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POV FELIX
How can I stop wanting him? For years I've known he doesn't love me the same way, and yet I keep hoping he will change. Is it ridiculous? It really is, but it's inevitable. Even though he calls someone else "wife" and has decided to live with him, I think that, even if I wanted to put this feeling aside, for me it's an impossible task.
While having breakfast with everyone, I can observe a reciprocated love. They're very cute because they are in their bubble of love. I feel happy to be the first person who knew and who preferred to take a punishment to avoid being discovered.
I also see someone who feels like they wasted the opportunity, falling into the reality that the boy observed has already grown up, and the things that made him smile no longer do.
Next to me is my housemate, who has become a great friend, looking with a big smile at our leader. I think that in that look, there is something more than admiration. And suddenly I look away, because my unrequited love shouldn't be watching me. He shouldn't... because he distracts me. And I'm a fool whose heart still races.
I was the first to go to the meeting room because I don't know what to do if I have him nearby.
—Is something wrong? —asks Seungmin.
—...
—Book —he sighs—, you know I always...
—I know —I messed up his hair—. Thanks, Minnie.
—I require everyone's attention, we have several pending activities —Chris looked very tired—. Yesterday I was in meetings until very late and I want everyone's cooperation.
—We will work in pairs for a variety show all day, and in the early morning we will meet again —we nodded.
—Can we choose? —asked Changbin.
—The production team will come in a few minutes and they will choose. Meanwhile, the stylists will arrive.
It's obvious who asked. I know I'm a nuisance to him, and it hurts. I decided to go to the bathroom and take a deep breath to calm down.
—Guys, I remind you that we have activities for each pair, where there are missions, and the prize I'm not yet authorized to reveal —said one of the producers—.
I will now proceed to say the names of the people who make up each pair. This may take a whole day, so we require your cooperation in everything possible —we nodded and she smiled—. Ready?
—Yessss! —we all answered.
—The first pair will be: Seungmin and Jeongin.
The second pair: Minho and Hyunjin —I feel like I'm running out of air, and since they are filming, I have to pretend—.The third pair: Bangchan and Jisung —no way—. Then, the fourth pair is: Felix and Changbin.
Earth, swallow me and spit me out anywhere.
—Bookie, you'll be fine —whispered Minnie, and she left.
We were walking in silence until...
—Do you think they'll give us easy missions?
—I hope so.
—I want to win, although I don't know what the prize is.
—I want to win too —we both smiled.
—I missed spending time with you. It's harder now that we don't live together and we're always busy.
—...
My head is a mess right now.
—Guys, let's go to the blue car, which is assigned. The cameras are already installed —the girl smiled—. Have a nice day, and hopefully you're the winning team.
—Thanks —we answered, and got in the car.
With the seatbelts fastened, the ride began.
It's impossible not to notice how handsome Changbin is. I keep longing to be the one who wakes up next to him, and before I keep acting like an idiot staring at him, I prefer to look out the window.
—The first mission is to find several products in a supermarket, and then deliver them to someone in another place —Changbin mentioned, making me jump.
—Sorry, I didn't hear that before.
—That's why I repeated it, Yongbook —he smiled—. Don't worry.
—Thanks.
—Do you want to play music?
—I nodded, because maybe that way I could think about something else. Today I woke up dumber than usual.
—I think we're about to arrive. Do you think all teams have the same missions?
—Maybe yes, so they can measure the time each team takes.
—That makes a lot of sense.
We got out of the car and I wanted him to hold my hand. I know I'm an idiot for wanting that, but how can I calm this feeling for him?
It hurts every time he calls Hyunjin "wife" and is so affectionate with him. Everyone loves them... and I have to smile as if they were adorable.
END POV FELIX