed over her, a loud cry escaping her mouth as her whole body shook from the intensity of her pent up desire and Jiraiya the evil that he is doesn't stop, keep prolonging her crest by stroking her over and over again as the same time his hips rolled on her buttocks she can feel his bulge through his trouser pants and Tsunade kept moaning, because it was so good and so delirious and the last time that she felt like this felt like a lifetime ago, time seems to stretch longer when he was far away, when she come down to herself he was peppering her neck with kisses yet the fire inside her doesn't even tamp down a little, once simply wouldn't be enough, it would never be, so with the strength she could muster she tore herself away from him and turn around to face him, hands instantly fumbling the belt of his robe
"Need you," she mumbles frantically peeling both his and her pants "fuck I need you, baby please"
Jiraiya growl, fucking growl, and none of them cared about being discreet anymore as he grabbed her waist and perch her on the counter top, Tsunade bite her lips in anticipation when he align himself on her entrance, her ankle hook on his hip as he widened her legs a little so he can slot himself on her middle and-
"Oh, god" she moans loudly head tipping at the overwhelming sensation she felt when he slide into her in one firm stroke, suddenly she felt so full, surrounded by him, and she gasps when he shifted on his heels planting his feet firmly on the ground, she's already wet after that orgasm so he meet no resistance and found a pace that's rough but not too brutal, she grasp the back of his neck as he pounded into her over and over and he was holding her waist as her body erupts at his consistent thrust, the sound of skin slapping against skin as well as her moan and his groans resonate around the bathroom and none of them absolutely give a shit even if footsteps starts approaching the bathrooms way
"Oh- oh harder, please... Please..." she babble incoherently so lost on her pleasure, she wants to kiss him, want to press her tongue to his but she knows what he wants to do and that thought was so evil and so unethical but there's something so delicious and so thrilling about the thought of being heard, of being found, that finally this little secret of them, isn't just now for them to keep, that everyone will know who she belongs and they're wrong for calling her evil or cold hearted or incapable of feelings because she is, she is capable of feelings that she's practically drowning from all of it at the moment, in fact she was feeling too much, too much desire, too much pleasure, too much love, too much, everything is all too much because he made her feel too much and that's not something she shouldn't feel ashamed of
"Fuck you feel so good," Jiraiya breath lowering his head to catch her breast through her kimono and her mouth hangs as her hand slides to grip his hair as he keeps sucking her nipples, "so tight..." Tsunade involuntarily clenched Jiraiya mid stroke and he moans in the middle of her breast as if he likes it and Tsunade bite her lower lip as she starts meeting his thrusts, wanting to take him as much as she could, wanting him to reach places only him ever had the privilege to touch "that's it, take all that you need, fuck me" he encouraged and Tsunade let out a moan as she hook her ankle on his leg and pull him closer, rolling her hips every time he thrust, Tsunade felt desire before, she wasn't unfamiliar with the concept of sex but this might be the only time that she's truly understanding what it felt like to be consumed by desire, to completely submit to lust, because her body felt like it's on fire and she was being ignited at every push and pull of their body yet she can't get enough, she can't seem to stop, every time his hips slap against hers she let out strings of oh and ah and there, right there please, please and she can't even bring herself to care that the footsteps are getting near and near and someone will hear her, she was delirious, she was on ecstasy and she couldn't stop wanting him
"Jiraiya!" She practically wailed as she tumbled over the edge once more, clawing his back it almost drew blood, body drenched with sweat from too much exertion, mouth hanging agape as her vision went blind for one blissful moment, those same instant was the same moment the door of the bathroom opened and a voice far too familiar but in her haze of pleasure she couldn't recognized shout
"Lady fifth are you-"
"Oh shit sorry!"
And the door closes once again
Tsunade felt her heart pound faster when she realized what just happened, but soon enough all thoughts were forgotten as Jiraiya circles his arms around her as he raised her and promptly pressed her on the nearest wall, Tsunade's mind goes completely blank as his shaft once again slide inside her, his pace resuming in an instant, she is already too stimulated, her nerves too sensitive from coming twice but whimpers were already slipping on her mouth as his shaft slide inside in and out of her this time slower but more firmer, hitting sweet spots inside her that hadn't been touched when they are apart
"Kiss me" she practically pleaded cupping his chin, his mouth was close but felt infinitely so far, she knows he wouldn't kiss her until he gets what he wants yet when he shook his head once again she let out a frustrated cry, not because he rolled his hips after that one firm stroke of course, but because she felt so desperate even if she had already come twice, what more does he want? She doubts nobody on that damn building hadn't already heard how he was giving the hokage one hell of a good time, stubbornly, she cupped his face using both of her hands and press her forehead against his, his ministrations never stopping for a moment, "Kiss me," she demand once again "please- please i miss you," she feels like crying, she feels she's like loosing her mind, she's feeling everything all at once and she needs him to anchor her yet he won't kiss her, why the hell he won't kiss her?! "I miss you, god i miss you so much, please... Please... Jiraiya..."
Seemingly putting mercy on her, he cupped her face and pull her face down to him, she breathes a sigh of relief when their lip touch and she won't let a second slip away as her tongue instantly slipped passed his parted mouth and she kiss him hard, so hard wanting to remember and never forget how his lips felt like once more, she's too busy kissing him she almost jolted when his hand slip between where they are joined and not so soon pressing her clit as his thrust grows more frantic, harder, faster, deeper he was barely pulling out from her before slamming once more and even if she doesn't want too she tore her lips away from him "Ah! Jiraiya!" a sharp cry escaped from her mouth fast and loud even before she could catch it, the pleasure this time slowly built on the base of her spine and "more, more, Im- ah so close, so close, Jiraiya... Raiya please...."
"That's it," Jiraiya growl voice dark and so unlike him "Let them hear you," his thumb swiped on her clit again and the overstimulation this time felt like a different kind of burning, "let them, fuck, let them know you own me, let them know that I will give you everything you ask of me"
And how could she not be affected by that? Her orgasm this time detonated like a bomb, fast and loud and earth shattering that she grabbed his shoulder and wrapped her legs around him so tightly so she doesn't fall, as she shakes and shakes as white hot pleasure rolled out of her, Jiraiya keep pushing once, twice, three times until he was burying himself to the hilt and his warmth hit her insides so peculiar she shivers at the feeling of her orgasm mixing with his, and soon trailing out of her, leaking down her legs, the bathroom now smell of sex and sweat and the heady scent of them
Jiraiya's face was buried on the crook of her neck, panting so hard, her body felt sore, blissfully sore for the first time in months, her throat felt dry and her back hurt a little from being pressed on the wall for far too long, slowly, she release her tight grip on his hair and let it fall limply on his back, she felt him shift a little, his hold on her hips loosening a little but not enough so he dropped her down, there's that familiar certain ache on her center and she knows she will walk out limping on this bathroom oddly enough, she really doesn't give a fuck
"Better now?" She mumbles on his temple pulling him closer, unfortunately even if he had made her come thrice she's not yet willing to part from him
Jiraiya groans and presses a kiss on her neck, right on top where he made a mark, and mumbles "I'm sorry"
And she knows that it wasn't because he fucked her so hard someone from Suna might as well heard them, he was saying sorry for the bruises, on her hip, on her waist, on her neck, and she chuckled none of them really gives a fuck that once they stepped out of this bathroom they will see maybe one of her jonnins looking so mortified and the other passed out on the floor, that they might have pissed one or two feudal lord for acting so indecently, beyond their own little bubble life is insignificant, and she's willing to let herself believe to that little lie, after all he made her feel invincible, he made her want to believe that nothing can harm her as long as he's around
"It's alright you idiot" she chuckled fondly "I can heal myself"
"I was too rough" he whispered, eyes trained on the red mark on her neck, she shook her head and let him fret a little, not willing to admit to his face that she likes it when he goes a little rough on her, and also, that she likes it when he dotes on her, sue her
"We probably have to get out at some point" but the way she cozied up to him some more said otherwise, Jiraiya nodded now stroking the red mark on her hip as if he was trying to soothe the pain that Tsunade didn't feel the lightest
"We probably should" yet he doesn't let her down, how ridiculous they are? Love is supposed to be less passionate at their age but here they are- acting like a lovesick fool, like a teenager, how utterly ridiculous "or we should let them panic some more"
Tsunade laugh also sensing the restless familiar chakra signature not far from the bathroom, he might have dragged his other comrades there when he got to realize that their Hokage's cry wasn't from distress but rather from... She tucked her head on Jiraiya's shoulder before mortification eats her, how utterly ridiculous
"Feeling shy now?" Jiraiya chuckles when she squirm on his hold and Tsunade glares at him albeit not holding the threat it usually carries which only made Jiraiya laugh harder "Don't be, it's normal for spouses to have sex once in a while, they're mature enough to grasp that concept"
"Jiraiya!" Tsunade berates pushing his shoulder, this idiot! How come he looks more proud rather than ashamed that two of the leaf's most capable Jonnin caught them having sex? Oh, right because he is Jiraiya, rolling her eyes she settled her head back on his shoulder "You're such an idiot"
Jiraiya's laugh pleasantly rumbles through their body and she tucks her face much deeper into the crook of his neck, liking the warmth his laughter brings her, loving the safety being this close to him makes her feel
"An idiot you can't leave without,"
Tsunade smiles silently, aint that the truth?
"and I miss you too, for the record"
--/--
Hold me, love me, touch me, honey
Be the first who ever did