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“Kasuga-san,” Nomoto whispered softly, “remember what I told you in the past… I want you to be selfish in front of me.”
Kasuga's blush deepened into a stronger shade of crimson. Nomoto's hand was caressing her cheek but very lightly. It was almost like a large feather tickling her in slow motion. There was something peculiar about the way the other woman emphasized “want.” When she had originally told her, back after the vegetable picking date, it was said in a sincere and candid tone. While it still had that sincere touch, that “want” was hiding something… Something more.
Her arms, which were already cradling Nomoto's waist carefully, tightened their hold around the smaller woman. Her lips parted slightly. She wanted to say something but nothing came out. She was speechless; the proverbial cat had gotten her tongue, and that cat was Nomoto.
A faint whisper caressed her ear, causing the normally stoic woman to visibly shudder. “What do you want to do, Kasuga-san?”
What did she want to do? Kasuga began to mull over this thought. Looking into Nomoto’s eyes as if for advice, the other woman simply gazed back, her eyes crinkling slightly into a smiling appearance. Nomoto, however, refused to do anything more than simply reciprocate the embrace they were both currently in. This was her way of reminding Kasuga how today was a night for her own needs, not Nomoto’s.
“I just feel bad everything has been for my pleasure,” Nomoto sighed as she rested her head into the crook of her taller girlfriend's neck. “I get it. I can't handle myself sometimes… I let my emotions take over, and I just want to be with you, entirely! But…you deserve your own happiness, too.”
“Nomoto-san…”
“Remember the first time we got intimate? Like, really intimate? It was you who started it.” Nomoto chuckled gently. “I was so nervous…but you put me at ease. I want to see you do that again. Let me see the selfish Kasuga-san.”
The selfish Kasuga…
Little by little, the apartment both Kasuga and Nomoto moved into was becoming a proper home. New furniture made for two replaced their old singles. They began to mix and match some of their trinkets and decor and even spruced it up with some photos of themselves, which emphatically enthused Nomoto. Kasuga was also happy, but she was always more subtle in showing it than her girlfriend. They were still a new couple, thus they still had a lot to learn about one another. Kasuga would always reassure Nomoto that she was happy and enjoying this new chapter in their shared lives.
Their relationship had grown in other ways as well. The night they practiced intimacy with consent was a night neither woman would ever forget. Kasuga could not help smiling every time she revisited her memories of that night. Nomoto was very energized! Kasuga sensed the “shy eagerness” emanating from her girlfriend flare up into an intense ball of fire. She could tell Nomoto wanted more, and she even teased her in a rare showing of a mischievous side! However, they had promised one another to take things one step at a time. This was a promise both kept close to their hearts.
It would eventually pay off. Trust had built between the two where Kasuga finally asked Nomoto what she wanted to do in bed one particular night. This, of course, triggered a surprised and flustered reaction from Nomoto, which was exactly what Kasuga was looking for.
Nomoto laughed nervously. “Wh-wh-what do you mean ‘in bed?’ We're already here, right?”
Kasuga, smiling, leaned forward. “Nomoto-san,” she replied, “Remember what we said? Step by step, right?” She paused for a moment and spread her arms out. “May I…?”
With a single nod, Nomoto granted Kasuga access for, what felt to her, an embrace more tender than usual. It had a calming effect on her.
“I think I'm ready to explore our intimacy further,” Kasuga said, sweetly. “I'm not asking too much, of course. I know we're both very new to all of this. But…what if…”
“If…?”
“What if we try touching in other places tonight? See where that takes us?”
Nomoto could not have turned any redder at that point. However, Kasuga could sense that silent yearning for more from her girlfriend that she sensed from that first night of experimentation. She knew she wanted this, but, of course, it was up to Nomoto herself to make that decision.
At last, the crimson-faced brunette mustered up the courage to respond. “O…okay,” She blurted out, then readjusted herself. “Yeah…Yeah! I think I can handle it.”
Kasuga smiled that warm smile she always gave Nomoto when she would silently tell her that she loved her. “Good. We'll take it slowly, okay?”
The night they spent in bed was truly magical. They had not gone too far, but the major moment of that evening involved the two finally undressing themselves down to their undergarments to take in a new side of each other. While both were shy, it was Kasuga that was a little more so. The fear subsided, though, when Nomoto revealed a look of awe.
“Wow, Kasuga-san,” she gasped, “You're even more beautiful!”
Kasuga blushed silently, but hearing that her girlfriend loved her body sent a tingle down her spine. She knew she did not have the typical feminine body. Even if she was not into food as she was, she knew she would still be a pretty plain and unapproachable woman. Here, though, was a woman admiring what she saw and, with permission as she did so, even touched and caressed all these curves without hesitation.
It made Nomoto happy.
And when Nomoto was happy, Kasuga was happy.
That was how it blossomed. What was just peeks under clothes became open displays of self. There were times Nomoto had to show restraint because, like when they first confessed to one another, the fireworks in her heart exploded and she just wanted to do it more often. Kasuga was easy to adjust to, though. She would always find time for Nomoto.
She wanted to see her smiles, she wanted to hear her elated voice as she touched her where she wanted, she would do whatever Nomoto wanted, even if the woman had to coach Kasuga of what to do to her.
It was always Nomoto in the lead. Even as Kasuga held her close like she was never going to let her go (as she was asked), even as Kasuga hurriedly kissed her lips, her neck and beyond (as she was asked), even as Kasuga sent her to the heavens themselves (as she was asked)...it was still Nomoto leading the way. Kasuga was happy, yes, but nothing was ever truly by her own suggestion.
Did this bother her? Not really. At least, she had not thought of it as a problem. They were happy, together…
Earlier in the day, Nomoto had arrived back at the apartment before Kasuga. This was their first shared weekend in a long time, and she was excited. Dinner had already been planned out ahead of time, they knew what movies they wanted to watch, and even in bed…
She paused in her tracks. Something in her mind clicked at that moment. Realization finally caught up to her; memories of their first true date resurfaced in Nomoto’s mind, recalling Kasuga’s explanation of having to learn to bend to others from an early age. It must still affect the stoic woman, even after their talk. Kasuga may have opened up a lot since then, but it seemed she was still shy about revealing her own thoughts.
Ashamed, but shaking it off quickly, Nomoto knew she needed to fix this. Good thing they were having a whole weekend to themselves…
Dinner went as well as expected. Kasuga arrived just as the food was ready to be served. They shared greetings, Nomoto letting her love change out of her work clothes. They sat down and began digging in. It was the usual routine for them, and they would never change that for the world.
Nomoto, in the meantime, was biding her time. She did not want to disturb Kasuga while she was enjoying one of her decadent dishes. As she ate her own plate, she eyed the bigger woman carefully. She had to ease into this gently.
It was almost as if time itself was slowing down from the anticipation, but, eventually, Kasuga had finished off the last of her scraps of food. She thanked her girlfriend for the delicious food, and Nomoto smiled back.
Well, it was now or never…
Before Kasuga could offer to clean up the table, Nomoto interrupted with a quick cough. “Um…Kasuga-san? There’s something I’ve been wondering about.”
Kasuga, curious, sat back down. “What is it?”
“Now, don’t take this the wrong way,” Nomoto bit her lip. The last thing she wanted to do was start rambling away nervously, as she had a tendency to do. “But I just need to know something.”
“Yes?”
“When we…er, well, what I mean is…When we get intimate, are you…enjoying it?”
Kasuga simply stared at Nomoto for a moment – that famously impassive expression of hers – but she did not take long to react. “Of course I do,” she answered back matter-of-factly. “Seeing you happy makes me happy, Nomoto-san.”
Nomoto blushed and rubbed the back of her head. “While I appreciate the sentiment, that’s… not exactly what I was looking for in a response.”
“Huh?”
“I’m glad you make me happy, I really am. But, Kasuga-san…are these things we do what you want to do?” The chair Nomoto was in made an audible scoot as she walked over toward the other woman. “I don’t think I ever recall you suggesting anything or even taking a proper lead. It’s just…I’m worried I’m pushing you to do things you don’t want to do.”
For a few moments, the only sound that could be heard in the apartment was the ticking of a nearby clock. Both women looked into their eyes, wondering what the other was thinking. Eventually, Nomoto was the first to make a move. She calmly raised her arms and outstretched them – a silent request for a hug. With a careful motion, Kasuga raised herself from her seat and nodded.
The embrace was soothing. It always was. Blushing in content, Kasuga slowly felt her arms lower closer to Nomoto’s waistline, and she hesitated for a brief moment. The next thing she knew, Nomoto had placed a hand on her cheek, and shook her head. “It’s alright. Keep it going,” she encouraged.
“Nomoto-san…”
“Kasuga-san,” Nomoto whispered softly, interrupting whatever counter the taller woman was going to give. “Remember what I told you in the past… I want you to be selfish in front of me.”
Kasuga’s blush deepened into a stronger shade of crimson. Everything was happening so fast, but she could not move, not with Nomoto giving her cheek that wondrous caress. Nomoto noticed this as well, and stood on her toes just enough to whisper something into her ear. “What do you want to do, Kasuga-san?”
Hopefully that would help shake the stunned look off her features. It seemed to have worked, as she noticed Kasuga finally making eye contact with her. She smiled in return, trying to keep her at ease. She reminded her that today was her night. She secretly hoped it would be a whole weekend of discovering how Kasuga would prefer to do things, but she would be happy if she would get to see the selfish side of Kasuga for one evening, at least. She followed suit with an apology – she truly felt embarrassed that every night of pleasure has just been based on whatever Nomoto wanted to try out. It was partly her fault for this, too. She also reminded Kasuga about their first time going intimate. She knew her quiet lover had it in her, and she wanted to let her loose, just this once.
“Let me see the selfish Kasuga-san.”
Silence befell the apartment for a brief moment. The clock ticked faintly. The only sound they could hear were their own breathing. The overall atmosphere was tense. Despite that, their embrace remained. Nomoto glanced up at Kasuga, who was avoiding making eye contact this time. Her lover’s lips pursed for a moment in thought. If it were not for the current situation at hand, Nomoto would have found it rather adorable.
“Selfish…huh…”
Nomoto blinked out of her thoughts and returned her gaze back toward Kasuga. The woman’s face was unreadable at first. Upon closer inspection, however, she could see something in those dark eyes. It almost felt like she was watching a fire slowly come to life, a twinkle in those eyes she had, perhaps, only seen two other times: right before they first kissed and the night Kasuga had initially suggested they try more intimate things in bed.
The space between them had been closing in at some point, time was of no importance any more. Soon, Nomoto could feel her lips being surrounded by her lover’s own. It was a short kiss, but it already began to do its magic on the woman. Eyeing the smaller woman in her arms briefly, Kasuga finally leaned into an ear and returned that sensation Nomoto had given her only a few moments prior. “I am not going to hold back…Nomoto-san.”
A cascade of shivers went down her whole body. Nomoto felt her legs tremble under the power of that voice. Fortunately, Kasuga was there to hold onto her. She was so strong and quick to react… Just as she was beginning to swoon over the moment, she suddenly felt herself being lifted off the ground. It was quite startling!
Kasuga had a firm hold on the smaller woman. It almost resembled a bridal carry, if a little sloppy on the execution, but it was obvious that she would make sure not to hurt Nomoto in any way. “Thanks to you, I know many things we can do together. Still…”
“...Y-Yes…?”
“Still, this will be my first, real time.”
“Is that so? I guess, yeah…it would be, huh?”
“But I know what I want. I want to make you happy.”
Nomoto frowned slightly. “Kasuga-san, what did I say–”
“Not in the usual way, no.” By this point, they had arrived at their bedroom, Kasuga gently laying Nomoto down on their bed. When she got a confused look, she added, “What I mean is, that is what I love the most. I love seeing you happy, Nomoto-san.”
“But…”
Kasuga shook her head. “I promise to not hold back. What I do tonight will be my own choices. I want you to feel the way I want to feel you.” She emphasized this with her hand gently cradling Nomoto’s cheek. “I want to say the things I want to say. Nomoto-san…please bare your soul unto me tonight.”
Sometimes, that woman had a way with words. Nomoto could only nod meekly as her face became flushed. Bare her soul… It was very poetic. Was this just another way to say…
Thoughts were, again, cut sharply as Kasuga leaned down and began to kiss Nomoto with more fervor than before. Before she could catch up to her thoughts, Kasuga raised herself just enough to start undressing Nomoto. It was done very slowly and methodically, as if Kasuga was relishing every second of the ordeal. The small flame Nomoto had initially seen in those eyes was burning brighter now.
“Just leave everything to me tonight,” Kasuga relayed in a voice that was much huskier than usual. She moved closer to Nomoto’s face once more and turned to face her ear. “I’ll take care of you…”
Nomoto stifled a moan. Kasuga gently cupped her face. “Don’t hold back,” she cooed. “I want to hear your special song.” That alone caused another moan to escape her lips, but this time she let it go free. Her temperature was beginning to rise, as if that fire in Kasuga’s eyes was spreading over to her own internal flame. This was definitely different than all the other times. That was not to say their previous endeavors were fake or terrible. It was just that, this time, there was something extra alluring about Kasuga playing a true top.
Time no longer existed. The room had gotten darker at some point, yes, but the only darkness Nomoto was fixated on was the looming shadow that was Kasuga as she continued her descent onto her whole being. At some point, she finally became completely bare. Some moment later, Kasuga had undressed herself as well, and she wrapped her arms around her lover firmly, enveloping Nomoto into the void. She was unafraid, though. The firmness of the hug kept her calm, but the kisses Kasuga was laying all over her skin brought her back to an elated sense of tension. Nomoto found herself clutching Kasuga’s shoulders tightly, though it did not faze the other woman in the slightest. In fact, she enjoyed the reaction and emphasized her actions even more.
The fires within the two were burning brighter, finally mingling with one another as their skinship increased. Nomoto had thoroughly given herself up to Kasuga. Just as Kasuga had hoped, Nomoto opened herself right up to her. She had not uttered a single suggestion this time, except for this silent one – the ultimate form of consent.
Please do whatever you wish. I am yours...
Burning brightly, the fires finally danced together under the night sky. They flickered madly, as if they were trying to reach the stars themselves. A faint, carnal song chimed in occasionally, though its frequency increased gradually. It was punctuated with a soft cadence of another voice – this voice easing the original's as long as it could muster. As the flames finally exploded from their powerful charges, two souls shot upward, linked together as they skyrocketed into the heavens.
Daylight peeked through the bedroom’s curtains. Nomoto groggily tried to sit up, only to realize she was stuck under something. Or was it someone? As she adjusted her eyes, she noticed she was stuck within a single-armed embrace. Kasuga laid beside her, sleeping soundly. She looked so cute, sleeping so peacefully...
It was then she noticed the smaller blanket wrapped around her torso. Looking around, she also noted the bed area was neatly cleaned up, but, upon closer inspection, Kasuga herself was completely unclothed.
Had she focused on taking care of Nomoto before herself? Oh, Kasuga, she thought with an audible sigh, you really should take care of yourself, too! Still, she could not help but stare lovingly down at her partner. She promised to not hold back, and she definitely did not. While the details of the evening were foggy, she could still remember the sensations she felt. Those would be cherished for a long time, she was certain of it.
“Hnngh…hmm?”
Nomoto blinked out of her thoughts and smiled back down at the waking woman. “Good morning,” she greeted with a light ring to her tone.
“Oh…Nomoto-san…good morning. Are you feeling alright?”
There she went, not focusing on herself again. “I’d ask you the same thing. I’m fine, I think it’s thanks to you?”
Kasuga nodded. “Right. I made sure to care for you afterward. The clean-up came out of that as well.”
“While I appreciate that, you really should also take care of yourself!”
“Ah…I’m sorry.”
“Don’t worry about it. And thank you. That truly was a wonderful time.” As Kasuga sat up, Nomoto took the time to find some simple clothes for the two to wear. While making their breakfast, they talked about what they wanted to do for the day, with them both agreeing that they probably spent all their intimate energy the night before. That was fine for them, though. There were plenty of other things they could do, and it would be just as fun.
Sometime after finishing their meal, Nomoto cleared her throat, catching Kasuga’s attention. “Listen,” she mumbled, “I know you don’t feel like taking the lead often, but…if you do want to do that again, let me know, okay?”
Kasuga looked at Nomoto for a moment, then smiled. “I will. I promise.”
Curiously, the days seemed to take a warmer hue after that.
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