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“Why didn't you shoot me back then?” Eileen asked as tears threatened to spill from the corners of her eyes.
“When you left?” Hedda replied as she silently recalled the day Eileen ended things between the two of them and broke her heart.
“When I left,” Eileen confirmed with a soft nod as she patiently awaited the younger woman’s reply.
“Because I knew you really wanted me to,” Hedda said sadly. And the last time they spoke, it was true. Eileen would have happily died by Hedda’s hand then rather than face life without her by her side.
“Of course,” Eileen chuckled, shaking her head.
“What?” Hedda asked, confused by her ex-lover’s amusement.
“Coward at heart,” Eileen replied with a shrug, as if Hedda’s restraint then made perfect sense now. Hedda paused briefly and considered defending herself against such an accusation. But in the end, the truth of it was undeniable.
“That wasn't my greatest act of cowardice,” Hedda said as she took a tentative step forward. And Eileen was visibly moved by the implication of her words.
“Are you braver now?” Eileen asked hopefully as she, too, moved closer.
“I’d like to be. I want to be brave for you, Eileen. To be brave for the both of us. It’s all I’ve ever wanted. There isn’t a day that’s gone by where I haven’t desperately wished that I had made a different choice,” Hedda replied sincerely. And the tall brunette looked down into her eyes in complete disbelief.
“Is this true, Hedda? Would you really choose me now? Give all this up? Be yourself? Your true self? And let me love you again?” Eileen pressed, certain the cunning young woman would retreat under pressure and cling to the safety and comfort of her frivolous life the way she always did.
“I’ll show you, Eileen. Let me show you. Forget about Thea. Think of us. Think of the way we once were,” Hedda said seductively as she pressed her hands against Eileen’s chest and gently dragged her nails along the curve of the older woman’s breasts.
“We were mad together,” Eileen replied breathlessly as she savored the familiar and intoxicating sensation of Hedda’s fingers against her skin.
“Thea can’t please you the way I used to, can she? A simple girl like that couldn’t even begin to imagine the sorts of things you and I did together,” Hedda teased as she took Eileen by the hand and slowly guided her to one of the many vacant guest bedrooms.
“Don’t be cruel, Hedda. Thea is quite brilliant, actually. She’s just been bullied into stupidity,” Eileen asserted as they walked down the hall.
“Do you hope to make me jealous, Eileen?” Hedda asked irritably as she turned to face the woman she had loved for so long.
“It is not my intention, no. Though, I do recall how passionate you are when you feel particularly possessive. I’ve thought back on those times often over the years when I’ve been alone and… lonely,” Eileen admitted as Hedda pulled her into the room and promptly shut the door behind them.
“What luck then that the reality of my warm touch can now liberate you from the cold ghost of old memories. Hmm?” Hedda replied as she pushed Eileen into a sitting position on the end of the bed and then climbed on top of her, straddling her lap. And the older woman gasped in surprise when Hedda wrapped her hand around the front of her neck and pulled her into a deep, hungry kiss.
“Mm. What are you doing, darling? You think you can just kiss me and choke me until I forget all about Thea? I’m happy now, Hedda. She makes me happy. She risked everything just to be with me. Can’t you understand that? Can’t you respect it? We both know you’ll never have the courage to be who you are and live truthfully. Why must you play these games?” Eileen asked before Hedda silenced her with another ravenous kiss and began to grind her center against the brunette’s stomach.
“I can’t live without you, Eileen. I never should have let you go. I want this. I want you. Stop fighting the inevitable and let me show you now,” Hedda groaned as she bit Eileen’s bottom lip and then pushed her down onto her back. And Eileen couldn’t deny how aroused she was by the younger woman’s desperation.
“Show me, then. If you still can. You’ve been out of practice all these years. Can you still please a woman? Can you still please me?” Eileen teased, hoping to stoke the fire inside her ex-lover.
And she did.
Effortlessly.
Hedda stood from the bed, reached for the bottom of Eileen’s dress, and then pushed it up above her thighs as quickly as she could. And she nearly salivated when she saw the unmistakable evidence of the older woman’s arousal soaking through her white satin panties. She pulled them down instantly, fell to her knees, and then moved to take Eileen’s center in her mouth, pausing briefly barely an inch away from her heat to tease her with the warmth of her own hot breath against her sensitive folds.
“Do remember to be quiet, my love. We wouldn’t want your brilliant little friend to overhear us, would we?” Hedda said with a wicked grin before she finally pushed her tongue up against Eileen’s dripping cunt.
“Oh! F-fuck! Mm,” Eileen gasped loudly as Hedda’s skilled tongue gathered her slick anticipation and brought it up to lubricate her throbbing clit. “Y-you haven’t forgotten then!”
“How could I forget you, Eileen? How could I ever forget the way you taste or all the hidden places that make you absolutely weak for me? You’re the very marrow in my bones, darling,” Hedda whispered as she pulled back momentarily to nip at the brunette’s soft, pale thighs. And Eileen’s body jerked enthusiastically in response to the sharp pain paired with the delicate praise. “Mm. You always liked it when I spoke to you like this. Didn’t you, my love?” Hedda laughed quietly as she returned her tongue to its task and slowly pushed it inside Eileen’s entrance.
“Mm! Yes, Hedda. God, yes! Your perfect tongue so deep inside me… your sweet and sinful words in my ears… I can hardly keep myself from…” Eileen panted as she began to vigorously press her center down against the younger woman’s tongue, riding her face with reckless abandon as she laced her fingers through her dark hair.
“Don’t you dare keep it from me, Eileen. Mm. I want all of you. Every last drop. Don’t make me beg. Give me what’s mine, you needy little thing. Let yourself fall apart for me now. I want you, darling. I need you,” Hedda whined pathetically as she pushed her former lover over the edge with her tongue and the promise of her undying devotion.
“H-Hedda! Oh, Christ. There! Just there! I… I’m…” Eileen whimpered as her walls tightened around her young lover’s incredible tongue. And her back arched against the mattress as her release poured from her center and into Hedda’s waiting mouth.
Eileen was breathless by the time the younger woman was finished with her. And she wanted nothing more than to pull Hedda up into her arms and hold her there forever. She never wanted to let her go again. Finally, after all these years, the woman she loved was brave enough to love her, too. And Eileen wasn’t the least bit surprised when the salty proof of her overwhelming joy streamed down her flushed cheeks.
“Well done, my love. You always were such a good girl for me. So perfectly obedient,” Hedda said as she stood from her place at the edge of the bed and climbed up to straddle Eileen’s hips again.
“There’s always been something about you, Hedda. No one else has ever touched me the way you do. No one else has seen me so submissive and vulnerable. Only you,” Eileen revealed as she leaned up against her elbows and then slowly slid her other hand up along Hedda’s warm thigh beneath her dress. Hedda grabbed the older woman’s wrist and then roughly dragged it up between her legs. And Eileen sighed in ecstasy when she discovered the holy gift waiting for her between Hedda’s thighs.
“All for me?” Eileen asked with a cocky grin, pleased to see the effect she still had on the younger woman after all this time.
“Only you,” Hedda replied softly, echoing her ex-lover’s earlier sentiment.
Eileen sat up and wrapped her other arm behind Hedda’s lower back as she slid her undergarments to the side and pushed two firm fingers inside her warm, wet center. She curled them up against her front wall just the way Hedda always liked and then watched in awe as the woman on top of her began to slowly rock back and forth, riding her fingers while her clit rubbed against the palm of Eileen’s hand.
“Oh, it’s… you… you’re just… fuck, Eileen. You’re even better than I remembered. Don’t stop. Please, don’t ever stop,” Hedda moaned desperately as the older woman pleasured her. “God, I’ve missed this. Mm! Missed the way you make me come undone. Harder, darling. Oh! More! Give me more!” Hedda pleaded as she panted against Eileen’s cheek. And the older woman was more than happy to oblige. Eileen slid another finger inside and moved deeper and harder with each new thrust against her.
“You’re so beautiful like this, Hedda. Christ, you’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. You’re taking me so well, my love. I can’t take my eyes off you,” Eileen confessed sentimentally as she continued to relentlessly fuck Hedda’s warm cunt.
“I-I’m nearly there! Oh, Eileen! Yes! Yes! YES!” Hedda cried out as she reached her climax and waves of unmatched euphoria rushed through her entire body. Eileen reached up to cover the younger woman’s mouth in an effort to stifle her loud moans. And Hedda bit down on her fingers roughly as Eileen slowly fucked her through her orgasm.
They were both drenched in sweat and come and overwhelmed with ecstasy as they rocked against each other. And when Eileen looked up into Hedda’s breathtaking dark brown eyes, she realized that she couldn’t bite her tongue any longer.
“This… it means more to me than you know, Hedda Gabler. I love you. I’ve never cared for anyone the way I care for you. And… life without you… it’s been no life at all. I’ve ached for you. Longed for you all these years. I can hardly allow myself to believe that you’re really here in my arms. That you’ll let yourself choose me now. Please, say it again, darling. Tell me,” Eileen wept as she pressed soft kisses along the younger woman’s neck.
And then came an unexpected knock at the door.
“Hedda, is that you in there? I think I’d like to go and find Eileen now. I’m worried for her and I… I want to be by her side tonight. No matter what happens. Thank you again for the dress. And for your kindness this evening. I won’t forget it,” Thea Ellison said from the other side of the door.
And Hedda and Eileen sat there completely frozen while they waited for her to leave.
“I suppose you should go and clean yourself up now. You wouldn’t want to keep Thea waiting! After all, she’s so terribly worried about you and your well-being,” Hedda snapped as she quickly moved from the bed and walked to the mirror in the corner of the room to fix her hair.
“Hedda?” Eileen asked. And the pain and confusion in her voice were almost enough to make Hedda reconsider her plan entirely.
Almost.
“Yes?” Hedda replied coldly as she straightened her necklace and then turned to face the older woman.
“What have you done? Why would you make me believe that you…” Eileen started to say before the younger woman cut her off.
“I didn’t make you do anything, Eileen. You’re reformed, remember? Sober as a judge! And you’re so very happy. Completely in control of your actions. You allowed this to happen. And I feel terribly sorry for you,” Hedda said as she looked upon her ex-lover with disdain. “Still an absolute fool for me, aren’t you?”
And Eileen suddenly remembered exactly how she felt on the day when she silently prayed that Hedda Gabler would shoot her through the heart and end it all.
“Not anymore. And never again. You… you feel nothing, Hedda. You love only yourself. I was foolish to believe you could ever truly change,” Eileen said angrily with tears in her eyes as she grabbed her manuscript from the dresser and left the room without looking back.
And as Hedda watched the woman she loved walk away, she tried to call out after her.
Eileen, wait!
But her voice failed her.
She wanted to cry.
She wanted to scream.
She was sick to her stomach and crawling out of her fucking skin.
But she couldn’t find the strength to say all the words that she had buried deep and hidden away for years just so that she could survive her own pointless existence.
I love you, Eileen.
Only you.
Forever.
Always.