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Uhm yeah.
I’m aroace and Christian. Like, I’m still both. But my family doesn’t know that. I don’t know. I feel like it’s not that upsetting, just kind of sad that they expect me to be liking people. My dad especially wants me to “carry on the family line” and talks about me and my siblings getting married and having kids. A lot.
My mom probably wouldn’t care, she just says I’m too young to think about that. I’ll probably be too young forever, in her eyes, to make my own decisions about myself. Or realizations. She brushes them off every time. She’d probably be more accepting if I came out as bi than if I told her I was aroace.
My parents divorced when I was maybe four. I’ve never seen the point of marriage.
When I was five, I was, as my mother described it to me, “molested.” I’m not really sure that’s the right description, but oh well. I went through a questioning period when I became a teen, thought maybe I liked other girls or non-binary people, but nope. I just don’t like people. Romance makes no sense to me.
But! I do love having friendships, close ones. I value my friends a lot, and I’m not exactly a hater of physical touch. (All my friends are ;-;) And I’m probably never going to tell people I know this. I’ve mentioned wanting to live single when I grow up, and both my parents (who are NOT fans of each other) just give me a weird look. A judgemental one.
My school I grew up in was super not supportive of this type of thing. I had a few friends LGBTQ, but haven’t met other asexuals or aromantics, especially not both. I have nobody really to tell, I guess.
I would never tell my brother.
I still believe in Christ. I mean, in the Bible, it does say singleness or not having romantic or sexual desires is fine, even a good lifestyle (somewhere in one of the Corinthians, I believe).
I have no idea why I decided to post this. I just figured it might explain my lack of ability to write romance, if I ever decide to.
And make it clear I’m not against LGBTQ+ community, but I still have a religion.
I’d love to see comments about other people who might have felt similar or can explain, I only recently realized this lol.
Bye!