Last time | Art

by Maru00

Summary:

Kacchako week 2024 : Day 4 : Free day
(fanart & lyrics)

Extra for my "Red Chrysanthemum" fic.
Inspired by the song "Sista gång" by C. Gambino, translated lyrics and fanart.

Notes:

This art is inspired by the song "Sista gång" by C. Gambino
Listen to the song here

Fell in love with the mood, his voice and lyrics the first time I heard this, and it's been a theme song for my fic Red Chrysanthemum since then.
Song is in Swedish, I have translated and interpreted to the best of my abilities. “Sista gång” translates to “last time”. Which technically is “wrong” grammar. Which means it could be interpreted either “our last time”, “one last time” or referring to “the last (most recent) time we spent together”, reminiscing of times spent with her.
As if each moment together could be their last, and although she would be better off without him he cannot [doesn’t want to] let her go. Even if he knows he is a bad person for her to be around, he still wants her. He knows he destroys her, and still wants to smoke with her, meaning spend time with her. He wants to know if he can trust her, yet still hopes she will be there when she needs him. It’s so honest and raw in a way.
The more I think about this song the more I love it. It’s poetic in that sense.

The singer sadly passed away recently.
RIP

 

Last time

I just want to know what you want, if I can trust you

I don't want to see someone else come and take you [from me]

Could this be why I have a hard time letting go?

Guess you’re the one who make me this way

You're someone I want to make into a wife, a mother

If you feel the same, then I'm here, I'm staying

Sitting here for a while, smoking grass [together]

Even if it might be our last time

 

If I was trapped - Would you give me hope?

Can you promise to come [for me]?

If I lose my mind - Would you join me until we walk down the right path?

For all the nights you stayed up waiting for me

The way I destroyed you

I would still be sad if you walk away from me

 

The lights we extinguished, the wounds we hid

Still - would you feel better without someone like me?

 

So I hope you understand

I don't want to make you feel that way

I'm not worth waiting for

 

If no one else is around, we have to help each other

Only if you let it go

So let it [me] go, just let it be

This feeling, it’s just a habit

Trust me, I'm too damaged. Promise you, I'll get you out of harm's way

 

The feeling of the two of us makes me blow smoke [smoke pot]

Don't understand how we could become like this

You say you would give me more time

 

I just want to know what you want, if I can trust you

I don't want to see someone else come and take you [from me]

Could this be why I have a hard time letting go?

Guess you’re the one who make me this way

You're someone I want to make into a wife, a mother

If you feel the same, then I'm here, I'm staying

Sitting here for a while, smoking grass [together]

Even if it might be our last time

Notes:

Read Red Chrysanthemum here (Kacchako Yakuza AU)

Find me on Bluesky @hellomaru to catch any WIPs

Kudos and comments are greatly appreciated and fuels my creative flames 🔥

Series this work belongs to:

• Part 4 of Maru's Kacchako Week 2024
• Part 2 of Red Chrysanthemum