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YN pov
“I made it out. That doesn’t mean I made it back.”
“Not really.”
The tower looked exactly the same as I remembered—lights on, windows glowing, like nothing had changed while I was gone. I stood across the street longer than I needed to, waiting for something to kick in. Relief. Safety. Anything.
Nothing came.
I have been travelling for days. Finally I have made it to New York I can see avengers tower looming above. I run in through the front doors wiping off my tears as the desk staff give me weird glances. The elevator takes me up to the main floor and I prepare myself for a bunch of hugs and people happy that I’m back. Ding, I’m on the floor and the doors slide open. As I head into the lounge room all heads turn towards me.
“YN..”
I can hear my dad say quietly as he stands up to get a better look at me before anger crosses his face.
“YN STARK! where the fuck have you been?”
I don’t know what to say and even if I could I can’t seem to get any words to come out of my mouth.
“Running away is the most immature thing you could have done and what you think you can just waltz back in here after that little rebellion of yours?!” He continues
“Tony just give her a break” I hear Natasha say
He just glares at her and heads down to his lab. I don't know what I did wrong, he won’t even listen to me. He thinks I’m some rebellious teenager going through a bad phase and yeah sure before I went missing I was in a bit of a rebellious phase, but my own father didn’t even think twice about why I could have been missing for almost a year. I wonder if he even tried to find me. I can feel my eyes welling up with tears and feel a firm pair of hands on my shoulders.
“It’s okay YN, let’s get you settled and then you can explain after” Steve whispers and Natasha gives him a nod and then they both walk me to my old room.
It’s completely untouched, nothing has been moved at all, but there’s no dust so I can only assume my dad still got people to clean it, maybe he was hoping I was going to come back. Still no matter the reason after not seeing your own daughter for a year wouldn’t you still be excited or grab her in a hug or something, not just storm off angrily. Natasha and Steve leave my room to let me get settled or have a nap or whatever I might need. I start shaking at the thought that my dad might not have wanted me to come home. He’s the one who has been keeping me alive, he’s the one I ran to as soon as I escaped…. my breathing starts to quicken and tears leak down my face, I run to my bathroom to splash some water in my face to hopefully help calm me down.
Tw: sh
I remember that I used to keep a blade hidden in the cupboard under my sink, sure enough it’s still there. I haven’t done it in a long time but the urge is just so strong, and nothing feels real and I need a reminder that it is. The blade placed against my wrist as I sit on the edge of my bath tub. I deserve this. He doesn’t love you anymore. No one wanted you back here. 1 cut soon becomes 4 and the crimson liquid starts dripping down onto the floor and I feel faint. I haven’t done this in a long time but i know I didn't used to go this deep.
“Miss YN” I can hear F.R.I.D.A.Ys voice through the speaker “you are suffering from blood loss and seem to have an extremely high something medical, would you like me to alert Mr Stark”
“No F.R.I.D.A.Y please don’t I’m okay” I can’t have my dad knowing about this, he already thinks I’m a waste of space, if he finds out I cut myself he is probably going to kick me out.
I grab the nearest towel and tightly wrap it around my wrist, the ? White towel begins to turn a dark shade of red.
“Shit this really is bad” I mutter to myself feeling my consciousness begin to slip away, I can’t pass out, if I do they will find me and then they will never look at me the same. I pull the towel tighter and start digging through the bathroom for something I can use as a bandage
20 minutes later
I’m now lying on my bed, I feel extremely faint and weak but at least the bleeding is now under control. There’s a knock at my door.
“YN can I come in, it’s Natasha”
“Go away I’m asleep” I yell back
“Can’t be asleep if you are talking to me” and she pushes the door open. She is watching me, the pale 16 year old girl that no one had seen for a year just sitting there with tears in my eyes and red blotches all over my face. I look down, my sleeve is covering my arm so at least she doesn’t know about that yet
“Oh YN you’ll be okay, but you need to explain to everyone why you ran away, your dad is going crazy without answers, and everyone else is just confused”
I just shrug I don’t know what to say, i definitely don’t want to say I never ran away, someone grabbed me in the street and I was too weak to fight them off and then they took me to hydra and experimented on me for a year even just remembering how it all started is enough to give me a panic attack, I start shaking, my leg is bouncing up and down and i can’t get any air into my lungs. Natasha holds on to me tight and tries to calm me down, I can see her confused and concerned look but I just can’t explain what happened to me.
“It’s okay you can just explain later” Natasha says softly after I stop panicking and heads out my room closing the door behind her.
Sorry about chapter one being short but it’s just meant to be like an introduction to the characters. If you didn’t work it out, YN is Tony Stark's daughter and she has been kidnapped by hydra for the last year until she escaped.