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Jean struggled to swallow the lump in his throat. She's stunning arguably the most gorgeous girl jean had ever seen and he sees mikasa everyday the goth girl never failed to entrance him with her short shiny obsidian hair and her soft birch skin as well as her sharp steel gray eyes that has always made him flinch she's always held a mysterious elegance about her but if mikasa just merely enchants him then the girl jean is currently laying his eyes on makes his heart race and to Jeans crushing disappointment this girl does not exist shes just Eren in drag.
Yes, times are different. This isn't the 1900s, people can openly be themselves. Jean doesn't care what tickles other people’s fancy, he's always been accepting of others, no matter how different they are from him. It would give his poor mother a heart attack if Jean wasn't the sweet, open-minded boy she's always taught him to be. All his life he's been told that people come in different shapes and sizes as well as love is love, all that jazz. Hell, even a good portion of his friends are gay.
Jean grimaced, but he isn't gay though, he's always been self-assured, so what if he's never experimented with the same sex? he didn't need to. The porn he found when he was 14 told him that, but the heat creeping up his neck is pretty hard to ignore.
Why was he even there anyway? Jean has never cared for such foolishness in all honesty he should have gone straight home to study for his English test he had tomorrow but when Connie came to him in hysterics about how Eren lost a bet they both made and Eren would be forced into putting on a show (if Jean could even call it that knowing Connie's track record it would be more close to public humiliation) for their schools talent show Jean couldn't resist the thought of seeing Eren the ill-tempered bastard make a fool of himself singing a Britney Spears song in women's clothing It would be a hoot to tease him for the rest of his life for it.
The moment Eren walked on the stage, everything had faded, he could not hear the jeering from his friends or even the music itself playing. When Jean laid eyes on him, he felt his hands get sweaty. The scene before him far exceeded his expectations, not that he was expecting much, he figured that Eren would do his own makeup and borrow an old dress from Mikasa or maybe even his mom.
Of course, Eren didn't, he's always been prideful, even about the stupidest things like bets or dares. He would never do things halfway, but maybe if he did do his own makeup and instead of having Historia's help, he wouldn't look so…pretty. The glittery gold eyeshadow wouldn't have complemented his already sparkling sea foam green eyes so well, and the shimmering lip gloss wouldn't make his lips so plump and kissable. If he had just thrown on any old outfit, Mikasa's burgundy red homecoming dress wouldn't have looked so good pressed against his bronze skin.
Above all, if Eren Yeager had never taken on Connie's idiotic bet in the first place, Jean would NOT be so infatuated right now. God, did he hate to admit it but Jean likes, no Jean loves Eren in drag.
Jean knows he's pretty attractive, he gets compliments, has had a couple of flings, and he's even had a girlfriend or two. He’d trade it all in a heartbeat. though. If it meant that those nameless faces would be replaced with Eren. He'd let the headstrong brunette win every pointless argument they ever had and even apologize for the time he spilled water over Eren’s things when no one was around because then he deserved it for getting on Jean's nerves all the time.
None of that matters now. Jean would give away all the money his mother worked hard to save just for him to go to college. He'd give away the Honda that he worked so hard to save up for these past two years if it meant that he could spend even a fraction of that time holding the tan body of Eren in drag.
Jean isn't gay, it just so happens that the one girl who has him starstruck is his enemy in a dress. Jean is not gay, Eren just so happens to be the only boy he’d consider shagging in a dress. Eren is the only boy Jean would even do anything with, but Jean is not gay, and neither is Eren.
As the music stops, all his friends' mocking applause and cheering seems to fade out in the background as Jean resigned to his fate. He will never have this girl he has fallen for so quickly. He will never get to see her again. Eren only did it as a gag, but why should it matter? Eren's not gay, and neither is Jean.
He would never get to see this girl again. He would just have to ignore the heavy feeling settling in his chest. No one else would ever make him feel this way from here out the future for his love life seems bleak. Jean knows he’ll forever long for Eren in drag.