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Rafael almost didn’t get out of bed when his 5am alarm went off.
He wasn’t ready to let the world in just yet, and even as he started to he didn’t want the world to expand beyond his bed.
He became aware of the fact that he could feel the long hard lines of Sonny Carisi pressed against him, one of his arms wrapped around Rafael’s chest and Rafael felt his chest warm with happiness.
They had only been living together for a week but already Rafael knew that he could never live by himself again. That he never wanted to wake up alone again.
Rafael leaned back into Sonny’s touch relishing in the feeling of being held so lovingly. After another minute his alarm went off again and he felt Sonny stir and move his arm away and Rafael let out a little whimper leaning further back into Sonny. Sonny chuckles and presses a soft kiss to the side of Rafael’s face under his ear and Rafael hums in response.
If Sonny were to ever tell anyone how much Rafael loves these little moments and these early morning touches Rafael would deny it with every ounce of strength he had but here in the early morning before the sun had really touched the sky Rafael was happy to admit to Sonny that he wouldn’t give these moments up for anything.
After another minute Sonny sits up and stretches, resigning Rafael to the fact that it was time to get up and leave the bed.
He couldn’t help but watch Sonny taking in the view of his bare chest and back. He reaches out and runs his hand up and down over Sonny’s bare back and Sonny shivers leaning back into the touch. It strikes him then how lucky he is that he gets to wake up every morning to this beautiful man. He’s smiling fondly when Sonny looks over at him and he feels that warmth in his chest again as Sonny smiles at him lovingly.
Sonny leans down for a brief kiss and then he is patting Rafael’s chest and getting up and out of the bed, moving about and getting ready for the day. He hears Sonny in the ensuite and decides he has a few more minutes before he needs to get up, not quite ready to face being up but already missing the comfort of bed. He hears Sonny leave the ensuite and head towards the kitchen and Rafael decides it's time to move, getting up and stretching his muscles.
He gets up and turns on the bedroom light immediately shielding his eyes from the harsh light, he hears Sonny laughing as he walks back into the room and suddenly the room is not quite as bright and Rafael can open his eyes and he sees his beautiful boyfriend turning the dimmer switch down so that Rafael would be able to see.
He rubs his hand up Sonny’s arm in thanks as he walks past him and heads into the ensuite.
It takes him a moment to get moving but soon enough he’s brushing his teeth and combing his hair and he looks at his face in the mirror deciding he could go one more day without a shave.
He walks back into the bedroom and Sonny is already dressed. He has chosen a dark blue suit, with a pale blue shirt underneath and Rafael stops for a minute to just admire his boyfriend and how happy their basic morning routine makes him.
Sonny looks in the cupboard and pulls out a tie holding it up to him giving him a cheeky grin, “What do you think?” he asks, "Should I wear the frogs?” He holds up a tie that is a bright blue colour mostly with cartoon frogs and lily pads all over it. Some of the frogs have their tongues sticking out and while it is not something that would ever grace Rafaels wardrobe he loves how it makes Sony smile to look at it.
“I thought I burned that tie.” Rafael grumbles as Sonny chuckles knowing he would never actually do that, putting his tie back in the cupboard (Rafael does breathe a sign of relief) and grabs a much more appropriate one that is all different tones of purple. Sonny smiles and walks over to him giving him a gentle kiss on the lips.
“Don’t worry I won’t wear the frogs to work, especially not after everyone in the squad made it clear how much they hated it.” There was a brief flash on Sonny’s face and Rafael felt his stomach sink thinking about how sad Sonny had been when he first started. He pulls Sonny’s face back down to his own and kisses him again sweetly kissing away any sadness that Sonny might be feeling and Sonny smiles into the kiss. He pulls back from the kiss and rests his forehead against Rafael’s just taking in the moment of closeness.
“I have to go,” Sonny starts pulling away and Rafael groans trying to pull Sonny back down for another kiss. “I know, I know Rafi, but I’ll see you later today right?” Rafael rolls his eyes but nods already looking forward to his visit to the precinct later to discuss the latest case, he feels a small pang of sadness as he thought about how he wouldn’t be able to kiss Sonny though. He knew that the squad would be supportive of them both but neither one was quite ready to cross the bridge just yet. Once everyone knew they were together things would change and Rafael especially was afraid of what those changes would bring.
“Okay go, be a detective.” Rafael waves his hands at Sonny shoeing him out the door and he grins and leans down pressing one final kiss to Rafael’s mouth
“Love you Rafi.”
“Love you too Mi Amor” Rafael replies and he smiles so wide he was worried that it might split Sonny’s face.
Once Sonny had left Rafael looks at the clock on his night stand realising that he was now running late, he quickly throws on the first suit that he finds in the cupboard and pulls the sheets up on the bed roughly trying to neaten the space so that Sonny wouldn’t be coming home to a complete mess.
Rafael is in the kitchen trying to get all of his work gear together when he notices a cup of coffee in a to go cup sitting on the bench. Sonny had made him a coffee while Rafael had been lounging in bed or getting ready and Rafael felt himself smiling stupidly at the empty kitchen thinking about how great his boyfriend was.
He glances at the time on the oven and realises that he has gone from acceptibly late to he may not make his first meeting late, he’s about to get to the door when he realised he hadn’t put on a tie.
Huffing in frustration he walked back into the bedroom putting everything on the bench as he walks past, opening the door to his closet and grabbing the first tie he laid his hands on throwing it around his neck and tying then grabbing his coffee work things and winter coat from the coat rack by the door he finally leaves the appartment, briefly looking back into the house one last time to make sure that there was nothing left on that could cause a fire he closed the door ready to face the world.
When Rafael arrives at his office Carmen greets him with his diary already in hand waiting to fill him in on his schedule, Rafael begins to take off his large winter coat already worried about how his lateness this morning would affect his day, he puts it on the coat rack and when he turns back around Carmen to ask a question she gasps, stopping mid sentence.
“What is it?” Rafael asks her, almost reaching out for her in concern at what appeared to be her sudden inability to speak. She takes a second and Rafael starts to feel him worry as Carmen shakes her head.
“Nothing, sorry Sir.”Rafael is about to protest that’s it’s not nothing when she continues “Captain Benson called this morning and asked if you could stop by the precinct first thing instead of later today,” Rafael’s face pinched thinking about how he was supposed to fit this change into his currently already hectic and delayed morning schedule but Carmen was already one step ahead of him as usual, “I have already re-arranged your morning appointments.” Rafael smiles.
“Thank you Carmen, what would I do without you.” She laughs at him.
Rafael stops in his office quickly to deposit his work things and grab all of the necessities he needs to visit the squad checking that he still has his phone wallet and keys as he walks back out of his office he passes Carmen’s desk and pauses as he hears what he thought was Carmen laughing.
“Did you say something?” He asks and she shakes her head at him.
“No sir.” Rafael nods slowly feeling a little perplexed at what was going on with her but leaving it for now as he was already running behind, he would come back to deal with this later.
Grabbing his coat off the coat rack he heads back out into the chilly morning. He immediately wraps himself up in his coat to protect himself against the wind chill and begins the trudge over to the precinct.
Mercifully he reaches the building quickly and jogs up the stairs eager to get out from the cold.
He walks in the bullpen and spots the whole squad standing around the whiteboard and TV’s clearly discussing the new case. Amanda and Finn are standing by the whiteboards both pointing at photos and timelines and animatedly discussing their theories around the case. Amaro is sitting at the table with his head buried in his laptop and Sonny is watching the TV’s with Liv, some security footage that came up overnight playing on loop.
His eyes land on Sonny and he finds himself smiling, watching as his boyfriends eyes light up when he realises he may have spotted a clue in the video. He pauses the footage and rewinds it. “Hey Captain, look at this.” Sonny’s voice makes Rafael's heart melt and he feels his smile become more fond. He can’t believe how lucky he is.
His eyes slide away from Sonny for a second when he notices movement and they land on Liv who is looking at him suspiciously. Rafael schools his face back into his normal scowl but he knows she saw the look he was giving Sonny. He decides that he will deal with whatever she thinks she knows later, and while he would love to keep oogling his boyfriend he really was running behind today so he needed to move through here quickly.
“So what do we have?” Rafael says to announce his presence properly to the squad and he deliberately makes sure not to look directly at Sonny in case Liv is still watching him, knowing that his goofy smile would return if he saw his boyfriends blue eyes.
Amanda starts to fill Rafael in on what has been happening with the case and Rafael realises this won’t be a quick visit as Finn and Amaro begin jumping over her to add details. This was getting more and more complicated with each added sentence and he sighs deciding he may as well set himself up so he can review the evidence and make notes for later.
So he walks over to the table putting his briefcase down and pulling out a chair for him to sit on. He takes off his winter coat, placing it over the back of his chair and then he sits down leaning forward to open his briefcase and grab a pen and paper. He goes to start making notes when he realises that no one is talking anymore.
Wondering if he missed a question that was directed at him, he looks around and notices weirdly that everyone is staring at him, their mouths open.
He looks at Liv, expecting an explanation but she seems to look more surprised then almost any of the others.
“What is it?” he asks, glancing at Sonny figuring that surly his boyfriend would be able to shed some light on whatever is happening. What he finds instead of clarity is Sonny grinning ear to ear and staring at him fondly.
Rafael is so confused now.
“Why are you all staring at me? What?” He glances down at himself to see if maybe he had a stain on his vest or something, he does wonder faintly though what kind of stain would warrant this reaction but instead of a stain his eyes land on a garish blue tie with frogs and lily pads hanging from his neck.
He glances up at Sonny in abject horror now, but again he’s met with Sonny’s ear splitting grin. Rafael glances around at everyone else, trying desperately to come up with a reason for Sonny’s frog tie to be around his neck, one that doesn’t end with him saying that in his rush this morning he didn’t check whether the tie he grabbed was his or his boyfriends.
“Isn’t that Sonny’s god awful frog tie? Amanda asks and Rafael feels his stomach drop through the floor.
“This is not…” Rafael starts and then changes his mind, “I mean this isn’t my…” he has no idea what to say and he glances back at Sonny who decides to take pity on him.
Sonny steps towards Rafael, giving him another smile, this one smaller and more reserved almost encouraging and just for him.
“This is not how we meant for everyone to find out.” Sonny supplies looking away from Rafael to everyone else and now Rafael's brain short circuits for real as he realises what Sonny is admitting. He glances around the room and sees that what Sonny has said is starting to sink in with the group. In the moment Rafael begins to feel overwhelmed so he reaches forward and touches Sonny arm.
“Sonny,” he whispers and Sonny looks back at him again and Rafael’s knees go weak when he sees the look in Sonny’s eyes. There is so much love in his eyes and he wants to shout from the rooftops that Sonny Carisi loves him. But he pauses, this is a big step and it will change things for them and change things for Sonny that he may not be ready to change. There is no going back.
“Are you sure Mi Amor?” Sonny smiles softly at him and raises his hand to Rafael's face cupping his jaw and stroking his thumb over his stubble.
“I’ve never been more sure of anything.” He says and pulls Rafael into a gentle kiss. Rafael wants to deepen the kiss but suddenly remembers they are not alone when he hears Amanda shout and squeal, and Rafael has to refrain from covering his ears against the noise.
“No friggin way!” She is bouncing around now and Rafael worries that he is the one who is going to regret this if this is how she will act every time he’s around now.
Sonny chuckles and pulls back but moves his hand down to Rafaels interlocking their fingers and giving his hand a squeeze.
They both turn to face the squad and the next thing they know they are being bombarded with questions.
“How long?
“Why didn’t you tell us?”
“How did you get together?”
“Is this a joke?”
“Why are you wearing Sonny’s tie?” that question was followed by “Omg Sonny did you get laid last night?” and that was enough for Rafael to step forward and put his hands up desperately trying to silence the onslaught.
“Enough, enough.” He raises his voice to be heard above the noise of the squad and finally there is a hush. He turns to Sonny, “Do you want to answer any of those questions?” He asks and Sonny smiles at him again and Rafael once again finds himself wanting to shout his happiness from the rooftops.
“Um yeah okay though” he rubs his neck sheepishly, “The only question I can actually remember out of all of that is ‘did I get laid last night?.” Rafael rolls his eyes of course that’s the question that stood out to him. “The answer is no though,” he says looking at Amanda who of course had been the one to ask it. “We were way too tired for that, I’m assuming Rafael is wearing my tie because I think he hasn’t quite gotten used to the fact that he now shares a closet with me and that our clothes are mixed in together.” That earned another gasp from the group and Rafael is now reconsidering everything.
“You’re living together?” Amanda’s voice had raised another octave at this point and Rafael winces at the noise. He sees that Sonny is about to answer that question and Rafael decides it’s his turn to be honest and places a gentle hand on Sonny’s chest to stop him answering.
Sonny smiles at him curiously.
“Yes,” Rafael says “For a week now. Best week of my life” Amanda squeals again but Rafael can’t bring himself to care anymore about the woman who seems to be trying to deafen the whole squad because Sonny is looking at him like he just made his entire year and all Rafael wants to do is kiss him. So he does.
It’s soft and sweet and while there is definitely something more heated underneath Rafael is happy for now to just pull back and look at how happy Sonny is.
There’s another scream from Amanda and now mercifully Amaro has stepped up to calm the blonde down.
“Well I can definitely say that this is not what I was expecting.” Liv says, “But I’m happy for you both, you both seem very happy.” Sonny grins at her.
“Thanks Captain that means a lot.”
Finn is the next to congratulate them and in typical Finn fashion he claps both Rafael and Sonny on the back and then walks over to his desk done with the conversation now.
Amaro and Amanda are still standing by the whiteboards and Amanda looks slightly more settled now but from the look in her eyes Rafael realises that he will not be leaving anytime soon as Amanda is clearly about to demand that every moment of their relationship be told in great detail.
Amanda realises she can begin her assault on them again now that Finn and Liv have said their bit and left and Amaro steps in for a second whispering something in her ear. Rafael hopes he’s trying to help and not stir the pot.
Amanda rolls her eyes but seems to change what she was going to ask.
“Are you happy?” She asks Sonny and while Rafael believes that Sonny is happy he’s not mad that he has an opportunity to actually hear him say that he is.
Rafael looks at Sonny waiting, and Sonny looks at Rafael and they both smile at each other and then Sonny is grabbing him by that damn frog tie and pulling him in for another kiss.
“Yes we are,” Sonny answers and Rafael pulls Sonny back in for another kiss.