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"Then why didn't you tell me about Kim Haeun?"
There it was.
You're faced with silence.
You felt like a fool. A fool for counting warning signs. A fool for not ending this fast.
Haechan is silent. He drops the bag, and for the first time since you've started talking, you can't read his face. Guilt? Sadness? Regret? Humiliation, because you said her name and his mind is flashing back to his memories with her, because she was his first everything?
"I can explain." He stepped closer.
"No." You stepped back, "I think the silence was enough."
"It isn't what you think," Haechan affirmed. "So please, let me clear the air—"
"No," You shake your head again, "I know she was the one messaging you at the library all those days ago and you didn't think to tell me? You didn't think to tell me about how insane she is? You didn't think to tell me about your past with her?"
"I cut her out of my life completely, Y/N." He explained, "I didn't tell you because she's no longer in my life."
You scoffed, "Donghyuck, you could have been decent and warned me about her."
He frowned. "What do you mean? What the hell did she do to you?"
"Just leave, Donghyuck."
"I'm not fucking leaving until I explain myself, and you explain why the fuck you're saying this shit in the first place," He cursed. "I didn't tell you she texted me because I blocked her on everything, and I am no longer in contact with her. I stopped seeing her a month before I met you officially. I messaged her at the library what she wanted from me and asked her to leave me alone and before I could reply, I blocked her number." He stepped forward to you again, placing a thumb on your cheek to wipe your stray tears. "Yes, I did have a six month relationship with her. It was on-and-off, it was honestly toxic, and it damaged me more than it should. But I know from your point of view, I look like a shit boyfriend for not telling you, and I apologise. I didn't tell you because I don't want to think about her again. She started throwing rumours around how I am in bed, and it lead to people around campus saying I slept with them, which she must have passed around, when I only slept with her. I tried to make it serious, telling her I loved her, but I broke it off because the more we made it casual, it hurt, and she said with what we had, it was impossible to love, so she never said it back. She hurt me more than I would've liked to think, then we kept sleeping together, and I broke up with her officially again because she started seeing other people whilst manipulating the fact she loved me."
You start sobbing. Because he's never been this vulnerable with you, pouring his heart and feelings out to you. He's always communicative, and you feel like an idiot because he really is fighting to save your relationship. "I'm sorry I never told you about her. I wish I did, but my time with her brings bad memories. With you, you light up my entire world, you remind me to love. You make me realise why I should love in the first place, which she's never done." His hands find yours and he interweaves them together.
"S-She.. came up to me at the pizza place while you ordered, asking for help at the library. You called me while I was going there the next day, I went to the toilet, and she found me," You avoid how his eyes darken. "She started telling me how I was a bet because we'd never make it pass five months, because our six months is soon and that's how long you guys lasted. She was mad because I didn't know who she was, she explained why I took you away from her, and how you will always come back to her because that's what you did. She said you don't date because you two were meant to be,"
"Fuck," He breathily swore, in shock. How could she have hurt you this easily?
"She said that because I'm so innocent, so easy to fool, that I'm a bet to you because it's the truth of our relationship. We would never last.." You continued, wiping your eyes with your sleeves, "I-I'm sorry I doubted you," You cried, "S-She got to my head, and because you didn't tell me I thought the worst, I couldn't help it—"
"Baby,"
"I'm sorry," You feel his hand on your head, pulling you close to his chest whilst you cried. "Hyuck, I'm sorry,"
"Shhh, baby, it's okay," He whispered lightly, "I got you, okay? Don't be sorry. I would have been the same in your position,"
"I just.. I didn't mean to.. I didn't mean to doubt you. I trust you with all my heart, I just.. I thought you still loved her with the way she was talking about you—" You ranted, feeling his hand rub up and down your back.
"God, sunshine, I know, I know you trust me. I'm not hurt for you believing her first, alright? It was a mistake on my end too, okay? And fuck, I loved her only once, Y/N, but I'll love you for the rest of my life. Please don't worry about her and if she bothers you, you tell me, okay?"
He kisses the crown of your head, feeling your arms envelop him tighter. "We're okay, sweetness."
"We're okay?" You asked quietly.
"We're okay." He repeated. "I promise. You're not losing me, and I'm not losing you."
You pulled away and he gave you a small smile, his heart dropping when your tear-stained cheeks and bloodshot eyes met his for the first time. "I love you."
"I love you too, sunshine. Don't apologise, okay?"
"Okay," You let out, as his fingers placed the stray hairs away that are sticking onto your face. "C-Can you stay tonight? I.. I missed you."
"I thought you'd never ask." Haechan spoke quietly, "I missed you too, sunshine. You're still beautiful to me, you know that?" You gave him a shy smile in response and he chuckled lightly, "I love you. We'll get through anything together, yeah?"
"Together." You nodded, placing a light kiss on his cheek. "We'll get through it all, Haechan." You affirmed and he smiled at you, this time, his arms are around you comfortingly.
Love means you'll be together until the end of the world.
And you couldn't be more glad to realise you've found that love within Lee Donghyuck.